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- Sep 9, 2021
That Alpha Male CEO fic that had the alpha male get jealous of his own son for getting breastfed at the grand old age of five is, at long last, reaching the finish line. Lines for this fic include:
- He was something else entirely. Something dangerous. Someone you did not want to provoke. A true alpha.
> Had no idea how he would've explained to Benji that his daddy had been torn to shreds by his childhood friends
Say it was an Attenborough documentary: ALPHA MALE SLUT GETS TORN APART BY ANGRY WOMEN, RACE WAR NOW
> He looked ridiculously attractive sitting there
> It stirred far too many emotions, none of them appropriate
> Imagines what he would look like with a newborn on his hip vs the five-year-old he got envious of for sucking on those titties
Is your innate need to breed tickling your lizard brain? Are you seeking out a penis owner and their virile, ripe sperm to pump it right into your velvet, hot womb? Why, it sounds like you are engaging in the reproductive strategy the entire human race has engaged in. Craving a MALE cock and not a cocklette is very discriminatory towards small penises. You should fix your preferences.
> They'd have to make one first. And Jayce was good at that
He stuck his dick and came inside you in the first place because of your virginity; he was so overcome with lust and conquest there was no way he was pulling out. He was hitting that hot, velvet womb like the planes hit the towers.
> How he didn't just climb onto the table and beg Jayce to take him right there, in front of everyone, as many times as he wanted
1. He'd have to fight off other alphas because it'd be one giant rape festival
2. You literally can't climb. The table legs are thicker than those twigs of yours.
> Let's jut hope more mommies don't start lining up for our stallion
> His voice dropped into a low, dangerous growl
A real YOU SPAYED MY MATE! moment (also from an omegaverse novel, go figure). Of course, Vi is right, here: he was busy fucking around and never finding out, and the minute he found out he had a mixed race mutt, suddenly the devoted father comes through. I wonder how many omegaverse STDs he was carrying in that smegma.
> He was something else entirely, something dangerous. Someone you did not want to provoke. A true alpha
Oh I'm sure the veins were bulging in his neck and his eyes turned red and he was minutes away from turning into Samson from 28 Years Later. I swear, you could replace Jayce with Samson and nothing with change, albeit Samson can't help ripping spines out of people's bodies. Jayce is a slut because 'it's just biology, bro'.
> I don't spend much time around omegas
The 'I don't spend much time around coloureds', omegaverse edition. It's cool to hurl out slurs when you're an alpha.
> The prettiest face in the world
The face (and body):
> Jayce can be a moron, but I've known him since we were pups, and I know he's a good man
We have the classic 'female best friend cops for male friend's bad behaviour to sell him to another woman' trope on display. I guess we forgot how he was a male slut in the first place because he believed it was his right to fuck as many omegas as he wanted because he legitimately saw them as penetrable holes, not people. His own mother feared his behaviour until that was retconned because 'at least he didn't beat her' like his father did.
> I've seen a lot of his conquests.
Another trope, this time the 'He's fucked so many people but you're The One'. We are expected to believe a misogynist will be 'tamed' by fatherhood and learns the error of his ways to embrace monogamous, conservative, traditional views of marriage. Men like him end up paying for fetish models and wear fake tits in their selfies.
Can't help but notice that CaitVi are always used as faghags in these stories. They cheer, encourage and celebrate these awful people, going so far as to ignore the blatant red flags so our 'mommy omega' here can get a devoted DILF. It's annoying as hell.
> There was nothing they could do about it
Hire the omegaverse version of Jared Kushner. He'll get it done.
> That was something he refused to admit. Even in his own thoughts
This happens in every chapter: he thinks he's unworthy and an ugly duckling who shouldn't get the hot alpha male in his bed. Doesn't that alpha male know there are busty babes waiting for his babies? Let's ham up the Taylor Swiftication some more.
> Smiling like an idiot in love, which, unfortunately, he was
So why are you denying it? Oh, right: because this ugly duckling fears rejection from this alpha male caveman.
> Fatherhood suited Jayce far too well
> It was ridiculous how much more appealing it made him
Oh wow, it's almost as if your female reproductive organs are craving to be fertilized and do the job they are meant to do. You're not a person, but an incubator; we respect feminism and omega rights so much a chunk of the plot is how a single mom wants to get fucked into the mattress by a well-hung Latino and shit out his babies.
> That he might want Viktor, not just as the mother of his pup, but as an omega to be desired
> Seconds later he admits Jayce hasn't done much to support that hope and ever since he got jealous of his own fucking child he's been avoiding him
Here's that Taylor Swiftification. It's been there in every chapter. Can't you see this ugly duckling wants to be loved?
> Jayce must have realized it simply wasn't worth it - getting involved with someone like Viktor
You have said this since chapter fucking five. Every single one is about how he can't be loved but also how he wants to be picked, because won't someone love a boney chicken wing like him?
Then, when he gets what he wants and Jayce begins avoiding him and stops sending him gifts, he gets upset. Talk about stereotypes.
Yes, you ARE stupid. One moment you want to get fucked into the mattress and shit out more babies because this man is SOOO attractive and SOOO hunky and SOOO muscular and SOOO father-like you want to get bred like an animal in heat; in the next, you moan about how he's not paying you any attention despite wanting a professional relationship only? Pick a goddamn lane.
> Attend an alpha male's birthday party
> People assume you, and not him, are the slut and want to baby trap him
> Ignore the fact you are a single mother and you don't even ask for child support
Wow, being an omega sucks total ass, huh?
> Hadn't realized Mel and Elora were that close
No matter how hard you try, Jayviks don't like Melora. They just want her out of the way. Mel even gets blamed for some 'bad thoughts' when all she did was try to help him.
> Looking beautiful in his mother's garden
ARYAN WOMAN IN A WHEAT FIELD ALERT! WHOA, BUDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYY
> Omega does not accept the compliment
> Assumes the black woman is insulting him
> Black woman clarifies that the man he's in love with is a fuckboy, but that he has 'changed'
> Still interprets it as an insult
Mel might be black, but this omega is spiritually a nigger, acting like he's been 'disrespected' after basic facts were told to his face.
> He didn't feel anything for me before, he doesn't feel anything now, and he never will
I wonder how this author is going to explain away the fact that Jayce got jealous of his own five-year-old son for sucking on flat tits. Because that's an egregious thing to write, if you ask me. Absolutely horrifying.
> When it was so painfully obvious there wasn't - and never would be
Here we go with the Taylor Swiftification again - although later in the chapter, he starts turning into Blake Lively.
> What could be more pathetic than hearing - from someone who barely knew him - that the man he had feelings for might feel the same
All Mel did was tell you that he was a fuckboy. That's it. She said that he couldn't stop yapping about his Aryan Woman in a Wheat Field and you're doompilling? Then you can just die alone, bitch.
This was fucking WILD to read. Earlier, we had Ximena say she wasn't racist because she wanted 'tamer' babies compared to what Jayce was, and now we have a pair of women saying that the kid looks 'too Latino and that the father must have been a junkie. It's one of those progshit whoopsie moments where they reveal they are racist as fuck. What do you mean that Latinos are junkies? What do you mean that the kid looks the wrong race and needs a DNA test to prove paternity?
> Insists they are male and uses male pronouns
> Runs to a private bedroom/bathroom to cry
Every time.
> He turned, took the stairs two at a time
He can't. Did we forget that his man is disabled?
> I can't do this anymore
You can't say that when we've got two chapters left. We still have reconciliatory sex to go through!
> I started thinking that maybe there could be something between us
Of course Ximena wants that. She'll get those BLEACHED babies at long last.
> He's an amazing father
He's a sexist with borderline personality disorder. He needs to be spayed and neutered.
> He's polite. Kind. And completely indifferent
He got jealous of your own five-year-old son for being breastfed.
> I'm a respected scientist and I am crying at a birthday party like some hormonal teenager. Do you have any idea how pathetic that is?
Yeah. It's super fucking pathetic. You're a grown ass adult - and, supposedly, a MAN - so act like one.
> Afraid he'd turn into his father. Afraid he'd hurt you
He still did turn into his father, albeit it was emotional abuse and not physical abuse. The jealousy over his own son, though? That's entering child murder territory.
> He never was. Hot-headed , yes, but never violent
> Admits her son can hurt him in other ways
You don't fucking say.
