Secret Gamer Girl / SecretGamerGrrl / Googleshng / "Violet Hargrave" / Jacob Lawrence (Jake) Alley / Violet Cassandra Ocean - Delusional Zoe Quinn Stalker, Libelous Tweeter, Thirsty Gnome, Faux-Tranny Neckbeard Incel, Micropenis, "Known Troubled Person", Creator of "Massive vs the Masses", Self-Described "Noise Making Thing"; Lives in Niantic, CT

That's pretty much exactly why feminists are unimpressed with this self-identification thing. It's bad enough to be half the population and still be relegated to token spots, but neckbeards taking token spots and leaving panels with 100% dick-having-humans while claiming diversity credit is adding insult to injury.

Like, it would be one thing if the person is actually living as a woman in any real way. Trans activists say no man would ever fake being a trans woman, but if they did...in what way would they be distinguishable from someone like SGG? If anything a faker would make more effort. Like Cartman putting a bow on his hat.

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This is more effort to present as a woman than SGG does.
 
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We looked at Jake's recent history at conventions, it turns out his history of attending and speaking on panels at cons goes back to at least 2002 (he would have been 20, or 21 if it was after June), when he started attending Vassar College's NonCon as a "guest" because he knew one of the founders somehow (https://archive.li/Lztyi), which granted him free admission, compensation for travel/hotel expenses, and in exchange he had to speak on panels. He also talked about going to E3 and some other stuff including Anime Central, but NonCon was his main convention he was attending every year since 2002 up to at least 2008. By 2011 he no longer was "regularly getting invited out to gaming cons with all [his] expenses covered."

I like how optimistic Jake was about The Massive vs. the masses, with at least two expansions planned as well at the "computer-game version" he was having his cousin help him with. http://archive.is/qAqSG http://archive.is/xMPzQ
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Jake kept demoing it at NonCons until he managed to get it created (and then "financially ruined" himself with it). http://archive.is/aoNKm
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Jake apparently started pseudo-selling his first RPG (Tyranny) in 2002 or 2001, offering it as "shareware" with the option to pay for it. https://archive.li/KwOxB#selection-231.0-230.1 Jake mentions it again in Christmas 2001 and then a few years down the line. https://archive.li/o0WMG#selection-248.0-248.1

Jake went to NonCon (the con has since changed it's name after "noncon" began to mean something they wanted nothing to do with) for the first time in 2002, with an unnamed cousin. They stopped at a Taco Bell on the way and Jake had two liters of Code Red Mountain Dew. He later ate "a huge handful" of "Chocolate Covered Espresso Beans" the "equivolent[sic] of 2 whole pots of coffee" (don't worry though, Jake is "immune to caffeine.") http://archive.li/QNAEL
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Jake was a "guest" again in 2003 and mentioned wanting to demo the game idea he had called Tyranny ("The Diceless RPG" https://archive.li/TSECT) at next year's NonCon. https://archive.li/EnyNY He also mentions trying to "shareware" Tyranny as a test and not many people bought it despite lots more saying it was fun. https://archive.li/gPyp0 Later in the year, he again said he planned to demo Tyranny at NonCon 4 https://archive.li/zbq5b#selection-254.0-252.2

Sometime in between his birthday in June and his trip to Japan to see Jono (https://archive.li/Ys7me), Jake posted a list of his projects which included an early description of what would become The Massive vs. the masses https://archive.li/EF1xW
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Sometime in between November 2003 and February 2004, Jake said that a "multiplatform PC incarnation" of The Massive vs. the masses was being made by Jono while the physical game was still in rough prototype form. http://archive.li/WZmqQ

In 2004, Jake was demoing a prototype of The Massive vs. the masses at NonCon. He was hopeful, as people seemed to enjoy it and someone had expressed interest in publishing it. https://archive.li/a7iHC

In 2005, Jake was demoing The Massive vs. the masses at NonCon again. http://archive.li/r4QtY
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Next year, Jake was demoing The Massive vs. the masses at NonCon again. http://archive.li/anckl#selection-251.0-251.99

