Snowflake StraySheep / Kayla Marie Waller / morinokunikara / blankshadesgame / vividkiss / VTuber Amour Amandine - Thread #2: The Return of the Transtrender Sperglord Who Tried To Delete Her Thread and Listened to an Adult Have Sex With a Minor. Now With A Baby in the Mix!

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Less than a full day after DFEing, there's posts on her selfship blog again. Once she's done with her tantrum about the "worst community [she's] ever been in," she's going to rejoin and pretend none of that happened, probably within the week. I'm sure the self-shippers miss watching her publicly crash out, make passive-aggressive posts dumping on them, beg for money, and ignore her spouse. I bet they're reeeeaaaally hurting.

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Here's a post she made yesterday with a big paper plate of onigiri - with tuna, so Beth can't have any. I thought maybe Kayla was refusing to go to food banks because the two of them share a kitchen and she was trying to prevent cross-contamination by only stocking up on foods that are safe for Beth. Turns out that even the most charitable interpretation of this was incorrect. She resource guards like an untrained dog so that she can save her cooking and DoorDash for herself.

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All Beth seems capable of eating as far as we know are turkey hotdogs, Cheerios, plain ramen, and Pasta Roni. I really, really hope she's at least taking prenatal vitamins. I suspect that malnutrition is the reason why Beth's teeth are eroded and decayed at such a young age - that and the complete lack of oral hygiene. It looks like she's got white spots forming from demineralization.
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Beth has almost completely left the Internet for privacy reasons and Kayla is publicly bragging about her salary and exact position at the BluePearl Pittsburgh Pet Hospitals, talking about how Beth almost gave birth in late April and needed to have her contractions stopped, letting the exact details of her allergies and eating disorders known, telling us that they've been glazing her cervix with a turkey baster. Beth cannot possibly be okay with this. This would be mortifying for even the most public of figures to have to go through. It's like a weird humiliation thing at this point.

$60,000/year gross for a married person in Freedom, PA is an estimated monthly take home of $4,134 (source), and that's before the cost of employer-sponsored health insurance that they have for themselves and their pets and assuming not a single dime is put into a 401k or other retirement plan (let's be honest, Kayla is bleeding her dry and she will never be able to retire).

Income: $4,134/mo
  • Insurance: Est. $400 through UnitedHealthcare for both of them, est. $46 for the dog and $128 for the cats ($32 x 4 cats)
  • Rent: $900
  • Utilities: ~20% of rent, or $180
  • Internet: Est. $65
  • Gas: Est. $200 (Beth has to drive half an hour to and from work every day)
  • Kayla's therapy: $120 ($30/week)
Total leftover income (as we know it): ~$2,095/mo

There are some minor incidentals here and there I didn't account for - HSA, phone bill, etc., so let's just say total leftover income is around $2,000. I would be interested in knowing how the fuck these two have been managing to rinse through 2 grand every month. Even with $450 taken out of Beth's paycheck monthly and the $220 in Kayla's therapy before they reached their deductible, that still leaves $1,330 for two people in Bumfucksville Pennsylvania for food and other things, which is comfortable. Both of them eat like toddlers, so their food bill has to be nominal (unless they're still shopping at Target).

Beth is probably making about half that amount now and probably won't be working 48 hours a week when she returns, so this is their new normal. No more daily weed habit, alcohol, vapes, merch, and busty anime figurines for Kayla. Maybe she can even think about getting a job considering she's only worked 2 weeks out of the year so far.
 
She's also still turning her main blog into a whine-fest one too in the meantime.

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So of course, she's doing the stupid self-ship shit on her main blog now because she's incapable of actually committing to anything that matters, instead prioritising the stupid shit that makes her miserable. At this point, it's 1000% on purpose because she knows this thread will at least give her acknowledgement that she made something, shitty and thoughtless as it is.

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"So the stuff I love can get more love" there's your problem right there. It's not "so the stuff I love is more well thought-out" or "because I just love sharing the stuff I love". It's "I want more attention". Always has been, I know. It's also telling that ones with "longer" replies generally mean that you care more about them.

That being said, those answers are boring. I don't really care to explain why either, because every explanation undoubtedly has a half-assed excuse for why X or Y. Theil really is a Mary Sue in like... the cringiest, least-appealing way - "oh she's so burdened, oh she's so noble by putting everyone before herself, oh she's clumsy and her wild magic is unpredictable and she doesn't think things through but it's quirky and endearing."
 
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To be fair, they're probably as real as Kayla is trans.
Not denying that. But pregnant women are recommended not to eat tuna because of the mercury content, so in a way it does come off as seemingly deliberately making it so Beth can’t have any rice balls. Which would probably be healthier than anything else she’s been eating up to this point.
I just realized that was in response to a different part of sleep deprived’s post. But my point still stands.
 
