Smoke hash then. I smoke it every nite as soon as I am off work. It isn't like grass, weed, MJ etc. in that I find those get me high and I want to paint my house. Twice.
Hash makes me melt in the couch and listen to Pink Floyd. I think if you can get some good Afghani or Moroccan hashish, you should try a bowl of that and I think you will find it gives you a nice hum, rather than paranoia and a feeling like you want to climb walls. etc.
There is a difference between being high (weed) and being stoned (hashish). I'd bet a dollar if you smoked some hash you'd like the buzz.
I was one of those who posted back when your thread first started and I followed your blog as well. Like has been said before, you aren't a lolcow, just eccentric like most of us here! HAHAHA I enjoyed your reviews, even though I am not a burger guy!
Have fun here, people will talk to you and engage you which can break the loneliness when you feel it. Just don't go the route of guys like SolidMario and be a huge asshole in your thread. There are many idiots who have threads here and who post in them and save for rare folks like you and the dude that fucks his car and Jennfer J etc., they get rightfully slapped down. We have lots of people to pick on and make fun of, you don't need to be one of them.
Anyway, hope all going well for you man.