I have followed the trans debate online for years. In those years have seen everything come by, the neovagina/phalloplasty disasters, the stories of trans murders (trannies murdering and trannies getting murdered), pedophiles and murder-rapists transitioning in jail to get access to more victims, truly depraved examples of predation driven by the most unhinged manifestations of terminal mental illness.
I had never, though, come across a man who hated himself and his manhood so much, that he took a knife to himself by himself. In full consciousness. Livestreaming the whole thing for the world to see. I thought this stuff no longer existed. I thought transitioning had been institutionalized by the psychomedical establishment to prevent exactly this kind of self-mutilation (which was an occurence in the days before medical transitioning) from ever happening again. How naive I was.
I discovered the "self-made woman" Jadis Illiana Argiope after watching
the Livestream interview with Benjamin Boyce. I then discovered while reading Jadis' Twitter timeline - in a dispute he had there with Ballwaxer - that Jadis was a Ballcutter, a trannie who had mutilated their own genitals, seemingly driven by depression and extreme bottom dysphoria and some vague activist desire to support the drive for informed consent transitions:
Jadis (the Self-Made Woman) Argiope (responding to Ballwaxer)
You're more like climate change: you're destructive, you displace lives, cost a fortune in damages, you test many people's faith in God, and most everyone wants to stop you--save those insane few who don't see you for the crisis you have been empowered to become.
“You're more like climate change: you're destructive, you displace lives, cost a fortune in damages, you test many people's faith in God, and most everyone wants to stop you--save those insane few who don't see you for the crisis you have been empowered to become. https://t.co/BKmiF4wH9N”
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At least I don’t take a knife to my stuff and perform surgery on myself and then create a guide for other trans folk to mutilate themselves “self made woman” #LGBTQ
“At least I don’t take a knife to my stuff and perform surgery on myself and then create a guide for other trans folk to mutilate themselves “self made woman” #LGBTQ https://t.co/bcSTOB6RCE”
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Yaniv is referring to my past, where I performed my own orchiectomy because the local doctors wouldn't do it, and even the ones fifty miles away who would were charging thousands of dollars. This isn't an insult, and I am not embarrassed by this coming out. #IRegretNothing
“Yaniv is referring to my past, where I performed my own orchiectomy because the local doctors wouldn't do it, and even the ones fifty miles away who would were charging thousands of dollars. This isn't an insult, and I am not embarrassed by this coming out. #IRegretNothing https://t.co/9v75DigYdE”
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I found some
mainstream articles about this incident that mentioned there being a video of the whole thing. Jadis did indeed Livestream the process from a website where he was doing web cam sex shows and working TS porn actor at the time. He also posted a series of videos to Youtube but those were all removed:
I uploaded a YouTube video -- Operation: Tranny Freedom - Part II http://youtu.be/pjvBREAqU-o?a
“I uploaded a YouTube video -- Operation: Tranny Freedom - Part II http://youtu.be/pjvBREAqU-o?a”
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What still remains online are the pictures Jadis posted to Twitter, which he posted live while he was cutting his balls out. He also documented the healing process, which did not commence as expected and ended with him having to go to the hospital from his botched "self-castration". These are the pictures and the associated tweets bellow:
@LibertyHarkness I miss sex with guys. I miss sex, period. This abstinence thing is driving me up the wall! How do Christians do this?
“@LibertyHarkness I miss sex with guys. I miss sex, period. This abstinence thing is driving me up the wall! How do Christians do this?”
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I miss sex. I miss real imtimacy. Maybe, after the surgery, all of these feelings will go away? Then it won't hurt so much? Maybe?
“I miss sex. I miss real imtimacy. Maybe, after the surgery, all of these feelings will go away? Then it won't hurt so much? Maybe?”
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I should make it a goal to meet Lady Gaga pretty soon too. Perhaps I'll offer her my invitation live during the surgery later this month?
“I should make it a goal to meet Lady Gaga pretty soon too. Perhaps I'll offer her my invitation live during the surgery later this month?”
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I really wish I could just cut out my hypothalamus and pituitary gland sometimes. Sometimes they just bug the crap out of me!
“I really wish I could just cut out my hypothalamus and pituitary gland sometimes. Sometimes they just bug the crap out of me!”
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18 October 2010 - The countdown to Operation Tranny Freedom is on.
“18 October 2010 - The countdown to Operation Tranny Freedom is on.”
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@Jasmine_Jewels Operation Tranny Freedom is the day I liberate myself from my Androgenous Oppressor! In other words, my left testicle. 
