How am I supposed to find love and friends and a place to belong when everyone is infected with this bullshit? I'm angry, and it's because there's not even an escape. Kiwifarms is pretty much the last real escape online that I know of (other than imageboards). In real life, it's hellishly lonely. I can sit around and listen to people talk about this shit and they just mumble out half-formed opinions on things they're barely educated on, rolling with some consensus because they find wisdom in the dogmas of the herd.
Kiwis, how do you feel? I know most of us are losers in general, but beyond that---I'm a guy who can make friends and get laid, but the problem is finding people I'd want to make friends with or date.
I see the lynch mobs towards the UCLA professor or the riots in general and the massive support they are getting. I'm seeing CNN cheer on Antifa, an organization with LITERAL COMMUNIST AND ANARCHIST FLAGS IN THE SYMBOL.
My worry with all this is where it takes culture and where our human relationships will go. Imagine being who you are today and then being teleported to Medieval times. That makes for fun stories but it gets really lonely when everyone has moronic values and superstitions.
I'm wondering if any of you generally optimistic Kiwis have been "redpilled" yet on where our culture is heading. I've been seeing this coming for years... I'm actually kind of surprised as my pessimism isn't always warranted, but it was for this...
I've definitely been blackpilled and am feeling great despair and hopeless anger. It feels like most of the people I know had their sleeper codes activated. I've been a lefty since I started to form my own opinions but this shit is so far out of hand I feel like I'm the one going nuts. I know that there's an old saying that people get more conservative as they get older, and I don't know if that's happening to me or if the progressive left has just gone so far beyond me and I don't want to catch up. Since getting labeled as a TERF for not wanting to allow tranny degeneracy to destroy the LGB community, I came to Kiwi Farms for some relief from r/gendercritical and their smug toothless "feminism" and have found this place to be a balm for my soul. I watched a close friend go from a fun, open-minded dude to the soyest of boys in less than a year and it was shocking.
However, I know for a fact that not all white liberals have completely lost it. Around 100 pages ago there was discussion about white teachers working in inner-city schools and their based descriptions about what it was like. I have a few (white, female, liberal) cousins who went through NYC's program to forgive your student debt in exchange for 2 years teaching in an impoverished school. These same cousins are not posting anything political on any social media right now and sticking to likes and comments on the proto-Karen black box posts. I suspect they had their own rude awakenings and are now keeping their mouths shut on their true feelings. Most of them are also married/engaged to blue-collar dudes who are neutral as they don't really have a dog in this fight. The same is true for the social media of women I went to high school/college with: most are virtue signalling like their wine budget depends on it, and others are quiet which makes me suspect they're doing so because of the current cultural zeitgeist.
I will never be truly redpilled because of the right's completely retarded takes on women, the gays, and abortion. Every time I read some alt-right stuff and see their asinine opinions on how white women should act, I'm reminded of why I started going left in the first place. If the right eased up on gays and abortions, and the edgy boys stopped posting stupid shit about breeding the new white race, get back in the kitchen kek, I'd probably be ready to go full 1488. They really need to get a clue or they'll spend the rest of their lives wondering why they're still tugging their teeny weenies on /pol/ while white women go running to make mulatto welfare checks with Tyrone. White women are hated in progressive circles right now because they see us as the plantation owner's wife and a co-conspirator in keeping the PoCs down, the right has the chance to take advantage of this and they're completely squandering it.
The whole reason I left the Catholic Church I was raised in was because I was completely sick of being told that I was a bad person for being born a gay woman, and that I could apologize my whole life for this and never truly be sorry enough. Now the people who I turned to want to tell me that I'm a bad person for being born a white American, and that I can apologize my whole life for this and never truly be sorry enough. Fuck that shit, it's okay to be white and it's okay to be proud of being an American! My ancestors came from Ireland in the 1890s, we were never slave owners and we had to struggle to be recognized as real people just like niggers, some of them served and died fighting for America! Where's my fucking reparations?
I'm moving in late July to FL, where you can get a gun with ease unlike cucked NYC. Hopefully America hasn't fallen to complete anarchy by then. I can't wait to shoot my first tranny antifa.
