Wow. Only 55 minutes left of today, but our gurl did it!
Edit: recap/grammar
- took a pre-doing the thing break, didn't say how long. I'm guessing two hours, minimum.
- under her makeup table are mountains of food wrappers. she's been chucking shit under there for fuck knows how long.
- text scroll absolving her of blame by saying she was "consumed" (gurl) by depression and the messy room was the result.
- seven. SEVEN. full-size garbage bags full of shit.
- huffs and puffs her way to the bathroom. has two different smelly things currently on the go in there.
- admits she sounds out of breath. says hopefully it'll change one day.
- shows off poorly cleaned toilet. "it's rust, not poop - i swear." i don't believe you.
- points out anti-diarrhea meds and Vagisil in medicine cabinet.
- admits she rarely uses tub, then plays off admission as a joke.
- she's sooo proud of herself.
- again blames depression.
- "I never want to do these things." None of us do, dummy. You're too old for this shit.
- explains how people put on masks. she's so wise.
- oh, i forgot - has some fucked up thing on her face. picture of health.
- "depression is still stigmatized in society." She's such a basic bitch.
- has 2nd therapy session. made her feel like things aren't hopeless. "a lot of my feelings and intuitions are valid." WTF does that mean?
- Peetz drops in for a compliment. Then she still feels the need to ask for the validation he's already provided. Brags she didn't have KFC.
- dietician and therapist work together. she saw dietician today, too. "I'm not going on a diet...it's eating disorder recovery therapy." How long 'till she backtracks on admitting she's got an eating disorder?
- says trying to have a schedule of video posting is putting the cart ahead of the horse. baby steps, baby.
- she's really emotional. therapy opens vaults and emotional pockets. Fucking Chaucer over here.
- she's gonna try to keep her room clean.
- "there's always gonna be people who judge me...but therapy...i feel validated, i feel like I'm gonna work on being more kind to myself (English honours - ed.), I don't believe those things people say about me anymore..."