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She can't afford Gastric surgery, couldn't take out loans because she has almost 20k in student debt... she is however friends with the doctor from My 600lb life on facebook tho, so who knows what's in the future for our gorl!
WEIGHT LOSS UPDATE | 3.22.18 - 3/24/2018 Weight Gain Update
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She can't afford Gastric surgery, couldn't take out loans because she has almost 20k in student debt... she is however friends with the doctor from My 600lb life on facebook tho, so who knows what's in the future for our gorl!
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"I don't feel like we're failing because we haven't given up."
Realistically, how many years can you try at something before it can finally be classified as failing?
She doesn't need therapy, she doesn't need WLS, hell she didn't need to go to a doctor until she was goaded into it after ten years. All this, because she lost 89 pounds once, and therefore nobody knows how to deal with these problems better than she does.
Realistically, how many years can you try at something before it can finally be classified as failing?
She doesn't need therapy, she doesn't need WLS, hell she didn't need to go to a doctor until she was goaded into it after ten years. All this, because she lost 89 pounds once, and therefore nobody knows how to deal with these problems better than she does.
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She's mentioned before that she would get the surgery if she didn't have to pay for it, but the issues with WLS for our gorl is that you need to lose a fair amount of weight to show your serious about the procedure and there are few bariatric surgeons who operate on people as big as her.
She doesn't have health insurance and adamantly asserts therapy "don't work" on her, but her latest schtick has been waiting for her doctor to call a therapist to call Amber. As for medication, she tried Phentermine for weight loss (still binged) and recently tried Wellbutrin (claimed it made her a bitch).
I've been hoping for a My 600 lb. Life episode tbh
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Damn how hard is it for her to cook some chicken breasts, some rice, and veggies, (or even some of her slop) throw them in those glass containers she never uses, and bring them over to where they are staying? All she'd have to do is put it in the microwave. I guess it's just easier to go out to eat and make excuses.
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Are they trolling for views at this point? I know AL has always displayed a remarkable inability to make connections between her actions and their consequences, but she doesn't even seem bothered that she gained weight in this video.
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A petite small gorl has to make cash somehow. How else would she get some delicious tube turkey?
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Don't worry Al, 494 pounds isn't anywhere near 500 pounds. You're practically underweight at this point.
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I feel bad for Becky. She's stuck there next to Amber as AL forces her to talk about her weight and makes excuses for it. This has to be embarrassing for her, but Amber needs props people around her to show the world that she really isn't a depressed festering pile of shit.
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I felt really bad for her until I saw her fiercely defending AL on YouNow. I don't think she's as much a victim as we'd like to believe. I guess the good thing about having AL around is that she will always make you feel better about yourself in comparison. Becky's paltry pound and Dr. Peppers are nothing compared to poor Amber's uncontrollable binge sessions.
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She does! It's so so embarrassing. She also does it with mispronouncing things on purpose...in the last weigh in video, Becky was surprised when she pronounced buffet with a hard 't'. It's obvious she was just doing it for the video, and the opportunity to smirk and say "I know" when Becky corrected her. She thinks it's cute and quirky because she has no semblance of an actual cute and quirky personality.
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Some mathematics sperging :autism:
Last weight gain update was March 12. This one was filmed March 22. It took her 10 days to gain 3 pounds.
At 5'3" and 494 lbs, a mostly sedentary lifestyle gives AL a BMR of 2973 calories a day. 3500 calories in excess of that = 1 elbee gained. This means that over 10 days, she had to average a daily caloric intake of 4023. And this is assuming absolutely minimal physical activity. Even so much as walking around Walmart at her size would burn a decent handful of calories.
That's insane. I won't PL but I think it's safe to say that normal humans only come close to 4000 calories on their most wild cheat days, and they'd certainly feel like death for a while after because of the sheer volume of food. Our gorl does this shit every day.
Last weight gain update was March 12. This one was filmed March 22. It took her 10 days to gain 3 pounds.
At 5'3" and 494 lbs, a mostly sedentary lifestyle gives AL a BMR of 2973 calories a day. 3500 calories in excess of that = 1 elbee gained. This means that over 10 days, she had to average a daily caloric intake of 4023. And this is assuming absolutely minimal physical activity. Even so much as walking around Walmart at her size would burn a decent handful of calories.
That's insane. I won't PL but I think it's safe to say that normal humans only come close to 4000 calories on their most wild cheat days, and they'd certainly feel like death for a while after because of the sheer volume of food. Our gorl does this shit every day.
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Big AL has gained weight!
Meanwhile, plants need sunlight to grow and animals need food to eat.
