Have you considered maybe everything always happens this way because you want it to? Woe is me only works so many times
And mind-over-matter is actually the mindset I do subscribe to. Unfortunately what I learned is money is power. By spending all my money in 2015 to move across country I submitted power to someone else. And as a direct consequence I lost all control over the situation. And when money is power, will power will only go so far.
I've never sought pity. What good is pity?
Maybe you already decided to give up being a father. Seen enough evidence and enough others also questioning your abilities
This is a power struggle and I'm a witness at the moment. Although I have optimism, a group of circumstances really have changed for the worst.
I mean, the most optimistic outlook is so far, everyone questioning my abilities are strangers depending on rumors, and the people who have never questioned my abilities are the ones who know me.
Links to your constant need to claim the babyfur party thing was a joke
Honestly, if a group of internet trolls are obsessed over a joke made on Twitter two years ago, then that's there problem, not mine. In 2010 at Further Confusion, a "little-fur" invited me to a babyfur party right after I finished registration.
It was a group of people watching sunday morning cartoons with balloons and decorations all around. Some people were dressed up in girl clothing, but I saw nothing creepy. It was completely normal. The big reason I was invited was because in late 2009 I met a bass-player from the Fur Affinity Forums music section and he was, probably, the first furry I ever met from Fur Affinity Forums. He was a really nice guy and a very talented artist. I knew nothing about babyfurs or littlefurs or any of that.
Further Confusion 2009 was my first con. I didn't know anyone. My ex-gf was there and she was busy at her table. So there was really nothing to do but record everything. Further Confusion 2010 was the first time I talked to furries I met on the internet. And when you assume the most sinister evil thing, what I saw was the most normal, average, thing. They didn't even card me. I saw absolutely no fetish-ware anywhere.
And most importantly, I can tell you I never attempted to bring my child to a party a million times and you won't believe me. That's because you're not my friends. You're just a group of people who like to find humor in putting others down. That's not right. It's pretty nasty.
If you have a "joke" and you are the onky one laughing... it isn't a joke. So take the hint when you have everyone saying that your parenting is piss poor in some ways. Benefit of doubt for you lets say its because youre their father and that can blindside you sometimes into bad decisions
So far, none of you have communicated a single bad decision I made other then
1. Making a weird comment on twitter in 2018.
2. Making the false impression that I attempted to bring my child to any party in 2019
3. Completely misremembering whatever I typed on Kiwifarms in 2019.
Fact stands I never tried to take my kid anywhere. My schedule was packed for BLFC 2018. It's clear the heart of the rumor was that I made any attempt to walk to the party floor and that's clearly not true. So I am absolutely right in saying the rumor "Khord Kitty tried_____" because I never tried anything. That's a fact that none of you people want to believe. So you'll never believe it and that's fine. I don't need to convince you I'm a great Dad. I couldn't care less for attention of validation.
The people who think that's the point of this don't understand that I'm a communicator and that when someone lies about me it motivates me to tell the truth about me.
I have no benefit from validation or attention. If you think that's my agenda then I question what can one do with validation or attention? That might be something someone needs if they want to feel better, maybe a hedonistic mindset. If you do say my motivations are for validation or attention it's clear that you're probably a hedonist and you DO do things for an emotional aftermath. You can't imagine someones agenda being to speak truthfully and honesty. It's beyond what you would do yourself.
Now start looking at it as "I have 5 people all saying the same thing. Maybe just MAYBE i am the 1 in the wrong"
Now here it what's happening:
1. "Because you took your son to a babyfur party, you're a bad father!"
But I never did that. So the point is invalid.
2. "Because your wife called the police on you for your actions, you're a bad husband!"
I was there. That never happened. I'd love to know the date of these happenings if you have any idea.
3. "Because you showed your son Pom Poko, you're a bad father!"
I never showed him that movie. He couldn't see the screen because the foam/cloth crib blocking it. All he could hear was Japanese speaking. It's a fantastic movie. You should watch it.
4. "Because you have nasty art in your favorites, you're a bad father!"
How is transformation nasty? It was my personal gateway drug into the fandom. Had it not been for transformation art, I would of never found out about VCL and I would never found out about furries.
5. "Because you're a bum, your wife had to go to work! You're a bad husband!
Actually we talked about the agreement of me going to work while she was on pregnancy leave and me going to work after the kids were old enough to say IF the day care was giving good care. That was an agreement we made, never followed through in.
So the reason 5 people are saying the same thing is simple: 5 people are gullible. They'll believe any stupid thing they read on the internet. You farmers are really gullible people. You will ignore any facts or evidence and just believe the most sensational thing you read because it feels really good!
And you probably want to believe any gossip you read because you're a hedonist! How can anyone read gossip for any reason other then pleasure? It's only for pleasure. Unlike you people I don't do things for pleasure. I do things with a specific goal in mind. And after the goal is complete, I do feel very accomplished in myself. I feel no accomplishment reading into gossip.