“@Jasmine_Jewels Operation Tranny Freedom is the day I liberate myself from my Androgenous Oppressor! In other words, my left testicle. :)”
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I need you all to be ready for my word any day now. This will be one Hell of a battle and there will be blood. And in the aftermath, freedom
“I need you all to be ready for my word any day now. This will be one Hell of a battle and there will be blood. And in the aftermath, freedom”
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@S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN
28 Oct 2010
If step three fails, start over and repeat step one. Let you know when I've got my vas in site.
“If step three fails, start over and repeat step one. Let you know when I've got my vas in site.”
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Correction, sight. Not site. Sorry.
“Correction, sight. Not site. Sorry.”
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Fuck, hit an artery.
“Fuck, hit an artery.”
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Arteries are the ones that pulse, right?
“Arteries are the ones that pulse, right?”
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So for today I am in a considerable amount of pain, and if this liquid suture ruptures it's going to look like I'm having quite a heavy flow
“So for today I am in a considerable amount of pain, and if this liquid suture ruptures it's going to look like I'm having quite a heavy flow”
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@Jasmine_Jewels I believe I am meant to do something with this life, and those around me are meant to mold me into that instrument of change
“@Jasmine_Jewels I believe I am meant to do something with this life, and those around me are meant to mold me into that instrument of change”
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WARNING, EXTREMELY GRAPHIC PICTURES FOLLOW
CLICK AT YOUR OWN RISK
See....It's practically healed all on it's own! http://twitpic.com/34332t
“See....It's practically healed all on it's own! http://twitpic.com/34332t”
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http://twitpic.com/36ko8x Lord have mercy on me....
“http://twitpic.com/36ko8x Lord have mercy on me....”
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Up close. Give me sexy, baby. Sexy....no, no. And I'm spent! http://twitpic.com/36lks2 I am totally losing it.
“Up close. Give me sexy, baby. Sexy....no, no. And I'm spent! http://twitpic.com/36lks2 I am totally losing it.”
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If I could show the world one thing, it would be the bloody struggle that we endure as transwomen - http://twitpic.com/36llbx
“If I could show the world one thing, it would be the bloody struggle that we endure as transwomen - http://twitpic.com/36llbx”
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Remarkably the teste is still outside, exposed, for now nearly 24 hours - http://twitpic.com/36whrq
“Remarkably the teste is still outside, exposed, for now nearly 24 hours - http://twitpic.com/36whrq”
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I dare y'all to look at this picture without throwing up... for this was the most disgusting picture of them all.
@AmyDalyXXX I'm bored. My scrotum is inflated with old, dead, coagulated blood. Let's discuss!
“@AmyDalyXXX I'm bored. My scrotum is inflated with old, dead, coagulated blood. Let's discuss!”
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@AmyDalyXXX Left is full of blood, right is completely empty since I removed it last year http://twitpic.com/38yl3y
“@AmyDalyXXX Left is full of blood, right is completely empty since I removed it last year http://twitpic.com/38yl3y”
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http://twitpic.com/38yl3y
@AmyDalyXXX and this is what the docs helped me to remove after I did all the work a week ago http://twitpic.com/38yltp
“@AmyDalyXXX and this is what the docs helped me to remove after I did all the work a week ago http://twitpic.com/38yltp”
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It's been coming out almost black. Have to imagine that this is just draining dead blood weighing down my scrotum http://twitpic.com/39ss8w
“It's been coming out almost black. Have to imagine that this is just draining dead blood weighing down my scrotum http://twitpic.com/39ss8w”
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Good news, everyone: thick black leeches have been gurggly-splurging from my wound and my scrotum is a hollow sack! Yay, I can tuck again!
“Good news, everyone: thick black leeches have been gurggly-splurging from my wound and my scrotum is a hollow sack! Yay, I can tuck again!”
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He also wrote a long blog post about cutting his own balls out which you can waste your time reading here:
I was really, finally, completely free! No more balls! No more hideous, disgusting testicles! No more intense levels of testosterone coursing through my veins, competing with the very same receptors that would respond to my estrogen therapy. And most importantly of all, no more war! Finally, I can be at peace with myself! The thought of this brought warmth to my heart.
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To conclude, I have to admit I ultimately find Jadis story incredibly sad and tragic even more than just disgusting and repulsive (I also want to note that he sought help since this incident and has settled into a more or less regular life), but those pictures are so disturbing, disgusting and extreme, I am truly sorry for anyone who chose to look at those pictures as much as I pity myself for not being able to resist my morbid curiosity.