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Profile post from death grips
it isn't hard."
Genchat from @death grips
"the inner machinations of their minds are enigmatic"
I know you are"
SICKO"
HE HAS HEALEDETH ANOTHER"
huh?"
its okay"
(His copypastas led @death grips to stop his copypasting and say)
@Akatussh's copypastas
my mom drank liquor
and smoked weed
when she was pregnant with me
my forehead bulges out
and i have a cleft palate
i feel really confused
all the time
with everything
I think i have down's syndrome
i don't have the brains to have anything
resembling an intelligent conversation<br>
i don't have the motivation
to do anything but watch television
because i wasn't fully toilet trained
until i was 17 years old
when i try to read a book
i just end up staring at a block of text
without understanding it at all
my perception is so limited and small
that i go into detail
about the tiniest bit of knowledge
that i have in my brain
then when i die
i'll go to heaven retarded
and they'll laugh at me there too
i don't know how to walk normal
because i can't stop thinking
about my mechanical legs
that suspend my disgusting abdomen
up off the ground
like a sack of filthy potatoes
on display
for everyone to laugh at
a sack of ugly potatoes
on stilts
and i know i have autism
and i'm legally blind too
and i have that weird fat puffy face
and people joke that i'm "mentally challenged"
mentally challenged? fuck off
i'm a retard!
a total retard that needs lethal injection
they should sterilize my entire family tree
the hand lotion
squirted on my face
and then i had a dream
of shooting myself
i could feel the bullet
go through my head
but i was still there
so i tried drinking
my own breast milk
and it tasted like puke
then i end up in a ball
on the floor
and then everything goes black
and the puppy face shows up again
and then i wake up
in a puddle of cold vomit
a disgusting autistic baby
that needs big hugs and kisses
but i'm covered in puke
and i smell like dog pee
because the dog peed on me
while i was passed out
and on instagram
In response to "do you have any feelings about cockroaches?"every time my boyfriend ejaculates
i have to be on the other side of the room
because his sperm is disgusting
everything about it is disgusting
well im mtf trans
i hate them I hate them I hate them
"did turning your dick inside out make you happier or sadder?"the color and the consistency
just makes me feel like i'm going to vomit
and i'm practically illiterate
but my tits make up for it
and i think i have meningitis
and i can't eat peanut butter
because it never goes down
it just stays in my mouth
like a creamy crunchy leech
and i just can't stop talking to myself
and i freaked out and grabbed a pan
and started swinging it and shouting
i hate this person
they think they're are so awesome
and i have a fear of cucumbers
and i always feel invisible hands
poking me
and i threw up again
now there's captain crunch
all over the linoleum
and the dog is licking it up
and i keep hearing someone whistling
and the phone keeps vibrating
"why are you still a depressed retard then"happier
because everything hates me
the pills were wearing off during my neovagina surgery and all they gave me was a little debbie
i'm an abortion, my dreams are abortions
and i'm crawling inside of them
i'm inside someone's body and i can't breathe
there are other people inside of here too
and i'm suffocating in the guts
i always use a ruler to draw circles
and i took the kalms but they made it worse
and it won't stop and i'm just exhausted
"if you ever think about killing yourself, please consider killing your chopdocs instead."i can't lose my scholarship! i can't lose my scholarship! my thoughts are racing but my mind is moving so slowly
and i can feel every nerve under my scalp
crawling across my skull like electric spaghetti screaming
screaming in agony as their last shred of hope is completely annihilated forever
i obsess about my dog, i can't leave him at home, he'll pee in my shoes
i dont get it
i played with the padlock so many times, so many times
i have to shake the one leg
the same amount of times as the other leg
or i'll start crying again
and then i'll shake uncontrollably and scare the dog
and then he'll pee all over everything
and i'll never get the dog pee out of the pantyhose
and then everyone in the world will hate me
i'm surrounded by people that hate me
and i think i'm gonna pass out again
i need to make more affirmations, where's the sticky notes?
i keep them in the exact same place and they're not there!
