In these trying times, it's always important to review hygienic practices.
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If anyone sneezes within five feet of me, I am fucking calling the FBI. I’m onto you, sneeze fetishists and I will give you a Benadryl so fast.
So i know yall don't give a shit about our personal bloglife stuff But, I just found these youtubers not long. I'm batshit fucking crazy. I've been dx'ed everything my entire adult life. Child abuse, sexual abuse, abuse, poverty, family violence, severe bullying at school, middle school suicide attempts (I learned how to self Harm in that mental Hospital instead) and more bullying so another suicide attempt that landed me in pediatric icu.
My story continues to be fucked up every few years from shit like being held at gunpoint,to being raped, to being in a coma dying and having to recover, to your mother leaving by suicide.
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I am so disheartened. Nin stresses to join did groups online and find Community so youre not alone. This is not fun. I have dissociative seizures. I cant even hsve panic attacks like a normal person anymore.
The flashbacks that come in between missing time gaps are intense. I didnt feel so lost and alone. Something about Nan makes me feel yuck inside.
When the first voice actually introduced itself to me. I told my therapist immediately. I have 6 alters. I had 7 but one is back where it belongs but thats because I am hesvily involved in therapy and have been since August 2018.
Whether I have osdd-1b (psychiatrist wants a 2nd opinion) or am schizoaffective this sucks. I talk about heavy shit several hours a day that Ive never told anyone before about my life because yea you have to treat the underlying trauma to make everbody integrate.
So, I don’t know what it is about this thread that makes people feel the need to overshare/power level despite the site rules and many warnings from myself and others to
not power level. This is not the place and you will get made fun of by certain people. It’s fine if you want to join the discussion, but this shit right here? Don’t do that.
There is absolutely nothing wrong in seeking out a community or group to help you with your issues, the problem lies in the weird cult-ish and toxic mentality that sometimes forms within these groups. It’s very easy to get caught up in the world/space you and your group members have created for yourselves and become insular and begin feeding off each other’s more toxic and negative traits. It’s when you have people like Chloe and Nan preaching tolerance and acceptance, but then turning the other cheek when their community goes on the attack and bullies people into deleting their accounts just to get away from the harassment just because they have a dissenting opinion or question Chloe and Nan. They only addressed the situation when it began to really escalate instead of nipping it in the bud and addressing it when it
started, like any responsible person with a following should do. They are both aware that they have followers who will openly attack and defend them. Does that mean they are responsible for what their fans do? No. But, they are responsible for the content they choose to publish and should, at this point (especially with Chloe as she has been on YouTube for 2+ years now), realize their actions and words have consequences. Think of it like a famous person having a publicist — the publicist is there to not only protect their image, but to edit what their clients say carefully as to not incite backlash because, unfortunately, someone with a large following holds that kind of weight.
I’m not saying either group is in the right or the wrong, but what I am saying is that many members in the mental health community can be manipulated and blinded by those who wish to do so. Why do you think so many cults prey on those with mental or physical health issues?
Toxicity isn’t always blatant and negative; it can come in many forms, such as enabling. It comes from a good place, sure, but it doesn’t mean it’s okay or healthy. Someone might believe their intentions are good, but it isn’t always true. I could go on and on, but that’s enough out of me.
Toohot, what brings you here exactly? You do know that discussing disorders outside of therapy situations is how we learn more about disorders correct? What about Chloe is it that you will throw yourself haphazardly at any cause that benefits only her?
I took it as they were saying the people who keep popping in here and PLing or WKing chloe/Nan shows why some shit is just better kept to themselves, but I could be projecting.
ETA:
Looks like I was not projecting.
