First of all the way you worded that made me cringe. Second, and I know I'm powerleveling again, I know what arousal is and I know plenty of other feelings. The idea this was some confirmation of a secret fantasy is dumb because I had always been very sure that I wasn't trans and that I was a man (even when it was obvious I wasn't).
I don't know what you are getting at with the second part. I'm really trying hard to figure out your vague wording of seemingly nonsense lines. Are you saying that trans people can never be happy and the only ones that do are fetishists? I mean you are replying to a comment of a comment about gender euphoria being sexual arousal. I promise you, every single trans person I've met doesn't do it because they want to be a special snowflake and be seen as brave, the entire point of a lot of things is wanting to fit in. I promise you, just because you see a ton of shit on reddit (theres your problem btw) doesn't mean that the majority of trans people are 35 year old men crappily putting on makeup and putting on a sparkly unicorn shirt.
I think you misunderstood me, when I wrote "secret fantasy," I meant something more like '(repeated) day dreams.' I explicitly meant that they were
not sexual.
Indeed, that's the general thrust of the post; that your experiences are typical and that arousal isn't the proximate reason why troons do what they do and want what they do even if it's often mixed up in there somewhere. I wanted to emphasis that 'gender euphoria' is both an exculpatory label for inconvenient sexual arousal (usually associated with cross-dressing) and now, the common label to denote that "warm fuzzy feeling" that you mentioned in the Q&A thread.
I'd go further and say that in this thread I've frequently made the point that describing troons as "just having a fetish" is both reductive and confused. Rather, my view is that the strange sexual proclivities have a tendency to seed non-sexual cross-sex ideation and expose you to the idea of trooning out. And then it is these non-sexual thoughts, day dreams etc. that captivate you and make you start asking questions like: Am I Trans? I'd be happier as a girl, right? Was [that] a sign?
My second point is that there's nothing inherently good about 'being a girl' (or a boy either). You don't have a 'gender identity' in more than a nominal sense, you weren't "born this way" and you aren't ineradicably 'trans.'
So, once the wish fulfillment stuff runs out; the novelty wears off then to find happiness you'll be in a place not much different from where you were before (at least before your gender dysphoria ramped up). I actually don't disagree or doubt that most 'trans' people "just want to fit in," in fact I think that at some level - perhaps only at a liminally conscious level - they believe that they will fit in
better as a troon and that that forms part of the motivation for their wanting to troon out. The problem is that this is almost always wishful thinking. There is no reason to believe that the real, concrete things that make for a life worth living are to be got by LARPing as the opposite sex, no matter how strong the positive valence associated with the idea is or how good you might have felt when you were first 'accepted' as a troon.
Also I think you kind of incidentally proved the point about how little highs that to anyone else would seem absurd, are so important to in drawing the vulnerable into trooning out:
For about what 4 months I was a femboy on HRT. I was jokingly called a girl in a voicechat and that basically killed it off for me. The feeling I felt, this warm fuzzy feeling in my chest/stomach(this is the best I can describe it), the happiness I had never felt before, it was what brought me to realize. It sounds absolutely stupid, but if im going to go through the process of insisting on being called a girl, im sorry, but at that point, im not a man.
P.S. If you
really want to cure your 'gender dysphoria' then all you really need is for your circumstances to change radically.
Go bum around in the third world for a few years or something. And, don't jack off to tranny porn while you're there. It's an almost guaranteed cure.