Jake went to NonCon 7 with Jono, Jake had to get a ride from "another RetroMUD GM." Jake had two panels set up but cancelled them because of a Magic: The Gathering event at the same time, and demo'd a new game idea called Collision. One of the panels was going to be on Red Shirt, and he mentions the Massive vs. the Masses being played. As we know, someone beat Jake to the market with Redshirts in 2012, so Jake easily could have been the premiere product with that theme since he appears to have had the idea since 2007. https://archive.li/hP4FV

2008 seems to be a significant year for Jake Alley, in between NonCon 7 and 8 he had put himself $20,000-$30,000 in debt to finally produce The Massive vs. the masses. Jake did demos of The Massive vs. the masses at TempleCon and NonCon 8. Jake was excited because he was now attending NonCon as an "actual professional game designer/publisher" and "actually had the final production version of MvM to unveil to all the people who have been playing my old cardboard and styrofoam demo sets, and it was a nice chance to meet briefly with R.K. Milholland face to face to talk about him illustrating Red Shirt." He ended up losing money at TempleCon due to his hotel room costing more than he made in sales, and this year NonCon didn't comp his travel expenses. Jake was still excited because he had worked out the art deal with R.K. (a webcomic creator https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._K._Milholland). https://archive.li/1Tqra

The experiences from the cons early in 2008 were definitely a bad omen. Jake said he was "bleeding money" due to The Massive vs. the masses. His "big plan" was to produce a cheap card game that may sell faster and "climb at least part way out of debt here.," the game was to be Red Shirt. Jake considered asking his friend who had done Massive vs. masses to do the art, but he was hoping to have R.K. - a "Special Celebrity Guest Artist" - to help sell the product. Jake said he emailed the guy after NonCon, a couple weeks went by, R.K. replied and said he hadn't seen Jake's emails but he was working on the project. Six weeks elapsed with no further contact from him, and then Jake wrote this "venting" rant. Jake said he was losing sleep over this and stressed out since he needed to know if R.K. was still on for the project since he was already promoting it with R.K.'s name attached. Jake asked into the void for anyone who read the blog to try and contact R.K. about it if possible.

Jake further explains how he was $20,000 to $30,000 in debt and was frustrated that nobody knew how bad it was. "The problem is that people around me are constantly just completely failing to understand how broke I am."

I believe he had 1,000 copies of the game produced (according to another thing each copy cost about $25 in raw materials), Jake had sold less than 100 copies between the game's production and this post. Game stores were asking for demo copies or severe discounts and Jake refused. "Yes, I do have 900+ copies of it just sitting around here, but no, you can't have them. I need to sell these, they aren't nearly paid off yet." Jake was annoyed by people being surprised at what he said the manufacturing costs were, and Jake said that he had got the cheapest costs he could get while avoiding companies that sounded like they were exploiting "slave labor." Jake did give out some review copies of the game. https://archive.fo/D0yBV

In 2009 someone wondered if The Massive vs. the masses existed or not. Jake blamed the economy and said "most retailers don't want to take the chance on a hard to classify game from a new publisher, in the $40-$50 range." http://archive.is/vqJIe

By late 2009 Jake's future insulation was already "taking up tons of space here we need to clear out to work on" one of the expansions for it. http://archive.is/XmaPZ
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In May 2010, Jake chimped because Monsterpocalypse (https://boardgamegeek.com/boardgame/32674/monsterpocalypse) was in the news and possibly getting a movie deal, which was a "Problem" because the "intellectual property rights here are kind of uh... mine." According to Jake, Privateer Press saw his game after he 'bankrupted' himself to produce it, then "took a look at what [Jake] had at yon events turn around and release their own game with the same premise/exact unit list/art style/general overall appeal as [his] game." Monsterpocalypse released in Fall 2008, uses minis and dice, and seemingly is only similar through a "kaiju" theme. Jake was thinking about trying to sue them and was annoyed because "my older (and I've been told better) game is wallowing in near total obscurity while the derivative model has some serious advertising behind it. Having to explain to people that this predates an awful movie would just kinda make my life hell." Jake tried to get a personal army: "at the very least I should at least be raising a big public fuss, get some free press out of it, maybe some money of some sort to smooth things over, let me get some other games actually published, get a new computer that can run StarCraft 2 so I have better things to do with my spare time than write long articles pining over oldschool RPG maps. So... anyone up for helping get the rabble rousing ball rolling?" http://archive.is/3zWcb