> Says her son would make an amazing father
> A few sentences later admits he is not made for relationships
> A sentence after that, says he found his omega that will be with him until the end of his life
Fucking incredible. One one hand, we got a half-Latino baby who only speaks Spanish and doesn't respond to white people language who, at first appearance, makes people think he was sired by a junkie. On the other, we have Taylor Swift and Blake Lively merged into a single character, forming the perfect case of self-victimization and intolerable attitude. This uwu dainty omega is an energy vampire, and more mixed race junkie babies are not going to fix that.
Big Rigs: Over the Ho has a new update, and it's all about the worst thing a human can endure: dysphoria surrounding menstruation. Men can have vaginas and be proud of their workings - sometimes.
Our bougie bookstore AU has had a big update.
This reads like a personal diary entry than anything creative. This is more of a background story to one published in October, where a lil egg gets cracked and finds out that no, her husband didn't marry a straight woman - he married a gay man!
> Sits in the car
> Contemplates her Long Way Down moment
> It's all because her husband won't accept her as a True and Honest Man
Amazin'. The original story was filled with this. It's 'A Little Life: Trans Edition,' reading more like the author's personal life and how she wants to kiss the bottom of a bridge.
> You still didn't die
> Disappointed by a suicide attempt they didn't even try
You can't even be a man with your suicide attempts. Sad!
> Admires her husband
> Husband admits there's nothing to admire about them
Holy fuck. What an admission to make. Though, can you blame him when your wife is an energy vampire?
I appreciate how the husband's reaction to increased libido and suicidal tendencies is 'Don't do that'. It's just a blasé attitude to a wife clearly struggling with manic depression and suicidal thoughts. I don't remember if 'Nat' here is on anti-depressants, but they're not on any happy pills, I'll tell you that.
> What a horrible wife you make. Ready and willing to service him one moment, selfish and cruel the next
There's your problem: you want to be a tradwife but you're popping too many Xanaxes and not enough valiums. In order to make your man appreciate you, you have to do one thing: convince him you're a gay man and get him to approach you on a man's terms.
> What is there to love
He has to convince himself he's a gay man for fucking pussy. I'd say there isn't much love there at all, just delusion.
> You're amazing. You're kind
You just said you don't admire your wife, lmao. He also has such a 'I don't care' attitude to his wife's clearly energy-draining depressive episodes that one wonders what drugs he's on to be so chipper.
> Writes a whole fic about how a woman is extremely suicidal to the point they wonder if they can Long Way Down off of any high surface
> Has the husband 'come out' as gay along with the wife
> Says to send this 'man' a transgender quiz
To be transgender is to be suicidal and drain the life force of everyone around you until they submit to their whims. This ain't me saying it, it's their candid confessions.
- He was something else entirely. Something dangerous. Someone you did not want to provoke. A true alpha.
> Had no idea how he would've explained to Benji that his daddy had been torn to shreds by his childhood friends
Say it was an Attenborough documentary: ALPHA MALE SLUT GETS TORN APART BY ANGRY WOMEN, RACE WAR NOW
> He looked ridiculously attractive sitting there
> It stirred far too many emotions, none of them appropriate
> Imagines what he would look like with a newborn on his hip vs the five-year-old he got envious of for sucking on those titties
Is your innate need to breed tickling your lizard brain? Are you seeking out a penis owner and their virile, ripe sperm to pump it right into your velvet, hot womb? Why, it sounds like you are engaging in the reproductive strategy the entire human race has engaged in. Craving a MALE cock and not a cocklette is very discriminatory towards small penises. You should fix your preferences.
> They'd have to make one first. And Jayce was good at that
He stuck his dick and came inside you in the first place because of your virginity; he was so overcome with lust and conquest there was no way he was pulling out. He was hitting that hot, velvet womb like the planes hit the towers.
> How he didn't just climb onto the table and beg Jayce to take him right there, in front of everyone, as many times as he wanted
1. He'd have to fight off other alphas because it'd be one giant rape festival
2. You literally can't climb. The table legs are thicker than those twigs of yours.
> Let's jut hope more mommies don't start lining up for our stallion
> His voice dropped into a low, dangerous growl
A real YOU SPAYED MY MATE! moment (also from an omegaverse novel, go figure). Of course, Vi is right, here: he was busy fucking around and never finding out, and the minute he found out he had a mixed race mutt, suddenly the devoted father comes through. I wonder how many omegaverse STDs he was carrying in that smegma.
> He was something else entirely, something dangerous. Someone you did not want to provoke. A true alpha
Oh I'm sure the veins were bulging in his neck and his eyes turned red and he was minutes away from turning into Samson from 28 Years Later. I swear, you could replace Jayce with Samson and nothing with change, albeit Samson can't help ripping spines out of people's bodies. Jayce is a slut because 'it's just biology, bro'.
> I don't spend much time around omegas
The 'I don't spend much time around coloureds', omegaverse edition. It's cool to hurl out slurs when you're an alpha.
> The prettiest face in the world
The face (and body):
> Jayce can be a moron, but I've known him since we were pups, and I know he's a good man
We have the classic 'female best friend cops for male friend's bad behaviour to sell him to another woman' trope on display. I guess we forgot how he was a male slut in the first place because he believed it was his right to fuck as many omegas as he wanted because he legitimately saw them as penetrable holes, not people. His own mother feared his behaviour until that was retconned because 'at least he didn't beat her' like his father did.
> I've seen a lot of his conquests.
Another trope, this time the 'He's fucked so many people but you're The One'. We are expected to believe a misogynist will be 'tamed' by fatherhood and learns the error of his ways to embrace monogamous, conservative, traditional views of marriage. Men like him end up paying for fetish models and wear fake tits in their selfies.
Can't help but notice that CaitVi are always used as faghags in these stories. They cheer, encourage and celebrate these awful people, going so far as to ignore the blatant red flags so our 'mommy omega' here can get a devoted DILF. It's annoying as hell.
> There was nothing they could do about it
Hire the omegaverse version of Jared Kushner. He'll get it done.
> That was something he refused to admit. Even in his own thoughts
This happens in every chapter: he thinks he's unworthy and an ugly duckling who shouldn't get the hot alpha male in his bed. Doesn't that alpha male know there are busty babes waiting for his babies? Let's ham up the Taylor Swiftication some more.
> Smiling like an idiot in love, which, unfortunately, he was
So why are you denying it? Oh, right: because this ugly duckling fears rejection from this alpha male caveman.
> Fatherhood suited Jayce far too well
> It was ridiculous how much more appealing it made him
Oh wow, it's almost as if your female reproductive organs are craving to be fertilized and do the job they are meant to do. You're not a person, but an incubator; we respect feminism and omega rights so much a chunk of the plot is how a single mom wants to get fucked into the mattress by a well-hung Latino and shit out his babies.
> That he might want Viktor, not just as the mother of his pup, but as an omega to be desired
> Seconds later he admits Jayce hasn't done much to support that hope and ever since he got jealous of his own fucking child he's been avoiding him
Here's that Taylor Swiftification. It's been there in every chapter. Can't you see this ugly duckling wants to be loved?
> Jayce must have realized it simply wasn't worth it - getting involved with someone like Viktor
You have said this since chapter fucking five. Every single one is about how he can't be loved but also how he wants to be picked, because won't someone love a boney chicken wing like him?
Then, when he gets what he wants and Jayce begins avoiding him and stops sending him gifts, he gets upset. Talk about stereotypes.
Yes, you ARE stupid. One moment you want to get fucked into the mattress and shit out more babies because this man is SOOO attractive and SOOO hunky and SOOO muscular and SOOO father-like you want to get bred like an animal in heat; in the next, you moan about how he's not paying you any attention despite wanting a professional relationship only? Pick a goddamn lane.
> Attend an alpha male's birthday party
> People assume you, and not him, are the slut and want to baby trap him
> Ignore the fact you are a single mother and you don't even ask for child support
Wow, being an omega sucks total ass, huh?
> Hadn't realized Mel and Elora were that close
No matter how hard you try, Jayviks don't like Melora. They just want her out of the way. Mel even gets blamed for some 'bad thoughts' when all she did was try to help him.