And of course, anon brought that up and she had other anons and aNons coming to her defense because why wouldn't they. And, as per usual, they offer no actual criticism, nor do they bring anything new to the table. It's the standard "wow that anon's so rude??" And she replies "NO FRRRRR do these people like. have any hobbies" as if she hasn't spent the last year or several desperately trying to force herself to participate in series of hobbies that couldn't care less about her.

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You know what else happens frequently? You go on hours-long rants complaining that people don't love your dogwater characters as much as you and you throw around "I haven't felt this low in a long time" like every fucking day. Yeah, it's definitely everyone else misconstruing the things you do decide to post when it's all negative because why the fuck would your followers wanna see positive things? Nah, might as well keep bitching and moaning that you'll never been Astarion's No. 1 Fan.

Also I wanted to mention that this anon is right - going into detail and using personal examples of how those questions are worked into the characters' habits and quirks is your best bet. But as usual, there's the half-assed excuse for why she didn't do it.

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I don't think it's so bad that she made tuna rice balls even Beth couldn't have them. If she limited herself to only Beth-safe foods then it would be no wonder she doordashes all the time, she needs to be encouraged to make homemade food like this more often.

But it's top tier comedy that she tried to restart her blog after what, less than a day? and had to frantically pretend it was a URL thief when people called her on it. There's absolutely no way she gave up the blog username when she deleted. People notice your blog, Kayla, they just think it's boring as shit.

Speaking of boring as shit things, I love that she admits she knows her role-play replies are uninspired, short, and boring. She makes all this noise about people "not matching her passion" but they ARE matching it. They're correctly noticing that she barely bothers to reply and engage when people actually do give her attention. But of course her short boring replies are not because she's lazy, uninspired, and entitled, it's because she's so anxious and neglected, guys, it's tragic and not her fault! I would say "never change, Kayla" but I already know she won't.
 
It's not as funny when someone reads this thread then like... word-for-word steals what we say trying to do a "gotcha".

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But I do love me some good ol' "Kayla thinks she's intellectually superiour to other retards" nonsense! Let's dismantle this one, shall we, just in case someone gets any cute ideas about how she may actually be more intelligent or capable of thinking critically than, I dunno, a middle schooler?

You're missing a comma after "okay".
It's "reinstating", not "restating".
The sentence structure is bad, another reminder that you're a poor writer. "If I were to reinstate my blog, wouldn't I use a different URL so that I'm more difficult to find?" *"More difficult" sounds smarter than "less easy"
"To", not "too".
The second sentence is incomplete. I'll assume nothing aside from that you're an idiot who was typing too fast because you had all these "gotchas" lined up in whatever's left functioning in your five-watt brain to actually edit whatever you wrote. Obviously.

It's "reinstating", not "restating". The fact that you used the wrong word twice with such confidence lends credence to your lack of ability to write efficiently and intelligently.

Your sentence structure is bad again. "...why would one of the only two posts be an original post trying to mock me..."

You left out "here" after "Theil".

Trying to intellectually grandstand to anon hate by making a bunch of mistakes as you mock them isn't the own you think it is, Kayla.

Also all of those questions have pretty easy answers.
1. You also used to hold a job easier and be less financially irresponsible so who knows what's going on in your shriveled fig of a brain anymore.
2. Because those take time and effort and you could've been trying to test the waters to see if anyone would call you out for REINSTATING your blog before putting in all that effort.
3. You use self-deprecating humour and "jokes" (especially when it comes to asking rhetorical questions and making passive-aggressive comments that you stole from us/anons (unless you completely fabricate them because you're also notorious for interpreting the absolute worst parts of a coherent thought or comment) all the time, posting something like that isn't outside your wheelhouse at all.
4. Because when a Tumblr blog is deleted, all followers are automatically taken off so that blog wouldn't have any followers on it anyway. You know you have a couple of people who will still throw you a bone with your stupid Theil asks on your main blog so it makes sense to ask on there instead of on the other one where everyone would have to refollow it.

For the record, I don't think she was the one who started it back up. I do think it's funny that she thinks she's important enough to have a laundry list of potential suspects for who it could've been since she's so good at making enemies who exist purely to see her suffer (read: narcissist) but ultimately, it doesn't matter because she's turning her main blog into a similar bitchfest of OC asks, venting and getting anon hate.
 
I cannae edit so have a double post where I'm just recording her whinging on her main blog about how "nothing helps" and "everyone else solve my problems for me except for the part where I flat-out refuse to acknowledge that I'm the problem."

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This is the end goal. There isn't a solution because you don't want there to be one. You're so addicted to being a lonely outsider victim that you ram your head against any actual solutions because that would take away something for you to complain endlessly about.

