Blake Howard Hobbs / Laura Hobbs / CommieDickGurl / laurizza / LAURAZILLA100s / EndGCTP / CaliPizzaGirli520 / CrazeDawg - It's ma'am the sequel, incel-to-troon pipeline exhibit A, threatens TERFs and blames them for him being sexually assaulted

[REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!]

I can respect the honesty and appreciate that it seems like most of you don't just hate stalk me hoping that I die in some gruesome way. Obviously this is yours truly. I don't agree with a lot of the things I read on here but I do find the site interesting and have to admit I've been looking forward to spooky bones' reviews lately. It would be nice to have my legal name and pronouns respected but you guys exceeded my expectations and in a way I find that actually pretty cool.

Welcome home, Laura.

 

[Spooky Bones]

People misunderstand the farms. While this is a free speech oriented site so all kinds come to talk about all kinds of things this is not a place that's about hate. Most people here aren't. I'm not. I don't hate trannies, niggers, Jews, Protestants, Chinese, or anyone else who I meme on here. Someone else said it well elsewhere it is partly about letting off steam and talking about how you feel in an uninhibited way. It certainly doesn't connect with wanting to do anyone any harm.

You feel the pressures of this hellish postmodern gender-confused dystopia we live in, I know you do. It's part of what makes you, you. And likewise us and our comfy little home online. One of the things the strange nature of our new reality leads people to do I guess is pick up weird hobbies. And this is all this really is for us. It's reality TV. It's better than the Kardashians. And apart from some really detestable people who are covered on this site generally people are regarded with at least a little affection. As far as the doxing shit goes sometimes its political sometimes its just a hobby tbh. We are 100% not monsters and the bogeymen. Mean words do get slung around though.

Glad to have you here. Feel free to talk with us about whatever and I am sure people will ask you things but also feel free to check out the rest of the site, there is a lot of entertaining stuff here both to do with lolcows/internet personalities and general topics. I bet you would find some of the personalities Beauty Parlour interesting. But just have a look around.

People will make fun of you. People will misgender you. Try not to take it to heart. You can meme on people too. Before you know it you will be a part of the community. It's liberating.

I can respect the honesty and appreciate that it seems like most of you don't just hate stalk me hoping that I die in some gruesome way. Obviously this is yours truly. I don't agree with a lot of the things I read on here but I do find the site interesting and have to admit I've been looking forward to spooky bones' reviews lately. It would be nice to have my legal name and pronouns respected but you guys exceeded my expectations and in a way I find that actually pretty cool.

You know what, fuck it. I'm on board with "Laura" too. Nice to meet you, Laura.

 

[Hamplanet Fitness]

It's rare to see this much growth in a cow this quickly. Genuinely (and pleasantly) surprised.

 

[Spooky Bones]

Thread is getting wholesome.

 

[REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!]

It's rare to see this much growth in a cow this quickly. Genuinely (and pleasantly) surprised.

Don't get all misty-eyed from the mutual respect. We're all shitbags here.

Hey @CammieDoxGirl , what about being identified as a biological male do you find objectionable? Most of us have no problem with trans people, we just resent being forced by social media and big tech to publicly say that trans identified males are biological women.

For what it's worth, I'm going to use your pronouns and legal name from now on. I eagerly anticipate my puzzle pieces.

 

[CammieDoxGirl]

Don't get all misty-eyed from the mutual respect. We're all shitbags here.

Hey @CammieDoxGirl , what about being identified as a biological male do you find objectionable? Most of us have no problem with trans people, we just resent being forced by social media and big tech to publicly say that trans identified males are biological women.

For what it's worth, I'm going to use your pronouns and legal name from now on. I eagerly anticipate my puzzle pieces.

I feel like a person's identity(who they perceive themselves as) is something sacred and at a baseline, names and pronouns are a cornerstone to that. The issue I have with terms like biological male and trans identifying male is that while they are presented in arguments defending them as medical terms, it really just feels like a roundabout way to refer to me as a man and to make me uncomfortable intentionally, maybe even sexually harass me when it's in person. It feels invasive and like people are just looking for excuses to talk about my privates. What's down there is really between me and my doctors, clients and my partners.