i drink gallons of water and my mouth feels so dry
"why"when i was younger i let the dog lick my nose and i feel really bad about it
and i tried using instagram
but it keeps logging into my other social networking accounts
"what else did you let your dog lick?"i dont know
NOTHING
i try to make a list of affirmations
but i have to keep erasing them and starting again i have to write them over and over again
because i don't want people to think i'm a slob
i can feel my tongue..i can feel my tongue squirming around in my mouth like a worm
there's a worm in my mouth and it just tells lies and lies
and i wish i could just fast-forward it all and get it over with there's amoebas crawling all over me
and i'm running out of rubber gloves
i wish i could just take my entire head apart like an appliance
and rinse each individual part with vinegar
the brain lock didn't help, nothing helps hold on, i need to clean my teeth again oh god, the dog peed on the hardwood i need to clean them every 500 words i went to a restaurant and i couldn't eat the food
because the waiter touched it and now it's diseased i put it in the microwave to try to kill the disease
but it didn't work and now i have a headache
and i feel like i'm dreaming i got the costco hearing aids and now i feel sick
and i'm spacing out and snapchat fucked me up for life
and the abilify makes everything feel wet
but the effexor makes the surfaces feel peaceful again
and my mouth makes whiny puppy sounds
and it's so humiliating because i sound like a clown
and everybody is laughing at me in their heads i can feel a pseudo-seizure coming.. !snnanHznKjNKka my brain feels like a bowl of soggy froot loops
and the saline nasal spray makes everything smell like dirty band-aids i want to throw up my brains, i want to vomit my brains
oh no, the dog is licking the floor again
and i've been constipated for months
and i can't sit down and my vision keeps changing
and i'm having difficulty swallowing
and i can't feel my arms when i wake up
and i need to keep moving
and everything is tingling
and i'm hearing voices
and i have no emotions that are my own
and nothing keeps me entertained
i have to chew my food equally on both sides of my mouth
and i count my teeth with my tongue
twenty times clockwise
and 20 times counter-clockwise
until it gives me a headache
when i cut an apple into pieces
they have to be perfectly aligned to each other in a fixed position
then i eat them numerically and i use my whole head to chew
and i hear voices in the other room
and if one of my ears gets touched
i absolutely have to have the other ear touched
just so it evens out
if it evens out, i'm fine.. and then it's like nothing ever happened
"how can you have breastmilk as a mtf?"when i clip my nails that entire day is a write-off, just forget about it if i see a crumb on the carpet i can't concentrate on the tv
i have... I have!
"do any voices tell you to do things?"when i watch csi, i continually remind myself that i'm watching csi if i'm in the mall, or anywhere that the flooring is tiled
i make sure i walk in each square and not touch the lines if i step on a line i get paranoid
and i have to go back and start all over again i have to count each pixel, i clean the mouse, i can't stand itunes
yes no
"did you find your transition arousing?"i pull my hairs out one-by-one when i look in the mirror, all i see is a short, fat 21-year old and i always have to go to the bathroom
when i masturbate and it goes nowhere
and i'm obsessed with chlorine
yes...
"do you have any contact with demons or gods?"when i make eye contact i have to move my eyes in circles
then i have to bisect the circles with one perfect linear eye movement
and i always get it wrong and i have to do it over and over until my eyes hurt
"what are the names of the entities you are in contact with?"i think i left a tampon inside me and i can't find it anywhere
and i want my belly button removed
and i need tranquilizers
and i'm horrified..
"do you obsessively masturbate to fictional characters?"grim reaper and sonichu
the positive poetry doesn't do shit
and i'm sexually attracted to prime numbers
3, 5, 7, 9, 11
even saying that makes me get really turned on
and i spend too much time on the toilet for no reason
and i see gas particles colliding in the air
and today i was eating a burger and i thought i was eating fries
and when i was eating my "fries", i thought i should be eating my burger
even though i was already eating my burger
and i made eye contact in the mirror with my dog
and i feel so ashamed
and when i sleep i hear a baby screaming and crying
and then i wake up and realize that it was me
then i sterilized the screwdriver
and take zantac's before bed and abilify in the morning
and alternate between tetris and masturbation
and my eyes keep blinking they're blinking and blinking like a clown they're blinking and blinking like a clown a mentally retarded clown with blinking eyes i used a stopwatch and it was hopeless, worthless
no i cant
"when did you start transitioning?"i'm a worthless abortion and how am i supposed to go shopping like this? i'm a worthless abortion and how am i supposed to go shopping like this?
