And that's the crux of the problem.
You are apparently under the delusion a woman would willingly submit to such acts of their own free will, and have mentioned if that doesn't happen, you'd be willing to drug and hypnotize them into compliance.
Basically, you are (thankfully) too cowardly to commit a crime to eat a human being (and I pray it stays that way), and you are also too stupid to do so even if you wanted to without getting caught, and I say this because practically every single thing you mentioned wanting to do has been logically flawed and it has been explained to you in intricate detail why.
This is probably futile, but fuck it, I have to say I tried:
You are mentally ill. Eating another human being is not a sane legal, ethical, or moral act. You need to voluntarily submit yourself to a psychiatric facility for the protection of yourself and others and get some help. You have a desire that is inherently illegal, you know this, and have mentioned a willingness to risk breaking the law to fulfill it anyway.
You ever cross the line and do what you are planning, and you have damned yourself to being a social outcast and if caught, a very possible death sentence.
And presuming you believe in an afterlife, that is not going to be much of an improvement.
SO GET SOME HELP.