> Looking beautiful in his mother's garden
ARYAN WOMAN IN A WHEAT FIELD ALERT! WHOA, BUDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYY
> Omega does not accept the compliment
> Assumes the black woman is insulting him
> Black woman clarifies that the man he's in love with is a fuckboy, but that he has 'changed'
> Still interprets it as an insult
Mel might be black, but this omega is spiritually a nigger, acting like he's been 'disrespected' after basic facts were told to his face.
> He didn't feel anything for me before, he doesn't feel anything now, and he never will
I wonder how this author is going to explain away the fact that Jayce got jealous of his own five-year-old son for sucking on flat tits. Because that's an egregious thing to write, if you ask me. Absolutely horrifying.
> When it was so painfully obvious there wasn't - and never would be
Here we go with the Taylor Swiftification again - although later in the chapter, he starts turning into Blake Lively.
> What could be more pathetic than hearing - from someone who barely knew him - that the man he had feelings for might feel the same
All Mel did was tell you that he was a fuckboy. That's it. She said that he couldn't stop yapping about his Aryan Woman in a Wheat Field and you're doompilling? Then you can just die alone, bitch.
This was fucking WILD to read. Earlier, we had Ximena say she wasn't racist because she wanted 'tamer' babies compared to what Jayce was, and now we have a pair of women saying that the kid looks 'too Latino and that the father must have been a junkie. It's one of those progshit whoopsie moments where they reveal they are racist as fuck. What do you mean that Latinos are junkies? What do you mean that the kid looks the wrong race and needs a DNA test to prove paternity?
> Insists they are male and uses male pronouns
> Runs to a private bedroom/bathroom to cry
Every time.
> He turned, took the stairs two at a time
He can't. Did we forget that his man is disabled?
> I can't do this anymore
You can't say that when we've got two chapters left. We still have reconciliatory sex to go through!
> I started thinking that maybe there could be something between us
Of course Ximena wants that. She'll get those BLEACHED babies at long last.
> He's an amazing father
He's a sexist with borderline personality disorder. He needs to be spayed and neutered.
> He's polite. Kind. And completely indifferent
He got jealous of your own five-year-old son for being breastfed.
> I'm a respected scientist and I am crying at a birthday party like some hormonal teenager. Do you have any idea how pathetic that is?
Yeah. It's super fucking pathetic. You're a grown ass adult - and, supposedly, a MAN - so act like one.
> Afraid he'd turn into his father. Afraid he'd hurt you
He still did turn into his father, albeit it was emotional abuse and not physical abuse. The jealousy over his own son, though? That's entering child murder territory.
> He never was. Hot-headed , yes, but never violent
> Admits her son can hurt him in other ways
You don't fucking say.
> Says her son would make an amazing father
> A few sentences later admits he is not made for relationships
> A sentence after that, says he found his omega that will be with him until the end of his life
Fucking incredible. One one hand, we got a half-Latino baby who only speaks Spanish and doesn't respond to white people language who, at first appearance, makes people think he was sired by a junkie. On the other, we have Taylor Swift and Blake Lively merged into a single character, forming the perfect case of self-victimization and intolerable attitude. This uwu dainty omega is an energy vampire, and more mixed race junkie babies are not going to fix that.
Big Rigs: Over the Ho has a new update, and it's all about the worst thing a human can endure: dysphoria surrounding menstruation. Men can have vaginas and be proud of their workings - sometimes.
Viktor wakes up from his long ass nap right when they're about to enter Iowa. Jayce nearly had to pull his rig over to make sure the kid was OK, but all is well - he's just a heavy sleeper, and he's spent most of his nights on the cold, wet cement. Scratch that, all is NOT well, because as soon as Viktor wakes up, the worst thing imaginable happens: he's cramping, and that's not a good thing for a trans man to endure. Aunt Flo is such a goddamn TERF.
"Tranny" is the last slur I'd call you, but I can say it's warranted. He's a prostitute who uses his vagina as currency and then has the nerve to get angry at the one man who offered him help. Pooners are like mini-pit bulls in that they will act all loving and docile one moment, and then snap as soon as they hear a loud noise.
> I can open doors, asshole, I'm not an invalid
You were acting like one. Here you are crying one minute about how helpless you are that you got your period and now you're acting sassy. This is supposed to be the moment they start connecting, what with the 'big yaoi hand touching that white skin' moment.
> You're awfully dense if you think this Tylenol is going to touch my pain
What, you want him to get you some fent so you can pass out like George Floyd?
Yes, we have our CaitVi scenes, because we need some lesbian rep on top of this - ahem - MLM rep.
Cait, meanwhile, is very much the dutiful wife, cooking in the kitchen, apron and all. She invites them in for dinner, inviting Viktor in like he's a member of the family. Our sassy teenage prostitute is now mum and shy. Jayce is asked to fetch his duffel bag and bring it to the guest room where he will stay the night. Cait asks Jayce how his daughter is doing; he replies that she is 15 and he wants her to learn how to drive his truck. Cait says that he hopes he doesn't intend for her to drive the rig, which Jayce laughs off. Her mother wouldn't allow it, and he has a truck at home. Vi snorts, saying his simple truck is a rusty piece of shit. Jayce laughingly asks if it's a 'pile-on-Jayce day', before noticing that Viktor has eaten everything on his plate, even quietly asking for seconds. He tells him there's a shower connected to the guest room and that he's free to leave the dinner table.
Once Viktor leaves, Vi asks what business he has bringing a prostitute with him into her home. Caitlyn scolds her at her tone, before asking Jayce how long Viktor has been with him. When he says he's been with him since Indiana, and plans to take him to Seattle, it's her turn to act shocked. Both women are ready to lay into him when Jayce hits Vi with a gut punch: she has no room to judge because she used to pay for lot lizards when she was single. She blanches, saying 'that's different' and 'that was years ago'. Jayce agrees, and tells her to shut her mouth about Viktor. He does not reappear in the kitchen.
In his guestroom, Jayce finds it difficult to sleep. The grandfather clock is pissing him off; he prefers the ambient rumble of his truck's engine. He slips on his shoes and goes outside for a cigarette, enjoying the quiet. Viktor then appears, and Jayce apologizes to him for the way the women were acting (cis lesbians, am I right?). They head to a trailer to smoke some weed.
> They don't know what the hell they're talking about
Those cis lesbians don't know what it's like to be trans! Fucking bigots!
> The owl's call harmonizes with the chirp of crickets
That would imply the owl is hooting in tune with them.
> Eyes latch onto his slender fingers
Keep this in mind because I GUARANTEE that the 'his waist was so small his thumbs met in the middle' will be used.
> Money isn't the only thing I work for
FREE PUSSY FOR WEED
> Jayce climbs up the latter like Viktor weighs nothing
Have you seen him? Carrying a brick would be a heftier task.
> Lived in Massachusetts with his parents
> They get addicted to drugs
> State is in a fentanyl crisis
Yeah, that fits.
> Parents became hardcore drug addicts
> Pin the blame on the trans child instead by somehow sneaking into his school and shoving the drug paraphernalia in his locker
> Only spends two years after cracking an officer's skull with his cane
I guess the 'GET A FEMALE OFFICER NOW!' worked in the end. Was he put in mixed-sex juvie, or was he kept with girls? Last time a pooner like that got shoved into a male space like that (context: this was a mental hospital) they got raped by multiple men.
> They couldn't hold me anymore
The state could still put you on probation, prohibiting you from leaving the state. Assaulting a cop as a trans person only gets you so far. You're lucky he didn't taser you or break you in two.
> I'm like a prime rib, marked down with a bright orange sticker
Nah, you're like a boney chicken breast stuck in a grease fryer and shoved into a KFC bucket meal. Yeah, the food is cheap, but there's no meat on the bone and it tastes like shit.
> Overwhelming. Protective
Look at that. You got the 40-year-old trucker acting all chivalrous. Now he really wants to squeeze your wine-bottle thin waist now!
> Jayce can't take his eyes off Viktor. Too beautiful to look away from
I can't wait for all those descriptions on how those self-harm scars are beautiful and speak of 'profound' mental struggle. He's fucking a skinnier Nicole Ritchie and we're supposed to act like he's peak Rita Hayworth. GTFO.
Those hands are ready to meet that skinny waist where his thumbs meet in the middle. He's gonna send him to buttsex heaven, sexy poops and all.
"Tranny" is the last slur I'd call you, but I can say it's warranted. He's a prostitute who uses his vagina as currency and then has the nerve to get angry at the one man who offered him help. Pooners are like mini-pit bulls in that they will act all loving and docile one moment, and then snap as soon as they hear a loud noise.