the handbag is in five different colors
and they know i have to buy each color
and they always do this to me
and i jiggle the door handle
and i jiggle the door handle
and i want to stab myself in the head
and now i'm crying again and i can't stop crying
"Death grips please get therapy"2020
i lost my new ear buds
and i think i'm freaking out over it
and i'm on the pill and a bit obese
and i got some new jeans the other day
and i keep hearing a little girl voice
inside my head saying
help me.. help me..
and now i'm paralyzed
on the right side of my body
and i tried playing with the dog
with the left side
and then i started sobbing uncontrollably
and then the dog starts heaving
thick yellow vomit
and i started kicking the coffee table
kicking it and kicking it
and he starts shitting
and i don't care..
i don't care..
and then i have 180 symptoms
of mental retardation
and it always feels like there's sweat
dripping down my body
but there is no sweat
and i don't even feel like i'm in my own body
and i use noxzema pads on everything
and there's microscopic eggs everywhere
and my dog is insane
and i know the apocalypse is coming
and that motor-home is still there
and there's bugs in my skin
moving through my arms and legs
and they're feeding off my brain
like pac-man
and i can feel them moving around
and many of them are making new little holes
and i sprayed myself with windex
then they started pushng out
and i peed them out
and i always hear a flat-lining sound in my head
and sudafed gave me brain disease
and one side of my face is bulging
because my head is flat on the back
and it makes me look like someone i'm not
then i puked the worms out
and they were in my brain
and now there's vomit in my lungs
everywhere i go
i hear bad voices cursing me
and the autistic dots
are eating up my brain
and i get flashes in my right eye
because the tapeworms
are inside of my eyeball
i keep trying to kill the worms
but they won't die
i tried writing a suicide note
but it just turned out lame
i don't know how to be funny
i tried watching those funny shows
and stand-up comedians
but whenever i try to implement the jokes
people just stare at me in this awkward silence
and it's a continuous circle
getting stronger and stronger each time
"Death grips if you’re that ill please see a doctor"i've been throwing up for days straight
and the room is spinning
and i'm having hallucinations
and the dog is screaming
and the only reason
i'm not dead yet
is because i'm scared to death of knives
and i'm repulsed by reproductive organs
i feel the urge to masturbate
but then i just pee my pants and go numb
the human body makes me sick to my stomach
and i threw up on the bus
then my body begins to shiver
and i have nightmares for days
"why are trannies so weird?"i look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting downi look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting downi look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting down
i look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting down
i look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting down
are you even listening?
"the inner machinations of their minds are enigmatic"
i look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting down
if someone leaves the toilet seat up
5:43 AM
i look like a penis trying to run
and i have to force myself
not to peel other people's sunburns
and if anything touches the counter, i won't eat it
and don't get me started on cups and glasses
and i see flies everywhere
out of the corners of my eyes
and my nerves feel like steel wool in a microwave oven
and i think i'm going blind in one eye
and my swiffer smells like dog piss
and my gag reflex is triggering
and my whole body starts shutting down
if someone leaves the toilet seat up
"I don't thinki use oxy pads on everything
and i think i'm mentally handicapped
I know you are"
i just never realized it before
and someone called me a loser on the internet
and i can't get over it
and my eyes won't focus
and i have crazy eyes
when i hear the dog coughing
i feel like i'm gonna puke
and i check my social media sites all day long
and the internet has given me permanent psychosis
and i can't stop thinking about other people's lives
"Touch grass fren"the internet is poisonous
and i hate my nipples
and my brain feels like it is wiggling around
when i move my head
and i can't think about my intestines or i'll throw up
i can't
"wtf is wrong with youoh good god! i have intestines..i have intestines!
and i think my house is haunted and it's cold in here
and i turn on the tv to trick my brain into leaving
and i have horrible everything
SICKO"
are@Sicko Hunter, ahhhhhh
i have such an ugly punchable face
and i'm addicted to hairspray
and when i talk to people
i watch the shapes their tongues make
it's the shapes that the tongues make
and the noise that comes out of the hole behind the teeth
"nigga log off"it isn't them.. it's something.. it's some thing!
