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Christ she’s so unfortunate looking. Also at this point I’ve counted three different fedoras. Bitch has a collection.
Stephanie Cianfriglia / Sapphire Crimson Claw / Yarrow Brown / the-ghost-fucker / transmascdruid / anarchoenby77 / darktwistedpussy / Druid of Endicot - Xe/xyr ghost-fucker, womb wizard, hand sanitizer sommelier, trans-boomer, violently abuses her elderly parents, has sexual fantasies about raping children
- Thread starter Hamplanet Fitness
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"I plan on being a famous nonbinary person 
"
The closest you're ever getting is E-list E-infamous
"The closest you're ever getting is E-list E-infamous
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- Oct 21, 2016
Does anyone actually go into the stylist convinced that the autistic bowl haircut™ is a good look?
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- Mar 29, 2018
For some reason tumblr conflates fugly with adorably androgynous.
It's shocking seeing ~enbies uwu~ wearing haircuts that were once reserved for racist trailer trash.
You can't reclaim rat tails, no matter how hard you try.
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- Mar 3, 2018
She looked normal and halfway decent in her school photo. What happened to her?
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- Feb 21, 2016
Social Justice saying that everyone was a superspecial enby snowflake along with her own need to be a super original goth who fights against the establishment
Maybe she only hates Dylann Roof because they have the same haircut and he has more fangirls than her?
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- Mar 29, 2018
Probably stranglingly normie family dictating how she dressed and presented herself. Would wager that's why she acts out so bad now.
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- Oct 21, 2016
Or she gained a ton of weight, realized she would never have sex, dived deep into tumblr, and resurfaced all ~*kweer*~
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She will never be as big as Chris but if she keeps this up she will be a name with a big thread at the most, if she goes the way of the Terryberry (Rip shed princess.) she may be referenced elsewhere maybe."I plan on being a famous nonbinary person
The closest you're ever getting is E-list E-infamous
Seems like it. At the least she could use a q-tip, even that’s pushing it and looks clumpy and trashy. It looks like she’s smearing it on with her fingers.
Social Justice and Tumblr. Can be just as damaging as drugs
(Sorry for replying so much in one post. I know double posting is rude.)
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Jim doesn't have anything to do with the Joker unfortunately (it would be hilarious if she used one of the Joker aliases for Heath's fake name). Joker has gone by Joe, Jack, and Joseph, among others, but no Jim. Only relevance to the Batman realm of things would be Commissioner Jim Gordon but that doesn't make much sense. Other than that, Jim Lee is a comic book artist who has worked on a couple notable Batman arcs that include Joker (Hush, in particular). I think she simply chose a generic male name for him though, much like the other names she picked.
All of these pictures transport me to 10 years ago. My god. It's hard to remember this is a cow in [CURRENT YEAR]. I didn't even know people like this still exist, right down to the mirror selfies with a digital camera.
I'd argue that she hates Roof because his bowl cut is of noticeably better quality and style.
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- Oct 4, 2016
How come almost every one of her selfies looks like she is reclined in a bed, as if she is filming a testamonial for My 600 lb Lifa?
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- Feb 19, 2018
Probably because she almost never leaves her bed?
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- May 7, 2018
She's prepping for the job she wants. Full time freak show attraction
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- Oct 5, 2016
Either a bed or a couch. She really needs to go out and get the stink blown off of her for a bit. Being indoors so much isn't good for peeps.
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"Peter put his thingy in my u-no-wut and then I totally did it wit jim and den dey did eeachotther!11 so hawt n goffik. annyway im also a witch n a demon frum hell lol fuk u haterz"
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Here:
1. Name(and how you decided on this name if this isn’t your birth name)
Sapphire Crimson Claw… I wanted one that was genderless, reflective of my love for horror and being goth, and reflective of my kintypes (demon/cat). It’s also the same initials as my birth name.