When Jake's claims were repeated in a forum discussion a few months later in 2010, someone pointed out that "kaiju" themed games already existed and that from what he could tell there was unlikely any mechanical similarities between the games, as Jake's was "heavily asymmetric" with cards and the other was "an even-playing-field army-list minis game with dice and no cards." https://archive.fo/qvvK4

By September 2011, Jake's wild ride of "getting invited out to gaming cons with all my expenses covered" was over, and he had lost a way to get extensive playtesting and feedback. Jake turned to the Talking-Time forum to try and recruit playtesters for Red Shirt, Collision, and an unnamed card game. He wanted them to print out NDAs and scan and email them back to him, which turned off most prospective players. He also mentioned Jono was making a "crazy online testing environment" for playtesting games but had abandoned the project in a non-functional state.
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In 2012, Jake claimed he was still needing playtesters for Red Shirt. https://archive.fo/Mx3ec#selection-5979.1-5962.3 His site had advertised a 2010 release date at some point https://archive.fo/X9N9s Jake claimed he was "just about" to take out a loan and publish Red Shirt when he found out Redshirts had been made. Despite not playing it, Jake believed it had possibly stolen his idea. https://archive.fo/ODnfA#selection-1850.1-1860.1

In 2014, Jake was still mad and still claimed he was just about to publish Red Shirt when he found out Redshirts had beaten him to market, Jake wondered if R.K. had betrayed him to help the other game. https://archive.fo/Fx9dH#selection-5331.0-5326.12

In early 2015, in Zoe Quinn's secret Skype chat, Jake complained about being in debt because other people "basically released games of [his]" and said that same thing happened with "the big expensive game that kinda ruined [Jake] financially" although Massive vs. masses was "technically on the market for a year first." http://archive.is/zFazS#selection-6341.0-6472.1

He wondered if Redshirts was just a "REALLY nasty coincidence" or if someone had seen him demoing Red Shirt at cons and then put an "S on the name." http://archive.is/zFazS#selection-6496.0-6544.1

Jake also said he still had "like 700" copies of The Massive vs. the massive left (so he sold/gave away maybe around 200 between the 2008 post and 2015) and was using them as makeshift insulation. http://archive.is/as22v#selection-10957.0-11058.1

Random stuff (the dating is hard to pin down on anything from 2002 or earlier since he didn't put time stamps on the blogs nor the archive of them)

2005/2006 Jake Alley vs. 2018 Jake Alley
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http://archive.is/SdUNF#selection-289.284-289.322 (to be fair you could use almost anything he Googleshngs to compare that with)
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Well this attitude would explain him abandoning his game company after Massive vs. masses didn't sell well and his other projects didn't materialize, but not him stalking CHELSAY for over a year after she cut contact, or him lying and Googleshnging about Gamergate/nazis/etc. for years despite getting on every blocklist in existence. (2002) http://archive.li/TB2zu#selection-205.63-205.153
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Jake's old ebegging page, some of it seems to date to 2002 http://archive.li/gyAOK and this second archive was it when it was updated in 2003 (and possibly later) as he mentions the trip to Japan to see Jono. http://archive.li/gGHkH

Jake liked to Googleshng weird and "lewd" art/anime titties at the end of some of these blog posts. http://archive.li/bOf6m#selection-243.0-286.2 http://archive.li/apGCY#selection-247.0-276.2 http://archive.li/84ixV#selection-261.1-298.2

Jake won't wear the ribbon. (2004/2005) http://archive.li/jqPj4

Jake talking about his family (2004) http://archive.li/W0Ml5

Logs from an IRC D&D game he was DMing (2002 or earlier) http://archive.li/zafKv

He was doing this "Slime World" webcomic (2002 or earlier) http://archive.li/GiY6u
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The one where Jake had a job at a grocery store. (2002 or earlier) http://archive.li/84ixV

Jake's dad invited him to his third wedding in Georgia, Jake didn't want to go because of the potential heat. (Christmas 2002) http://archive.li/ZQfay

Jake killed his Slime World in 2003 and ranted about webcomics http://archive.li/Oghsd

@repentance the one about the death of Jake's 19 y.o. cousin https://archive.li/vFNQ8 he said he was "wallowing in grief and depression" and hadn't updated his rants site in 5 months (2004) http://archive.li/5JKnq

Jake sperged out about World of Warcraft. (2005 or 2006) https://archive.li/A3bKo

Jake Alley confirming his birthday is June 9th (2002 or earlier) https://archive.li/bslDF

Brav-fucking-o.