and there's no toilet paper
and i try to keep my eyes open as wide as i can
and i just hit the space-bar and backspace
3 times in a row, 5 times in a row
and i'm cleaning the bathroom
at 3am again and i'm so tired
and i'm having a brain aneurysm
and i keep hearing my mom telling me
where the penis goes when you sleep
and i post hundreds of the cutest puppies
and no one gives a shit
and i count the cheerios until i'm suicidal
and when i see blue skies i just want to kill myself
it isn't them.. it's something.. it's some thing!
and there's no toilet paper
and i try to keep my eyes open as wide as i can
and i just hit the space-bar and backspace
3 times in a row, 5 times in a row
and i'm cleaning the bathroom
at 3am again and i'm so tired
and i'm having a brain aneurysm
and i keep hearing my mom telling me
where the penis goes when you sleep
and i post hundreds of the cutest puppies
and no one gives a shit
and i count the cheerios until i'm suicidal
and when i see blue skies i just want to kill myself
i cant
"as a Jew, I command you stop this! The power of Moses compels you! BE HEALED GLORY TO THE HIGHESTthe sound of cellophane makes me want to claw my face off
and i get dizzy if i smell peanut butter
and door knobs have ruined my life
and right before i orgasm i have intrusive thoughts
about a man who murdered someone in my neighborhood
and i'm addicted to sleeping pills
and i ate three boxes of honey-buns
three times a day for three weeks straight
and i'm always thinking "what if?" .. "what if?"
shut up! shut up!
HE HAS HEALEDETH ANOTHER"
why?
i don't shut my drawers if i'm thinking something bad
and if i have a bath i have to wash my hands after
and dry them on the towel
then wash them again after i touched the towel
and i can waste entire days like this
and if i drop something on the floor
i consider it gone forever
and i pull all the kleenex out of the box
just to verify them
i don't shut my drawers if i'm thinking something bad
and if i have a bath i have to wash my hands after
and dry them on the towel
then wash them again after i touched the towel
and i can waste entire days like this
and if i drop something on the floor
i consider it gone forever
and i pull all the kleenex out of the box
just to verify them
i don't shut my drawers if i'm thinking something bad
and if i have a bath i have to wash my hands after
and dry them on the towel
then wash them again after i touched the towel
and i can waste entire days like this
and if i drop something on the floor
i consider it gone forever
and i pull all the kleenex out of the box
just to verify them
i don't shut my drawers if i'm thinking something bad
and if i have a bath i have to wash my hands after
and dry them on the towel
then wash them again after i touched the towel
and i can waste entire days like this
and if i drop something on the floor
i consider it gone forever
and i pull all the kleenex out of the box
just to verify them
i don't shut my drawers if i'm thinking something bad
and if i have a bath i have to wash my hands after
and dry them on the towel
then wash them again after i touched the towel
and i can waste entire days like this
and if i drop something on the floor
i consider it gone forever
and i pull all the kleenex out of the box
just to verify them
"as a Jew, anywhere it wants"where does the penis go?
shut up mom!
"apparently it's a pooner who likes death grips so I'm guiessing schizo related BPD"i have to go check the cupboards again
and i'm constantly clearing my throat
and it drives everyone crazy
and i can never get all the pee out
and i go through tweezers like no tomorrow
and i can't stop popping the bubble wrap
no, im a biological male
i have to go check the cupboards again
and i'm constantly clearing my throat
and it drives everyone crazy
and i can never get all the pee out
and i go through tweezers like no tomorrow
and i can't stop popping the bubble wrapi carry bubble wrap with me everywhere i go
which is nowhere except back to bed
and i tried to drown my dog
in a large ziploc bag full of pineapple juice
and i said, "i'm so sorry! i'm so sorry!"
and now when he smells pineapple
he just lays on the linoleum and pretends he's dead.
http://sentimentalcorp.org/systemsd...luts/popping_the_bubble_wrap/audioplayer.html I JUST SPAMMED THIS SPOKEN WORD ALBUM LOL
http://sentimentalcorp.org/systemsd...luts/popping_the_bubble_wrap/audioplayer.html I JUST SPAMMED THIS SPOKEN WORD ALBUM LOL
"shush"@Akatushh, https://sentimentalcorp.org/systems...iving_in_the_black_awakening/audioplayer.html He spammed this.
the new pastries they make here are so fucking good
nothing below 3 dollars but the ones at the other place are the same price anyway
i'm gonna drive my car right into that stupid asshole in front of me
i want to so bad, i have to stop myself, take my foot off the pedal
i want to claw the faces of people i've never even met, i think about that
i think about knocking on strangers doors and introducing them to my fist
whoever he is i hate him so much, oh my god!
