this dude is 100% going to kill himself
Ooh yeah, he's fucked. I just saw all of this for the first time, and haven't seen his old videos, but he seems way on edge and irrational. Way too fatalistic too. Sure, he betrayed his gf and destroyed their relationship, but that's normal for people his age. It's not some extraordinary, life-ruining event. How he's reacted to it, and conducted himself after is what's really ruinous.
Also, he should leave the whole "Mumkey could only get me girlfriends" out of his public pity party. He's basically calling his ex-gf, and his current fiance both groupie hoes when he says that. Even if it's true, still not something he wants to be saying in a YouTube vid about the shorties he claims to care about. And what's up with his 3× count for getting laid as Mumkey? He's gotta be lumping all the times with Sheepover into 1, right?
Having known a lot of addicts, he's giving me a way worse vibe. He's talking about redemption and stuff, but he's exuding hopelessness.
There's a cognitive dissonance... A fundamental difference between his outlook, and the emotions that he's actually giving off and that's what's really worrying.
Despite the fact that he's a piece of shit, I don't want him to fucking die. But I don't think he'll make it through the year if something doesn't change.
Guy feels like a legitimate suicide risk.
I've known a lot of them too, I don't know what Mumkey's former default settings for stability, outlook, attitude, etc were like, except for the depression. It'll limit resistance to acceptance of narco-chemical assistance, especially if a person isn't vigilant about it, or is too friendly with degenerates who can get him shit.
I'd guess they had some involvement in his current state , whether it was weed & hallucinogens exacerbating his mental condition and causing after effects he's still dealing with, or a monkey found Mumkey and is still comfortable riding on back until the hard stuff ends the journey.
He does have a type of hopelessness I've seen in some addicts that are near rock bottom. Impending doom, no future, low self-worth and high self-loathing.
It was sorta scary to see, especially in some of the moments he'd be joking and laughing all weird, like he was close to losing control of both his manic laughter and mind
You're right on about the cognitive dissonance. It stood out as one of his consistent traits throughout all the clips. His thought processes are fucked, lead him into endless George Costanza Opposite Days when it comes to drawing logical conclusions and making decisions.