Yeah, I consulted someone about this recently and wanted them to be honest about me. He said he wasn't trying to be offensive but asked if I ever considered I might be on the spectrum. And that's not the first time that's come up.
Looking at my life and how I interact with the world, it kind of aligns. It's been a very humbling process as of late looking at how I've conducted myself and my general cringiness and coming to grips with the idea that very well might be the case.
I don't really think the modern diagnosis of autism works because a lot of it now seems like just labeling a mix of individuality+childhood trauma as a clinical issue. Sure there are capital A autistics like Chris Chan but generally a lot of it is just people with bad upbringings who also are into weird shit unapologetically.
But yeah, it's a very real possibility. Kind of a mark of shame but also kind of fits.
Whatever you wanna call it, label yourself or don't, acknowledging it can help you deal with it and maybe lessen the negative impact it has on your life & relationships.
I've gone through similar things, I've also been pretty close to sewer slide a few times, especially when I was in the army, but its a waste. you're not terminally ill, homeless, or in crippling debt from what I know, nothing stopping you from just meeting new people, picking up a new hobby, learning a new skill, or moving somewhere that you might fit better in.
nobody is going to stop you from killing yourself ultimately, its your decision, but doing it over this retarded polyfaggot(I know its not *just* because of him, these things stack up, but still.) would be a pretty pathetic way to go out.
Having my own experience with fasting, I don't think fasting has any such immediate effect on weight when you just do 1 or 2 days. Usually when I do my once a year 5 day fast, I drop about ~4kg after 5 days, but rebound almost ~3kgs after refeeding in a day or two. Most of the immediate weight loss is just emptying out your bowels and water weight if you don't drink enough water, and ofc that all goes back when you start eating again. Not saying you should do longer fasts, I think you should only attempt that once you build up your tolerance to it slowly to make sure you don't have any issues... I mean you shouldn't have any magical expectations from fasting. I think the body adapts amazingly well to consuming low amounts of energy when it lacks food
this is ontop of my normal 24 hour one meal a day fasts. I guess I'm just starting to lose weight slower. I knew this would happen sooner or later since you burn new fats much faster than old fats, I guess I'm just kind disappointed its happening so soon.
I didn't really find it particularly difficult, if I wanted to I could probably eat once every two days consistently, but it doesn't seem to have much benefit over once a day, and my brother who's been doing this sort of stuff has told me I'm better off just sticking to OMAD too.
I will say though, there's a weird sense of euphoria you get during longer fasts that comes around the 30-35 hour mark. I can best describe it as the feeling you get while on painkillers(advil in particular in my experience) you get this cold, head clearing feeling in your brain and it feels pretty good.
