Kiwi farms saved my relationship.

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As a fat kid growing up I had little option for hanging with girls on the weekends, getting laid or being invited to parties. While my friends would find an older person to buy them beer ( often some homeless bum happy to get some free beer and money to buy minors beer ) I would spend my Friday night picking up some lube and looking for a bum who would buy some porno mags. ( dads tame playboys just wouldn't cut it.

Back in my day we did not have online porn so a man had to gather a few magazines, spread them out and conduct his business taking precautions not to sully any of the pages ( unless it was a throw away page ) however I saved those for the shower.

Did you know that a page from a hustler can last for up to an hour when stuck to a shower wall ? Much less if there is direct water contact hitting it.

Anyways as the years went by I settled into what's called today as self fap acceptance. Its where a fat kid becomes a fat man and gets addicted to porn and fapping while not perusing girls because he is too fat. While I lost weight and hit the gym in my 20s and started dating girls I retained my fap and porn addiction. In a way this helped because no girl ever accused me of rushing to get her into bed or cheating on her.



Anyways fast forward to 1 year ago. My porn addiction was becoming a problem with my currently girlfriend who I love very much. We decide to make a pact that any time I had to fap I would go to her and try to have sex. I would also not surf the internet hours upon hours saving porn pics. ( I never got so addicted that I had to pay for porn ) although back in the 90s I used crack and password websites for porn pages hehe


Anyways watching boogie2988 on youtube I heard about samandtolki and kiwi farms. At first I paid no mind but when boogie made a video about his child hood trauma it came across like he was trying to milk it. At first I went to samandtolki and read the mega thread. Then I started lurkling here at the farms!!

Between the two sites and re-watching some of melons old videos I see him differently now. He is unredeemable unless he does 1 thing. admit all of his lies and stops conning his audience. Its so obvious to me and I feel stupid.

Now days I spend time as a hobby finding his lies and pointing them out. This is where my porn addiction went.
Instead of researching some obscure hard to find picture to fulfill a mental fap fantasy, I spend it looking for small lies from old booger.

I would have never had something almost as enjoyable as researching porn if it had not been for old kiwi farms.

Thanks
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As a fat kid growing up I had little option for hanging with girls on the weekends, getting laid or being invited to parties. While my friends would find an older person to buy them beer ( often some homeless bum happy to get some free beer and money to buy minors beer ) I would spend my Friday night picking up some lube and looking for a bum who would buy some porno mags. ( dads tame playboys just wouldn't cut it.

Back in my day we did not have online porn so a man had to gather a few magazines, spread them out and conduct his business taking precautions not to sully any of the pages ( unless it was a throw away page ) however I saved those for the shower.

Did you know that a page from a hustler can last for up to an hour when stuck to a shower wall ? Much less if there is direct water contact hitting it.

Anyways as the years went by I settled into what's called today as self fap acceptance. Its where a fat kid becomes a fat man and gets addicted to porn and fapping while not perusing girls because he is too fat. While I lost weight and hit the gym in my 20s and started dating girls I retained my fap and porn addiction. In a way this helped because no girl ever accused me of rushing to get her into bed or cheating on her.



Anyways fast forward to 1 year ago. My porn addiction was becoming a problem with my currently girlfriend who I love very much. We decide to make a pact that any time I had to fap I would go to her and try to have sex. I would also not surf the internet hours upon hours saving porn pics. ( I never got so addicted that I had to pay for porn ) although back in the 90s I used crack and password websites for porn pages hehe


Anyways watching boogie2988 on youtube I heard about samandtolki and kiwi farms. At first I paid no mind but when boogie made a video about his child hood trauma it came across like he was trying to milk it. At first I went to samandtolki and read the mega thread. Then I started lurkling here at the farms!!

Between the two sites and re-watching some of melons old videos I see him differently now. He is unredeemable unless he does 1 thing. admit all of his lies and stops conning his audience. Its so obvious to me and I feel stupid.

Now days I spend time as a hobby finding his lies and pointing them out. This is where my porn addiction went.
Instead of researching some obscure hard to find picture to fulfill a mental fap fantasy, I spend it looking for small lies from old booger.

I would have never had something almost as enjoyable as researching porn if it had not been for old kiwi farms.