2. Age: 26 (almost 27)
3. Location: upstate NY, USA
4. How do you identify? agenderflux, going between agender and demigirl
5. Sexuality: pansexual, autochorissexual
6. Coming out(how did you come out? How have people in your life reacted to you coming out? Etc) After a fight, I told my family when everyone was calmed down.
7. Family (are they supportive? What issues have you dealt with? How have you dealt with unsupportive family members? Etc) They have trouble getting it. They see trans as MTF and FTM and still think of me as a woman/female. I don’t even broach the subject of pronouns.
8. Where are you in you transition? I am undecided about medical transition. Just stopped shaving body hair (legs/pits) and use my new name/pronouns online and with safe folks in real life. Express myself with goth makeup/clothing/jewelry.
9. Work(are you out where you work? Are you stealth? Your experiences with be trans and working? Etc) I imagine I won’t be out at work unless it’s at an LGBTQ related job.
10. Hormones (therapy, your first time, changes, how do you feel, how long have you been on hormones, etc) None, haven’t decided.
11. Surgeries (how did you feel before and after surgery, what surgeries have you had, healing process, etc) None, haven’t decided.
12. Friends(are they accepting, how have you dealt with unsupportive friends, etc) Came out via email to one of my lifelong best friends, and she was very supportive.
13. Describe yourself in general(hobbies, interests, etc)
Horror movies, horror books, drawing, writing, listening to/recording my own scary story narrations, Buddhist practice, paranormal investigation, cat lover, goth, metal head, also loves Michael Jackson.
14. Sex(anything you are willing to open about this subject)
I lost my virginity at 19 to my boyfriend, whom I still have.
15. Passing (how do you feel when you pass, how does it feel to misgendered, what do you do to help you pass more, specific stories, etc)
I am generally very annoyed with being misgendered, and it will exacerbate my anxiety after a while. Even before considering myself NB, I never felt feminine and just went along with it. But it was really nice to write “NB” on a sign-up for a Hot Topic rewards card and have the counter girl say, “I’ve been trying real hard to get management in here to provide this option, because it happens all the time.”
16. Bathrooms (issues in choosing a bathroom to use, how it makes you feel, experiences using bathrooms, etc)
I use the women’s room because I still look pretty femme, but with hairy legs it can be awkward at times. I would much prefer a neutral option.
17. Dysphoria/being misgendered (how do you deal, what situations make you feel more dysphoric, how does being misgendered make you feel, how do you react when you get misgendered, etc)
I have always had bad body dysphoria with my breasts, which are pretty substantial (D-cups). I never understood why I hated them so much and was so self-conscious about cleavage until I started learning about being trans/NB. Now on my girl days, I don’t mind showing a little. I much more have mental/social dysphoria, with misgendering, and get stares at times for being hairy and yet perceived as female.
18. Childhood, high school, college(what was it like growing up, when did you know, etc)
I never felt like a girl and prefer playing with boy things/groups of boys. I was considered a tomboy and quite happy with being tall, skinny, and flat chested until the end of high school/college where I started to gain weight and get a bigger bust. I was bullied badly through school, first for being neurodiverse and in special ed, then for liking Clay Aiken (everyone was so homophobic, including my family). College made things easier because the people were nicer, and I started to understand myself as bisexual at the time. I didn’t figure out my gender until grad school, and now I wish I had sooner.
19. Packers/STPs(do you use them, experiences using them, what do you use, etc) none
20. Religion (are you religious, how had religion affected your transition, what do you believe, what does your family believe and how has it affected your transition, etc)
I feel that being of a religion from the East rather than West has made things much better, as there’s no shaming involved like in Christianity. With reincarnation/rebirth, it’s much easier to say to yourself that you have several energies within your body, some left over from a prior life, and that it’s acceptable to not possess a gender because you are closer to being like the Buddha. I have times where I flirt with Satanism, but only as a “be yourself” type of belief. My beliefs in the paranormal, metaphysics, etc, have also helped. Both in Buddhism and if you have experience with spirits, you can understand how ephemeral and impermanent life is, so live it up while you can.
