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Stephanie Cianfriglia / Sapphire Crimson Claw / Yarrow Brown / the-ghost-fucker / transmascdruid / anarchoenby77 / darktwistedpussy / Druid of Endicot - Xe/xyr ghost-fucker, womb wizard, hand sanitizer sommelier, trans-boomer, violently abuses her elderly parents, has sexual fantasies about raping children
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Unfortunate genetics.
Condishuns
Either fell down the stairs or has a muscular skeletal disease? How can you not know which one it is after 28 years???
Sore knee
Gerd
Coxix never fused properly because she fell down the stairs
IBS
Menstrual pain
Hypothyroidism
Fatigue
Vitamin d deficiency
Asthma
Heart condition
Sore back
Foot cramps
(Proponant of self dx of course)
She's doing the typical munchies thing of naming symptoms as separate conditions. Don't tell her to exercise though (exercise and diet are literally the only way to manage musculoskeletal diseases - painkillers don't work for these diseases and the medications can end up doing more damage than good).
Did I miss anything?
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I want to fix that godawful wig, it's PAINFUL.
Here's a transcript of the video, I tried to break it up by sentences as best I could while also capturing as faithfully as possible. I'll forgive her the run on sentences, barely anyone's speech looks pretty written down.
Okay, Sapphire Crimson Claw. Parental discretion advised. I am in an ugly ranting mood again and yeah, yeah I keep deviating from the plan I have. This is really becoming just a random place to go and vent and if someone’s seeing it and it’s, it’s still getting out there but I just want to put out there that despite what people have tried to make claims about, complete strangers, um, I don’t defend child abusers and I don’t defend rapists in any shape or form.
In fact, if you know me, you know I get pretty angry at anyone who does anything like that so the idea that I do that is pretty damn disgusting and I’ll tell you where this is coming from. I’m getting fed up beyond human limits when it comes to, um, charges of hypocrisy or enabling child sexual abuse, when it comes to being a pretty passionate, adamant defender of the king of pop Michael Jackson and I’ll tell you why.
Because it hits really close to home. Not saying I’ve been abused, I’m not coming out and saying that. I’ve had intrusive thoughts about my family, thinking that they’re gonna do it but they’ve never done it, I’ve never had that happen to me. Thank whatever deity my 27, gonna be 28 years of life I’ve never had anything like that happen to me.
But because of things that have happened to me I and empathize with being in his shoes because I had someone…because I was being a bit of a mentor to people younger than me, I had someone try to claim I was…I had bad intentions for them when it was, they were teenagers who were self harming and dealing with abusive households and I could understand that so I was being some…I was being there for them, which isn’t that something you’re supposed to do is be there for young people? But no. if you have people who don’t like you, they’ll say that you’re grooming them, which is disgusting and it’s even more disgusting that they got people to believe this and went so far to stalk me in real life over it. And it’s still a very open wound and a very still present trauma in my life so please don’t even go there please don’t put things on me that don’t belong because it will get me very upset.
I don’t really care what anyone is going to say about this. I mean I…the crap I get on a daily basis using social media and being someone, being who I am is enough to have thickened my skin to…Thinking that I’m, I’m like Luke from Jessica Jones, I’m like Captain America’s shield, not get much gets in anymore. You death threat me, you rape threat me, not much gets in anymore. Fat phobia still does just because I’ve had intrusive thoughts about bulimia that still come here and there every once and a while but they’re a lot less than they used to be, but I don’t want to deviate too much from the point.
I am not defending child molesters. I am not enabling child molesters. I did come close…I did come close to someone who was working for my school district and was later found out to have child porn so that’s the closest I’ve ever been. I always knew, I always felt something so don’t tell me that I’m blinded by fandom or love or any of this shit because um, not only is it like an insult to my integrity, but it’s an insult to…it’s gaslighting because I researched the case inside and out, I have talked to people who knew him, I’ve written to the estate, I’ve done everything possible outside of meeting them face to face. Thomas Messiro, I hold in extremely high regard and the fact of the matter is that I have had people try to tell me I shouldn’t be in social work because of this and try to tell me that I am actually a physical danger to children because of this and that just stabs me straight into the soul because I love children and I love animals.
Yeah, and the fact that it’s just such a far reach and extrapolation to say that because of one case you are…I’ve absolutely, I had, I had an…I was very good friends with the Chaplin at the college I attended and I remember talking to him about Sandusky when that came out and he was Michael Jackson fan and so was his son, and we both vehemently knew in our heart of hearts there was no comparison.