"Shut the fuck up"my lipstick has a semi-matte ok? for full-bodied lips, i want full-bodied
creamy moist looking lips, the honolulu honey color for fucks sake
what's your fucking problem?
i asked for honolulu honey and they sold me fucking sheer muted grape
i asked for honolulu honey and they sold me fucking sheer muted grape
now i have to go all the way back and i hate this show
whatever it's called, that guy isn't funny at all, what's his name? oh nevermind
no, it was the other show, i meant the other show i got them mixed up
no, it was the other show, i meant the other show i got them mixed up
and i love this purse, what's wrong with this stupid phone? i can't get it to post anything
i spent 10 fucking minutes writing that post and now it's lost, i can't remember it now
this phone hates me and i suck at tango, i just suck at it, i hate it
and where's the magic of your hands you promised? you're all liars
i can't figure out the stupid joystick sequence
"leave him alone"no, i can't
it's her you cisgender scum
"are you only pretending to be retarded?"why did you make it so retarded? are you retarded?
and this perfume doesn't smell good on me
it smelled good on you but it smells like a solvent on me, why?
and i don't like that kind of chocolate anymore, why did you get me that kind?
"perfume has alcohol in it, you have to let the alcohol evaporate to tell if a scent suits you"i told you i don't like that kind anymore, i used to but not anymore
my tiny dog is my baby, he needs me, i'm his mommy
i can't read
my tiny dog is my baby, he needs me, i'm his mommy
he would die without me, he would die
he would die, he would lay down on the linoleum
and his little heart would just stop beating and he would die
and i look fat in these jeans and i hate these jeans
i'm going to cut them up with the scissors and hang myself with them
i'm going to make them into a noose and hang myself and you'll find me dead
do you understand? are you even listening?
why is it so cold in here? it was hot before, it was boiling, i can't stand it
and the core disorder, you don't know anything that you're talking about
you're not a doctor, you don't know what you're talking about, shut up
and my phone doesn't recognize the internet, why?
i did everything right and it won't work and i hate it and everything hates me
and i want someone who knows my needs, and i can't find that receipt now
now i'm stuck with that shitty color, they did it on purpose they hate me there
now i'm stuck with that shitty color, they did it on purpose they hate me there
they only have sales when they know i won't be around
and the dog peed on my new shoes, you peed on my new shoes you little shit
i hate you, where's the spray bottle? where's my phone? oh my god!
"I'm going to burn you alive"turn the heat up, what's wrong with you? you're such an asshole
you have no magic fingers, no tango
and you ate the last piece i know you did, that's how you are
you have no magic fingers, no tango
and you ate the last piece i know you did, that's how you are
no, the dog's just pretending to have convulsions, they're pretend convulsions
he does it all the time, those type of dog's brains don't work right.
i can't go out with my hair like this
i can't go out with my hair like this
i can't go out with my hair like this
i can't go out with my hair like this
"?"tried to dye it mahogany
and now it just looks like shit
and those sunglasses don't fit my face shape
they make me look like a retard
and i hate my body
youtube is poisonous
sometimes i have a few good days when i love it
but then my bellybutton filled with pus
and i had to take my piercing out
and i try to look happy but i hate my face<br>
i want to stab my face
how can i be so ugly?
i can't stop biting my nails
i should just bite them down to the bone
until they're just skeleton hands
and then poke my eyes out with the bony tips
now i have a rash from the splash-all-over body mist
i think it's eating my skin
i squeeze the tennis ball but it doesn't do shit
my shoes are so ugly, that's why i bought them
because they suit me, because i'm so ugly
i'm not god's creation, i'm a living abortion
if beauty is within then i'm drinking poison
seriously, my face is gonna ruin my life
i didn't realize this would happen
the makeup failed.. it failed
beautiful people are more successful than others
especially women, my breasts are too large
"why did you @ mebeautiful people are more successful than others
especially women, my breasts are too large
beautiful people are more successful than others
especially women, my breasts are too large
huh?"