21. Kids (did you have kids prior to transition, have you had kids since starting to transition, do you want kids, if you have kids just talk about them and how it relates to your transition, etc) none
22. Binding(problems you have had, what do you use, etc) I’d like to try binding, but there aren’t many resources around here. Plus, I don’t think I’d like it, due to sensory issues.
23. This one is for the MTF since I’m obviously not as familiar to what you have to do anything you want to add here that I have not thought to touch on such as makeup and learning to do makeup and things that help you pass and anything else I have forgot to put a category to.
24. Dating(how has your dating life changed since being out, struggles you deal with when finding someone to date, if you are stealth when do you tell someone you are transgender, etc)
I have had a really positive experience with my cishet male partner. He’s been so supportive with labels, pronouns, etc, and he admits that he kind of knew from the get-go that I wasn’t much of a girl. He’s been my rock through all of this.
25. This one is for the gender neutral, gender queer, bigender, and all other categories that are under the trans umbrella since I’m also not as familiar with these please talk about any subjects specific to you that doesn’t fall under the other categories
Being agender/NB makes people really doubt and gaslight you, even other trans people, and that’s really unfortunate. I don’t really know what more to add.
26. Legal stuff(name change process, gender marker change, struggles you have had with this, etc)
I would really like to change my name someday, but I still have doubts about it being taken seriously. Sometimes I just think of using it as a pen-name for my creative stuff, because as an aspiring social worker, would I not be seen as professional? Would I struggle to get jobs? Still very confused and wish I had someone more to talk to.
27. Struggles(any other struggles you have face doesn’t mean they have to be trans related. Such as depression, addiction, homelessness, etc. Just things you have gone through and if/how they have affected your transition)
Lifelong depression, a bad psychotic episode in high school, OCD, anxiety, autism, sensory stuff, emotional abuse from my family, physical disabilities and chronic illnesses. (I think I’ll email for this part, if that’s all right)
28. This final topic is for those of you that have questioned or are questioning your gender identity. Share your story here such as your thought process, if you have come to a conclusion how did you come to that conclusion, what factors affected this, etc.
If you have any topics or questions you think needed to be added to this please share and if you want answer them. I want this to be as detailed as possible and I don’t want to forget anything.
I’m writing my own book right now, and plan on using Lulu.com to self-publish. You should give it a shot, too, it’s free. Plus I know someone who can edit it that I plan to use. Do you have a patreon? I do, and we can support each other if so.
Any other stories or experiences you wish to talk about. Feel free to write about whatever you like in this section. (email)
Do you give me permission to take your experiences and stories and possibly add them into the fictional stories featured in this book? Yes.
Would you mind answering any follow up questions I may have? Sure, like I said, in my ask.
Lastly would you be willing to have your name in the thanks yous in the book? Absolutely.
Responses can also be sent via email if that is easier for you. Email:fingerprintssot@gmail.com
I appreciate your help in this project. <3
1. Name(and how you decided on this name if this isn’t your birth name)
Sapphire Crimson Claw… I wanted one that was genderless, reflective of my love for horror and being goth, and reflective of my kintypes (demon/cat). It’s also the same initials as my birth name.
2. Age: 26 (almost 27)
3. Location: upstate NY, USA
4. How do you identify? agenderflux, going between agender and demigirl
5. Sexuality: pansexual, autochorissexual
6. Coming out(how did you come out? How have people in your life reacted to you coming out? Etc) After a fight, I told my family when everyone was calmed down.
7. Family (are they supportive? What issues have you dealt with? How have you dealt with unsupportive family members? Etc) They have trouble getting it. They see trans as MTF and FTM and still think of me as a woman/female. I don’t even broach the subject of pronouns.
8. Where are you in you transition? I am undecided about medical transition. Just stopped shaving body hair (legs/pits) and use my new name/pronouns online and with safe folks in real life. Express myself with goth makeup/clothing/jewelry.
