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- Mar 27, 2019
@Doggo, I can tell you really care even after learning everything you have about Lou, but seriously man, don't waste your emotions on him. I have to agree with the other posters that he likely does not suffer from depression and if he does, it's probably the most trivial of his mental health issues. This man is personality disordered to fuck. If I were to guess, and clearly my opinion means jack shit since I'm just armchair psychologist-ing, I'd say he's a covert narcissist. All the lashing out he does is so extreme that it could be a reaction to narcissistic injury. The way he uses other people's weaknesses and things they've shared about themselves against them whenever he feels they've slighted him, and going on rampaging smear campaigns absolutely stinks of narc behaviour. I know you mean well mate, but there really are people out there who are just bad all the way through and Lou is one of them.
Yeah, deep down, I know you're right. I wish it didn't have to be that way, but the human brain can be fucked.
PL as fuck, not that I care, but I had very little faith in humanity left prior to meeting my partner. I had experienced pure fucking evil throughout my childhood: child sex abuse, bullying because my mother had cancer (yes, really), had breakups that seriously fucked with my head, and being fag bashed in the street basically in front of my own home, before I even knew I was gay. I dropped out of school not even a month into 9th grade.
My partner is a huge reason why I've gained so much faith back. He's never given up on me, despite me being a shit person "sometimes." Really, I should have a lot less faith in humanity than I do, but my partner has, for the first time in my life, made me feel like I'm not a lost cause. He's the reason I keep going. If I didn't have him, I'm not sure I'd be here today.
My partner is a huge reason why I've gained so much faith back. He's never given up on me, despite me being a shit person "sometimes." Really, I should have a lot less faith in humanity than I do, but my partner has, for the first time in my life, made me feel like I'm not a lost cause. He's the reason I keep going. If I didn't have him, I'm not sure I'd be here today.
I always like to think that every person has potential. I think this because I have been told many times that I'm a lost cause, myself. I'm ever so slowly turning that around, though. I want to try and be proof that even the most stubborn bastards can change.
But yeah, you are right, as sad as it is to say. I'm not going to waste my energy on ace/Lou/whatever anymore. But I will continue to follow along because some days, partner or not, I could really use the inspiration. Sometimes I worry I'm too much like Lou myself, but when I read the antics here, somehow I think I'll be ok.
But that's enough about me. Thanks for the concern, though. Some people genuinely appreciate it.