And when somebody had the gall, I called him the white gorilla because he was wearing a white hoodie whenever I saw him, and he had the gall to say I should, telling me, trying to control me and my likes and dislikes and that’s something that’s happened in my family as they try and tell me what I should be and shouldn’t be and control me in that sense, but yeah this wonderful young man told me that I should like him just for his music and otherwise no. Yeah, I cried and the next time I saw him was when I was with the Chaplin and his son, and I gave him the biggest stink eye and when I think back on it, this was years ago.
The things anxiety makes you remember. I think back on it and I wanted him to say the same thing in front of me and that boy. And later on in the MSW program someone got on like this [making a motion of knocking knuckles together, unclear whether this is a nervous tic or indicating people were clashing], several people got on like this in the middle of my trauma class and…Please don’t anybody ever gaslight someone about what they know because like I’ve said I’ve studied this inside and out, inside and out, for 10 years obsessively, I guess you could say with the only kind of precision of someone who has OCD and never mind the fact that having complicated grief or bereavement, don’t talk to me about self-diagnosis because I know things have gotten all mushed together in my head with Simba and grandma and Michael and I’m looking into EMDR about it so…
This is just turning into a rambling mess as usual. I guess all you armchair psychologists could argue that I’m schizophrenic like that guy in the psych ward tried to keep me involuntary there against my will because of the things I was saying about spirit communication and stuff, but my current therapist thinks that was all bupkus and really anybody who has any semblance of professionalism should say this is bupkus but people don’t really think things through.
They just want to ignorantly spout things about mental illness and judgements and they just give you all the possible judgements and none of the possible compassion and empathy and those sorts of things. Just judge, judge, judge, judge, so um.
This isn’t going to make much sense by the end but I don’t much care, it’s just getting things out so forgive me but at the risk of sounding like I could very well back up those assertions of that man calling me schizophrenic when he had only known me for 2 days and all of you people on the internet don’t know me at all but yeah you could probably try and hop onto that bandwagon because the conversations I’ve had with Bonnie Vent and the synchronicities and everything and the stuff that has happened the past 6 years of my life fully makes me believe and I don’t want to hear about evil spirits but it fully makes me believe I could very well be in contact with him and what have you, and he is not the person, no he is not the person who could do this.
And yeah you could say this is a schizophrenic breakdown, a psychotic break and whatever because you don’t know me but I’m starting to wonder what will come first here, this job or or just [makes motion of shooting self in head] because between the social media crap and the dysphoria lately, dysphoria’s been really bad lately considering that I try to binder and it doesn’t really seem like it’s gonna work so I don’t know, just kind of wasting everyone’s time again, so I guess I’ll go.
In fact, if you know me, you know I get pretty angry at anyone who does anything like that so the idea that I do that is pretty damn disgusting and I’ll tell you where this is coming from. I’m getting fed up beyond human limits when it comes to, um, charges of hypocrisy or enabling child sexual abuse, when it comes to being a pretty passionate, adamant defender of the king of pop Michael Jackson and I’ll tell you why.
Because it hits really close to home. Not saying I’ve been abused, I’m not coming out and saying that. I’ve had intrusive thoughts about my family, thinking that they’re gonna do it but they’ve never done it, I’ve never had that happen to me. Thank whatever deity my 27, gonna be 28 years of life I’ve never had anything like that happen to me.
But because of things that have happened to me I and empathize with being in his shoes because I had someone…because I was being a bit of a mentor to people younger than me, I had someone try to claim I was…I had bad intentions for them when it was, they were teenagers who were self harming and dealing with abusive households and I could understand that so I was being some…I was being there for them, which isn’t that something you’re supposed to do is be there for young people? But no. if you have people who don’t like you, they’ll say that you’re grooming them, which is disgusting and it’s even more disgusting that they got people to believe this and went so far to stalk me in real life over it. And it’s still a very open wound and a very still present trauma in my life so please don’t even go there please don’t put things on me that don’t belong because it will get me very upset.
I don’t really care what anyone is going to say about this. I mean I…the crap I get on a daily basis using social media and being someone, being who I am is enough to have thickened my skin to…Thinking that I’m, I’m like Luke from Jessica Jones, I’m like Captain America’s shield, not get much gets in anymore. You death threat me, you rape threat me, not much gets in anymore. Fat phobia still does just because I’ve had intrusive thoughts about bulimia that still come here and there every once and a while but they’re a lot less than they used to be, but I don’t want to deviate too much from the point.
