I like Deviant Art, there's almost nowhere I'd rather be, except
jw.org although that's not an art posting place but that place makes me feel good too, better as a matter of fact! I like DA more than Wikia and more than
fanfiction.net Reddit, and some other websites.
But I do need the break. And it's not just trolls, it's also me and my behavior and reaction to trolls and to situations, sometimes I let myself get worked up and sometimes I can act in ways that can scare others and I don't want others to be scared of me, I hate it when people get scared of me, it hurts, although believe it or not I'm more scared of others than they are of me just like a little bird, squirrel, mouse, or rabbit. But seriously I do need the time off and I do want to try to be a more mature person, although I do admit I have trouble with change, even these kinds of changes, and the thought of growing up still scares me although I know it's necessary. I hate hearing/being told "Grow up" or "You need to grow up" but I understand why others say that!
I am touched by your note, I like that you said Deviant Art won't be the same without me, and you've said it before. I can understand your feelings too, when my favorite people left something I was in or stopped being my friend, it wasn't the same anymore, sometimes unbearable!
Now you got me reconsidering my decision. Now I'm asking myself "What should I do?" Should I just stay or should I go on with my hiatus? I'm torn now.
I was told that I need to lay low and I kind of agree with that person who told me, so maybe I better take it easy, plus I've got some personal issues to work through.Belive it or not I've been suffering from some depression and my OCD is really hitting me and the meds I'm taking aren't helping. I have chronic OCD.
Then again, tomorrow isn't promised to us and this world is even crazier than it was last year and what if something happens to me before I come back? Last year we didn't have the Coronavirus or civil unrest but I did have very personal issues, one of which was being computerless and financially in a not so good place.
I need a day to consider this. I'm set on taking my hiatus but what if that's a bad idea? Either way, I just want to be a better person and not mess up and not react negatively or act so immaturely like I have a tendency to do, and you've seen this me like that!
But I am thankful for your comment! If you were near and I had your permission I'd hug you with tears in my eyes, because some of what you said was so beautiful to me.