I do love the hubris of that interview where Jake acts like an accomplished head of a game company giving others advice on successful board game creation. Bonus points for him speaking about himself as “us.”

Interesting he speaks about be surrounded by so many successful artists, artists that show in galleries!!, he was basically was swatting them away with a stick. Yet his MvM game and packaging looked like garbage, amateurish garbage and he then ended up begging RK to do art for his Red Shirts idea.

The sad, failed private army attempts to pressure R.K. for artwork and trying bully Monsterapoc into a “gimme dat” show Jake has always thought groups of other ppl should spend their time resolving his perceived injustices.

Gives even more weight to the idea that if Jake could just be a member of some oppressed minority he could more effectively get PA to take care of his silly problems. He must have been salivating watching twitter dogpiles happening on behalf of offending trans people and thought he’d finally found the solution to his no-private army problem.

Also he’s always been way more important and special than average fat, white neckbeards. His mom’s friends are artists afterall!
 
I'm now somewhat-seriously playing with the idea of writing a novel with a character based on Jake, like a Confederacy of Dunces for the Twitter era. I'd have to make him more erudite and have a more sophisticated internal life to make it worth reading, but I think having the general plot lead up to that fateful most recent convention, the one where he won't tell us what actually happened but is full of "conspiracies led to people hating me and ostracizing me."

The audience can see from everyone's reactions that they're all repulsed by him on every level, but he just persists in his belief that everyone's social pleasantries are 100% honest expressions of friendship and offers of assistance. Confused and bewildered, the denouement takes place as he goes home and settles into what's now clearly a routine that will lead to him never leaving his house again. I kind of think it'd be great, a savage take on the "Twitter intellectual" and SJW culture.

And the best part is, he can't even sue me for stealing his life for a story, because it'd mean admitting our timelines and photos are accurate. Thx for the material, beardboy.
 

Everyone else in that list had a lot more to do with it than I did, although I concur with the @Hellfire comment, as @Hellfire has been the hero we both need and deserve.

tl;dr: No matter how he tries to phrase things, he admitted we are just accurate enough it scares him, and even if he is right that WE suck at verifying things, as the guy he spoke with on Twitter confirmed, we don't have to be, the public can see if the dots connect on their own, and to Jake's terror, we still come off as quite accurate.

He's also so blockheadedly literal-minded that he seems actually entirely incapable of distinguishing between our actual factual claims, which are pretty much rock-solid, and our random insults and shitposting, which aren't even intended to be accurate.
 
"obstacle in your life" is vague, but it probably referring to either "get a real job," "get hired full-time into a game company," "get a degree," "come out publicly as a woman/transition," or "move out of your mom's house."

•Get a real job: Not my favorite answer. The only fixes it directly address is money, which leads to transition/surgery/hormones and living on his own. Doesn't help his delusions of grandeur in the gaming industry, online power cravings, social standing. Maybe co-workers become friends? I doubt it, and and doubt he would see it that way either.

•Get hired full-time into a game company: Similar to the above. Would probably be a dream come true, but it's a fantasy that doesn't really fit the wording of "overcoming" a problem.

•Get a degree: Can we even confirm that Jake actually graduated high school? I saw someone mention we couldn't find a yearbook photo of Jake, maybe he didn't even graduate in the first place, and a lot of adults find it extremely shameful to say they don't have it or their GED in their 30's. This is actually a good fit for the tweet if true, since he's probably smart enough to nail a GED exam, but doesn't have the money for a course/test or won't make time for it. If it's higher education, getting a degree does open other doors to companies & might be why he can't get an entry-level permanent position into Paizo. Attending college is more about forging friendships with industry people/future industry people anyways. Jake seems like the smug enough sort of person who would think he's too good for a diploma or degree, and wants to skip that step and just jump into the gaming industry since there aren't really firm requirements for being a good game designer or scenario writer.

