Suicidal 35 year old MTF and self-described nerd. 6 years on HRT, says he is sterilized.
Thread 1: Older tranny who left kids and wife to live his best AGP life trying to convince him to not off himself:
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When OP says "i was purposely poisoned by testosterone by the people i should have been able to rely on" it struck me, because i keep seeing troons says that. Same with "i will never be a mom, not really". Well, DUH.
It's like the progress made by the trans acceptance movement can't bring them happiness because their desire is insatiable, it always move on to the next thing. Op could still join a queer group, wear women's clothes, get occasionally maam'ed and live his life as a gender non-conforming male.
Op haven't been poisoned by being allowed to through puberty.
He is not the only one to arbor too much fantasies about what their life would have been have they been put on the dutch protocol (IE: puberty blockers). They tend to think it would make them model-worthy. It also explain why older trans want young kids to be put on blockers: they live vicariously through them.
This is depression-rambling "what would my life could have been, have everything been different..." Obsessing about what could have been is very unhealthy. It's encrypted in your cells that your are male, even if you took blockers, you would still not be female, if you get cloned the clone will be male...
I think the path for acceptance for them is easier is they can accept than nothing was taken away from them. It's not an injustice to be born male. There's no version of them that is female, same as there is no version of me that is an Alien or President of the USA.
Even if they manage to pass: if you get If a 50-year-old gets a successfull lifting and manage to look younger they are still 50-year-olds.
The FTM than got her groin peeled off like a grape, she got something taken away from her by trusting a quack doctor and being the victim of medical malpractice. This is unjust, I can sympatize with that.