> I can open doors, asshole, I'm not an invalid
You were acting like one. Here you are crying one minute about how helpless you are that you got your period and now you're acting sassy. This is supposed to be the moment they start connecting, what with the 'big yaoi hand touching that white skin' moment.
> You're awfully dense if you think this Tylenol is going to touch my pain
What, you want him to get you some fent so you can pass out like George Floyd?
Yes, we have our CaitVi scenes, because we need some lesbian rep on top of this - ahem - MLM rep.
Cait, meanwhile, is very much the dutiful wife, cooking in the kitchen, apron and all. She invites them in for dinner, inviting Viktor in like he's a member of the family. Our sassy teenage prostitute is now mum and shy. Jayce is asked to fetch his duffel bag and bring it to the guest room where he will stay the night. Cait asks Jayce how his daughter is doing; he replies that she is 15 and he wants her to learn how to drive his truck. Cait says that he hopes he doesn't intend for her to drive the rig, which Jayce laughs off. Her mother wouldn't allow it, and he has a truck at home. Vi snorts, saying his simple truck is a rusty piece of shit. Jayce laughingly asks if it's a 'pile-on-Jayce day', before noticing that Viktor has eaten everything on his plate, even quietly asking for seconds. He tells him there's a shower connected to the guest room and that he's free to leave the dinner table.
Once Viktor leaves, Vi asks what business he has bringing a prostitute with him into her home. Caitlyn scolds her at her tone, before asking Jayce how long Viktor has been with him. When he says he's been with him since Indiana, and plans to take him to Seattle, it's her turn to act shocked. Both women are ready to lay into him when Jayce hits Vi with a gut punch: she has no room to judge because she used to pay for lot lizards when she was single. She blanches, saying 'that's different' and 'that was years ago'. Jayce agrees, and tells her to shut her mouth about Viktor. He does not reappear in the kitchen.
In his guestroom, Jayce finds it difficult to sleep. The grandfather clock is pissing him off; he prefers the ambient rumble of his truck's engine. He slips on his shoes and goes outside for a cigarette, enjoying the quiet. Viktor then appears, and Jayce apologizes to him for the way the women were acting (cis lesbians, am I right?). They head to a trailer to smoke some weed.
> They don't know what the hell they're talking about
Those cis lesbians don't know what it's like to be trans! Fucking bigots!
> The owl's call harmonizes with the chirp of crickets
That would imply the owl is hooting in tune with them.
> Eyes latch onto his slender fingers
Keep this in mind because I GUARANTEE that the 'his waist was so small his thumbs met in the middle' will be used.
> Money isn't the only thing I work for
FREE PUSSY FOR WEED
> Jayce climbs up the latter like Viktor weighs nothing
Have you seen him? Carrying a brick would be a heftier task.
> Lived in Massachusetts with his parents
> They get addicted to drugs
> State is in a fentanyl crisis
Yeah, that fits.
> Parents became hardcore drug addicts
> Pin the blame on the trans child instead by somehow sneaking into his school and shoving the drug paraphernalia in his locker
> Only spends two years after cracking an officer's skull with his cane
I guess the 'GET A FEMALE OFFICER NOW!' worked in the end. Was he put in mixed-sex juvie, or was he kept with girls? Last time a pooner like that got shoved into a male space like that (context: this was a mental hospital) they got raped by multiple men.
> They couldn't hold me anymore
The state could still put you on probation, prohibiting you from leaving the state. Assaulting a cop as a trans person only gets you so far. You're lucky he didn't taser you or break you in two.
> I'm like a prime rib, marked down with a bright orange sticker
Nah, you're like a boney chicken breast stuck in a grease fryer and shoved into a KFC bucket meal. Yeah, the food is cheap, but there's no meat on the bone and it tastes like shit.
> Overwhelming. Protective
Look at that. You got the 40-year-old trucker acting all chivalrous. Now he really wants to squeeze your wine-bottle thin waist now!
> Jayce can't take his eyes off Viktor. Too beautiful to look away from
I can't wait for all those descriptions on how those self-harm scars are beautiful and speak of 'profound' mental struggle. He's fucking a skinnier Nicole Ritchie and we're supposed to act like he's peak Rita Hayworth. GTFO.
Those hands are ready to meet that skinny waist where his thumbs meet in the middle. He's gonna send him to buttsex heaven, sexy poops and all.
Our bougie bookstore AU has had a big update.
After exchanging phone numbers and wistful gazes in the last chapter, our Most Handsome Man in the World continues to text our bougie bookstore owner. Despite playing the 'New phone, who dis?' card, they sync together to the point our lonely island wonders if it's fine to be vulnerable for once. Very masc behaviour. After being told that Viktor misses him, Jayce smiles so wide it earns him looks at the airport, leading to Viktor smiling so wide Lest fujos out, wanting to take pictures of him for leverage. Inwardly, he's happy to share things with his friends - in the most feminine way ever, I might add - and revenue is good. It's so good Sky comes over, too, to hear the tea about his date-not-date with Jayce.
In typical female-brained fashion, Viktor says that their dinner date turned into a proper date, something he didn't expect because Jayce didn't tell him (even though he asked him to dinner, which is a date). He tells them that he wasn't even sure that he liked men, which earns a snort from Lest. Sky and Lest are in agreement that Jayce looks like 'he's about to get on his knees in front of him' and Viktor agrees. Both of them agreed to take it slow in their relationship because he was afraid he 'didn't see' the appeal in his stick-thin figure. Sky and Lest mock him for taking it slow, with Lest saying that 'if a man like that came on to me, I wouldn't be wasting a minute'. Viktor retorts by saying that Lest, a transwoman, is a 'lesbian', and she corrects it to 'if a woman came on to me'. Viktor admits that he's scared and that this entire thing is 'too good to be true'. Sky and Lest reassure him, with Sky saying that they were 'just kidding' about the sex jokes and that he can set any pace he wants, with Lest adding that he will have to take a risk eventually. Viktor states he 'loves his friends so much he could cry'. Very masc.
When he tells them that he kissed Jayce, they whoop and holler in true fujo fashion, asking him if he's a good kisser and, I shit you not, a 'grunter'. They press for details, stating that Viktor should spill the tea because of 'all the books he's read' - again, very masc, reading romance books vs watching porn as actual men do - getting Viktor to admit it lasted five minutes.
We cut back to Jayce who forces himself to eat a breakfast of porridge and fruit, something he doesn't usually do because of his pain. He has a long day ahead and dreads it - a podcast interview, a panel, a book signing - and the only thing that keeps him sane are the messages Viktor leaves him. Those messages leave him so euphoric that he grins through the pain and FaceTimes him. Viktor picks up, and he is stunned by his beauty for a full two seconds until he finally manages to say something. That black silk on that stick-thin frame leaves a lot to be desired, you know. Jayce tells him he wanted to see him and did not expect him to answer; he was expecting to find him in bed so he could get some - ahem - erotic texts. Jayce thought he'd have coffee in bed, and Viktor replies that he has never had coffee in bed because his leg makes it a hassle. Jayce inwardly grumbles that it was awful his ex did not bring him breakfast in bed, before being drawn to the present by Viktor, who notices he's in pain. He asks him if he's taken something, and Jayce affirms, saying that they're the only reason he got up that morning.
Viktor, for some petty reason, states that he'd be less graceful if a guy he knew for four days asked him about pain management, as if Jayce didn't just ask him why he didn't have coffee in bed like normal plebs. They are both disabled people who rely on pain meds to make it through the day; I have no idea why they're such assholes about it. Not to worry, though, Jayce saves the day by saying 'pretty men are my weakness', which causes Viktor to blush and Jayce to follow up with, 'take the compliment, baby. I meant it'. He wishes he could 'kiss the embarrassed twist' off his lips, and that he could accept a compliment at face value. Our poor Taylor Swift baby can't take a compliment.
Viktor asks Jayce what podcast he'll be going on. He says it's called 'Let's Get Lit', a bigger podcast that Viktor happens to be a fan of. Jayce asks him if he'll be listening, to which Viktor goes 'of course' and dismisses the repetitiveness of the subject by saying Jayce's voice is sexy. Jayce grins until his face hurts, and goes, 'you should hear it in bed, it's even better' which makes Viktor blush and laugh. He tells him he'll be late for work, and Jayce agrees to let him go. Viktor gets back at him by blowing him a kiss, and the call ends. Jayce, content in his victory, thinks the day will be a little better now that he's got a KFC chicken wing in the bucket.