Doctors refer to me as a trans woman IF the distinction is necessary but I really just hear bio-[pronoun] and that acronym TIM from TERFs and transphobes. Even if the intention isn't to completely dehumanize me, it still has similar ripple effects which I make an effort to quantify but I will admit it isn't always easy to prove.

For a long time I wanted to emberass transphobes and normalize shunning people who like to criticize or accost us and even though this became ingrained in me to a degree, I have found myself wanting to do better as I realize things aren't so black and white.

I honestly can't stand how much I have to edit the fuck out of my twitter posts to avoid ban and I get it not wanting social media to shut your 1A down but it wasn't until very recently where I really started to appreciate simply blocking stuff that I don't want to see rather than everyone tries to shut each other's accounts down baiting and mass flagging. I think it's better the social media sites let us block stuff out and prevent spam. You could say that I have a slightly different outlook now and would prefer that people don't pick on our pronouns and belittle us over trans stuff just because they feel like it's not a justifiable thing to do or just kind of pointless, weird.

I'm trying to be more zen despite the times that I go on those tangents and get high off the adrenaline. I just don't think we should have to be confronted with people always calling us malebrodudemansirs all over the place. Blocking it out is nice. I really am at a point where I prefer people can do just that and if people want to engage with us, have conversations, a mutual baseline respect is just commonplace. I feel like people want it all one way a lot of the time.

 

[AngryTreeRat]

After a few days away I just caught up, and I noticed something. @CammieDoxGirl language is changing. Barely even joined us and already starting to sound like a New Zealand Agricultural Engineer. Little things slipping through. A slight change in terminology used and how you speak. It's subtle and hard to pin down, but I see it.

One of us. One of us. One of us.

 

[REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!]

I feel like a person's identity(who they perceive themselves as) is something sacred and at a baseline, names and pronouns are a cornerstone to that. The issue I have with terms like biological male and trans identifying male is that while they are presented in arguments defending them as medical terms, it really just feels like a roundabout way to refer to me as a man and to make me uncomfortable intentionally, maybe even sexually harass me when it's in person. It feels invasive and like people are just looking for excuses to talk about my privates. What's down there is really between me and my doctors, clients and my partners.

Doctors refer to me as a trans woman IF the distinction is necessary but I really just hear bio-[pronoun] and that acronym TIM from TERFs and transphobes. Even if the intention isn't to completely dehumanize me, it still has similar ripple effects which I make an effort to quantify but I will admit it isn't always easy to prove.

For a long time I wanted to emberass transphobes and normalize shunning people who like to criticize or accost us and even though this became ingrained in me to a degree, I have found myself wanting to do better as I realize things aren't so black and white.

I honestly can't stand how much I have to edit the fuck out of my twitter posts to avoid ban and I get it not wanting social media to shut your 1A down but it wasn't until very recently where I really started to appreciate simply blocking stuff that I don't want to see rather than everyone tries to shut each other's accounts down baiting and mass flagging. I think it's better the social media sites let us block stuff out and prevent spam. You could say that I have a slightly different outlook now and would prefer that people don't pick on our pronouns and belittle us over trans stuff just because they feel like it's not a justifiable thing to do or just kind of pointless, weird.

I'm trying to be more zen despite the times that I go on those tangents and get high off the adrenaline. I just don't think we should have to be confronted with people always calling us malebrodudemansirs all over the place. Blocking it out is nice. I really am at a point where I prefer people can do just that and if people want to engage with us, have conversations, a mutual baseline respect is just commonplace. I feel like people want it all one way a lot of the time.

You'll get no asspats here but I respect and appreciate your detailed reply. I grieve the death of Blake the LolCow, but welcome Laura the Farmer.

It would be great if you kept making lolmilk and we'll give you advice on your way to becoming the greatest troon grifter of all time, but if you just want to be a Surprisingly Reasonable Commie DickGurl (maybe I'm wrong but thats how I see you) I for one, support you.

Oh yes before I forget:
Nigger Nigger Nigger Nigger Hitler Did Nothing Wrong Nigger Spick Gook Kike Cleveland Indians Geronimo!

 

[CammieDoxGirl]

After a few days away I just caught up, and I noticed something. @CammieDoxGirl language is changing. Barely even joined us and already starting to sound like a New Zealand Agricultural Engineer. Little things slipping through. A slight change in terminology used and how you speak. It's subtle and hard to pin down, but I see it.