9. Work(are you out where you work? Are you stealth? Your experiences with be trans and working? Etc) I imagine I won’t be out at work unless it’s at an LGBTQ related job.
10. Hormones (therapy, your first time, changes, how do you feel, how long have you been on hormones, etc) None, haven’t decided.
11. Surgeries (how did you feel before and after surgery, what surgeries have you had, healing process, etc) None, haven’t decided.
12. Friends(are they accepting, how have you dealt with unsupportive friends, etc) Came out via email to one of my lifelong best friends, and she was very supportive.
13. Describe yourself in general(hobbies, interests, etc)
Horror movies, horror books, drawing, writing, listening to/recording my own scary story narrations, Buddhist practice, paranormal investigation, cat lover, goth, metal head, also loves Michael Jackson.
14. Sex(anything you are willing to open about this subject)
I lost my virginity at 19 to my boyfriend, whom I still have.
15. Passing (how do you feel when you pass, how does it feel to misgendered, what do you do to help you pass more, specific stories, etc)
I am generally very annoyed with being misgendered, and it will exacerbate my anxiety after a while. Even before considering myself NB, I never felt feminine and just went along with it. But it was really nice to write “NB” on a sign-up for a Hot Topic rewards card and have the counter girl say, “I’ve been trying real hard to get management in here to provide this option, because it happens all the time.”
16. Bathrooms (issues in choosing a bathroom to use, how it makes you feel, experiences using bathrooms, etc)
I use the women’s room because I still look pretty femme, but with hairy legs it can be awkward at times. I would much prefer a neutral option.
17. Dysphoria/being misgendered (how do you deal, what situations make you feel more dysphoric, how does being misgendered make you feel, how do you react when you get misgendered, etc)
I have always had bad body dysphoria with my breasts, which are pretty substantial (D-cups). I never understood why I hated them so much and was so self-conscious about cleavage until I started learning about being trans/NB. Now on my girl days, I don’t mind showing a little. I much more have mental/social dysphoria, with misgendering, and get stares at times for being hairy and yet perceived as female.
18. Childhood, high school, college(what was it like growing up, when did you know, etc)
I never felt like a girl and prefer playing with boy things/groups of boys. I was considered a tomboy and quite happy with being tall, skinny, and flat chested until the end of high school/college where I started to gain weight and get a bigger bust. I was bullied badly through school, first for being neurodiverse and in special ed, then for liking Clay Aiken (everyone was so homophobic, including my family). College made things easier because the people were nicer, and I started to understand myself as bisexual at the time. I didn’t figure out my gender until grad school, and now I wish I had sooner.
19. Packers/STPs(do you use them, experiences using them, what do you use, etc) none
20. Religion (are you religious, how had religion affected your transition, what do you believe, what does your family believe and how has it affected your transition, etc)
I feel that being of a religion from the East rather than West has made things much better, as there’s no shaming involved like in Christianity. With reincarnation/rebirth, it’s much easier to say to yourself that you have several energies within your body, some left over from a prior life, and that it’s acceptable to not possess a gender because you are closer to being like the Buddha. I have times where I flirt with Satanism, but only as a “be yourself” type of belief. My beliefs in the paranormal, metaphysics, etc, have also helped. Both in Buddhism and if you have experience with spirits, you can understand how ephemeral and impermanent life is, so live it up while you can.
21. Kids (did you have kids prior to transition, have you had kids since starting to transition, do you want kids, if you have kids just talk about them and how it relates to your transition, etc) none
22. Binding(problems you have had, what do you use, etc) I’d like to try binding, but there aren’t many resources around here. Plus, I don’t think I’d like it, due to sensory issues.
23. This one is for the MTF since I’m obviously not as familiar to what you have to do anything you want to add here that I have not thought to touch on such as makeup and learning to do makeup and things that help you pass and anything else I have forgot to put a category to.