I am not defending child molesters. I am not enabling child molesters. I did come close…I did come close to someone who was working for my school district and was later found out to have child porn so that’s the closest I’ve ever been. I always knew, I always felt something so don’t tell me that I’m blinded by fandom or love or any of this shit because um, not only is it like an insult to my integrity, but it’s an insult to…it’s gaslighting because I researched the case inside and out, I have talked to people who knew him, I’ve written to the estate, I’ve done everything possible outside of meeting them face to face. Thomas Messiro, I hold in extremely high regard and the fact of the matter is that I have had people try to tell me I shouldn’t be in social work because of this and try to tell me that I am actually a physical danger to children because of this and that just stabs me straight into the soul because I love children and I love animals.
Yeah, and the fact that it’s just such a far reach and extrapolation to say that because of one case you are…I’ve absolutely, I had, I had an…I was very good friends with the Chaplin at the college I attended and I remember talking to him about Sandusky when that came out and he was Michael Jackson fan and so was his son, and we both vehemently knew in our heart of hearts there was no comparison.
And when somebody had the gall, I called him the white gorilla because he was wearing a white hoodie whenever I saw him, and he had the gall to say I should, telling me, trying to control me and my likes and dislikes and that’s something that’s happened in my family as they try and tell me what I should be and shouldn’t be and control me in that sense, but yeah this wonderful young man told me that I should like him just for his music and otherwise no. Yeah, I cried and the next time I saw him was when I was with the Chaplin and his son, and I gave him the biggest stink eye and when I think back on it, this was years ago.
The things anxiety makes you remember. I think back on it and I wanted him to say the same thing in front of me and that boy. And later on in the MSW program someone got on like this [making a motion of knocking knuckles together, unclear whether this is a nervous tic or indicating people were clashing], several people got on like this in the middle of my trauma class and…Please don’t anybody ever gaslight someone about what they know because like I’ve said I’ve studied this inside and out, inside and out, for 10 years obsessively, I guess you could say with the only kind of precision of someone who has OCD and never mind the fact that having complicated grief or bereavement, don’t talk to me about self-diagnosis because I know things have gotten all mushed together in my head with Simba and grandma and Michael and I’m looking into EMDR about it so…
This is just turning into a rambling mess as usual. I guess all you armchair psychologists could argue that I’m schizophrenic like that guy in the psych ward tried to keep me involuntary there against my will because of the things I was saying about spirit communication and stuff, but my current therapist thinks that was all bupkus and really anybody who has any semblance of professionalism should say this is bupkus but people don’t really think things through.
They just want to ignorantly spout things about mental illness and judgements and they just give you all the possible judgements and none of the possible compassion and empathy and those sorts of things. Just judge, judge, judge, judge, so um.
This isn’t going to make much sense by the end but I don’t much care, it’s just getting things out so forgive me but at the risk of sounding like I could very well back up those assertions of that man calling me schizophrenic when he had only known me for 2 days and all of you people on the internet don’t know me at all but yeah you could probably try and hop onto that bandwagon because the conversations I’ve had with Bonnie Vent and the synchronicities and everything and the stuff that has happened the past 6 years of my life fully makes me believe and I don’t want to hear about evil spirits but it fully makes me believe I could very well be in contact with him and what have you, and he is not the person, no he is not the person who could do this.
And yeah you could say this is a schizophrenic breakdown, a psychotic break and whatever because you don’t know me but I’m starting to wonder what will come first here, this job or or just [makes motion of shooting self in head] because between the social media crap and the dysphoria lately, dysphoria’s been really bad lately considering that I try to binder and it doesn’t really seem like it’s gonna work so I don’t know, just kind of wasting everyone’s time again, so I guess I’ll go.
- intrusive thoughts about being molested seem to rank higher to her than being around a school employee later found to be a pedo
- I'm now 10000% when Steph mentions being stalked in her early twenties, she was referring to DA tattling to her parents
- Steph says it's offensive to say she shouldn't be in SW because she supports MJ; doesn't appear that she was claiming POCD prevented her from working with kids at the time.
- lol she's fine with rape threats but gets triggered by fat comments? Way to be the worst
- Steph's been looking into the case for 10 years and thinks she has it cracked. Never mind, LAPD! She's on it!
- Steph was friends with a chaplain who was also a big MJ fan. The jokes write themselves.
- A guy in a white sweatshirt told her to separate the art from the artist. She cried.
- She mentioned someone named Bonnie Vent. Do we have info on that?