One of us. One of

You'll get no asspats here but I respect and appreciate your detailed reply. I grieve the death of Blake the LolCow, but welcome Laura the Farmer.

It would be great if you kept making lolmilk and we'll give you advice on your way to becoming the greatest troon grifter of all time, but if you just want to be a Surprisingly Reasonable Commie DickGurl (maybe I'm wrong but thats how I see you) I for one, support you.

Oh yes before I forget:
Nigger Nigger Nigger Nigger Hitler Did Nothing Wrong Nigger Spick Gook Kike Cleveland Indians Geronimo!

I appreciate the warm welcome. I will try to refrain from getting too preachy on here as I'm sure I'd just get ripped on for it. I'll be around tho.

 

[Spooky Bones]

I feel like a person's identity(who they perceive themselves as) is something sacred and at a baseline, names and pronouns are a cornerstone to that. The issue I have with terms like biological male and trans identifying male is that while they are presented in arguments defending them as medical terms, it really just feels like a roundabout way to refer to me as a man and to make me uncomfortable intentionally, maybe even sexually harass me when it's in person. It feels invasive and like people are just looking for excuses to talk about my privates. What's down there is really between me and my doctors, clients and my partners.

I obviously can't conceptualize what gender dysphoria is like. I respect the fact that it must be extremely distressing. It's something that I can even try to empathize with.

What really gets my goat though is something that reeee alluded to and that's the policing of language which is actually something you get into later so I will too at that point. Whether you think trans people have it bad or not in this particular point in history trans rights is a very prominent issue and in the media and especially on social media only one side of the issue is being presented for the most part and very aggressively. You may think it is the right side but it is still suspicious as hell to people who are undecided or of the other view. I do not think it is winning any friends for trans people either.

Doctors refer to me as a trans woman IF the distinction is necessary but I really just hear bio-[pronoun] and that acronym TIM from TERFs and transphobes. Even if the intention isn't to completely dehumanize me, it still has similar ripple effects which I make an effort to quantify but I will admit it isn't always easy to prove.

Terminology in this area is a minefield. When talking in a serious context I obviously don't want to cause offense. "Transwoman/man" is how it is generally socially acceptable to refer to trans-identifying people so that is OK by me. But I think the "trans-identified male/female" is useful too. They are just both sides of the same coin but they imply whether or not you believe that the person in some very fundamental sense "is" the gender opposite their natal sex, and you don't have to believe that in order to show people respect and not dehumanize them. I don't think a detailed discussion of this is going to be productive though.

For a long time I wanted to emberass transphobes and normalize shunning people who like to criticize or accost us and even though this became ingrained in me to a degree, I have found myself wanting to do better as I realize things aren't so black and white.

I honestly can't stand how much I have to edit the fuck out of my twitter posts to avoid ban and I get it not wanting social media to shut your 1A down but it wasn't until very recently where I really started to appreciate simply blocking stuff that I don't want to see rather than everyone tries to shut each other's accounts down baiting and mass flagging. I think it's better the social media sites let us block stuff out and prevent spam.

You have definitely come to the right site if this is your idea. It sounds like you are getting tired of the whole cancel culture hustle. I'm glad to hear that because it is a lot of toxic bullshit and they will wind up eating you just as sure as anyone else. They are miserable people as I suspect you know, but try to show something else to the world as being about justice. It's sick, really. I've dabbled in extreme politics myself and while there is something to be said for a viewpoint that wants to radically change civilization it's often not a healthy or useful place to inhabit mentally in my experience.

You could say that I have a slightly different outlook now and would prefer that people don't pick on our pronouns and belittle us over trans stuff just because they feel like it's not a justifiable thing to do or just kind of pointless, weird.

I'm trying to be more zen despite the times that I go on those tangents and get high off the adrenaline. I just don't think we should have to be confronted with people always calling us malebrodudemansirs all over the place. Blocking it out is nice. I really am at a point where I prefer people can do just that and if people want to engage with us, have conversations, a mutual baseline respect is just commonplace. I feel like people want it all one way a lot of the time.

Yeah, if people are coming at you with bad intent, fuck them, right? More ducks and more chill.

I appreciate the warm welcome. I will try to refrain from getting too preachy on here as I'm sure I'd just get ripped on for it. I'll be around tho.