24. Dating(how has your dating life changed since being out, struggles you deal with when finding someone to date, if you are stealth when do you tell someone you are transgender, etc)
I have had a really positive experience with my cishet male partner. He’s been so supportive with labels, pronouns, etc, and he admits that he kind of knew from the get-go that I wasn’t much of a girl. He’s been my rock through all of this.
25. This one is for the gender neutral, gender queer, bigender, and all other categories that are under the trans umbrella since I’m also not as familiar with these please talk about any subjects specific to you that doesn’t fall under the other categories
Being agender/NB makes people really doubt and gaslight you, even other trans people, and that’s really unfortunate. I don’t really know what more to add.
26. Legal stuff(name change process, gender marker change, struggles you have had with this, etc)
I would really like to change my name someday, but I still have doubts about it being taken seriously. Sometimes I just think of using it as a pen-name for my creative stuff, because as an aspiring social worker, would I not be seen as professional? Would I struggle to get jobs? Still very confused and wish I had someone more to talk to.
27. Struggles(any other struggles you have face doesn’t mean they have to be trans related. Such as depression, addiction, homelessness, etc. Just things you have gone through and if/how they have affected your transition)
Lifelong depression, a bad psychotic episode in high school, OCD, anxiety, autism, sensory stuff, emotional abuse from my family, physical disabilities and chronic illnesses. (I think I’ll email for this part, if that’s all right)
28. This final topic is for those of you that have questioned or are questioning your gender identity. Share your story here such as your thought process, if you have come to a conclusion how did you come to that conclusion, what factors affected this, etc.
If you have any topics or questions you think needed to be added to this please share and if you want answer them. I want this to be as detailed as possible and I don’t want to forget anything.
I’m writing my own book right now, and plan on using Lulu.com to self-publish. You should give it a shot, too, it’s free. Plus I know someone who can edit it that I plan to use. Do you have a patreon? I do, and we can support each other if so.
Any other stories or experiences you wish to talk about. Feel free to write about whatever you like in this section. (email)
Do you give me permission to take your experiences and stories and possibly add them into the fictional stories featured in this book? Yes.
Would you mind answering any follow up questions I may have? Sure, like I said, in my ask.
Lastly would you be willing to have your name in the thanks yous in the book? Absolutely.
Responses can also be sent via email if that is easier for you. Email:fingerprintssot@gmail.com
I appreciate your help in this project. <3
I'm honestly always surprised at how little she's grown as a person over two years. This was written two years ago and the only things that have changed are that she's added more labels to her identity.
While this argument has some merits, unfortunately with globalization femininity has become more "standardized" and more recognizable. Your culture and country is American and more specifically New York where it isn't hard to recognize you're undoubtably female.
"Familial abuse". She still lives with her family right? It's not familial abuse if they don't play into your delusions or tell you to get a job (at 30 no less!)
While mental retardation is not the "acceptable term", it is still used by many professionals (who helped set up the social work system and weren't ever "officially licensed" as well as still commonly used in the medical field and in laws. You need to remember your history. One of the largest organizations to assist people with intellectual and developmental disabilities is the Arc which was previously called the Association for Retarded Citizens of the United States (ARC).
Notably she used to be Buddhist before morphing into her tru-goth Satanic self
It's what keeps idiots like you out.
Lady of the House
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Aug 25, 2017
"I'm not related to Jeffrey Dahmer but I wish he was because he's a major fucking hottie"
"Peter put his thingy in my u-no-wut and then I totally did it wit jim and den dey did eeachotther!11 so hawt n goffik. annyway im also a witch n a demon frum hell lol fuk u haterz"
- Joined
- Mar 29, 2018
Sapphire is such an androgynous name, wouldn't you agree?
Translation: I want to watch my gay boyfriends have sex
Sexist.
Man it's so awkward going into the women's room with hairy legs.
I just don't understand why they would see me as a female, even though I'm hairy.....
She also said that she's a virgin, and only had sex with her ghost boyfriends. Which one is it, Stephanie?
I am more like Buddha! Better than other people! Also religious sexism. No self awareness to be found.