- It appears that MJ passed around the same time as her grandma and cat. She's diagnosed herself with complex grief; idk what this is, but it feels important and someone smarter than me should talk on it.
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Anyone else notice how much she sounds like Robert Durst?
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Ok, ok, last one--"Sapphire's big, dark paranormal secret: attention GAC". In which Sappy goes on (and on) about how traumatic (for her) the whole grooming children saga was with people "coming out of the woodwork" accusing her and saying they had "proof"....(There IS proof, Sap). She then goes on to suck Zak Bagans' dick--Sap's got an important message for him and she muses that since her youtube channel has gotten so big perhaps he'll see this and get in contact with her. Zak's lucky he's not dead or he'd be chained up in Sappy's harem in no time...
Bitch be totally delusional.
Bitch be totally delusional.
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Lady of the House
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GIRL, that wig. Get a good one or commit to the bowlcut if you're truly that vain and actually believe you have a harem as a sexy succubus.
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she mentioned bonnie vent in her freakout against sapphirewarning. google says she's a medium. she talks to ghosts of celebrities, i guess, and steph is apparently under the impression that she's a household name.
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Why do I get the feeling that the cat is about tied with MJ as far as her grief is concerned, and her grandmother doesn't factor in as much?
Oh, that's right. Probably because it's a given.
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We should start archiving these ASAP.
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"Complex Grief" is what I'm assuming is commonly known as Complicated Grief or Complex Bereavment Disorder. It's when the whole "being unstable and non-functional" stage of mourning your spouse/parents/kid doesn't stop and goes on for longer than a year.
How this plays into the rest of what she's talking about? Fuck bro I don't fucking know.
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A mental health clinician in a psych ward wanted to involuntarily commit her because they thought she was "schizophrenic" and hearing voices because of the things she was saying about spirit communication when he had only known her for two days when it was all "bumkins"?
Yeah, I *am* going to hop on that bandwagon. Stapphy, you are psychotic, you have been for an extremely long time, and you need medication and to be inpatient for a long while.
Yeah, I *am* going to hop on that bandwagon. Stapphy, you are psychotic, you have been for an extremely long time, and you need medication and to be inpatient for a long while.
redbarchetta
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This video, timestamped at where the Ghost of Michael Jackson "comes through" and she speaks for him, is a very good example of where Sapphire is stealing her roleplaying ideas from. Yikes.
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Even if she's not psychotic she ought to spend a bit of time involuntary for how persistently she insists that all her naughty behavior was actually her ghost and friends. I wasn't racist, Satan was! I didn't say the n word, Michael Jackson did! And it was Michael who threatened to trash my boss's office, not me! And HE groomed those children! I was just a messenger! I was only trying to help!!!
It's like she was never punished as a child for lying.
It's like she was never punished as a child for lying.
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Hey, I'm the so-called Mary.
First and foremost, I despise anything public so creating this account is mostly for clearing things up (I have other things to attend to).
Yes, I've known Sapphire for years now, and that goes back to deviantART. Things back then were extremely creepy (not a single day would go by without drama) and most of the participants were fragile, either by age and/or by mental health, and/or were morbidly curious. Most of us have understood our shit and moved on. To be honest, it's not something I'm proud of, on the contrary, but sometimes drama makes you grow up if you're willing to learn from your mistakes. I will not discuss any details about the participants because this is not my role and it is their private life, and they deserve privacy.
I will not discuss anything about myself either. I cannot say I am the same person as I was back then on dA, as I will be the first to admit that I was deeply fucked up. It took me years to recover and thus seeing my first name dragged into the mud because one person cannot understand the concept of privacy pissed me off (I'm a privacy whore). What happened was the straw that broke the camel's back and it was a very good wake-up call. I reconsidered my priorities in life, and I have too much at stake professionally to fall for drama as I'm finally on the right track (no, I don't want to work for Apple, fucking hell). My beliefs are my beliefs but these, too, are currently under deep reprocessing. Bear with me.
I won't talk about Sapphire. They are their own person, fully conscious of their own doings. They're an adult and are responsible for their acts. I'm not here to judge or to spill the beans, just to clarify things about myself. I'm glad they left Tumblr and Mastodon and I hope they get better, even if I'm currently cutting ties with them.
I've been reading this thread for months, so I know most of the members here aren't what they seem to be (same goes for sapphirewarning). I hope you understand my desire for privacy as I try to rebuild my life as I have done for the past decade.
Take care.
First and foremost, I despise anything public so creating this account is mostly for clearing things up (I have other things to attend to).
