Ok, Kelly. Blah blah blah lol doxed, get that out of the way. Seriously though. You're going to have to be strong over the next few days because shit is probably going to pop off. I am glad you are seeing someone because frankly you come off as extremely troubled. I want to make sure that you are going to practice basic self-care like eating, sleeping, and not coping by use of alcohol and drugs. I've said this before but I want to emphasize it in the strongest possible terms. Take care of yourself. You can overcome this. It is going to be really hard because you are facing the consequences of very extreme actions that you have taken. But simply put one foot in front of the other. Please do talk to your therapist. Please come clean with your family. Secrets are not going to serve you well in any conversation related to the situation that you are in. And that actually includes here but I won't press that issue too much right now. I understand you are probably in shock and this is scary. I'd encourage you to take a step back from the keyboard right now and talk to someone you trust. In person or at least on the phone.