Anyone ever get feelings of Depersonalization?

I'm with the other people who used to have that issue but don't anymore. Pretty sure it was anxiety or something and the fact that I didn't have a very clearly defined 'me' to begin with. Oddly enough, hallucinogens never triggered it.

Now I'm firmly rooted in my abrasive personality so it's fine. You might grow out of it, or you might need to see a therapist or something.
 
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Kaede Did Nothing Wrong said:
dissociative disorders are a pretty serious symptoms to be experiencing OP and probably fueled by a root problem you need to address. it's not like you have brain cancer or schizophrenia so nothing to get too spooked over, but I think you'll have better luck fielding the question to people who've sought professional help for the same issue and hearing what they learned. iirc this also isn't the sort of problem doctors rush to hop you up on pill when they hear, which is also good.
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Dissociation is tied heavily to trauma. There are pdocs who, depending on things like comorbidity with other issues, will chuck pills at you like it's going out of style but they can't force you to take a damned thing unless you get yourself involuntarily committed/1013d/whatever.
 
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As a kid I occasionally experienced sleepwalking and Alice in Wonderland syndrome, and as a teenager occasional brief depersonalization, especially when waking. I think these experiences are normal with developing brains and kids experiencing new things and trying to make sense of them, though some could have been anxiety influenced as well.

However, in 10th grade I had a weird experience that I haven't had since. I was on a school trip to a theme park and went on a ride where were given 3D glasses. Creatures or monsters or something came at you during it, and at some points mist was produced by the ride to startle you. After the ride, I came out feeling very weird. Using the metaphor of a car as conciousness, normally you're in the driver's seat, but I felt as if I somehow got pushed to the backseat. I still had control of my body, as if I could relay the messages to the driver and he would respond appropriately, but it wasn't a 1:1 thing like normal consciousness. This feeling didn't subside for a couple hours. I was totally sober and had never done any drugs at this point, so I can't really explain why this happened.
 
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ApatheticViewer said:
I get these sometimes. Basically it feels like I'm outside my body watching myself. I'll look at my hand and not think it's actually me. I'll walk around and feel like I'm being controlled

It feels like I don't actually exist in my body. Like I'm trapped inside myself watching myself
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I've always been curious as to how this is such a rare and/or exotic sensation for so many people.

For me personally, I've always been able to have a third person view of myself and could readily picture or even view myself outside of myself. I guess it's just a part of how I think, so to me, that was pretty normal. That includes even willingly imagining parts of me were someone else, myself inside someone else's body, just the notion that others might not see colors the same (which is true for species) and it just goes on and on.

I think everyone else just slips into it occasionally and then gets startled by the notion the world exists outside themselves. But for me, that fact has always been one of the coolest aspects of being alive. I like feeling depersonalized and then trying to personalize someone else's head, from time to time.
 
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ApatheticViewer said:
I get these sometimes. Basically it feels like I'm outside my body watching myself. I'll look at my hand and not think it's actually me. I'll walk around and feel like I'm being controlled

It feels like I don't actually exist in my body. Like I'm trapped inside myself watching myself
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Time to troon out, you fucking fairy. Please provide all dox before you go completely insane to make it easier on us. Are you going to be a makeup queen or a skirts-only gal? Time will tell!
 
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I used to think I was just a part of somebody’s dream. Sometimes I’d have brief moments where I felt like I wasn’t me. Difficult to explain, but weird and unpleasant.

Thankfully it almost never happens anymore.
 
I experienced something similar when I was a kid but it also involves having these weird sensations of the room expanding.

Seems to happen whenever I get a fever.
 
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WinterMoonsLight said:
I don't know if this is actually just a side effect and I'm being an idiot, or if smoking it brought out a latent symptom of it, but I may have had something similar.

My first time smoking weed, I was trying to be Mr. Big Tough Badass and not pacing myself. I chiefed an entire joint of Blue Dream, pretty potent strain and not recommend for newbies.

About an hour in, and I was in hell. I was utterly convinced that my entire life up to that point was a hallucination I had conjured to cope, an escapist fantasy and the real me was in a mental institution. I was 100% convinced of this. I kept begging my friends to convince me that they were real, that I was real. I was terrified.

I slept it off eventually, but those feelings persisted a good three weeks after. I hadn't smoked any more green in that period, no alcohol or any other substance.

I had read accounts that "greening out" on weed can lead to feelings of depersonalization, and it sounded very similar to what I was feeling, especially how long those feelings lingered after the high wore off.

I don't know if that's what you're looking for, but that's my story.
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imagine being this much of a bitch over weed

jk, i had a fucked up experience once like that too and the only way i thought i could get through it was by walking around in circles, i was convinced i was gonna drop dead if i stopped moving, like i was some kind of fucking shark. the funny thing about weed is after you have that one really fucked up trip, you kinda never have it again, it's like that's part of the right of passage or something.
 