•Come out publicly as a woman/transition: Easily fits the "overcoming" element, and a lot of trannies have the belief that if only they could accept their bodies/get other family members to accept their bodies, that everything else in their life would fall into place. They'd be confident and comfortable enough to get dates, nail job interviews, function in day-to-day society without imagined stress. Jake probably doesn't tell his mom that he feels like a woman, or isn't allowed to act on those feelings which is why he maintains the shitty beard and filthy appearance overall; if he can't be a pretty princess, then he's going to be the shittest-looking man he can be in protest. Seems odd that he'd call having such a talk trivial and seemingly insignificant though.

•Move out of your Mom's house: Moving, if you have the income and browse apartment openings, is pretty trivial and inconsequential. Having your own place opens a lot of options for having women take you more seriously as a mate & makes you pretty popular in D&D/tabletop gaming circles for having private spaces to play together without needing to placate a store owner with regular purchases or a librarian's ego trips. It would also satisfy his need to wear dresses privately without judgement. It is pretty embarrassing to live with your mom in your 30's & would be hard to mention to others, especially when you brag that you're hot shit about being a game designer and writing Pathfinder content/making your own board games.

Thinking out loud, No GED is my favorite emergent theory right now, but the Moving Out & Coming out of the Closet are close seconds here.

Jake is confused by the Infinity Stones
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WILLFUL FUCKING IGNORANCE. Literally a major plot point and brightly colored element of every Marvel movie since Captain America in 2011 & the first Avengers 2012 movie. I'd expect this tweet from a fucking normie but not a lv. 30 greybeard.
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WILLFUL FUCKING IGNORANCE. Literally a major plot point and brightly colored element of every Marvel movie since Captain America in 2011 & the first Avengers 2012 movie. I'd expect this tweet from a fucking normie but not a lv. 30 greybeard.
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I just realized that Jake is a real life wizard.
 
I just realized that Jake is a real life wizard.
I went back to look at the replies to this Marvel tweet, and wading through his timeline, April 24th he did eighty-five retweets and fifteen personal tweets(mostly longer messages, only two 1-word "thread" tweets).
100 fucking actions on twitter in a 24 hr period.

He's been on this account since September 2014, so 45 months. He has 105K tweets total. In any 30-day period, he averages 2,333 tweets, which comes out to 77 tweets per day, every day, for just under 5 years. Let's say that his fatness has him only awake for 12 hours a day; that's 6 tweets per hour, one action, be it writing a paragraph or reading/sharing someone else's, every 10 minutes. Consecutively. All. Day. :autism:
 
Somehow I have the feeling if Jake every managed to find an editor to look at his 'Young Adult" novel about someone being trans (assuredly with a self-insert Mary Sue) the pronouns getting messed with would not be the only major problem the editor found.
You know how Atlas Shrugged features a bit where a character gives a hundred-page speech? I'm imagining something like that, except it's a hundred pages of the heroic Jack Alby mumbling vaguely about "Nazis" and "certain people" and "accidental blocking."
 
"obstacle in your life" is vague, but it probably referring to either "get a real job," "get hired full-time into a game company," "get a degree," "come out publicly as a woman/transition," or "move out of your mom's house."

•Get a real job: Not my favorite answer. The only fixes it directly address is money, which leads to transition/surgery/hormones and living on his own. Doesn't help his delusions of grandeur in the gaming industry, online power cravings, social standing. Maybe co-workers become friends? I doubt it, and and doubt he would see it that way either.

•Get hired full-time into a game company: Similar to the above. Would probably be a dream come true, but it's a fantasy that doesn't really fit the wording of "overcoming" a problem.

•Get a degree: Can we even confirm that Jake actually graduated high school? I saw someone mention we couldn't find a yearbook photo of Jake, maybe he didn't even graduate in the first place, and a lot of adults find it extremely shameful to say they don't have it or their GED in their 30's. This is actually a good fit for the tweet if true, since he's probably smart enough to nail a GED exam, but doesn't have the money for a course/test or won't make time for it. If it's higher education, getting a degree does open other doors to companies & might be why he can't get an entry-level permanent position into Paizo. Attending college is more about forging friendships with industry people/future industry people anyways. Jake seems like the smug enough sort of person who would think he's too good for a diploma or degree, and wants to skip that step and just jump into the gaming industry since there aren't really firm requirements for being a good game designer or scenario writer.