test
i feel so humiliated, and it's clear that i'm a lesser person<br>
i keep cutting but i chicken out
i can't even do that right
"dont let them get to youno boys due to ugly no job prospects due to ugly turn off face and grim finance sector
what's the fucking point?
they can restore my smile with dental implants
why can't they restore my smile with mental implants?
its okay"
"there is no way out for you, you have to kill yourself now and stream it"why can't they restore my smile with mental implants?
if i smash my own nose will i get an automatic nose job?
i'm thinking about smashing my cheekbones
so i can have larger ones implanted
no makeup can fix this
no one around loves me
not an ounce of love
and i don't blame them
"do it now"i want to kill myself so bad
cultural anthropology will back me up
i'm ugly, i'm gross
i warn you for what you will see.
i feel like i'm no longer alive
yeah, i no longer feel stressed
but i no longer feel anything
"How much do you weigh?"ve had a headache for days
and i'm in a total fog
ve had a headache for days
and i'm in a total fog
i've had a headache for days
and i'm in a total fog
i'm sick in the stomach
and i wake up dizzy
throughout the night
i'm tired all the time
and i can't sleep
i have bad dreams when i do
bad dreams with spiders in them
and i don't feel connected anymore
non-stop diarrhea
non-stop diarrhea
and i'm too afraid to quit
because i'm terrified of gaining weight
because i'm obsessed with food
i can't think about food
oh see? now i started talking about food again
it's just my obsession talking
i can't tell
i hate food
food is my worst enemy
don't talk about food please
i'm getting dizzy again, hold on..
i don't feel comfortable
in my own skin anymore
but this too shall pass
was in so much emotional pain
i was literally immobilized by it
zoloft set me free
and i can live with the spiders in my head
we're almost friends now
i even gave some of them names
the big ones name is lexapro
and the freaky ones name is celexa
anyways, i count the calories religiously
and i'm about to get hysterical
so bear with me, i'll make it
even though my emotions
are in a state of mummification
there are little moments
when i can feel them
anyways, i count the calories religiously
and i'm about to get hysterical
so bear with me, i'll make it
even though my emotions
are in a state of mummification
there are little moments
when i can feel them
oh hold on, diarrhea..
low level nausea is my middle name
my first name is apathy
zoloft is helping me survive
crying my eyes out for days
and wanting to die
is better than stuffing my face
on zoloft i can forget all that
i can network with friends again
and have fun
and even though it's like watching a puppet show
starring my own self
it's still better than food
before zoloft i was so anxious at work
i would get stressed out over anything
but i didn't get bothered by anything today
and even though my sex drive is gone
men are all liars anyway
so i don't miss that, or food
i still feel like i'm on the verge
of a constant freakout
but it never happens
i can live with it
zoloft improved my mood
instead of all the little feelings
it's just one nice steady hum
i have my morning cry
and then i get on with my day
even though the headaches
start to put pressure behind my eyes
and i feel like a vise grip
is tightening around my brain
it's worth the trade off
because now my ocd and anxiety is better
and i always feel like a deer
watching the headlights coming
and i just took six tylenols
when the blank stare
and dumbfounded smile
come back to haunt me
i cut the pills in half
and eat them throughout the day
my boyfriend doesn't even follow me on twitter
he favorites selfies of girls he doesn't even know
and he won't even add me on skype
like, there are times i go on his timeline to see if he's tweeting
and i think he blocked me
i was waiting all day so we could facetime
and he just talked to other friends on facetime instead
i love him more than anyone here
i took the whole jar of pills, but then he called
so i made myself puke before they took effect
i took the whole jar of pills, but then he called
so i made myself puke before they took effect
i cut my arm to shreds anyway
i cut my arm to shreds anyway
i threatened to break up with him
because whenever he lies or does things
he refuses to take responsibility
and he never says he's sorry
yeah ok whatever then break up with me
and then i swallow more pills
and text him the pill bottle
and he ignores it so i have to puke them up again
and then he keeps favoriting pictures of other girls
and i text him like what the fuck?
and he swears he loves me
and that he doesn't mean those things
he was just mad but he always tweets other girls
and i tell him i love him all the time
and he just says ok.. ok
and so i said why? and he said he doesn't like doing that
but he used to.. he says he misses me and i ask him what he misses
he said my big breasts and nice ass, i said ok but what else?