Guts Gets Some said:
For me personally, I've always been able to have a third person view of myself and could readily picture or even view myself outside of myself. I guess it's just a part of how I think, so to me, that was pretty normal. That includes even willingly imagining parts of me were someone else, myself inside someone else's body, just the notion that others might not see colors the same (which is true for species) and it just goes on and on.
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Yea I used to get those feelings as a kid a lot "Could I have been born as someone else or not even as a human? What if I never existed or was raised in Germany or Japan? Is it possible I could have been born a duck or an insect? What is my consciousness?? "Etc.
 
Something very similar happened to me when I was younger and a whole lot dumber, but it was because I had been taking a bunch of xanax every day, didn't know withdrawals were a thing, and had stopped taking them in order to pass the drug test for a job I was getting. It had also happened once before that due to a bad acid trip, ugh
 
WinterMoonsLight said:
I don't know if this is actually just a side effect and I'm being an idiot, or if smoking it brought out a latent symptom of it, but I may have had something similar.

My first time smoking weed, I was trying to be Mr. Big Tough Badass and not pacing myself. I chiefed an entire joint of Blue Dream, pretty potent strain and not recommend for newbies.

About an hour in, and I was in hell. I was utterly convinced that my entire life up to that point was a hallucination I had conjured to cope, an escapist fantasy and the real me was in a mental institution. I was 100% convinced of this. I kept begging my friends to convince me that they were real, that I was real. I was terrified.

I slept it off eventually, but those feelings persisted a good three weeks after. I hadn't smoked any more green in that period, no alcohol or any other substance.

I had read accounts that "greening out" on weed can lead to feelings of depersonalization, and it sounded very similar to what I was feeling, especially how long those feelings lingered after the high wore off.

I don't know if that's what you're looking for, but that's my story.
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what you want to do with pot is use it regularly in small amounts and ramp up to your optimal dose over a period of maybe two weeks.
In my experience what happens is your brain and body kind of adapts to it and the paranoia factor goes away completely. It's almost like a different drug.
for future reference, if you carry a bit of CBD oil with you you can dose that under your tongue when you smoke and it will take the psychotic edge off of the buzz.
 
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Kaede Did Nothing Wrong said:
dissociative disorders are a pretty serious symptoms to be experiencing OP and probably fueled by a root problem you need to address. it's not like you have brain cancer or schizophrenia so nothing to get too spooked over, but I think you'll have better luck fielding the question to people who've sought professional help for the same issue and hearing what they learned. iirc this also isn't the sort of problem doctors rush to hop you up on pill when they hear, which is also good.
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agreed. dissociative episodes can come with PTSD or as a part of some sorts of ASD fits; since OP is here, gonna guess the latter

Mr. A. L. Mao said:
As a kid I occasionally experienced sleepwalking and Alice in Wonderland syndrome, and as a teenager occasional brief depersonalization, especially when waking. I think these experiences are normal with developing brains and kids experiencing new things and trying to make sense of them, though some could have been anxiety influenced as well.

However, in 10th grade I had a weird experience that I haven't had since. I was on a school trip to a theme park and went on a ride where were given 3D glasses. Creatures or monsters or something came at you during it, and at some points mist was produced by the ride to startle you. After the ride, I came out feeling very weird. Using the metaphor of a car as conciousness, normally you're in the driver's seat, but I felt as if I somehow got pushed to the backseat. I still had control of my body, as if I could relay the messages to the driver and he would respond appropriately, but it wasn't a 1:1 thing like normal consciousness. This feeling didn't subside for a couple hours. I was totally sober and had never done any drugs at this point, so I can't really explain why this happened.
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Could have been a sort of overstimulation from the ride; did you have trouble talking or with manual dexterity while you were still feeling weird? are you on the spectrum?
 
I sometimes think about that. Maybe I’m just a soul controlling a human.
 
Mr. A. L. Mao said:
As a kid I occasionally experienced sleepwalking and Alice in Wonderland syndrome, and as a teenager occasional brief depersonalization, especially when waking. I think these experiences are normal with developing brains and kids experiencing new things and trying to make sense of them, though some could have been anxiety influenced as well.

However, in 10th grade I had a weird experience that I haven't had since. I was on a school trip to a theme park and went on a ride where were given 3D glasses. Creatures or monsters or something came at you during it, and at some points mist was produced by the ride to startle you. After the ride, I came out feeling very weird. Using the metaphor of a car as conciousness, normally you're in the driver's seat, but I felt as if I somehow got pushed to the backseat. I still had control of my body, as if I could relay the messages to the driver and he would respond appropriately, but it wasn't a 1:1 thing like normal consciousness. This feeling didn't subside for a couple hours. I was totally sober and had never done any drugs at this point, so I can't really explain why this happened.
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Hey was the ride at Busch Gardens?
 
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