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There isn't a solution because you aren't creative enough to fix these problems. You lack creativity, inspiration, and individuality. You can't create these things because the reasoning behind them is twisted and rotten and is smothered by "engagement" and "needing attention/validation from other people".

In other words... yes. You are just stupid. You are worthless, you provide no value to any community you desperately want to be put on a pedestal on. People can try to help you to the point of exhaustion and compassion fatigue and you'll completely ignore every single thing that others say because you're simply too stupid to grow up, learn, change and graduate from being a perpetual victim.

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She got... fanart. I like it because it really encapsulates how much of a shitstain Theil looks like.

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She also got into a brief argument with anons because when she might get the wrong idea, she assumes everyone else will get the wrong idea. Today's flavour is "gay slang".

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Also what's wrong with "ageing up the South Park kids", isn't that what retards like you make them do when they want to ship their shit?

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And she's being racist again but that's not new. I'm reminded of when her aunt on her mom's side of the family died and she made it all about her. That was a lot of effort for a "dreadfully white" person.

Apparently Beth is due here in... what'd we guess, June/July? I'm really glad she's spending this time on fucking Tumblr bitching that her fictional crushes don't love her and that she's not imaginative and/or creative enough to solve her own problems instead of spending her last moments of peace and quiet with her wife before their lives are changed FOREVER. ...Or at least until the child is rescued by someone.

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And yet, she still acts like getting a job is just something that she can go out and do and that her resume isn't completely fucked.

I guess since she tard-quit her FO blog, she ended up getting the 220 she needed for therapy elsewhere. Probably from parents or other family members. Sure glad she decided to shoot all her jobs in the foot because she doesn't think she needs to shut up and suck it up for the sake of making money to support her disabled ass, not to mention her munchie wife and unborn child.

And of course, the second Beth tries to help her with her infuriatingly unsolvable problems (not because she hasn't received more than enough solutions, but because she's too retarded and narcissistic to believe that she might need to... I dunno, fucking cope and learn new shit), she decides to vent about her to her followers, too.

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Great wife material, she is. Typical lesbian.

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...Beth needs to tard wrangle her womanchild. Imagine you're about to give birth to an actual newborn and your 29-YEAR-OLD WIFE is screaming and pitching a complete and utter FIT because she's too incompetent to literally PLAY MAKE-BELIEVE.

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....Oh wait, I think I know what might be happening. She's having a nuclear meltdown because this is one of her last opportunities to make a big life event all about her before she'll have to share Beth's attention with something even more dependent on her.

Sorry guys, I know this is long. I started this post before work and I'm just now getting around to wrapping it up.
 
There is so much to unpack here. The equating saying “simp” because it’s Le black speak with giving minors access to NSFW channels. Thinking people will mistake her for a gay man when she’s clearly a woman. Feeling physical pain over not being able to make believe. Literally being unable to use anything to try and visualize her ships because it’s not “connecting” or “comforting” enough. Whining about Beth “not getting it”, berating her wife she loves so much guiz yet again. It’s a train wreck that you wish you could look away from but you can’t.
At least the fanart is exactly the quality she deserves. I like armless Astarion up there, it’s kinda giving that one fetus meme drawing.
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Speaking of fetuses, I’m once again pretty sure that poor baby is going to be neglected for the sake of Kayla’s addiction. Bitch whines so much she repeatedly breaks the 250 daily post limit by sheer bitching. I struggle to think of a cow more pathetic.
 
Sorry guys, I know this is long. I started this post before work and I'm just now getting around to wrapping it up.
Do not apologize; this is grade-A milk!

She has what I imagine is less followers on her main blog, and probably next to no followers on her posting limit blog, so she's getting even less engagement when she's having one of her freakouts, and the lack of engagement is making her freak out even more. It's great to see. And as usual, she's freaking tf out over what is essentially nothing. Self-created problems that are only problems because she wants them to be. The solutions are obvious, but she's so lacking in any modicum of drive and personal responsibility that seeing these solutions laid out for her is a deep insult that causes her to FREAK OUT even more.

"Just write" is 101 advice for getting oneself to write. The point of it is to make the action of writing less arduous over time. Of course that initial step of just writing is difficult, which is why they tell you to just write without worrying about the actual content at all. Write a bunch of stream-of-consciousness BS until you finally build up the wtiting stamina to write something with substance. Which you're then supposed to edit the shit out of anyway. Of course, Kayla's biggest difficulty, next to a lack of personal responsibility, is that she doesn't read, so she literally doesn't even know what substantial writing looks like.