he said the battery's at 3 percent, he said he'd get back to me
i said ok, at least it was something sweet
i wish he said i had beautiful eyes but my eyes aren't that great
i hate my eyes, he said no girl should even be talking to any guy
unless she's with him, cuz he's the man
and i can only wear certain clothes with him
but then he doesn't text me unless some other guy texts me
and then he flips out then he says everything over
and to go swallow more pills cuz i'm a slut
but he took it all back after i gave him a blowjob on the bus
but then he acted like he changed and i guess he changed
and i believe him but then he deleted me
he says it's cuz he doesn't want his ex's feelings to get hurt
cuz he loves me so much and that would hurt her a lot
so that's cool, he doesn't message me when he's sober
he said he was dog-sitting at a friends house
and he'd get back to me later, then he just played videogames
but i gave him oral because fair is fair
but then he just watches cartoons with his friends
and he doesn't answer my texts
and i had to go to the hospital with my grandma
so i couldn't bring my phone then he got mad
and said i'm a lying whore and now he doesn't text me
he says he'll talk to me in public but only when he's drunk
and i miss him like crazy, then he comes over one night
and says he wants to be with me and i said ok
so then he just lies on top of me and i feel his weight on me
but nothing's happening..
and i ask why? why? what's happening?
and he said be quiet and that he's thinking about stuff
and i guess that means he must love me to trust me like that
i don't know, then he gets up and leaves and later he texts me
and calls me a slut and i say why? he says you know why
but i don't know why, maybe i'm too needy?
or maybe he does love me and is just too afraid to text it?
i text him back and say you can come lay on me again
he says he doesn't know what i'm talking about
he says i'm smoking the lightbulb again
and i tell him no way, i can't i'm on probation
and then he did the sweetest thing<br>
...he liked my facebook profile pic
he said he wants to try my cooking next time he's drunk
and i said well what do you like?
and he said just order domino's that's his favorite
he told me that i just needed a spa day
and that he isn't lying, he loves me
more than he could ever say
so that's why he doesn't say it.
should i keep my boyfriend?
Guys, I should just write my own copypastas and lyrics.
It was funny at first but nobody cared after.
And no, I'm not diagnosed with autidm
"no avatar why?"I'm... Santa.
Klaus.
I'm exhausted.
.
My teddy bear hates avatars.
"im an Obsessive Compulsive/Aspie with noise sensitivty two can play opression olympics!"I'm proud to be a black trans woman with autism and mental retardation.
"my parents are Jewish"I have more minority points.
Equal points but I'm also lesbian and neopagan.<br>
7 MINORITY POINTS.
black people
Black people
Black People
BLACK PEOPLE
bLACK pEOPKE
You guys have autism that's why you obsess over me
LOL! LOL!!!!!
yes I'm black.
Hawk Tuah and Hegelian philosoph.
@AkatushhGuys, remember "and i keep thinking about other lives"? <br>
LOL THAT'S YOU.
Yes, that is a symptom of autism.
No I'm healthy and socially adequate my thought patterns are just scrambled.
And intellectually adequate.
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(His copypastas led @death grips to stop his copypasting and say)
STOP SPAMMING
@Akatushh, stop spamming regard
@Akatussh's copypastas
you know i was kidnapped
yea
by family members
it was pretty bad
my family didnt know where i was
my grandmother worried sick
my mother was not worried cuz she was the kidnapper with her boyfriend john
John was tall, bald and had a disfigured thumb he was nice to me but not mother he poured boiling water on her neck and slammed her against door i was there
i was around 4 or 5
couldnt reallly process what was happenning
of course was a kid
but a couple ofyears ago john died in his fifties due to cancer my sister celebrated
fist bumped the air
I was not so pleased becaise i knew that john was the bastard father of my little sister she still doesnt know shes 13 and doesnt know that her real father is dead
and her 'real' father is not her father at all
we be mr. clean green and halloween three
and we be fuckin' nightbreed switchblade banshee's
while you sitting there on candyman's toilet seat
we in your backyard, we cutting through the screens
hanging nude from the roof with piano wire
the season of the self-reflecting death vampire
electro adhesive's jackin' up the transfer
cuz this be trick or treat drenched with fuckin' cancer
halloween night
fright night night
night night!