Meanwhile, plants need sunlight to grow and animals need food to eat.
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gotta work that neck!
but seriously how dare she still call it "weight loss update" when all she does is Gain.
infuriating.
edit: her face after becky says "weigh in"
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I made a transcript for anyone who doesn't want to listen to 16 minutes of big AL having an eating disorder pity party.
A: Hai guiise!
B: Hi!
[intro feat unicorn emoji and a whipping noise?]
B: So, we are here today to do a new weigh-in for you guys. [clapping] Yaaaay, weigh-ins!
A: Are you excited, gorl?
B: [sigh] I mean, I gained, but it's barely anything, so I'm not that hurt about it
A: [chuckle] Yeah, so today is Thursday, I'm not sure when this video is going to be up, probably around like Saturday or something, but, um, yeah, we're just gonna go back to doing these Thursday weigh-ins because they helped me, they helped her, kept us accountable, and we liked being able to sit down once a week and just talking to you guys. We did the whole several weigh-ins in one video, which I enjoy because I got to edit that and I got to see the differences and I thought it was cool. But I know a lot of you wanna see it, like, right off the bat, like you guys wanna know what's up, you guys wanna see the weekly weigh-ins, which I understand. [in a weird voice, for some reason?] So let's get into it.
B: What was that?
A: Iunno
B: [mimicking] "So let's get into it."
A: I kinda felt like a witch. "So let's get into it."
B: Yeah, you sounded like one, too. Like a Russian one.
A: HAHA! So, I like to write down what we're gonna talk about in this video, so the first thing I wanna ask you is--I'm also gonna answer this question--why do you think you, as an individual, not us as a unit, but why do you think you as an individual keeps, in quotations, "failing" at this lifestyle change?
B: Well, I will throw this out there, I have been struggling with...temptation. Like I'm still doing my lemon water, y'know, still lovin' it, but I have had soda lately, and I've been having, um, the ki--the tea, the PC [?] tea, er, that's in the can, and I don't know if it affects me or not but I feel like, y'know, the kind of tea that you, y'know, you boil the water, then you put the tea bags, I feel like that's better?
A: Yeah, it is better for you.
B: It doesn't taste better, but it is better for you.
A: Hundred percent.
B: So, I'm just gonna have to try to go back to nothing but water and then the occasional cup of lemon, I mean, lemon tea at night.
A: So, are you saying that you think soda is what's making you "fail"--I say quotations "fail" because I don't think we're failing because we're still trying, y'know?
B: Uhm--
A: We're never gonna give up.
B: And the fact that where we've been at my sister's a lot, it's harder to...keep with the healthy eating because, y'know, my sister cooks dinner for us every now and then, she'll be like, "Thank you guys for helpin' me, I'm so grateful, here let me cook you a dinner" and it's just like, y'know, it's hard to say no, and um, what we had recently wasn't too bad, the only really bad part of it probably was the fact that it was very high in sodium, and it was vegetable soup, so.
A: And it had real hamburger in it, I don't--
B: She uses ground beef.
A: Yeah, when I'm on a weight loss journey, I don't use hamburger at all, always ground turkeys and lean meats, but I wasn't really caring, that's the point, we weren't really caring what we put in our mouths so it didn't matter to us at the time, so [giggle].
B: I mean, I cared, but I didn't care the moment I was eating it. After I ate it I cared, I'm just like, "What am I doing?"
A: Yeah.
B: But in that moment, I'm just like, y'know, "yum."
A: I think for me, the reason why that I'm "failing" is--is the obvious, I have an eating disorder, I don't care what anyone says. Like, you don't become this big just because you love food. It doesn't happen, um, it just doesn't happen. It's, it's something up here, and, y'know, I feel just like I'm being controlled by my eating disorder, I feel like my eating disorder's stronger than me, and I'm ti--I'm just so tired of it, and that is why I have these books! [holds up two books, "The Binge Code" by Alison C Kerr and "Never Binge Again" by Glenn Livingston, PhD] I want to, y'know, conquer this and, I dun-I dunno, I'm just tryin', I'm, I am.
Like, I enjoy eating healthier foods, I enjoy the--cooking it, and...I just think that being too strict with myself is what makes me want to binge, makes me want to eat *all* the hot Cheetos, *all* the chocolates, *all* the candy, and it's just...ugh. It's just--
B: Yeah, because January was so hard...Every--you craved everything and time drug by so slowly.
A: Because I was cooking very healthy foods for us, and they made us feel amazing, sometimes I would only drop three pounds in one week, but that didn't bother me because I didn't feel sluggish--
B: You were still dropping weight, though.