We cut back to Viktor, who had a bad pain day of his own. He put off the shower until the morning because his legs shook so badly, but that doesn't matter because he has Jayce's text messages to look forward to. They give him a skip in his step, bringing him joy, happiness and indulgence before bed. He is especially focused on how 'baby' slid so easily off Jayce's tongue, and the gym pics he's sending him. He's in short grey shorts that no doubt emphasize those MS13 inches, with his thick thighs splayed obscenely across a gym ball. They also exchange flower pics - Viktor has a green thumb, Jayce does not - and food pics like he's an Instagram model. His favourite food is pasta and steak, so Viktor stocks up on both to make sure he can cook meals for him in the future. The last pic is Jayce getting drenched in the New York rain with a focus on his jeans, because that's a material that's really going to show off a penis when wet.
Viktor admits he's attracted to Jayce not because he's handsome, but because he's easy to talk to. They fall into a rhythm easily, something that scares Viktor as he's never had a relationship spark like that so quickly. He looks forward to their text messages, but he wants something more: a video chat, preferably. Once he spies that he's online, he quickly presses the call button. To his surprise, Jayce picks up, gruff and tired, but willing to talk. Viktor, hearing his pain, offers to hang up, but Jayce tells him no, he wants to speak to him actually. He admits he hasn't sleep well; maybe hearing Viktor's voice can make things easier. Viktor tells him what he ate and did for the day - nothing much, really - and Jayce apologizes for not calling earlier. His pain days have made him miserable and he would not have made good company. Viktor tells him he always makes for good company. He then says he 'hopes his indignation wasn't audible in his tone (?)' and that gentleness will make things better. I really have to wonder why you're indignant over someone admitting they'd be an asshole because of the pain they're in.
Anyways, Viktor goes on about his day. He's been dealing with disaster after disaster: the shipments of books he ordered were the wrong ones meant for another bookstore, and said bookstore got their order instead, and he had to bitch with the other bookstore owner for hours about a trade because he didn't want to believe the shipping company made a mistake. He manages to fix the issue, but he's behind schedule and alone in the store as Sky and Lest don't come in until 11 a.m. (text messages exist for this reason; if you are having problems at work, call them in). However, there was a silver lining: a young woman came into the store with the promise that she could get any book she wants under a two minute timer. They had fun directing her to her favourite books and seeing the joy on her face. Jayce tells him that he would do the same, but Viktor demurs, saying it isn't necessary.
Before they say goodbye for the night, Viktor tells him that the night was gorgeous when he closed up, great for walking, but it still tired him out and he crashed into bed until he saw his text messages. He then hears Jayce snore during the call, and tells him to 'sleep well' knowing his mission is accomplished. When he wakes up, he finds a new text from Jayce that says: 'Sleeping next to you is better than I imagined, even when it's like this' which makes our Taylor Swift bookstore owner giggle.
As for Jayce, his days keep getting shittier due to the pain. He walks around, stands, and sits on uncomfortable furniture, with the pain so persistent and agonizing he has to pop pills like never before. He walks like a zombie through interviews, half-dead and half-alive, barely remembering what was said or done, with his hand cramping after signing so many books. He needs a higher pain dose, but does not want to go that far lest he become a Pillbilly. He is in so much pain he cannot even text or video call Viktor, afraid that if he does call him at 1 a.m., Viktor would be too tired to talk to him. He wants the best for Viktor; to give him the best, and he can't do that if he's zonked out of his mind from pain. This is meant to be a dive into his mental state: a man struggling with chronic pain so badly he is driven to self harm or suicide; whose principles refuse him relief because he does not want to become a drug addict. While noble, and an interesting character development, he can just take the pills. IIRC, this is the fic where he's scheduled to lose the leg, so if that happens, he'll be in a better place after that. No more of this self-hatred.
Viktor, meanwhile, is happy to send him text messages over getting new chairs. All he gets is a 'nice' and has a spiraling moment: Jayce is busy, and his message wasn't that important, anyways. Very masc. When Viktor asks Jayce if he's ready for a video call one night, all snug as a bug and ready for a tug, Jayce tells him he can't. Viktor is left disappointed and heartbroken. Very masc. Even when Viktor snaps a photo to Jayce - black turtleneck, black and red argyle jumper, flowy black pants, a belt, jewelry and eyeliner and blush to boot - he only answers with a blue heart. Here he is putting himself out there after years of being emotionally abused and all he gets is a BLUE heart? The fucking betrayal! He should've sent him an Ethel Cain song to showcase his true love and devotion. Why, look at how our Taylor Swift describes himself:
Upon realizing that Jayce has not texted him in over a week, our bougie bookstore owner devolves into spurned Instagram model status: he spirals into insecurity and gets so nauseous from worry and rejection he nearly misses work. When two young, bubbly teenagers ask him about his writer boyfriend he nearly does the Super Masc thing by bursting into tears. This is followed with this reaction:
In the next scene, Jayce is confronted by Mel and Cait, who worry about him. He tells them he's not in the mood, but Cait just rips the Band-aid off by saying he looks exactly like he did before he he tried to kill himself. Jayce, rather than act offended, appreciates the bluntness, replying, 'feel like it, too'. Mel and Cait are horrified at this statement, with Cait being brought to tears, and Jayce tries to wave it away by saying it's a joke; the pain will go away as soon as he gets his leg lopped off. Cait answers that he better mean it, or else she will resurrect him just to kill him again.
When Cait asks him how he's managing the tour, he says he has enough energy to get through them before crashing into bed afterwards. Cait says that isn't healthy and he's pushing himself too hard, that he needs to cancel some things, but Jayce refuses. This is his last opportunity to promote his book before the surgery; he cannot do them a year after, and if he does them now, he can focus on resting properly. The women do not say anything else after that because he doesn't want to be lectured by anyone other than his therapist. Cait tells him that he must promise to call her if he ever gets to that suicidal stage again, and he does. They then change the subject to other things he has been doing during the tour. He says he just goes to bed, but Mel sing-songs that he's been seeing a 'cute bookstore owner', the same one spiraling because he only got a blue heart on his parachute pants setup.
> Is gutted that his side piece hasn't texted him for days
> Neglects to mention he didn't text him first
When I say this entire thing could have been prevented by a text saying, 'I can't talk, I'm in too much pain', I mean it. Holy fuck are these people whiny babies. The guy has him saved as 'My Viktor' in his contacts and all he did was give him a blue heart for his shitty 90s getup! Sad!
> These sound awful
She's correct.
> He deserves the world
"He deserves the world, therefore I in my pain induced and suicidal state could not tell him that I was in too much pain to talk." Logic. Just dudes being bros, talking it out mano-y-mano. He could have told Viktor he's in that much state because he didn't want to become an opioid addict and bam! Understanding. A simple text message is barely a minute of your time.
Both Mel and Cait are in the right here. Jayce keeps saying he 'deserves someone better' when he's the one who left him feeling dejected in the first place - FOR NO REASON, might I add - and left Viktor feeling as if he did something wrong.
> Viktor was insecure after the marriage and everything his ex had put him through
> Repays the favour by leaving him on read and posting Instagram selfies instead
Holy fuck the disrespect, lol
> You are so dumb it physically hurts me
Correct. She is also right to call out his plan: he wanted to ghost him because he 'deserved better' and left him on read, giving the impression he was disinterested, and never returned his texts. He dropped the conversation for no reason - and he did have a reason, all he could have said was 'I'm in a fuckton of pain, my bad bro' AS ACTUAL MEN DO - and now our bougie bookstore owner is spurned. Oh, the drama.
> That would just piss me off if I were Viktor
Me too. This is a suicidal man who doesn't even have the balls to post a Long Way Down meme. Be a man and tell him why you're busy.
> You decided that, because you pity yourself, he would do the same, right?
Technically he did. He sent him a selfie that only got him a blue heart and then spiraled about what an ugly piece of shit he is. This is the same person who compares himself to 'cis' women on the regular; he can't stop thinking about how stick-thin and sickly he looks compared to him. Just normal people things.
