I’ve been trying to figure out what to say.Why did you keep dodging my messages and concerns. When I wanted to do 1 o 1’s, you kept dodging or you gave me a short corporate answer. Even when I was under immense pressure from the community for answers about the auditions and I pleaded for a statement by your PR team, you told me it wasn’t needed, you made a tiny video instead, looking like you were hurt and upset, saying sorry, instead of meeting me 1 on 1 for my concerns and I was left crying and frustrated, but like a fucking dog, I went back and happy to even get something from you cause oh man, boss actually answered me. You wanted one finally when you knew everything was crashing around you. Then debuting new talents and such even after the community kept asking about it and kept waving it off and letting me take the punches. I smiled. I fucking brushed it off and kept pushing the company cause I was hopeful for new talent and bringing new people to help. Instead I find you were hiring people without input and poaching without even the idea of truly helping them other then financial gain. We didn’t even know who you were bringing in. You and the team told us to just take it. You and some people were really ready for me to be thrown under over and over. Even when Amalee joined, I begged you to put out a statement regarding auditions before she announced her debut stream. You gave us the middle finger. Me and Amalee had to put out a statement cause your PR team was unfit for their job. I took it all. Why did we have to say anything at all, why did I have to keep taking the fucking damage over and over. You were hurting me well before this. You know you have. I’ve been pushing a company so blindly who didn’t even care for me. But I’m an idiot and I kept believing. I was so excited for this. I spent sleepless nights dealing with constant harassment. And you spent money which you didn’t even have without even warning us on god knows what, and you knew, don’t even lie, you knew that money was for charity and was supposed to be placed to the side to be untouched. Where did 11 million dollars go in less then 3 years even. What happened to all that money. I’m just really tired from all these years of trying to push for something that kept pushing me to the wolves.I was so stupid. But I was so excited.I really trusted you. We all did. Despite everything, I don’t wish you any ill will.I just hope you find some way to make this right.