Another inconsistency, she said she was not autistic and only had autistic symptoms, meaning not enough to be diagnosed which is actually
In order to be diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, a person must show only two of these 4 traits:
- “Marked impairment” regarding nonverbal social cues (doesn’t make eye contact, doesn’t understand others’ body language, etc);
- Failure to make friends;
- Lack of appropriate social and emotional responses to others
- Inability to spontaneously share enjoyment, interests and achievements with other people.
- An abnormal and intense interest in one subject;
- Adherence to a strict set of rules, routines and rituals;
- Repetition of certain mannerisms like hand flapping, hair twisting or even whole body movements;
- An obsession in the parts or mechanics of objects.
What a wreck.
- Joined
- Apr 12, 2016
Sapphire is such an androgynous name, wouldn't you agree?
Translation: I want to watch my gay boyfriends have sex
Sexist.
Man it's so awkward going into the women's room with hairy legs.I just don't understand why they would see me as a female, even though I'm hairy.....
She also said that she's a virgin, and only had sex with her ghost boyfriends. Which one is it, Stephanie?
I am more like Buddha! Better than other people! Also religious sexism. No self awareness to be found.
Another inconsistency, she said she was not autistic and only had autistic symptoms, meaning not enough to be diagnosed which is actuallyEnough sperg-sperging but you get the idea. She was a little weird and that's it. Judging by old photos she didn't make friends because she was ugly and her old and out of touch parents dressed her like a stereotypical tard. Niche interests because she was sheltered and wasn't exposed to much.In order to be diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, a person must show only two of these 4 traits:
In addition, the person must show only one of these 4 behaviors:
- “Marked impairment” regarding nonverbal social cues (doesn’t make eye contact, doesn’t understand others’ body language, etc);
- Failure to make friends;
- Lack of appropriate social and emotional responses to others
- Inability to spontaneously share enjoyment, interests and achievements with other people.
- An abnormal and intense interest in one subject;
- Adherence to a strict set of rules, routines and rituals;
- Repetition of certain mannerisms like hand flapping, hair twisting or even whole body movements;
- An obsession in the parts or mechanics of objects.
What a wreck.
love that being bullied over Clay Aiken is her origin story for being as tragic as she is.
Peanut
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Aug 7, 2015
Another story. Squiggly Line and Silly Letters. The construction of the story is better than most of the others, but it's still a cringefest. The constant mention of other media is so distracting and awkward, as well.
"The hormones cisnormative society would call male surging inside of them, Santiago would admit to themselves to a crush, but would never speak it to Valencia." that's one hell of a sentence
Also, a 30 year old befriending a lone highschooler and inviting him to her home... hmm.
lol at the pointless autism tangent
"This wasn't the type of shit a vengeful ex would conjure up. That would be, like (...) that one of them was bisexual." ??
has a beard and gets mad when called 'he,' enough to drop therapy to cure crippling nightmares. nice one.
I also like 'not even Del Toro would come up with this!!' followed by a description of a basic-ass monster.
'trembling in their balls' again with the fucking balls reaction shots
lol at the very polite exposition from the hellbeast in modern, normal english
after bitching about misgendering earlier, the author "misgenders" her own character by using "his/him"
"The hormones cisnormative society would call male surging inside of them, Santiago would admit to themselves to a crush, but would never speak it to Valencia." that's one hell of a sentence
Also, a 30 year old befriending a lone highschooler and inviting him to her home... hmm.
lol at the pointless autism tangent
"This wasn't the type of shit a vengeful ex would conjure up. That would be, like (...) that one of them was bisexual." ??
has a beard and gets mad when called 'he,' enough to drop therapy to cure crippling nightmares. nice one.
I also like 'not even Del Toro would come up with this!!' followed by a description of a basic-ass monster.
'trembling in their balls' again with the fucking balls reaction shots
lol at the very polite exposition from the hellbeast in modern, normal english
after bitching about misgendering earlier, the author "misgenders" her own character by using "his/him"