•Come out publicly as a woman/transition: Easily fits the "overcoming" element, and a lot of trannies have the belief that if only they could accept their bodies/get other family members to accept their bodies, that everything else in their life would fall into place. They'd be confident and comfortable enough to get dates, nail job interviews, function in day-to-day society without imagined stress. Jake probably doesn't tell his mom that he feels like a woman, or isn't allowed to act on those feelings which is why he maintains the shitty beard and filthy appearance overall; if he can't be a pretty princess, then he's going to be the shittest-looking man he can be in protest. Seems odd that he'd call having such a talk trivial and seemingly insignificant though.

•Move out of your Mom's house: Moving, if you have the income and browse apartment openings, is pretty trivial and inconsequential. Having your own place opens a lot of options for having women take you more seriously as a mate & makes you pretty popular in D&D/tabletop gaming circles for having private spaces to play together without needing to placate a store owner with regular purchases or a librarian's ego trips. It would also satisfy his need to wear dresses privately without judgement. It is pretty embarrassing to live with your mom in your 30's & would be hard to mention to others, especially when you brag that you're hot shit about being a game designer and writing Pathfinder content/making your own board games.

Thinking out loud, No GED is my favorite emergent theory right now, but the Moving Out & Coming out of the Closet are close seconds here.


It's changing his name/ID. Bet anything you like. He's probably upset because that convention that he wanted to pay his way on wouldn't consider him a woman GM without some attempt to change documentation. If he applies as Jake Alley, he knows he can't simultaneously call himself Violet for purposes of being a diversity token. He really thinks things like getting to go to one more con for free will solve his problems, will be the start of him digging his way out of the hole he dug his way into. He could make the right connections and be seen as his true feminine self and start building his resume as Violet, and he'd live happily ever after. But I'm guessing mommy isn't interested in driving Jakey-poo to the courthouse for a legal name change, and he's concocted a million reasons that he can't possibly figure out a way to do it. He needs to have an obstacle he deems insurmountable, because it means effort isn't worthwhile.
 
It's changing his name/ID. Bet anything you like. He's probably upset because that convention that he wanted to pay his way on wouldn't consider him a woman GM without some attempt to change documentation. If he applies as Jake Alley, he knows he can't simultaneously call himself Violet for purposes of being a diversity token. He really thinks things like getting to go to one more con for free will solve his problems, will be the start of him digging his way out of the hole he dug his way into. He could make the right connections and be seen as his true feminine self and start building his resume as Violet, and he'd live happily ever after. But I'm guessing mommy isn't interested in driving Jakey-poo to the courthouse for a legal name change, and he's concocted a million reasons that he can't possibly figure out a way to do it. He needs to have an obstacle he deems insurmountable, because it means effort isn't worthwhile.

To add to this I don't believe for a minute Jake's mom is a transphobe. Everything we know suggests she'd a hard left Trump hating new age hippy who would be fucking thrilled to have a trans child she could virtue signal about. Jake won't transition because deep down he knows he's a man and would look fucking ridiculous as a woman.
 
Jake the incel knows the "tenets of inceldom"
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How many of the reports Jake made were about actual "terror plots being made and carried out"? Surely Jake should be able to point to exactly which plots he reported to authorities only to have them ignore his reports and for the plot to subsequently be carried out. Prior reports get an insane amount of media attention in the wake of spree killings/terrorist attacks. Why isn't Jake going to the media about his prior reports?

Reading incel forums and concluding that "one of these people is going to snap and hurt people one day" requires no special research or special insight into human behaviour. It's being able to predict which of the many people posting their dark, destructive fantasies is an actual threat that requires skill.

Jake has the same level of hatred towards and wishes the same level of destruction on his "foes" as incels do to women. In a sense I think he does understand their feelings of intense isolation and injustice - he just blames a different target.
 
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