> Before he had a chance to have an actual panic attack
Oh I'm sure that Xanax will affect his penile performance when we get to the down'n'dirty.
> For the first time in two years, he hadn't read a single page of their pick
That lone blue heart has tanked his dreams like the iceberg that sunk the Titanic.
> He wore a sheer black shirt that fit him like a glove and his favourite choker necklace
Typical tranny wear.
> The visit to the shelter just made him cry, though, as there were too many animals that needed a home
Very masc.
Uh oh, we're gonna have another mental breakdown over The Interview. He's so manly and masculine he needs a black woman to be emotional support.
> Could barely contain the sob that almost tore from his throat
Very masc.
> He made me feel really safe, allowed me to be vulnerable while still respecting my work
Always about safety with these people.
> Have you seen all the memes and content about your relationship online?
Hoo boy. All that spiraling and he didn't see the MEMES? I'm sure that would've made our Taylor Swift insert snap so hard they'd raid a National Guard base.
> He felt confused, hurt, angry, hopeful, which made him even angrier
All this because the suicidal Latino couldn't send him a text. They are having a total breakdown over something easily avoidable.
> I don't think the online stuff is relevant to his sales that much
> All of his books are sold out
> His business is experiencing more traffic and sales
> He's a brand now thanks to the Internet
Memes can make and break Presidents and world leaders. don't underestimate them for bougie sales.
> Is he mocking me?
Only a histrionic bitch thinks that. Do you disagree that the memes about you made you famous? No? Then stop bitching.
> All it did was remind him that he was averse to men who changed like the weather and treated him differently based on the day of the week
Guess it's OK if they've got a big dick. Who cares if they've got BPD? They can fuck and that's all that matters.
> He needed their advice and company now more than ever
Notice that his only friends are women - well, one black woman and a dude in a dress - and not actual men. Actual men would have told him to get over it and that guys in pain will go AWOL. Guys will reconnect with Xbox COD teammate years after they haven't spoken. What's your excuse?
> I'm sorry was the only acceptable place to start
A compliment on his parachute pants would've helped. Just sayin'.
> How stupid he'd been, how utterly selfish and inconsiderate
I'll say. You didn't even compliment his parachute pants and OnlyFans blush!
> Jayce was right - Viktor did deserve better
Aren't you admitting you're a broke-ass bitch and that you're so shitty that another guy - less hung, less wealthy - deserves your stick figure white (wo)man? That's a helluva admission to make.
> You approached me, you pursued me, I never would have even considered something happening between us as a possibility had you not convinced me it was a good idea
You kissed out in the cold spring air for five whole minutes and then promised to keep in touch. This entire thing was over a man not bothering to say he was in too much pain for a video chat. That's it.
> I feel like we're old enough to be able to say it to each other
BTW, these men (well, a man and a half) are NEARING FORTY YEARS OLD. They are grown enough to pay off a fucking mortgage and they are having beef over Instagram because of unanswered text messages. Holy shit, how pathetic can you get?
> I do not wish to spend every day anxious, checking whether you have replied or whether I've said something wrong
Very masc, worrying about unanswered texts AS A FORTY-SOMETHING WHO IS PAST MENOPAUSE.
> I can't keep asking myself what you are hiding and why you don't trust me enough to talk to me
Remember when they say to 'take it slow'? Yeah we're speedrunning this drama, bitch.
They are having mental breakdowns because one got a blue heart for their parachute pants and the other couldn't say, 'Hey man, I'm in so much fuckin' pain all I can do is sleep. Can we hook up once I'm better?' That's it. That's ALL he had to day. That is what a MAN would do. They're acting like teenagers having a spat on TikTok, not adults.
> I am so proud of you
What is there to be proud of?
> We kill him
I'm sure the memes will be great, there: a white transwoman brutally murders a disabled Latino all because he didn't respond to a text message from a white disabled trans man. The purity spiraling and transgender civil war with Latinos will be magnificent.
> He was more than happy with how the conversation how had. He had followed his therapist's advice
> The advice is making a brown man cry and having him crawl on hands and knees to beg a white person's forgiveness
Based.
> Had wanted to be there for him and console him immediately
Very masc, offering to be emotional support for a man who only gave you a blue heart for your parachute pants.
> The Vik from a few years ago would never have stood up for himself and demanded better
> He would've been grateful a pretty boy was even paying attention to him
> This is a 40-something trans man
> Still mentally stunted like a teenager
> Folds when a handsome man smiles at them and promises them dick
Every time.
You know what'll fix drama over unanswered text messages and a blue heart for your shitty OnlyFans makeup? Blonde highlights? Get that Latino on his knees permanently so he can worship the superior skin colour! Blonde hair, white skin, stick-thin, what's not to love about this Holodomor beauty? I hope they can get over his retarded drama and fuck like animals. Anyone placing bets on that penis size and 'I can't wait breed you' sex dialogue? It'll come with pink hearts this time.
In typical female-brained fashion, Viktor says that their dinner date turned into a proper date, something he didn't expect because Jayce didn't tell him (even though he asked him to dinner, which is a date). He tells them that he wasn't even sure that he liked men, which earns a snort from Lest. Sky and Lest are in agreement that Jayce looks like 'he's about to get on his knees in front of him' and Viktor agrees. Both of them agreed to take it slow in their relationship because he was afraid he 'didn't see' the appeal in his stick-thin figure. Sky and Lest mock him for taking it slow, with Lest saying that 'if a man like that came on to me, I wouldn't be wasting a minute'. Viktor retorts by saying that Lest, a transwoman, is a 'lesbian', and she corrects it to 'if a woman came on to me'. Viktor admits that he's scared and that this entire thing is 'too good to be true'. Sky and Lest reassure him, with Sky saying that they were 'just kidding' about the sex jokes and that he can set any pace he wants, with Lest adding that he will have to take a risk eventually. Viktor states he 'loves his friends so much he could cry'. Very masc.
When he tells them that he kissed Jayce, they whoop and holler in true fujo fashion, asking him if he's a good kisser and, I shit you not, a 'grunter'. They press for details, stating that Viktor should spill the tea because of 'all the books he's read' - again, very masc, reading romance books vs watching porn as actual men do - getting Viktor to admit it lasted five minutes.
He ends the conversation there, because inquiring about a Latino's dick size - and we know it's huge, that's how it works in fics like these - is inappropriate for someone who wants to take it slow after suffering a nasty divorce and the ruin of his life. Inwardly, the idea of him packing that man meat makes him dizzy. When Jayce texts him about boarding his flight, Viktor tells him that he think of him often. He then wonders if he sounds too flirty or formal and how he hates emojis. Honestly, who gives a shit? You're starting things off slow. You are not required to post your dried out pussy. Relax.
We cut back to Jayce who forces himself to eat a breakfast of porridge and fruit, something he doesn't usually do because of his pain. He has a long day ahead and dreads it - a podcast interview, a panel, a book signing - and the only thing that keeps him sane are the messages Viktor leaves him. Those messages leave him so euphoric that he grins through the pain and FaceTimes him. Viktor picks up, and he is stunned by his beauty for a full two seconds until he finally manages to say something. That black silk on that stick-thin frame leaves a lot to be desired, you know. Jayce tells him he wanted to see him and did not expect him to answer; he was expecting to find him in bed so he could get some - ahem - erotic texts. Jayce thought he'd have coffee in bed, and Viktor replies that he has never had coffee in bed because his leg makes it a hassle. Jayce inwardly grumbles that it was awful his ex did not bring him breakfast in bed, before being drawn to the present by Viktor, who notices he's in pain. He asks him if he's taken something, and Jayce affirms, saying that they're the only reason he got up that morning.
Viktor, for some petty reason, states that he'd be less graceful if a guy he knew for four days asked him about pain management, as if Jayce didn't just ask him why he didn't have coffee in bed like normal plebs. They are both disabled people who rely on pain meds to make it through the day; I have no idea why they're such assholes about it. Not to worry, though, Jayce saves the day by saying 'pretty men are my weakness', which causes Viktor to blush and Jayce to follow up with, 'take the compliment, baby. I meant it'. He wishes he could 'kiss the embarrassed twist' off his lips, and that he could accept a compliment at face value. Our poor Taylor Swift baby can't take a compliment.