But most importantly, most of you don't seem genuinely interested in the truth behind any of this gossip. And I'm handing you the truth because there is a serious health crisis going on right now and I have free time. I don't think this is a waste of time and, no matter what anyone says, I see nothing wrong with typing all of this.
I have read essays I've made in 2003 and thought to myself "My God, I feel the exact same way as I did then. This is fantastic! My ideas really haven't changed much... just my experiences"
Bruh, you went from being a background actor, to working minimum wage garbage, to being a music teacher. If that's success then you've set the bar so low that someone might trip over it if they're not paying attention.
I was a music director for an off-off broadway show too. I sang in an accapella group in Manhattan. I've acted in the FOREground in a movie and TV show as well. I create luxury cars at a company that people tell me they DREAM to work at. And if you think I've only done easy stuff, I have my fair share of manual labor. I've taught chinese children english and a ton more.
I'm assuming you determine success by how big your paycheck is? Well I get a pretty nice pay check from creating luxury cars. So no, I'm pretty proud of my record. Please keep calling me a bum if it makes you feel better, I'll go back to making luxury cars, and then you go back to playing video games and masturbating to My Little Pony ok?
You claim his ex bought his house and car? He denies it and you drop it.
Both my ex and I are on the title and the loan. Unfortunately refinancing requires a minimum 6 months pay stubs so I must wait until I get that. She has the family car, but because it was purchased during the marriage I will be owed half it's value. And I have a car as well.
You keep calling him a bum with no life, and when he rattles off his list of "achievements", you default to calling him a bum again and a bad father, which, while extremely evident, isn't a fucking response to your accusation.
Well because me saying "I never took my son to a babyfur party" over and over again isn't working I have this offer: Do you want me to locate every single host of every single babyfur gathering that occurred during BLFC 2018 and to confirm with them they NEVER saw me at the door?
Ultimately proving something happened is easy. Proving something never happened is almost impossible. I'm being expected to prove a negative here and that's not possible. I'm being put in an unreasonable position where I'm considered a terrible father if I can't prove a negative. Well then that would make everyone a terrible father.
Something else important to note: During BLFC 2018, up to that point, I had never heard of a single person in the babyfur community ever doing any criminal. Both myself and my ex-wife have MANY friends in the babyfur community. Both of us see them as harmless and normal people. Now your perspective is understandably different. You probably might of heard of a babyfur doing something criminal. This is a difference in perspective that is important to note.
Had I heard of a single instance of someone in the babyfur community doing anything criminal I would of never entertained such an idea. But by entertaining the idea to begin with I've been repeatedly Judged. Is it so hard to believe that I see nothing wrong with the babyfur community because I've had friendships in that community for well over a decade and I've never found a single instance of criminal activity?
I really, really don't mean to sound MATI, but this quickly turned into the most boring thread I've ever read outside of Spergatory and it had the potential to be as good as your others.
I'm a natural born New-Yorker. Someone punches me, I punch back. Doesn't matter if you're a man or woman. This thread is an attack on me. I'll attack back. I'll keep attacking back. I don't care who makes the attack. I'll defend myself till the death. And I think most of you people don't want me to because you couldn't care less about my pride. That's fine. I have pride.
I'm proud my openness in my sexuality. I'm proud of my fantastic fathering. I'm proud of being a fantastic husband. And I'll defend my record any day of the week. Any day. And this day I have a lot of free time on my hands and I'll use every moment I can to punch back because I have pride. I have free time.
And hey, if you want to call me a terrible father and a terrible husband. That's fine. Do it on your own time in your own social circle. You do it public I'll punch back and I'll keep punching back until your bored with me.
I know I haven't really posted a lot of evidence. But honestly I don't see the point. I don't want to convince ANY of you that I'm a good father or a good husband.
I just play Whac-A-Mole with every public attack I get and that will never change. My pride will never let it change. Call me autistic a hundred times if you want. Not a SINGLE one of you gives a shit that my childrens address is being posted online and I do. And I always will.
That is beyond inappropriate and I'm the only person in this forum who thinks so.
Big important point I need to make to all the people saying:
1. Oh no! Embarrassing things at the top of the Google search! You don't want that!
2. Don't feel the trolls. They're just trolls.
3. Hey, don't worry so much about gossip!
4. Haha, so dumb. Why do you keep replying? Don't you see how stupid you are?
5. It's KiwiFarm! You should let the thread die!
I had a person say they wanted to shoot me in the head, another person steal my college textbooks, someone else steal my pet dog, and I was banned from a furmeet.
All of these events were caused by my ex-wife spreading false rumors to over 1,000 people. And just the fact that two of those specific rumors ended up on this thread tells me that I would be a MORON if I didn't respond.
Genuinely there are a huge amount of people who want to do harm onto me. A HUGE amount of people. And they are really willing to hurt me.