Thanks
 
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As a fat kid growing up I had little option for hanging with girls on the weekends, getting laid or being invited to parties. While my friends would find an older person to buy them beer ( often some homeless bum happy to get some free beer and money to buy minors beer ) I would spend my Friday night picking up some lube and looking for a bum who would buy some porno mags. ( dads tame playboys just wouldn't cut it.

Back in my day we did not have online porn so a man had to gather a few magazines, spread them out and conduct his business taking precautions not to sully any of the pages ( unless it was a throw away page ) however I saved those for the shower.

Did you know that a page from a hustler can last for up to an hour when stuck to a shower wall ? Much less if there is direct water contact hitting it.

Anyways as the years went by I settled into what's called today as self fap acceptance. Its where a fat kid becomes a fat man and gets addicted to porn and fapping while not perusing girls because he is too fat. While I lost weight and hit the gym in my 20s and started dating girls I retained my fap and porn addiction. In a way this helped because no girl ever accused me of rushing to get her into bed or cheating on her.



Anyways fast forward to 1 year ago. My porn addiction was becoming a problem with my currently girlfriend who I love very much. We decide to make a pact that any time I had to fap I would go to her and try to have sex. I would also not surf the internet hours upon hours saving porn pics. ( I never got so addicted that I had to pay for porn ) although back in the 90s I used crack and password websites for porn pages hehe


Anyways watching boogie2988 on youtube I heard about samandtolki and kiwi farms. At first I paid no mind but when boogie made a video about his child hood trauma it came across like he was trying to milk it. At first I went to samandtolki and read the mega thread. Then I started lurkling here at the farms!!

Between the two sites and re-watching some of melons old videos I see him differently now. He is unredeemable unless he does 1 thing. admit all of his lies and stops conning his audience. Its so obvious to me and I feel stupid.

Now days I spend time as a hobby finding his lies and pointing them out. This is where my porn addiction went.
Instead of researching some obscure hard to find picture to fulfill a mental fap fantasy, I spend it looking for small lies from old booger.

I would have never had something almost as enjoyable as researching porn if it had not been for old kiwi farms.

Thanks
 
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Congratulations on switching from one addiction to another. You haven't even tried to figure out why you were so preoccupied with porn yet here you are, self-congratulating yourself. Obsession is terribly unhealthy no matter what it is you're obsessing over, you haven't gotten any better.
 
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ok im going to open myself up to a lot of shit by saying this but i feel like it needs to be said

im going to preface this by saying i like the idea of fucking dogs. i would also like to say that i would never actually fuck a dog in real life (or look at bestiality porn involving real things) as that is animal abuse and the very idea of it happening irl makes me feel sick. this is a thing that has been there all my life, and i would consider it an intrinsic part of me that cannot be changed. i've tried to hide it, tried to quash the feelings and thoughts down but they dont go away, and if i try too hard to ignore them, it flips he other way and i just cant stop thinking about it, ending up in a vicious cycle of "stop thinking about it" "shit i cant stop i need to try harder" etc etc.
other people with paraphilias (things like necrophilia, paedophilia, zoophilia et al that are more than just a passing curiosity) ive talked to have the same problem of overthinking and self hatred over these feelings, and it frequently causes neuroses and suicidal thoughts. sexologists are actually starting to agree that these things - and general kinkiness - are legitimate sexual orientations, too. that doesnt mean we should be lobbying for [xyz]philia to be totally ok like homo/bisexuality, but it should be seen as something un-fixable, yet able to be handled safely.
the overwhelming majority of people with philias do not like the idea of acting upon these fantasies in real life - for example a lot of paedophiles despise themselves for even thinking of it, and often refuse to be near children for their safety. unfortunately its hard for people to find therapists willing to deal with these things, as they fear being ostracized and cast out with no help at all, so they turn to shota/lolicon. i don't actually see a problem with this, as it is not real, and in the majority of cases, is plenty to help keep the person on the straight and narrow. if a paedophile actively harms children (either through porn or otherwise) they are looked down upon by people who do actually understand that fantasy =/= reality. kind of how jeffrey dahmer isnt representative of all homosexuals.

i am definitely very off topic now (pm me if you for some reason want to discuss more) so ill tldr what i was going to write

tl;dr: its ok to like the fictional side of things (assuming this is real and not a passing "hmm i wonder") as long as you understand completely that fantasy =/= reality, do not consume or partake in the real life acts as that is abuse and makes you a cunt of the highest degree, and also dont turn around and be a hypocritical douchetwat about it like vade is being

here is a dikdik to make up for my 'sperging

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