A: Yeah, I didn't feel sluggish, my face was less swollen, I didn't breathe as hard, I had more stamina, parts of my body didn't even hurt anymore and it's because I took out all the bad foods from my diet, and I was healing myself, it felt like, and I felt amazing. But, my body is addicted to the bad foods.
So, another question--what are just two goals that you want to succeed in this week?
B: Stick to the healthy meals and not eating anything I shouldn't be eating, and go back to strictly water, not just sometimes water, no.
A: You wanna do strictly water, what about your--
B: Tea.
A: One soda a day.
B: I've got, y'know, that's until my pack is empty. One soda a day. Just to get myself back off the soda.
A: Yeah, cold turkey sometimes works for some people but not for others.
B: I get massive headaches.
A: Yeah.
B: Which, I mean, I have high blood pressure anyway, and that contributes to it, but the stopping the caffeine altogether, not good. Because the tea that I bought is caffeine-free, so.
A: Right. I'm glad you kinda brought up your high blood pressure because there were a lot of people in the comments because they noticed Becky's face was getting red and stuff, Becky does suffer from high blood pressure, but she does have a doctor, she does have medicine.
When--in January, when I was cooking healthier, Becky said that, y'know, her high blood pressure wasn't affecting her anymore and that makes me feel good because--I was giving you a eating plan that helped with something you struggle with everyday.
B: Right.
A: And, it just, that little bit of information [inflammation? confirmation?] makes me wanna keep going.
B: And I know it was also the fact of--you were barely using any salt, and if you did, it was the pink Himalayan salt.
A: Right.
B: And I know salt is my big issue with high blood pressure. Um, it runs in the family and I've had it like--they've--my family found out that I had it, when I was preteen at the dentist, and the dentist was like, "Oh I can't put you under because your blood pressure's high, did you know you have high blood pressure?"
A: How did--how did--how did he know that?
B: What do you mean?
A: That you had high blood pressure?
B: Who?
A: You just said, "I can't put you under because you have high blood pressure", you didn't know.
B: No, I didn't know and--
A: How did he know?
B: 'Cuz they have to, like, take your blood pressure and everything before they put you under--
A: OH! The dentist did?!?
B: Yeah.
A: Oh okay, because I've never been under so I wouldn't know that, okay. I was like, wait, is there lie a sign in your teeth, like I just got really confused.
So, two goals for me that I have this week is, I want to cook most of my meals at home. I feel like that helps a lot, and if there is a time where, y'know, someone invites us out to eat--because that does happen, her family will sometimes invite us out, or Eric and Ricky will sometimes invite us out--if that happens, which I hope it doesn't this week, if that does happen and we do go somewhere, I want to make sure that I stock up on vegetables, ask them not to cook with butter, y'know, just make cautious decisions and when that does happen, I want to vlog it, I want to vlog it and I wanna be like, "you guys, I am out to eat, and this is what I'm doing", [???] keep me accountable.
B: Some places have, um, calories counts.
A: Oh, hundred percent.
B: Not every place but some places.
A: A lot do, and if it's not on their menu, just Google it because there's always a PDF.
So that's one of my goals, and I think another one is to just read these [holding up books again]. I really wanna read these, and I've started but, urgh, like, I haven't read that much so far, I'm diggin' it, and I just wanna read, I want to read a lot of it and I'm gonna finish this one first ["Never Binge Again"], and then read this one ["The Binge Code"] second, um. This one ["Never Binge Again"] was actually recommended--
B: [yawns]
A: Am I boring you, gorl?
B: No, random yawn.
A: I love you.
[They almost kiss but it gets edited out. I think she's caught onto the fact that we make fun of the faces she makes anytime she has to make physical contact with Becky.]
This one was actually recommended to me by a subscriber, so if you're watching this, thank you, you know who you are. And this one ["The Binge Code"], when I went to go buy this one on Amazon, this one popped up, and I was like, "...huh" so I have that one. Anyways, that is a ramble. So let's get to the actual weigh-in, I feel like, whoa, we've been talking forever, yeah? [giggle]
B: So this week--last week, I'm pretty sure I weighed, uh, what was it, 261?
A: I should have wrote that down, shouldn't I have?
B: Yeah, but it's fine. Um, this week I weigh 262.8, so there was a gain.
[A video of the scale reading 262.8, Amber says "So this is Becky's weigh-in."]
B: But I know why. I didn't eat like I should last week, I had soda [A either says "A lot of soda" or "A loss would've been--" but she's very quiet and Becky's still talking so I couldn't quite hear], but it's not that bad, it could have been worse.