Yes, I've known Sapphire for years now, and that goes back to deviantART. Things back then were extremely creepy (not a single day would go by without drama) and most of the participants were fragile, either by age and/or by mental health, and/or were morbidly curious. Most of us have understood our shit and moved on. To be honest, it's not something I'm proud of, on the contrary, but sometimes drama makes you grow up if you're willing to learn from your mistakes. I will not discuss any details about the participants because this is not my role and it is their private life, and they deserve privacy.
I will not discuss anything about myself either. I cannot say I am the same person as I was back then on dA, as I will be the first to admit that I was deeply fucked up. It took me years to recover and thus seeing my first name dragged into the mud because one person cannot understand the concept of privacy pissed me off (I'm a privacy whore). What happened was the straw that broke the camel's back and it was a very good wake-up call. I reconsidered my priorities in life, and I have too much at stake professionally to fall for drama as I'm finally on the right track (no, I don't want to work for Apple, fucking hell). My beliefs are my beliefs but these, too, are currently under deep reprocessing. Bear with me.
I won't talk about Sapphire. They are their own person, fully conscious of their own doings. They're an adult and are responsible for their acts. I'm not here to judge or to spill the beans, just to clarify things about myself. I'm glad they left Tumblr and Mastodon and I hope they get better, even if I'm currently cutting ties with them.
I've been reading this thread for months, so I know most of the members here aren't what they seem to be (same goes for sapphirewarning). I hope you understand my desire for privacy as I try to rebuild my life as I have done for the past decade.
Take care.
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Hey, can you message the mods to get verified in some way or other, otherwise there's no way to tell whether you are who you say you are. No proof you give will need to be public, mod messages are hidden.
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you've been following this thread for months and know personally how shitty of a person they are. what made you want to stick around with sapphire til the end? like it sounds like more trouble to be friends with them than it's worth and you're frustrated with their behavior. do they have any redeeming personality traits because i ain't seeing any
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A mental health clinician in a psych ward wanted to involuntarily commit her because they thought she was "schizophrenic" and hearing voices because of the things she was saying about spirit communication when he had only known her for two days when it was all "bumkins"?
Yeah, I *am* going to hop on that bandwagon. Stapphy, you are psychotic, you have been for an extremely long time, and you need medication and to be inpatient for a long while.
She's lying. You don't get involuntarily commited for just being psychotic. Even if you have a full psychotic break, ime, they just chuck you to someone pre-existing in your life to take care of you. Involuntary commitment is only if you're a risk to yourself or others and even then, there's criteria to meet.
Maybe she is psychotic, but so what. Many people are and she's not entirely broken from reality. Fuck, I don't even believe the ghost voices and delusions stories. So she was in the middle of psychosis thinking Ramirez was talking to her, but still opened google translate to insult someone in shitty spanish? No. That's absurd. She'd type gibberish if that was the case and claim it to be Spanish. She has regular episodes in waiting rooms where the walls are literally closing in and can sit there fine? No. No fucking way, especially if she really is psychotic and still believes the spooky voices, then why wouldn't she believe the wall thing? I could go on and on on how it doesn't add up to psychosis, but you get the drift.
She's lying. Steph is a proven liar. She gaslights like a victorian lamp, do not believe anything she says when it paints her as a victim because it is not the full story.
Edit: Fuck it, I will go on. This is the biggest thing to me that proves that she's lying. When you have a psychotic breakdown, at least the first time, your brain gets flooded with chemicals and it pretty much causes brain damage. This is why people like Terry Davis went from being insanely intelligent normal people to struggling with basic tasks. The onset of psychotic disorders will annihilate your IQ. You will go from a gifted intelligent highly competent person to someone who will accidentally boil six eggs because you forgot you boiled the others. And the more breaks you have, the worse the next one will be and for some people, the worse you'll be overall. Uh, where the fuck is this with Steph? She's always been a spedlord. She hasn't gotten worse, if anything, she's gotten better because now she's hiding the ghosthusbandos and not grooming kids. It's utter nonsense.
Another trait of schizo disorders that she doesn't have is the inability to keep track of time. People don't really know about this one even though it's a key enough symptom that they test you for this when diagnosing you. Your perception of time is utterly fucked because your memory is warped. It can be debilitating because if you need to do things in 5 minute intervals and you don't have a time keeper, haha you're fucked. 5 minutes feels the same as an hour. Steph has never mentioned this. In her videos, she mentions time intervals just fine. She never mentions losing time. Nonsense, nonsense, it's all nonsense, fuck her for appropriating a debilitating disorder.
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