This is another weird behavior that makes more sense if we think of AGP as a behavioral addiction. Addictions are characterized by high highs and low lows, and the emotional roller coaster is what fuels them and makes them so difficult to break. Euphoric experiences are the cornerstones of addiction- if cocaine made you feel meh, instead of making you feel like the king of the world, then it wouldn't be addictive. Non-crazy people don't experience waves of mind-destroying bliss from wearing tights or a wig the way AGPs do. And the more "gender euphoria" they experience, the more boring and dull "real life" and "boymode" seem to them, so they try to get a higher dose of the "euphoria" to block out the bad feelings. Eventually it escalates to the point where the addiction consumes their life, and they wind up at the Ranch.
The moments of clarity are great and I think Kevin will be due for another one after his latest horny-posting bender.
But you know he'll just block out the feelings of shame and regret by developing another bizarre fetish or buying a toy. Thus beginning the downward spiral anew.
What do you think rock-bottom looks like for a person like this? Is he ever going to snap out of it?