A: Um, I weighed in at 494.0.
[cut to a recording of A's weigh in:
A: So I'm about to weigh in for you guys, and a lot of people are saying, Amberlynn, like you're rigging the scale, you're putting in, I think it's called like a "tear" or a tare, I don't really know, I know it starts with a T [it literally says Tare right on the scale but go off] something about how I'm like rigging the scale because it's that type of scale, but I just wanna prove to you guys, the power is completely off and I am not gonna edit this, I am turning it on, I'm not doing any sort of settings, at all, this is how it looks for Becky as well, and now I'm about to step on. Imma start weighing myself with my pants and stuff, but, yeah, uh, let's just do this thing, um. [scale numbers start calibrating] Is it--?
B: Yeah it's stopped.
A: I'm like really shaky for some reason.
B: It finally stopped.
A: Okay it did?
B: Yeah.
A: Okay.]
A: So, that means I also gained, I think I gained three pounds? That's because I wasn't eating healthy, I was eating out, um, I was struggling, I struggle really hard, like Becky said, when we go to her sister's house, because I feel weird cooking in other people's houses, so I use that as an excuse, "Oh let's go out to eat" but I recently bought a Crockpot, which I'm so excited for because I'm gonna be cooking my first meal in it, and I think, what could make it easier for me is bringing my Crockpot whenever we go to her sister's house.
B: What?
A: Crockpot.
B: It sounds like you said Grockbot.
A: I probably did.
[Clip of her saying "Grockbot".]
So I think that's gonna make it easier for me bringing that, so then I can just cook something in there, and like, if her sister wants some, and her nephew, like you guys can have some, but you might not like it, I don't really know what they like, but um, so, that's--that's why we gained, because we didn't care, and I was eating chocolate every night, and I don't--there's nothing wrong with a little piece of chocolate on the nightly, like a little piece of chocolate, but I was eating big candy bars every night, and I was eating so many chips, and just--it just--ugh. My body is addicted to the bad food and I want it to stop, I want it to stop, I want to be addicted to vegetables and healthy eating and water, like, that's what I want, that's what I want for myself, and what I want for you. So...[sigh]...the next thing was, how do you feel about your weigh-in? Obviously I'm very sad, but it's to be expected so, um, I have no excuses, it's my fault, so. To the people who are always like, "Amberlynn, you always have an excuse" I don't got one.
How do you feel about your weigh-in?
B: I mean...um...from whenever we were doing really good, I think I got down to what, 254? And that 262 isn't too far from it.
A: No, it's not.
B: But, it's up, it went up, so, I mean y'know, I don't wanna see it go up, but that was a lot better than I expected. And that could also be to--due to the fact that I do still incorporate water.
A: It could be, but--
B: I don't know what else it would be.
A: I just think you don't...you don't eat as much as I do, obviously, you don't sit there and gorge your face like I do, y'know what I'm saying?
B: I can't, I'll get sick.
A: So, that's why I have gained so much weight is because I'll sit there and just keep eating, that is a binge eating disorder, when you just continously eat and eat, even if you feel sick, you just wanna keep going, and something I--ugh, this is gonna sound so bad. Something that I struggle with is--I have depression, I want to numb myself, I get lonely, I want to numb myself. By numbing myself is to feel full. I want to feel something other than the pain I'm going through, or the emotions I am going through, and something I've noticed that, when I'm not full, that means I'm hungry. I just wanna constantly feel full, and, it's like, when I'm off of my weight loss...journey, um, I never have a chance to feel hungry because the minute I stop feeling full, I want more food and that's--that's not normal up here, and that's why I'm trying to get help, and I'm trying to help myself, and I'm trying to be fricking honest with you guys about how I'm feeling, because who wants to admit that they just want to feel full 24/7? Who wants to admit that? Like, nobody, and I'm just being real, and I'm being honest, and I'm being raw, and I know people--people hate when I say this stuff for some reason, like all the little haydurs, "Amberlynn being SO RAW, you guys" but I am, like.
B: I'd like to see them be that raw.
A: I hate the word raw, though.
B: Raw.
A: That sounds gross.
B: Real. How 'bout real?
A: Yeah.
B: Honest.
A: I just...there are a lot of people who watch me who have eating disorders and they'll message me in private and be like, "I watched your new video when you talked about blahblahblah, and I know exactly how you feel and I wish more people understood" and so do I, trust me gorl--or guy--um, but, we're in this together and I'm here to talk to you.
B: Can I talk about something real quick?
A: Sure.