Viktor asks Jayce what podcast he'll be going on. He says it's called 'Let's Get Lit', a bigger podcast that Viktor happens to be a fan of. Jayce asks him if he'll be listening, to which Viktor goes 'of course' and dismisses the repetitiveness of the subject by saying Jayce's voice is sexy. Jayce grins until his face hurts, and goes, 'you should hear it in bed, it's even better' which makes Viktor blush and laugh. He tells him he'll be late for work, and Jayce agrees to let him go. Viktor gets back at him by blowing him a kiss, and the call ends. Jayce, content in his victory, thinks the day will be a little better now that he's got a KFC chicken wing in the bucket.
We cut back to Viktor, who had a bad pain day of his own. He put off the shower until the morning because his legs shook so badly, but that doesn't matter because he has Jayce's text messages to look forward to. They give him a skip in his step, bringing him joy, happiness and indulgence before bed. He is especially focused on how 'baby' slid so easily off Jayce's tongue, and the gym pics he's sending him. He's in short grey shorts that no doubt emphasize those MS13 inches, with his thick thighs splayed obscenely across a gym ball. They also exchange flower pics - Viktor has a green thumb, Jayce does not - and food pics like he's an Instagram model. His favourite food is pasta and steak, so Viktor stocks up on both to make sure he can cook meals for him in the future. The last pic is Jayce getting drenched in the New York rain with a focus on his jeans, because that's a material that's really going to show off a penis when wet.
Viktor admits he's attracted to Jayce not because he's handsome, but because he's easy to talk to. They fall into a rhythm easily, something that scares Viktor as he's never had a relationship spark like that so quickly. He looks forward to their text messages, but he wants something more: a video chat, preferably. Once he spies that he's online, he quickly presses the call button. To his surprise, Jayce picks up, gruff and tired, but willing to talk. Viktor, hearing his pain, offers to hang up, but Jayce tells him no, he wants to speak to him actually. He admits he hasn't sleep well; maybe hearing Viktor's voice can make things easier. Viktor tells him what he ate and did for the day - nothing much, really - and Jayce apologizes for not calling earlier. His pain days have made him miserable and he would not have made good company. Viktor tells him he always makes for good company. He then says he 'hopes his indignation wasn't audible in his tone (?)' and that gentleness will make things better. I really have to wonder why you're indignant over someone admitting they'd be an asshole because of the pain they're in.
Anyways, Viktor goes on about his day. He's been dealing with disaster after disaster: the shipments of books he ordered were the wrong ones meant for another bookstore, and said bookstore got their order instead, and he had to bitch with the other bookstore owner for hours about a trade because he didn't want to believe the shipping company made a mistake. He manages to fix the issue, but he's behind schedule and alone in the store as Sky and Lest don't come in until 11 a.m. (text messages exist for this reason; if you are having problems at work, call them in). However, there was a silver lining: a young woman came into the store with the promise that she could get any book she wants under a two minute timer. They had fun directing her to her favourite books and seeing the joy on her face. Jayce tells him that he would do the same, but Viktor demurs, saying it isn't necessary.
Before they say goodbye for the night, Viktor tells him that the night was gorgeous when he closed up, great for walking, but it still tired him out and he crashed into bed until he saw his text messages. He then hears Jayce snore during the call, and tells him to 'sleep well' knowing his mission is accomplished. When he wakes up, he finds a new text from Jayce that says: 'Sleeping next to you is better than I imagined, even when it's like this' which makes our Taylor Swift bookstore owner giggle.
As for Jayce, his days keep getting shittier due to the pain. He walks around, stands, and sits on uncomfortable furniture, with the pain so persistent and agonizing he has to pop pills like never before. He walks like a zombie through interviews, half-dead and half-alive, barely remembering what was said or done, with his hand cramping after signing so many books. He needs a higher pain dose, but does not want to go that far lest he become a Pillbilly. He is in so much pain he cannot even text or video call Viktor, afraid that if he does call him at 1 a.m., Viktor would be too tired to talk to him. He wants the best for Viktor; to give him the best, and he can't do that if he's zonked out of his mind from pain. This is meant to be a dive into his mental state: a man struggling with chronic pain so badly he is driven to self harm or suicide; whose principles refuse him relief because he does not want to become a drug addict. While noble, and an interesting character development, he can just take the pills. IIRC, this is the fic where he's scheduled to lose the leg, so if that happens, he'll be in a better place after that. No more of this self-hatred.
Viktor, meanwhile, is happy to send him text messages over getting new chairs. All he gets is a 'nice' and has a spiraling moment: Jayce is busy, and his message wasn't that important, anyways. Very masc. When Viktor asks Jayce if he's ready for a video call one night, all snug as a bug and ready for a tug, Jayce tells him he can't. Viktor is left disappointed and heartbroken. Very masc. Even when Viktor snaps a photo to Jayce - black turtleneck, black and red argyle jumper, flowy black pants, a belt, jewelry and eyeliner and blush to boot - he only answers with a blue heart. Here he is putting himself out there after years of being emotionally abused and all he gets is a BLUE heart? The fucking betrayal! He should've sent him an Ethel Cain song to showcase his true love and devotion. Why, look at how our Taylor Swift describes himself:
AKA you look like MC Hammer in the parachute pants with ashy makeup. Someone did not tell you to blend your foundation properly, sista!
Upon realizing that Jayce has not texted him in over a week, our bougie bookstore owner devolves into spurned Instagram model status: he spirals into insecurity and gets so nauseous from worry and rejection he nearly misses work. When two young, bubbly teenagers ask him about his writer boyfriend he nearly does the Super Masc thing by bursting into tears. This is followed with this reaction:
Very masc, taking a man's busy schedule into account, coupled with his God awful pain, as a reason he's rejecting you. Very masc to make it about yourself when all you did was kiss and promised to 'take things slow'. Very masc to spiral over something that is easily explained away by the man being in too much fucking pain to talk. This is supposed to be extra drama to get them together, but by God is it the pettiest thing I've read. It eventually ends with Viktor ceasing to text Jayce, as his own busy schedule eats him up, and lets the conversation 'dryer than a dessert' dry up formally. When he sees that Jayce is still posting to Instagram and not his DMs, he books a meeting with his therapist and cries himself to sleep. Very, very masc.
In the next scene, Jayce is confronted by Mel and Cait, who worry about him. He tells them he's not in the mood, but Cait just rips the Band-aid off by saying he looks exactly like he did before he he tried to kill himself. Jayce, rather than act offended, appreciates the bluntness, replying, 'feel like it, too'. Mel and Cait are horrified at this statement, with Cait being brought to tears, and Jayce tries to wave it away by saying it's a joke; the pain will go away as soon as he gets his leg lopped off. Cait answers that he better mean it, or else she will resurrect him just to kill him again.
When Cait asks him how he's managing the tour, he says he has enough energy to get through them before crashing into bed afterwards. Cait says that isn't healthy and he's pushing himself too hard, that he needs to cancel some things, but Jayce refuses. This is his last opportunity to promote his book before the surgery; he cannot do them a year after, and if he does them now, he can focus on resting properly. The women do not say anything else after that because he doesn't want to be lectured by anyone other than his therapist. Cait tells him that he must promise to call her if he ever gets to that suicidal stage again, and he does. They then change the subject to other things he has been doing during the tour. He says he just goes to bed, but Mel sing-songs that he's been seeing a 'cute bookstore owner', the same one spiraling because he only got a blue heart on his parachute pants setup.
> Is gutted that his side piece hasn't texted him for days
> Neglects to mention he didn't text him first
When I say this entire thing could have been prevented by a text saying, 'I can't talk, I'm in too much pain', I mean it. Holy fuck are these people whiny babies. The guy has him saved as 'My Viktor' in his contacts and all he did was give him a blue heart for his shitty 90s getup! Sad!
> These sound awful
She's correct.
> He deserves the world
"He deserves the world, therefore I in my pain induced and suicidal state could not tell him that I was in too much pain to talk." Logic. Just dudes being bros, talking it out mano-y-mano. He could have told Viktor he's in that much state because he didn't want to become an opioid addict and bam! Understanding. A simple text message is barely a minute of your time.
Both Mel and Cait are in the right here. Jayce keeps saying he 'deserves someone better' when he's the one who left him feeling dejected in the first place - FOR NO REASON, might I add - and left Viktor feeling as if he did something wrong.