Glad you'll be around. It's a big site with a lot of different personalities. There are some fairly militant TERFy types here as well as all other kinds of people but just don't get into it with them and you'll be fine. There are is a pretty high % of queer alphabet types on this site (and more women than the average webforum) including more trans than you would think although many of them don't wear it on their sleeves.

I'd definitely smoke a joint with you and watch some ducks and talk about the world though. I always do enjoy a radically different perspective. Hope you enjoyed the Cheesecake factory.

It's a good bit later for me than for you so I expect I'll be heading to bed soon but it was nice to chat. Have a look around the farms and see what appeals. Have a goodnight!

ps A moderator may contact you to confirm that you really are Laura (which I believe you are) which is just normal procedure.

 

[CammieDoxGirl]

I obviously can't conceptualize what gender dysphoria is like. I respect the fact that it must be extremely distressing. It's something that I can even try to empathize with.

What really gets my goat though is something that reeee alluded to and that's the policing of language which is actually something you get into later so I will too at that point. Whether you think trans people have it bad or not in this particular point in history trans rights is a very prominent issue and in the media and especially on social media only one side of the issue is being presented for the most part and very aggressively. You may think it is the right side but it is still suspicious as hell to people who are undecided or of the other view. I do not think it is winning any friends for trans people either.


Terminology in this area is a minefield. When talking in a serious context I obviously don't want to cause offense. "Transwoman/man" is how it is generally socially acceptable to refer to trans-identifying people so that is OK by me. But I think the "trans-identified male/female" is useful too. They are just both sides of the same coin but they imply whether or not you believe that the person in some very fundamental sense "is" the gender opposite their natal sex, and you don't have to believe that in order to show people respect and not dehumanize them. I don't think a detailed discussion of this is going to be productive though.


You have definitely come to the right site if this is your idea. It sounds like you are getting tired of the whole cancel culture hustle. I'm glad to hear that because it is a lot of toxic bullshit and they will wind up eating you just as sure as anyone else. They are miserable people as I suspect you know, but try to show something else to the world as being about justice. It's sick, really. I've dabbled in extreme politics myself and while there is something to be said for a viewpoint that wants to radically change civilization it's often not a healthy or useful place to inhabit mentally in my experience.


Yeah, if people are coming at you with bad intent, fuck them, right? More ducks and more chill.


Glad you'll be around. It's a big site with a lot of different personalities. There are some fairly militant TERFy types here as well as all other kinds of people but just don't get into it with them and you'll be fine. There are is a pretty high % of queer alphabet types on this site (and more women than the average webforum) including more trans than you would think although many of them don't wear it on their sleeves.

I'd definitely smoke a joint with you and watch some ducks and talk about the world though. I always do enjoy a radically different perspective. Hope you enjoyed the Cheesecake factory.

It's a good bit later for me than for you so I expect I'll be heading to bed soon but it was nice to chat. Have a look around the farms and see what appeals. Have a goodnight!

ps A moderator may contact you to confirm that you really are Laura (which I believe you are) which is just normal procedure.

I appreciate you filling me in on the site and everything Spooky Bones and showing me kindness where I didn't expect it. I got $29 off that Cheesecake Factory order so that definitely made my night. I've been lurking around a little and will definitely continue to do so. Have a good night.

 

[hot hot leg]

I feel like a person's identity(who they perceive themselves as) is something sacred and at a baseline, names and pronouns are a cornerstone to that.

No one will ever see you the way you see yourself. Other people may love you and care about you, but they can't see through your eyes. It's like this for everybody.

Even if everyone called you by a woman's name and female pronouns, you would still be a man. Even if everyone actually believed you were a woman, you would still be a man. I won't respect the idea that calling a man a man is offensive.

 

[N’egger]

I appreciate you filling me in on the site and everything Spooky Bones and showing me kindness where I didn't expect it. I got $29 off that Cheesecake Factory order so that definitely made my night. I've been lurking around a little and will definitely continue to do so. Have a good night.

Just the tip: you can verify your identity for e-flair and to prevent impersonation if you intend to stay for a bit

 

[AngryTreeRat]

I appreciate you filling me in on the site and everything Spooky Bones and showing me kindness where I didn't expect it. I got $29 off that Cheesecake Factory order so that definitely made my night. I've been lurking around a little and will definitely continue to do so. Have a good night.