B: Like I've said so many times, you can't understand unless you yourself are going through it, y'know, all these people getting on there, "Mm, no no, she's just eating because she's big blahblahblah look at her, the size of her, she is disgusting, blahblahblah"
A: I wish it was that simple.
B: You all don't know what she's going through, I don't know what she's going through, she don't know what I'm going through, she don't know what you're going through, and apparently, we all go through some stuff, now, let's be honest.
A: Yeah.
B: You know, I have actually had my moments where, y'know, I've, y'know, Amberlynn will have her dessert, like, not along after she's ate her dinner and I'm like, "How? How can she do it? I feel like I'm about to die right now, I can't put another bite of food in my mouth," but that's because I don't understand what she's going through, and then she's like, y'know there's moments where she's like, "How are you not hungry, we ate like, seven hours ago?" and I'm just like, "I dunno" 'cuz she don't know what my body's feeling.
A: Yeah.
B: So. You just don't know what ev--what people are going through.
A: That's why it's just like, don't judge other people--
B: Oh they love to do that [?]
A: --like, what's the point? You don't understand where someone is coming from, like someone who has the opposite eating disorder as me, I would never, ever in a million years look at them and be like, "How could you not eat? Food numbs me makes me feel amazing, so how could you not eat?" That's rude, and cruel, and disrespectful.
We're gonna end the vlog you guys, so I hope you guys enjoyed, and we'll be back with another weigh-in, we'll see you in the next one, bye!
B: Bye.
B: Hi!
[intro feat unicorn emoji and a whipping noise?]
B: So, we are here today to do a new weigh-in for you guys. [clapping] Yaaaay, weigh-ins!
A: Are you excited, gorl?
B: [sigh] I mean, I gained, but it's barely anything, so I'm not that hurt about it
A: [chuckle] Yeah, so today is Thursday, I'm not sure when this video is going to be up, probably around like Saturday or something, but, um, yeah, we're just gonna go back to doing these Thursday weigh-ins because they helped me, they helped her, kept us accountable, and we liked being able to sit down once a week and just talking to you guys. We did the whole several weigh-ins in one video, which I enjoy because I got to edit that and I got to see the differences and I thought it was cool. But I know a lot of you wanna see it, like, right off the bat, like you guys wanna know what's up, you guys wanna see the weekly weigh-ins, which I understand. [in a weird voice, for some reason?] So let's get into it.
B: What was that?
A: Iunno
B: [mimicking] "So let's get into it."
A: I kinda felt like a witch. "So let's get into it."
B: Yeah, you sounded like one, too. Like a Russian one.
A: HAHA! So, I like to write down what we're gonna talk about in this video, so the first thing I wanna ask you is--I'm also gonna answer this question--why do you think you, as an individual, not us as a unit, but why do you think you as an individual keeps, in quotations, "failing" at this lifestyle change?
B: Well, I will throw this out there, I have been struggling with...temptation. Like I'm still doing my lemon water, y'know, still lovin' it, but I have had soda lately, and I've been having, um, the ki--the tea, the PC [?] tea, er, that's in the can, and I don't know if it affects me or not but I feel like, y'know, the kind of tea that you, y'know, you boil the water, then you put the tea bags, I feel like that's better?
A: Yeah, it is better for you.
B: It doesn't taste better, but it is better for you.
A: Hundred percent.
B: So, I'm just gonna have to try to go back to nothing but water and then the occasional cup of lemon, I mean, lemon tea at night.
A: So, are you saying that you think soda is what's making you "fail"--I say quotations "fail" because I don't think we're failing because we're still trying, y'know?
B: Uhm--
A: We're never gonna give up.
B: And the fact that where we've been at my sister's a lot, it's harder to...keep with the healthy eating because, y'know, my sister cooks dinner for us every now and then, she'll be like, "Thank you guys for helpin' me, I'm so grateful, here let me cook you a dinner" and it's just like, y'know, it's hard to say no, and um, what we had recently wasn't too bad, the only really bad part of it probably was the fact that it was very high in sodium, and it was vegetable soup, so.
A: And it had real hamburger in it, I don't--
B: She uses ground beef.
A: Yeah, when I'm on a weight loss journey, I don't use hamburger at all, always ground turkeys and lean meats, but I wasn't really caring, that's the point, we weren't really caring what we put in our mouths so it didn't matter to us at the time, so [giggle].
B: I mean, I cared, but I didn't care the moment I was eating it. After I ate it I cared, I'm just like, "What am I doing?"
A: Yeah.
B: But in that moment, I'm just like, y'know, "yum."
