Oh for sure and I hope I didn't come off as trying to say he
would rape or hurt any one, just that he has the mindset and potential. There are plenty of narcissists who never physically harm anyone, and there are plenty of people who get adopted/fostered out who don't hate their moms (In the area I grew up it was super common for parents to send some of their kids to live with friends or relatives for varying lengths of time because they couldn't afford to support them all at once and as far as I know it didn't turn anyone into a mom-hating, sister lusting, overly entitled shitlords)
And I absolutely agree that he wants to "earn" it, but his mind is warped enough to think that the smallest "efforts" deserve grand rewards so I don't really expect him to stick to his same script forever. This is also the guy that thinks racism is over because he once told a(n imaginary) black guy the time. His system of give and take, as well as the social value of his own actions (his song for taylor being better than any gift she's ever received before not because of its quality, but because it's from
him) is pretty far removed from reality.
So there's no real telling if or when the fantasy may shift or how he may twist things to make himself feel like he's living that fantasy when it's all in his head.
Take for instance if he went to Olive Garden alone (I've never been to an Olive Garden but I assume it's the kind of place some people do go alone to) and there's a woman who is also alone and within eyesight of his table (booth? again, I don't know Olive Garden so work with me here) and he spends his entire dinner staring at her, making conversation with her in his mind.
Not a single part of me would be surprised if he went online the next day and bragged about his "date" with this woman.
Now imagine he wants to seal the deal and as he sees her finishing up he tells the waitress (or mimes to them) that he wants to pay for this lone woman's meal. Well now he's just bought her dinner, now she owes him.
Now he's earned it, whether she likes it or not.
That's the kind of logic I can see someone like Russ using to justify a rape while still fitting into his fantasy.
Long story short, I'd sooner believe it if you told me Russ attacked a woman than if you told me he flossed his teeth regularly.
True, but I don't trust any cow to take their meds consistently or correctly, let alone tell the truth about what's in the bottle and what it actually does. That may be on me for being exposed to munchies for so long though.
The meds thing is a perfect example of Russ's ego. He honestly believes that the "truth" he tells people is the one they'll automatically accept regardless of any evidence to the contrary. It's like how he keeps screaming that the whole Taylor thing wasn't about a date despite his own words through videos, facebook posts and even his own book showing otherwise.
He's telling you it's not a date, so it's YOU who is reading the words wrong.
He's telling you he's not a creeper or stalker, so it's YOU who is interpreting his actions wrong.
He's telling you that he's got a slam dunk case against Taylor/Arianna/Girl of the week so it's YOU who is citing the laws wrong.
He's showing you meds and a therapist's evaluation and telling you it's Taylor-induced PTSD so why would you do anything but take his word for it? You're just going to end up reading it all wrong anyway.
Also I'm incredibly curious if he just found the pic and thought they looked a like or if he actually knew anything about Holmes. It's honestly one of the few questions I'd love to ask him if I could because it would speak volumes about his self awareness if the latter was the case.
I also think it'd be interesting to get a pro's evaluation, especially if they read through all the info and could talk to him but I also wouldn't be so quick to discount your own thoughts. A lot of what we know about human behavior is just pattern recognition and situational intuition, and I think knowing about true crime can be a good source of knowledge for the former (while the second, yeah, that can really only come from direct interaction with him and/or his environment).
Not to get too off topic but the latter is why I'm incredibly skeptical of any story where someone paints themselves as a normal kid who gets bullied and/or ostracized for no reason. Yes, it absolutely happens and kids can certainly be little shits for no reason, but I think it's less likely than someone being left out because kids can intuitively tell that something is really off about them, even if that doesn't translate into something dangerous or something that's there fault.
Sadly there's a lot of social pressure to ignore this intuition and give that creepy kid a chance or a free pass on their behavior, which in turn can lead to the exact kind of spoiled, entitled behavior we see in Russ.
(Not that I'm suggesting social isolation would have made him better, honestly there's just no right answer for some creep kids)
Or I may be connecting dots that just aren't there, like you a lot of my opinions and theories are based off true crime's wide array of worst case scenarios mixed with a huge dose of my own observations throughout life so take it all with a pinch of salt.
No lie, I honestly thought he was at one point too because my mind legit did not want to believe that people like this actually existed. I think it's like a mental defense mechanism. Hell I was more willing to accept the whole Deagle Nation ruse cruise than I was Russ or ADF's sincerity at first.
To put that into perspective for those that may be newer, I was willing to accept that a guy who called himself a future-former-marine who lived with his mom was putting together an operation to go save Tupac from one of the most dangerous places in modern history OVER the idea that a slack jawed, sex obsessed ex-mormon wanted it to be a felony for women to say no to him.
This is one of the things that does actively worry me about Russ. He's really got the mind of an abuser where he'll actually say things like
I wish you weren't making me hurt you and
I'm doing this for your own good and he will exploit ANY vulnerability he perceives in his targets without hesitation.
He actually seems to believe that being with him is giving his targets a better life than the one they made for themselves, so he sees nothing wrong with trying to force them in and to stay because he knows what's best for them, even if they don't see it yet.
He doesn't see getting someone fired or driving off their friends and family as anything but justified, especially if it leaves them dependent on him (suing Taylor for 100 million was at one point, in his mind, going to make him rich and she'd be begging him to take care of her (I guess?) and he'd "tie her" to prostitution).
So say he did switch his sights to someone even more vulnerable than the stippers or hookers he thinks need rescuing and started to groom an underaged girl. Yes I know, you're all thinking "with his face and attitude even the most naive of young girls wouldn't fall for that shit" but openly disgusting old men manage to lure vulnerable children to them all the time. If you want an example of this in motion, the vile Jonathan Yaniv has managed to pressure underaged girls who humor his troonery to meet up with him despite being repulsive in body, face and personality (none of which are a secret to any one).
Some even convince their victims to marry them.
(friggin gross how many of these cases say it was "love" and that they were "in a relationship" when it was clearly a pedo and his/her victim, also apparently it's impossible to find an article just on Barry Lane and not his murder)
Edit:
Just gonna leave this here:
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Fun fact! It's been both a dog AND a "small African Cat"
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Pictured below, the Pitbull:
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