To add to what @Spooky Bones said already, and because you've earned some of my respect by being so chill and reasonable so far, let me dignify you with some proper response:

Something to understand, if we're calling you a bat shit insane troon and mocking you for it, you're being a batshit insane troon and deserve the mocking. If you're being a fairly well adjusted trans person we'll get bored and whine that you aren't giving us content, but we'll still be happy that you grew as a person. We're not good people here, but we're not bad people either. We're just a bunch of assholes online enjoying the garbage TV of the internet. Part of that means we stay over here so we don't hurt anyone who doesn't come this way. It also means that we point and laugh and talk shit about you in our own corners.

Personally I don't hate transpeople, I have sympathy for those who are clearly suffering from their dysphoria, but due to that exact sympathy I have little mercy for those who troon out due to a fetish, who make it harder for those who who are suffering to be taken seriously. As a good kiwi I pride myself on being factual and honest, so know I am being honest when I say I believe that your behaviour, at least as you've presented yourself to the public so far, is not a good look for trans people, and it closely resembles that of an AGP rather than someone suffering from dysphoria. Showing off your bulge, calling yourself a "dickgirl" and other things like that sure as fuck doesn't look good on you, so I am currently doubtful of your dysphoria. That said, hey, maybe there is a redemption arc coming for you, and I would love that.

While I certainly can't relate to gender dysphoria, I am my own bag of mental issues, and I can certain understand issues with self identity. To that my only advice is this: Your sense of self is what you need to focus on, not what people perceive you as, not what people call you, not what your name is, none of that. What matters is your actions and your image of yourself. No one wants to be your friend when you present your identity as "crazy gun trotting troon", and even if we back it off to just presenting your identity as "transwoman" that still doesn't make you someone I would want to hang out with. Yet earlier today I was playing table top war games with a good friend of mine who is trans, so it isn't the trans part that puts people off. Its the lack of being anything beyond that.

Think about who you are beyond your gender, your sexuality, and your race. Those are things we have no control over, and as a society, despite what you might think, the majority of us have moved past those things. Believe me when I say beyond the fact it pisses you off and produces content for us when I call you "Mr. Blake Hobbs" and use the wrong pronouns, I don't actually give a flying fuck what your name is, what your pronouns are, what colour your skin is, or who you are fucking. That's the most boring ass shit about a person you can get, that's about as interesting as the weather on a calm day. What people care about, those who will really come to care about you and build meaningful fulfilling relationships with you, is who you are. Not what demographic you belong to, but what your likes and dislikes are. What are you passionate about? What makes you mad as fuck that is totally pointless and has no larger social implications? What makes you feel good that isn't related to me calling you "Ms. Laura Hobbs" and using the right pronouns? That is where you'll find a lot more acceptance and happiness than what you've currently done, and that is where you'll escape the hell which is a lack of a solid sense of identity.

Here, I'll give an example of what people actually care to know about you rather than your pronouns and what the correct way to address you is: "Hi, my name is Not-About-To-Dox-Myself-On-This-Fucking-Site-Of-All-Places, and I am way too passionate about game design, seriously you'd think I was a fucking sperg I get so excited about the dumbest bits of game design. I spend about 20 hours a week somehow engaged in something related to Table Top RPGs for which I am a game master, and therefore a massive fucking nerd. For extra money I act as an editor for erotica and also make a bit of money acting as a sort of biological consultant for furry erotica writers, despite this, no I am not a furry. I don't find movies particularly enjoyable to watch, I like high fantasy, find sci-fi kinda meh, and listen to metal way too loud because I hate my eardrums."

I truly believe the biggest step forward for LGBTXYZ folks (which, while I oppose the current movement, I am part of the club, I'm right there at letter number 3, but that isn't something I think is important, which is why I didn't mention it before, but it has some value to this point) is to stop shutting themselves off and building echo-chambers only made up of other members of LGBTXYZ. Stop fighting, stop culture warring, stop trying to change the minds of individuals by yelling and screaming. Instead just come hang out, crack open some beers. Stop segregating yourselves, stop trying to be your own culture, ask if you can join in with everyone else, accept the invitations to join in when you get them, laugh it off when I jab you in the ribs and call you a crazy troon while we smoke a joint, invite others around, call me cis-scum as you pass me another drink. Rejoin society rather than fighting against it. You'll realize that you're a vocal minority bitching about an opposing vocal minority, and the majority just wants both sides to shut the fuck up and have a joint, the constant yelling is giving us a headache and we can't afford all the Advil. Who knows, maybe you could be the one to show your friends the way forward isn't hostility, but friendship, and if they don't agree that friendship is the way forward, well they are probably miserable toxic cunts anyways. We're better friends than they are anyways, because we know we're toxic cunts, but we're happy toxic cunts. See? Improvement. Moving up, yes yes?