A: I think for me, the reason why that I'm "failing" is--is the obvious, I have an eating disorder, I don't care what anyone says. Like, you don't become this big just because you love food. It doesn't happen, um, it just doesn't happen. It's, it's something up here, and, y'know, I feel just like I'm being controlled by my eating disorder, I feel like my eating disorder's stronger than me, and I'm ti--I'm just so tired of it, and that is why I have these books! [holds up two books, "The Binge Code" by Alison C Kerr and "Never Binge Again" by Glenn Livingston, PhD] I want to, y'know, conquer this and, I dun-I dunno, I'm just tryin', I'm, I am.
Like, I enjoy eating healthier foods, I enjoy the--cooking it, and...I just think that being too strict with myself is what makes me want to binge, makes me want to eat *all* the hot Cheetos, *all* the chocolates, *all* the candy, and it's just...ugh. It's just--
B: Yeah, because January was so hard...Every--you craved everything and time drug by so slowly.
A: Because I was cooking very healthy foods for us, and they made us feel amazing, sometimes I would only drop three pounds in one week, but that didn't bother me because I didn't feel sluggish--
B: You were still dropping weight, though.
A: Yeah, I didn't feel sluggish, my face was less swollen, I didn't breathe as hard, I had more stamina, parts of my body didn't even hurt anymore and it's because I took out all the bad foods from my diet, and I was healing myself, it felt like, and I felt amazing. But, my body is addicted to the bad foods.
So, another question--what are just two goals that you want to succeed in this week?
B: Stick to the healthy meals and not eating anything I shouldn't be eating, and go back to strictly water, not just sometimes water, no.
A: You wanna do strictly water, what about your--
B: Tea.
A: One soda a day.
B: I've got, y'know, that's until my pack is empty. One soda a day. Just to get myself back off the soda.
A: Yeah, cold turkey sometimes works for some people but not for others.
B: I get massive headaches.
A: Yeah.
B: Which, I mean, I have high blood pressure anyway, and that contributes to it, but the stopping the caffeine altogether, not good. Because the tea that I bought is caffeine-free, so.
A: Right. I'm glad you kinda brought up your high blood pressure because there were a lot of people in the comments because they noticed Becky's face was getting red and stuff, Becky does suffer from high blood pressure, but she does have a doctor, she does have medicine.
When--in January, when I was cooking healthier, Becky said that, y'know, her high blood pressure wasn't affecting her anymore and that makes me feel good because--I was giving you a eating plan that helped with something you struggle with everyday.
B: Right.
A: And, it just, that little bit of information [inflammation? confirmation?] makes me wanna keep going.
B: And I know it was also the fact of--you were barely using any salt, and if you did, it was the pink Himalayan salt.
A: Right.
B: And I know salt is my big issue with high blood pressure. Um, it runs in the family and I've had it like--they've--my family found out that I had it, when I was preteen at the dentist, and the dentist was like, "Oh I can't put you under because your blood pressure's high, did you know you have high blood pressure?"
A: How did--how did--how did he know that?
B: What do you mean?
A: That you had high blood pressure?
B: Who?
A: You just said, "I can't put you under because you have high blood pressure", you didn't know.
B: No, I didn't know and--
A: How did he know?
B: 'Cuz they have to, like, take your blood pressure and everything before they put you under--
A: OH! The dentist did?!?
B: Yeah.
A: Oh okay, because I've never been under so I wouldn't know that, okay. I was like, wait, is there lie a sign in your teeth, like I just got really confused.
So, two goals for me that I have this week is, I want to cook most of my meals at home. I feel like that helps a lot, and if there is a time where, y'know, someone invites us out to eat--because that does happen, her family will sometimes invite us out, or Eric and Ricky will sometimes invite us out--if that happens, which I hope it doesn't this week, if that does happen and we do go somewhere, I want to make sure that I stock up on vegetables, ask them not to cook with butter, y'know, just make cautious decisions and when that does happen, I want to vlog it, I want to vlog it and I wanna be like, "you guys, I am out to eat, and this is what I'm doing", [???] keep me accountable.
B: Some places have, um, calories counts.
A: Oh, hundred percent.
B: Not every place but some places.
A: A lot do, and if it's not on their menu, just Google it because there's always a PDF.
So that's one of my goals, and I think another one is to just read these [holding up books again]. I really wanna read these, and I've started but, urgh, like, I haven't read that much so far, I'm diggin' it, and I just wanna read, I want to read a lot of it and I'm gonna finish this one first ["Never Binge Again"], and then read this one ["The Binge Code"] second, um. This one ["Never Binge Again"] was actually recommended--
B: [yawns]
A: Am I boring you, gorl?