> Viktor was insecure after the marriage and everything his ex had put him through
> Repays the favour by leaving him on read and posting Instagram selfies instead
Holy fuck the disrespect, lol
> You are so dumb it physically hurts me
Correct. She is also right to call out his plan: he wanted to ghost him because he 'deserved better' and left him on read, giving the impression he was disinterested, and never returned his texts. He dropped the conversation for no reason - and he did have a reason, all he could have said was 'I'm in a fuckton of pain, my bad bro' AS ACTUAL MEN DO - and now our bougie bookstore owner is spurned. Oh, the drama.
> That would just piss me off if I were Viktor
Me too. This is a suicidal man who doesn't even have the balls to post a Long Way Down meme. Be a man and tell him why you're busy.
> You decided that, because you pity yourself, he would do the same, right?
Technically he did. He sent him a selfie that only got him a blue heart and then spiraled about what an ugly piece of shit he is. This is the same person who compares himself to 'cis' women on the regular; he can't stop thinking about how stick-thin and sickly he looks compared to him. Just normal people things.
> Before he had a chance to have an actual panic attack
Oh I'm sure that Xanax will affect his penile performance when we get to the down'n'dirty.
> For the first time in two years, he hadn't read a single page of their pick
That lone blue heart has tanked his dreams like the iceberg that sunk the Titanic.
> He wore a sheer black shirt that fit him like a glove and his favourite choker necklace
Typical tranny wear.
> The visit to the shelter just made him cry, though, as there were too many animals that needed a home
Very masc.
Uh oh, we're gonna have another mental breakdown over The Interview. He's so manly and masculine he needs a black woman to be emotional support.
> Could barely contain the sob that almost tore from his throat
Very masc.
> He made me feel really safe, allowed me to be vulnerable while still respecting my work
Always about safety with these people.
> Have you seen all the memes and content about your relationship online?
Hoo boy. All that spiraling and he didn't see the MEMES? I'm sure that would've made our Taylor Swift insert snap so hard they'd raid a National Guard base.
> He felt confused, hurt, angry, hopeful, which made him even angrier
All this because the suicidal Latino couldn't send him a text. They are having a total breakdown over something easily avoidable.
> I don't think the online stuff is relevant to his sales that much
> All of his books are sold out
> His business is experiencing more traffic and sales
> He's a brand now thanks to the Internet
Memes can make and break Presidents and world leaders. don't underestimate them for bougie sales.
> Is he mocking me?
Only a histrionic bitch thinks that. Do you disagree that the memes about you made you famous? No? Then stop bitching.
> All it did was remind him that he was averse to men who changed like the weather and treated him differently based on the day of the week
Guess it's OK if they've got a big dick. Who cares if they've got BPD? They can fuck and that's all that matters.
> He needed their advice and company now more than ever
Notice that his only friends are women - well, one black woman and a dude in a dress - and not actual men. Actual men would have told him to get over it and that guys in pain will go AWOL. Guys will reconnect with Xbox COD teammate years after they haven't spoken. What's your excuse?
> I'm sorry was the only acceptable place to start
A compliment on his parachute pants would've helped. Just sayin'.
> How stupid he'd been, how utterly selfish and inconsiderate
I'll say. You didn't even compliment his parachute pants and OnlyFans blush!
> Jayce was right - Viktor did deserve better
Aren't you admitting you're a broke-ass bitch and that you're so shitty that another guy - less hung, less wealthy - deserves your stick figure white (wo)man? That's a helluva admission to make.
> You approached me, you pursued me, I never would have even considered something happening between us as a possibility had you not convinced me it was a good idea
You kissed out in the cold spring air for five whole minutes and then promised to keep in touch. This entire thing was over a man not bothering to say he was in too much pain for a video chat. That's it.
> I feel like we're old enough to be able to say it to each other
BTW, these men (well, a man and a half) are NEARING FORTY YEARS OLD. They are grown enough to pay off a fucking mortgage and they are having beef over Instagram because of unanswered text messages. Holy shit, how pathetic can you get?
> I do not wish to spend every day anxious, checking whether you have replied or whether I've said something wrong
Very masc, worrying about unanswered texts AS A FORTY-SOMETHING WHO IS PAST MENOPAUSE.
> I can't keep asking myself what you are hiding and why you don't trust me enough to talk to me
Remember when they say to 'take it slow'? Yeah we're speedrunning this drama, bitch.
They are having mental breakdowns because one got a blue heart for their parachute pants and the other couldn't say, 'Hey man, I'm in so much fuckin' pain all I can do is sleep. Can we hook up once I'm better?' That's it. That's ALL he had to day. That is what a MAN would do. They're acting like teenagers having a spat on TikTok, not adults.
> I am so proud of you
What is there to be proud of?
> We kill him
I'm sure the memes will be great, there: a white transwoman brutally murders a disabled Latino all because he didn't respond to a text message from a white disabled trans man. The purity spiraling and transgender civil war with Latinos will be magnificent.
> He was more than happy with how the conversation how had. He had followed his therapist's advice
> The advice is making a brown man cry and having him crawl on hands and knees to beg a white person's forgiveness
Based.
> Had wanted to be there for him and console him immediately
Very masc, offering to be emotional support for a man who only gave you a blue heart for your parachute pants.
> The Vik from a few years ago would never have stood up for himself and demanded better
> He would've been grateful a pretty boy was even paying attention to him
> This is a 40-something trans man
> Still mentally stunted like a teenager
> Folds when a handsome man smiles at them and promises them dick
Every time.
You know what'll fix drama over unanswered text messages and a blue heart for your shitty OnlyFans makeup? Blonde highlights? Get that Latino on his knees permanently so he can worship the superior skin colour! Blonde hair, white skin, stick-thin, what's not to love about this Holodomor beauty? I hope they can get over his retarded drama and fuck like animals. Anyone placing bets on that penis size and 'I can't wait breed you' sex dialogue? It'll come with pink hearts this time.
This reads like a personal diary entry than anything creative. This is more of a background story to one published in October, where a lil egg gets cracked and finds out that no, her husband didn't marry a straight woman - he married a gay man!
> Sits in the car
> Contemplates her Long Way Down moment
> It's all because her husband won't accept her as a True and Honest Man
Amazin'. The original story was filled with this. It's 'A Little Life: Trans Edition,' reading more like the author's personal life and how she wants to kiss the bottom of a bridge.
> You still didn't die
> Disappointed by a suicide attempt they didn't even try
You can't even be a man with your suicide attempts. Sad!
> Admires her husband
> Husband admits there's nothing to admire about them
Holy fuck. What an admission to make. Though, can you blame him when your wife is an energy vampire?
I appreciate how the husband's reaction to increased libido and suicidal tendencies is 'Don't do that'. It's just a blasé attitude to a wife clearly struggling with manic depression and suicidal thoughts. I don't remember if 'Nat' here is on anti-depressants, but they're not on any happy pills, I'll tell you that.
> What a horrible wife you make. Ready and willing to service him one moment, selfish and cruel the next
There's your problem: you want to be a tradwife but you're popping too many Xanaxes and not enough valiums. In order to make your man appreciate you, you have to do one thing: convince him you're a gay man and get him to approach you on a man's terms.
> What is there to love
He has to convince himself he's a gay man for fucking pussy. I'd say there isn't much love there at all, just delusion.
> You're amazing. You're kind
You just said you don't admire your wife, lmao. He also has such a 'I don't care' attitude to his wife's clearly energy-draining depressive episodes that one wonders what drugs he's on to be so chipper.
> Writes a whole fic about how a woman is extremely suicidal to the point they wonder if they can Long Way Down off of any high surface
> Has the husband 'come out' as gay along with the wife
> Says to send this 'man' a transgender quiz
To be transgender is to be suicidal and drain the life force of everyone around you until they submit to their whims. This ain't me saying it, it's their candid confessions.
Some chapters will just be an entire chain of people going EXACTTTLLLYYY, squeeing or gushing over particular scenes. celestrialthread, who I've featured ITT, has entire chains of her responding to people. She's gotten over 830 comments on her work. If there's a mismatch between bookmarks and comments, that's usually due to author interaction.
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HETEROSEXUAL
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My vagina doesn't make me a woman!"
Pick me up again, daddy!"
HETEROSEXUAL
You also have to appreciate the candid admission that the author prefers writing penis-in-vagina sex because actual gay sex is too icky and too much work.
