I don't know if it's been mentioned, but in yesterday's(?) stream, her phone rang like twice and someone left a message. She made a comment like, "I hate it when people call me. It freaks me out." and then wondered out loud if the voicemail someone left was her Grams. Then just continued streaming anyway....
That tells me pretty much all I need to know about the level of care and concern for old Grams that she feels. All I could think was, "what if a family member was desperately trying to get ahold of her?" Given the circumstances, wouldn't that be enough motivation to pause your lamestream and check your phone? I just found that behavior so cold. Does she not have names of important people in her contacts? She must know the facility her grandmother is staying at, but can't be bothered to program the number in, so she screens the call and promptly returns to discussions about farts and food.
Also: That latest community post needs translation.
Foodie Beauty 1 hour ago
Hey guys. So I will have a video out for you guys later today but I wanted to clarify some things. Drastic changes in my diet and life are counter-productive to the treatment I am working on right now
(I lack the willpower to fight for my life at this point). Because of the medication I am on, it seems easier these days to eat less and eat a variety of food not just take out
(I will continue to eat ALL of this, but will incorporate snack plates platters to show that I'm occasionally eating a carrot stick) Sometimes I will get take out
(Takeout will be business as usual, but I will justify it with my version of 'healthy' choices). I don't think it is healthy to have so many people pick apart and judge my choices
(I deserve to be a pig and lauded on days where I don't go FULL hog). I ask that you respect my decision not to constantly justify my choices or kindly move on if it bothers you
(Yes, I truly believe this is how the Internet works). There is nothing controversial in eating a few slices of pizza
(if you don't want to watch me literally die in real-time, change the channel) It only perpetuates an eating disorder to demonize food
(yOu'Re tHe ReAsoN I'm fAt). If I were to eat an entire large pizza if I wasn't hungry then that would be a different story but when I eat these days, I do it out of hunger and try very hard not to eat out of any emotional need
(I'm full before I go live. My burps give it away. And I continue to eat after I am satiated, so this is bullshit, but please respect my choice to ignore my body's full signals). I am going to try and make this post my last explanation and just frigging live my life!!!!
(I will copy and paste this verbatim within the next 72 hours, perhaps sooner) I know I need to stop making so many community post announcements as it confuses people and I will do that.
(I have no real intention of doing that. And you know it too) See ya later guys xo.