B: No, random yawn.
A: I love you.
[They almost kiss but it gets edited out. I think she's caught onto the fact that we make fun of the faces she makes anytime she has to make physical contact with Becky.]
This one was actually recommended to me by a subscriber, so if you're watching this, thank you, you know who you are. And this one ["The Binge Code"], when I went to go buy this one on Amazon, this one popped up, and I was like, "...huh" so I have that one. Anyways, that is a ramble. So let's get to the actual weigh-in, I feel like, whoa, we've been talking forever, yeah? [giggle]
B: So this week--last week, I'm pretty sure I weighed, uh, what was it, 261?
A: I should have wrote that down, shouldn't I have?
B: Yeah, but it's fine. Um, this week I weigh 262.8, so there was a gain.
[A video of the scale reading 262.8, Amber says "So this is Becky's weigh-in."]
B: But I know why. I didn't eat like I should last week, I had soda [A either says "A lot of soda" or "A loss would've been--" but she's very quiet and Becky's still talking so I couldn't quite hear], but it's not that bad, it could have been worse.
A: Um, I weighed in at 494.0.
[cut to a recording of A's weigh in:
A: So I'm about to weigh in for you guys, and a lot of people are saying, Amberlynn, like you're rigging the scale, you're putting in, I think it's called like a "tear" or a tare, I don't really know, I know it starts with a T [it literally says Tare right on the scale but go off] something about how I'm like rigging the scale because it's that type of scale, but I just wanna prove to you guys, the power is completely off and I am not gonna edit this, I am turning it on, I'm not doing any sort of settings, at all, this is how it looks for Becky as well, and now I'm about to step on. Imma start weighing myself with my pants and stuff, but, yeah, uh, let's just do this thing, um. [scale numbers start calibrating] Is it--?
B: Yeah it's stopped.
A: I'm like really shaky for some reason.
B: It finally stopped.
A: Okay it did?
B: Yeah.
A: Okay.]
A: So, that means I also gained, I think I gained three pounds? That's because I wasn't eating healthy, I was eating out, um, I was struggling, I struggle really hard, like Becky said, when we go to her sister's house, because I feel weird cooking in other people's houses, so I use that as an excuse, "Oh let's go out to eat" but I recently bought a Crockpot, which I'm so excited for because I'm gonna be cooking my first meal in it, and I think, what could make it easier for me is bringing my Crockpot whenever we go to her sister's house.
B: What?
A: Crockpot.
B: It sounds like you said Grockbot.
A: I probably did.
[Clip of her saying "Grockbot".]
So I think that's gonna make it easier for me bringing that, so then I can just cook something in there, and like, if her sister wants some, and her nephew, like you guys can have some, but you might not like it, I don't really know what they like, but um, so, that's--that's why we gained, because we didn't care, and I was eating chocolate every night, and I don't--there's nothing wrong with a little piece of chocolate on the nightly, like a little piece of chocolate, but I was eating big candy bars every night, and I was eating so many chips, and just--it just--ugh. My body is addicted to the bad food and I want it to stop, I want it to stop, I want to be addicted to vegetables and healthy eating and water, like, that's what I want, that's what I want for myself, and what I want for you. So...[sigh]...the next thing was, how do you feel about your weigh-in? Obviously I'm very sad, but it's to be expected so, um, I have no excuses, it's my fault, so. To the people who are always like, "Amberlynn, you always have an excuse" I don't got one.
How do you feel about your weigh-in?
B: I mean...um...from whenever we were doing really good, I think I got down to what, 254? And that 262 isn't too far from it.
A: No, it's not.
B: But, it's up, it went up, so, I mean y'know, I don't wanna see it go up, but that was a lot better than I expected. And that could also be to--due to the fact that I do still incorporate water.
A: It could be, but--
B: I don't know what else it would be.
A: I just think you don't...you don't eat as much as I do, obviously, you don't sit there and gorge your face like I do, y'know what I'm saying?
B: I can't, I'll get sick.
