I do wonder if she has reflected on how truly at fault she is for everything. Shes spent her whole adult life blaming her parents for everything and time just..... passed. Shes been eternally stuck in this 'being mad at her parents' phase for 13+ years.
She made and spent a literal million dollars and shes still the same fat gross entitled little shit she used to be. What a wild ride.
Let's be real, here. The answer is no. I think what we saw this livestream is a small piece of her reflecting on exactly this, but even through all those tears she refuses to accept any actual fault.
Amber is delusional and doesn't live in the same reality as everyone else, but the thing is, even the world's most delusional people will have moments of lucidity and I don't think Amber is so far gone into her delusions that in her moments of alone time she
wouldn't be aware of everything she's done. From everything she said in this last live stream though, she is perpetually the victim as always. The little quips she put in here and there throughout the livestream like "I struggle so much, even just as a human." (????? what does this even mean though lmfao like is she the only person who has struggled in life? I thought life was about yin/yang, Amber. I know this is most likely a reference to her BPD but ffs woman, as I said in my last post, if it's this debilitating to your every day life then you need serious help and should've started working on this years ago.) The passive aggressive and overly dramatic language as per usual, her extreme analogy of the speeding ticket when she knew ahead of time
that youtube was changing its policies back in October, but chose to do nothing about it. Youtube isn't saying you can't make videos about mental health or eating disorders, they just don't want to pay you for those. This was honestly a very long time coming. People have been complaining about Amber's feeder content for
years and Youtube did nothing about it. With that being said though, I do agree that it's ridiculous Amber is being punished now for things she uploaded 5 years ago, but truly, it's not like this came out of nowhere. If she really made youtube videos for the fun of it and because she has a passion for it as she loved to claim, she could still do everything she's always done.
This all comes down to her inability to plan ahead, her lack of self control and an inability to self-sooth and self regulate. Almost every stream we've had this month has featured a poop bun, and the 3 or 4 streams where she had straight hair I'm sure those were on the day of or a day or two after hair washing day, so it's safe to say she has been feeling some type of way for at least the month of November, even before the reporting and demonetization happened. I'm sure whatever depression she was feeling was more so having to do with the Twinkie issue, but the demonetization happened fast and furiously. Amber was still thinking about getting those nice December adsense sheckles, so this was a huge blow. If this doesn't give her the wake up call she needs to change her life around, truly nothing will. I know it wasn't cancer, but maybe realizing she has nothing to show of her life after 13 years on Youtube and wasting a million dollars will actually change something. I really doubt it, though. That entire 45 minute livestream could've been 20 minutes of "You know what, this really sucks, and even though I don't think it's fair, I made these decisions to upload borderline feeder content, I made the decisions to freely spend all my money that I didn't set aside for taxes and I'm just not sure what's going to happen to my channel or what I'm going to do moving forward. If I set up a Patreon what do you guys think I should upload?" She really could've talked to her audience, instead we got victim tears, no accountability and ebegging. If she could apply for disability I think she would've been in the office today as soon as it opened up.
