It's just common expression of speech.
Now, my laptop has basically died whereasfar as the screen and the sound are concerned, but it still has graphic input as my spare monitor works on it, and although my keyboard is now truly fucked, I had a spare one in my cupboard. It's almost as if my laptop has been changed to a hard-top box now; it's about as powerful as my old one from 2007 anyway, an ideal working environment.
Especially for writing my "non-existent" book I "lack the intelligence" to complete or whatever it is Cuntster is saying.
I explained, without going into detail, some of my concerns with my GP incl. suicidality; he agreed, and no I made no suggestion, that it was secondary to stresses from external sources, and the best thing? What I'm suspecting all of this to be: Cuntster's insidious conversion of me to empiricism in order to find out
I'll be writing a stern but brief, one-page ideally, letter to Lennihan and presenting it on-site asking about an invite to an impromptu meeting facilitated by the unspecified third party who possibly is the persona behind Cuntster, with the intention that I hope other obligations made that impossible, but his body language should give away the concoction of implausible alibis.
He made clear in his letter to my GP that autonomy with me was everything, that it is clear I'm least anxious when allowed to direct or at least compromise on some of my treatments, adjustments where need-be as crises either arise or cease to exist thereby removing from necessity such medications.
I'm still going to the DPRK embassy. I know my chances of persuading it a migration would offer propaganda value is thin even with the most creative of my suggestions, but there are a few results outside of which I'm sure the embassy can arrange seeing as it loves to promote its ideology and I want to fill my bookshelf and collect a few badges. It'll be an interesting day out, if nothing else.
I've my vallies, 'dol, and sertraline refilled now, so I'm a bit calmer.
This is pending on successful emigration but here's a parting address, warning, there's wind, but you all have the transcrpt anyway
https://sendvid.com/cgx5zufb