A: So, that's why I have gained so much weight is because I'll sit there and just keep eating, that is a binge eating disorder, when you just continously eat and eat, even if you feel sick, you just wanna keep going, and something I--ugh, this is gonna sound so bad. Something that I struggle with is--I have depression, I want to numb myself, I get lonely, I want to numb myself. By numbing myself is to feel full. I want to feel something other than the pain I'm going through, or the emotions I am going through, and something I've noticed that, when I'm not full, that means I'm hungry. I just wanna constantly feel full, and, it's like, when I'm off of my weight loss...journey, um, I never have a chance to feel hungry because the minute I stop feeling full, I want more food and that's--that's not normal up here, and that's why I'm trying to get help, and I'm trying to help myself, and I'm trying to be fricking honest with you guys about how I'm feeling, because who wants to admit that they just want to feel full 24/7? Who wants to admit that? Like, nobody, and I'm just being real, and I'm being honest, and I'm being raw, and I know people--people hate when I say this stuff for some reason, like all the little haydurs, "Amberlynn being SO RAW, you guys" but I am, like.
B: I'd like to see them be that raw.
A: I hate the word raw, though.
B: Raw.
A: That sounds gross.
B: Real. How 'bout real?
A: Yeah.
B: Honest.
A: I just...there are a lot of people who watch me who have eating disorders and they'll message me in private and be like, "I watched your new video when you talked about blahblahblah, and I know exactly how you feel and I wish more people understood" and so do I, trust me gorl--or guy--um, but, we're in this together and I'm here to talk to you.
B: Can I talk about something real quick?
A: Sure.
B: Like I've said so many times, you can't understand unless you yourself are going through it, y'know, all these people getting on there, "Mm, no no, she's just eating because she's big blahblahblah look at her, the size of her, she is disgusting, blahblahblah"
A: I wish it was that simple.
B: You all don't know what she's going through, I don't know what she's going through, she don't know what I'm going through, she don't know what you're going through, and apparently, we all go through some stuff, now, let's be honest.
A: Yeah.
B: You know, I have actually had my moments where, y'know, I've, y'know, Amberlynn will have her dessert, like, not along after she's ate her dinner and I'm like, "How? How can she do it? I feel like I'm about to die right now, I can't put another bite of food in my mouth," but that's because I don't understand what she's going through, and then she's like, y'know there's moments where she's like, "How are you not hungry, we ate like, seven hours ago?" and I'm just like, "I dunno" 'cuz she don't know what my body's feeling.
A: Yeah.
B: So. You just don't know what ev--what people are going through.
A: That's why it's just like, don't judge other people--
B: Oh they love to do that [?]
A: --like, what's the point? You don't understand where someone is coming from, like someone who has the opposite eating disorder as me, I would never, ever in a million years look at them and be like, "How could you not eat? Food numbs me makes me feel amazing, so how could you not eat?" That's rude, and cruel, and disrespectful.
We're gonna end the vlog you guys, so I hope you guys enjoyed, and we'll be back with another weigh-in, we'll see you in the next one, bye!
B: Bye.
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I honestly think she resents that Becky is taking this somewhat seriously. She loved that Destiny DGAF about what she ate. Which is why she also gained about 100 pounds over the course of their relationship.
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And I don't know how serious Becky is about the weight loss. I know next to AL she looks small but at 5'4"-5'5"? And 250-260lbs she is really obese herself. Becky didn't like being on camera when her and AL first started dating so there isn't too much to compare how much she's gained since being with AL. I know it looks like Destiny gained alot being with AL and never lost that weight. I guess once with AL they eat to make her feel better and let themselves go.
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I love how she blames her "eating disorder"
Bitch, just put down the fucking fork.
It's not hard, damn.
Bitch, just put down the fucking fork.
It's not hard, damn.
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This is why she'll never get to a healthy weight. Normal people aren't addicted to vegetable, water or any other "healthy" foods. We eat/drink them, some of us like them and even crave them, but we aren't addicted to them.
I guess she never heard "we should eat to live, not live to eat".
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That simpleton Becky is wedged so far up Hamber's ass it's pathetic. They rant about not judging others, yet they had no problem talking shit about Rafe while the "anti-bulling" minions cheered them on. Fuck these hypocritical, brain dead redneck assholes.
Those lines around Hamber's mouth make her look like a fucking ventriloquist dummy... But she has "such a pretty face"! As for Becky the thumb, all I see is Baby Cakes from China Illinois.
Notice all the dust Hammer wiped off the scales display screen, her hoard is out of control. All that crap piled up behind Becky....holy crap! I guarantee they aren't moving any of that shit to sweep behind it. Ricky probably feels claustrophobic in his own home.
Those lines around Hamber's mouth make her look like a fucking ventriloquist dummy... But she has "such a pretty face"! As for Becky the thumb, all I see is Baby Cakes from China Illinois.
Notice all the dust Hammer wiped off the scales display screen, her hoard is out of control. All that crap piled up behind Becky....holy crap! I guarantee they aren't moving any of that shit to sweep behind it. Ricky probably feels claustrophobic in his own home.