I agree, LGBTXYZ people deserve and have the right to demand acceptance. I do not however believe you have the right to demand our respect. I'll give you all the respect in the world when you, not the royal you, I mean you Blake, earn my respect, and if you read this, I think you see what you need to do to earn it, and once I have respect for you, fuck it, I'll call you anything you want. I'll call you Supreme Dickgirl Laura if you want. Point is, respect is earned on the individual level. It is a give and a take. You don't get respect by demanding it, you get it by behaving in a way that people want to give you it.

So go on Blake, give us a redemption arc, go be the 0.001% of cows who pull it off, make me have enough respect for you to believe your dysphoria might be real and not just a fucking fetish, make me have enough respect to call you "Laura" and remember: Fuck the weens. Those guys are assholes. We'll be here making fun of your every mistake and slip up all the way calling you Blake to piss you off, and maybe we'll celebrate your successes, depends if we notice them or not. You know what, I'm rooting for your success. I really am. I won't believe you can do it, until you do it and maintain it, but I am rooting for you. I'd say, as is you're about a week of good behaviour and not being a batshit crazy troon away from being "Laura" to me. That ain't too bad really, all you gotta do is show that this change is gonna stick and not be gone in a day or two.

Oh, and IDK if you saw it when I said it before, but seriously, you got a stage presence. Find yourself a place where you can get a studio and do some editing. I would love to see you really go at the YouTube thing. Find something you're passionate about not related to social nonsense, write yourself a decent script or a list of bullet points, just rant about it at the camera for 20-30 minutes, edit it up nicely and put it out there for the internet. I think you could find some success with it, you have the right talents to pull it off and you already have an audience to help that YouTube algorithm take note of you, and for us kiwis, well it'd be a great dose of content. Turn that dramacow tag to careercow for us.

Best of luck.

 

[NerdShamer]

Oh, and IDK if you saw it when I said it before, but seriously, you got a stage presence. Find yourself a place where you can get a studio and do some editing. I would love to see you really go at the YouTube thing. Find something you're passionate about not related to social nonsense, write yourself a decent script or a list of bullet points, just rant about it at the camera for 20-30 minutes, edit it up nicely and put it out there for the internet

Well, this worked for Robin Williams and the dyke who came up with the U-Haul lesbians joke.

But seriously, though. Can you at least try to be a role model for trans youth, Laura? Like teaching them how not to focus on the negative parts of life all the time?

 

[Gone Ham]

I appreciate you filling me in on the site and everything Spooky Bones and showing me kindness where I didn't expect it. I got $29 off that Cheesecake Factory order so that definitely made my night. I've been lurking around a little and will definitely continue to do so. Have a good night.

Talk to null to get verified for your account.

 

[CammieDoxGirl]

Talk to null to get verified for your account.

I'll hit him up. thnx

 

[CharlesBarkley]

I got $29 off that Cheesecake Factory order so that definitely made my night.

Nigga, no. At least eat right.

No one will ever see you the way you see yourself. Other people may love you and care about you, but they can't see through your eyes. It's like this for everybody.

Even if everyone called you by a woman's name and female pronouns, you would still be a man. Even if everyone actually believed you were a woman, you would still be a man. I won't respect the idea that calling a man a man is offensive.

Deep down, I feel like I'm an artist despite not being able to draw a stick figure or have any skill in any field. Yes, I wear a beret and a walk around with a guitar - and sure, I sound like shit and will never be able to paint a house or play a chord, but please refer to me as an artist of equal to all other artists because the lie I am living makes me feel better if other people grudgingly go along with it.

 

[CammieDoxGirl]

Well, this worked for Robin Williams and the dyke who came up with the U-Haul lesbians joke.