A furry named "Lizard" who lives in the bay area: She was falsely told that I called her a bitch and she was also told that I was a neglectful father. On July 31st 2019 she pushed me backwards with her body in front of my youngest son. I was trying to make funny faces at my 8 month old because she was screaming how much of a terrible father I was in front of my infant. This is not a joke.
Another furry named "Ruslan" who lives in the central valley was falsely told I sexually molested my dog and sexually assaulted my ex-wife (exact same rumor the O.P. brought up out of thin air). Ruslan said "To be honest, if I met your husband I'd shoot him in the head." My ex-wife responded "I'd be fine with that". This is also not a joke.
A furry named "Mike the Cat" from Montana was falsely told I sexually assaulted my ex-wife. He private messaged me and told me to "burn in hell". He called me a rapist. This was around July of 2019.
So as all of you laugh, you probably would of never EVER thought of the idea of someone being invited in your house and trying to steal your college textbooks because they were told a falsehood about you. Well that's EXACTLY what happened on July 31st 2019 to me.
MEMBERS OF THE FURRY FANDOM are being weaponized against me. So yes, feel free to tease me all you want. Feel free to call me a liar all you want. Feel free to call me autistic all you want. Feel free to DOX me all day and all night.
Not a single one of you were assaulted in your own home because of a false gossip. Not a single one of you had your college textbooks stolen because of false gossip. Not a single one of you had your pet dog stolen because of false gossip. Not a single one of you were told you were going to be shot in the head because of false gossip. Not a single one of you were ASSAULTED in front of an infant because of false gossip. Not a single one of you had your family pictures deleted because of false gossip.
And that's ULTIMATELY the only reason why all of you a laughing at me and I have to deal with the fact that the moment I STOP addressing the false gossip is the moment I will end up dead.
Keep laughing at me and I'll keep remembering that on Katlynn Goodwill Yost SAID something to Frank Felix and Joshua Acosta. Maybe it was false gossip? Hard to know.
But whatever she told them, motivated those two gentleman to murder Christopher Yost, Jennifer Yost, and Arthur Boucher on September 24th 2016.
So as much as you guys are laughing, name-calling, trolling and doing everything you can try and get some type of emotional reaction out of me. My life is at risk. I will be murdered by a member of the furry community if I stay silent.
In April of 2015 while rooming with a furry at Furry Weekend Atlanta 2015 the phone started ringing while my roommates laptop was playing music. I told him "Can you please mute that?". He gave a slight smile to me and paused for 5 seconds. I pressed the mute button on his laptop. He grabbed my arms pushed me against the bed, slamming my knee into the hotel nightstand and he said "Don't touch my stuff!". My knee got a bruise from the incident.
That roommate was named Simba Lion, the same furry who tried to murder two cops on 11/19/2019 in Monroe, Michigan. A month before the murder Simba Lion asked me on Telegram for some lewds. I told him I was not comfortable with sending that, he asked for lewds again. I threatened to block him if he asked again. So he said:
"I want to remember you as a friend" and he deleted the Telegram logs and blocked me. Two months later he was dead, thanks to the police bullets, on December 1st 2019.
So if you want to pretend that furries are complete incapable of causing any harm on me, and that if I just ignore this thread and ignore these rumors that I'll be perfectly happy and safe for the rest of my life...
Don't forget about Lizard, Ruslin, Simba Lion, Mr and Mrs Yost, Mr Felix, Mr Acosta, and Mike the Cat.
My ex-wife said on 4 different occasions that she wanted me dead and that she was fine if I got shot in the head. Now one of the rumors she spread appeared out of thin air out of the O.Ps mouth, AND the O.P posted my personal address. And you want to laugh at me more for not believing something like September 24th 2016 would happen?
If it did you'd probably say "Oh good riddance, he tried to take his son to an adult fetish party anyway" even without any proof that ever happened.
That's the power of rumors. You can not only wish death onto someone, motivate a murderer, give a murderer a map, even without a shred of evidence smile at the thought that you helped give the death penalty to someone you thought did something to deserve it.
Majik Bear, a bay area furry was told in Spring of 2019 that I told my wife, at the time "I don't beat you, but I could". He blocked me after that. Talked about how I was obviously a psychopath. Now every single time I got my local furmeet, I often see him there. He reports to my ex-wife my exact location.
It's only a matter of time before I'm in the news and the obituary and wouldn't you all CHEER? Wouldn't you all cheer? You'll look at my favorites list on InkBunny. You'll look at a joke I made on Twitter in 2018. You'll hear a rumor about a police call that never happened from the O.P.. You'll look at my curly hair and say "Good riddance, another dead degenerate"
Not a single one of you saw my son cry as another adult pulls him away. Why would you care if I died? You want me to die. And that's why you're both giving my murder my address, my picture, and a REASON to fire the final shot. I HOPE my children read this because they'll probably learn the biggest lesson of all:
KiwiFarms isn't a just court of law. But they sure know how to punish those who they think are guilty.