What I really like is how she, as a now self-admitted lesbian, is afraid of people assuming she's a gay man when she used to have a blog called "fagcrush," with a screenshot of an anon calling her out on that posted to the top of that blog in order to shame that anon. Now that she's accepted that she's not a genderspecial or a non-transitioned trans man, but instead a garden variety lesbian, she's worried that people will get the wrong idea, when previously she was going out of her way to give people the wrong idea for years.
 
Gorl, what are you even ASKING for? Aside from the obvious answer of "attention".

I'm curious of Kayla is one of those people that genuinely doesn't have the ability to visualize things in her head- but at the same time she's not reading books, consuming diverse media, doing...you know...anything at all. She's not actively stoking the creative flames. I'd suggest to anyone struggling with writing that journaling about even the most mundane part of your day is helpful but when your whole day is "I had a meltdown on Tumblr and ate ramen (with soy sauce)" you have literally nothing to work with.
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She can't even being herself to sit down and just watch some random free movie on Youtube? They do in fact have free streaming on rotation, you can watch tubi or pluto, even peacock is a free application since she's such a lazy fuck she can't walk to her goddamn computer to just pirate something with adblocker on. You can even read PDFs for free on the Internet Archive if you have an account and need it to rent something for an hour.

why specifically does she need to be instructed on what to watch? Does it really even matter if you're allegedly that desperate for some gray matter tickling? Or is it merely the thrill of baiting some well-meaning anons into advising you only for you to reject it with "well erm ackshually I can't because this and that". People need to stop rewarding her weaponized incompetence by taking the bait. It has to be bait. I refuse to believe this retarded hag's independence is truly that low through no fault of her own.
 
why specifically does she need to be instructed on what to watch? Does it really even matter if you're allegedly that desperate for some gray matter tickling?
“I mean. It can’t have boring problematic straight people. And it can’t be triggering. And I need to project Thiel and Astarion on the characters. And I need there to be scenes where one is comforting the other. And-“
 
Beth (WHO IS ABOUT TO HAVE A CHILD, KEEP IN MIND) had to calm down her completely self-centered wife by offering to give her some extra money (WHEN THEY ARE ABOUT TO HAVE A CHILD) to spent on stupid shit like children's bracelets and that goddamn commission she DESPERATELY needs or she's gonna KILL HERSELF.

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Some anons also chimed in on her posting limit blog. Of course, since Kayla can't read, she misinterpreted one of them and is, again, attempting to sound intellectually superiour.

Regarding the first one, I thought the entire point of aging up minors (South Park, literally any show with child characters, etc) was because they like the character but don't want to ship with an 11yo. I know this is a stupid thing to get caught up on but she's so vehemently anti- that I don't understand what the basis of her tard rage is at this juncture. Is it because the people who ship with SP characters are aging them up from eight to 11 so they're still minors or are they aging the characters up to 18+? Because one of those completely erases the problem she's yelling about and she's just committing to the bit of protecting minors that don't exist when she listened in to a real adult having sex with a real minor so she obviously doesn't give an actual fuck about the real ones.

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She then reset her posting limit and responded to anons on her main. Included is anon responses and general whining on her own.

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Not this one, though. It's because this is one of the most egregious series of lies that've dribbled from her recently.

1. You aren't embarrassed. If you were, you'd be less public about them.
2. You can say you're working on your "meltdowns" all you want but you aren't working very hard on them at all. It's evident.
3. Part of the problems you have in general is that you're aware of strategies but you are incapable of actually learning so you don't employ them, especially when you fucking need to.
4. You've been throwing these tantrums on a near-daily basis, which is decidedly worse than the weeks/months you've gone between them before. You've regressed, and not in a "childhood trauma" way because you have doormat Beth who constantly enables your shithead behaviour.

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Also this one (just in case she decides to think that I'm also incapable of reading so I'm part of the "ppl online are gonna believe what they want ig" crowd), wherein she actually manages to activate a thought in her brain and alter her answer so that it's logical. That being said, having your miniature laundry list of reasons why you kept leaving servers and they include but aren't limited to "people aging up child characters", "using AAVE when you're gatekeeping who should get to use words" and "allowing minors to access NSFW content" and all of them being seemingly legitimate reasons to burn these bridges you're screaming and desperately wanting to rejoin the communities of gives everyone the idea that it's definitely a "you" problem because they aren't equal.

Minors were given access to NSFW channels with no barriers or thought. You left the group.
Someone aged up a minor character so they could ship with them. You left the group.
Someone used words you don't think they should've been using. You left the group.

ONE of those is an actual reason why a group is bad. (and I'm of the idea that minors shouldn't be allowed online because they fucking ruin it for everyone else by turning spaces into places just for them). The other two are you being a control freak and incapable of interacting with people who aren't exactly like you so you're pretending that it's an "all these groups are terrible" idea when it's your own inability to fucking deal with shit that caused you to leave.
 
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