But seriously, though. Can you at least try to be a role model for trans youth, Laura? Like teaching them how not to focus on the negative parts of life all the time?

I will do my best and I have been wanting to answer to this. I came into virality from dropping out of a lot of society for various reasons that I enjoy being rather open about and as an adult entertainer. I have had to rethink a lot of my promo stuff knowing that younger people look up to me now and it's something I take very seriously.

For example rather than dropping the brand name(which catches a lot of attention) I've considered my logo being CDG and going by the acronym more often. I don't want to turn my back on my pro-sex(body positive) views but I want to at least keep it tasteful and mainly on twitter where I only interact with adults. That hasn't really changed but I try to keep the adult stuff behind a paywall now. The pro drug stuff is a pushback against the stigma given to addicts but the reality is I'm just a harm reductuonist. I was being completely honest about the drugs I do and don't use and believe that some of the drugs I use have some benefit. I don't want to give youth the wrong message about drugs though. I have some followers who are addicts and I try to encourage their recovery.

I took some criticism from this thread to heart and want to be a better person in society. Some jokes and gags seemed really funny when I was from the void, triggering TERFs and conservatives and trying to punish what I perceived as a hostile society but recently I have realized I do not wish to brand myself on divisiveness even though that drama seems to get a good amount of traction. I'm hoping for a healthy back and forth with some angry youtuber, something people can laugh at but I want it to not be toilet level garbage.

A lot of things I wanted to say have been said and put to the test now with the youtube channel and I'm proud of that. I want to be a good example moving forward and have grown rather sick of ranting about TERFs and exclus all day. I have put off a long serious essay video I was going to make about transphobic beliefs and Blanchardism because trying to peice the script together gives me a headache and makes me depressed.(plus I try to avoid my videos going over 45-50 minutes.) I might go back to that project one day but I try to talk about other things in life, complain about shitty jobs, the tech industry and capitalism(easy) but in a way that isn't just me being an edge lord...lol! I want to bring people some perspective and offer something of value. I also don't want to be constantly angry anymore and need to fix a few things so I can do more speedruns on Generations but have been wanting to play older sonic games and just chat on twitch and will probably be doing that a few times a week. There are some fun hacks I want to play. More ducks, might do a full ducks video as a kind of asmr. I want to get back into music but it's hard to get a good deathcore/grindcore band going and my techno stuff never really took off so I'm hesitant about investing in gear for that. It is all on the table though.

Kinda long posts here I know. I appreciate the opportunity to speak to the farms directly though and want to at least give you folks some indication I'm not just a total peice of shit.

Deep down, I feel like I'm an artist despite not being able to draw a stick figure or have any skill in any field. Yes, I wear a beret and a walk around with a guitar - and sure, I sound like shit and will never be able to paint a house or play a chord, but please refer to me as an artist of equal to all other artists because the lie I am living makes me feel better if other people grudgingly go along with it.

Art is subjective and who knows, maybe some autists out there will see beauty in your stick figures and sloppy attempts at chords. I promise not to go full tankie if you guys shit on my paintings. They aren't for everyone and I'm not trained and skilled like my mum. It's still fun tho.

 

[Confederate Fag]

It feels invasive and like people are just looking for excuses to talk about my privates. What's down there is really between me and my doctors, clients and my partners.

I think this is a cop out or a cope to make you feel better by telling yourself that anyone who misgenders you is a pervert, reducing you to your genitals. I’m sorry to trigger your dysphoria, but there are many other characteristics of yours (and everyone else) that identify your biological gender and would cause people to “misgender” you. There is not one trans person that is not clockable in some way by someone. No one wants to talk about your genitals, or think about them, I assure you. Not most people, anyway. Also, you post nudes on public sites, do I need to explain how that can be read as contradictory? Trans people also claim that gender is undefinable, but threaten suicide if you don’t get bottom surgery paid for. Again, do you not see the clear contradiction there? It causes people to read this type of behaviour as not only insulting, but either irrational/illogical, manipulative or even as mild gaslighting, and gives them reason to be unaccepting or critical of trans people. This is just one example.

There is so much to discuss, but I figured I’d start there. @AngryTreeRat already summed up my own feelings pretty well. I respect your open mindedness and willingness to engage. I’ve always liked you because it seems like you actually think for yourself and don’t subscribe to groupthink.