we was hanging out pounding beers at the danny hacksaw's
i had done so much blow i could not feel my jaw
then that god damn métis in the crazy train shirt
pulled out his shit-stained dick and pissed on my face in spurts
we grabbed that son of a bitch
pushed him into the women's toilet
we're gonna have some god damn fun
and there ain't no way he's gonna spoil it
so, we grabbed a cheese grater from the kitchen
and then we got busy
took all the meat off his god damn head
while we was cranking thin lizzy
yeah!
it was halloween night, late in red october
and i was having enchiladas with some ugly bitch
i told her, i don't give a shit about the annunaki
you gone and done too many rails and now yer just talkin' shit
it was halloween night, late in red october
and i was having enchiladas with some ugly bitch
i told her, i don't give a shit about the annunaki
you gone and done too many rails and now yer just talkin' shit
shut up!
so, she asked me, where'd that métis go?
the one in the ozzy osbourne shirt
if you put a bag on her god damn head
she'd still look like some dog's shit in that flabby mini-skirt
i told her, hey! you ask too many god damn questions
and the sound of your voice is giving me indigestion
she was pretty dumb even for a skank
i said, go have a look in the old stink tank
it was halloween night, late in red october
and i was having enchiladas with some ugly bitch
i told her, i don't give a shit about the annunaki
you gone and done too many rails and now yer just talkin' shit
it was halloween night, late in red october
and i was having enchiladas with some ugly bitch
i told her, i don't give a shit about the annunaki
you gone and done too many rails and now yer just talkin' shit
yo, mk chucky cheese
you know it's time
to kick another motherfuckin' rhyme
of course tonight be halloween night
where we was at the movie show
and we was shouting at the screen
and we did the entire bag of blow
oh yeah, chucky cheese it was partytime
we was watching maximum overdrive
hit that krunk!
where rayray at?
yo, we was passing around the bottle of yesterday's piss
to get a second high off that sour yellow fizz
rayray popped the whole bottom out his popcorn box
and when he offered it to ladies they got a handful of cock
he was tripping out, he was so high on krocodil
we been huffing benzene and he was drooling slimy bile
then some ugly obese ho put her ass on rayray's face
and then she started twerking with that stink all over the place
yo, that be true chucky cheese?
that stank be gruesome!
yup, she be evil dead
and then it was the time to split
but rayray had to take a shit
and we did not know where the damn fuck we was
but then we saw the danny hacksaw's..
and what did we see?
we went to the john when what the fuck
a redneck was sucking some dude's junk
we was gonna bash that cracker fuck
but damn we was running out of krunk
we went to the john when what the fuck
a redneck was sucking some dude's junk
we was gonna bash that cracker fuck
but damn we was running out of krunk
a word to the chucky cheese
cuz this shit is for real?
damn, you need more krunk my man
krunk krunk krunk
krunk krunk krunk
yo, chucky cheese
do a scratch attack, boy!
we went to the bar while rayray took his shits
there was halloween ho's, tits covered with zits
when that redneck ran past with a cheese grater
and yo that cowboy went full gladiator
we went back to the can after he left
and what we had seen was just a bloody mess
homey choking on his tongue close to dying
head had no skin but the eyeballs were crying
yo! yo! your book chucky cheese
this be tales from the end of all flesh, boy wow!
that mofo took it hard, he did not get lucky
he looked like he had spent five nights at chucky's
some woman had a look, she all ugly and chubby
she threw up on her kid in the baby buggy
rayray having a mad time with the ugly sluts
they was wanting us to dunk their flabby donuts
and over in the corner was a dog licking his nuts
we was feeling tired so it be time for coco puffs
we went to the john when what the fuck
a redneck was sucking some dude's junk
we was gonna bash that cracker fuck
but damn we was running out of krunk
we went to the john when what the fuck
a redneck was sucking some dude's junk
we was gonna bash that cracker fuck
but damn we was running out of krunk
that's right!
i went to get me a big gulp
on the way to the jam session
but them god damn "teens"
had destroyed the 7-eleven
so i grabbed a metal baseball bat
and with zero discretion
i beat some meat to the hiphop beat
today is your 9/11 alright!
yeah!
we'll jog on over to popeye’s
like the georgia guidestones says
we'll watch the riots on worldstar
and pop the top off the purple fez we'll jog on over to popeye’s
like the georgia guidestones says
we'll watch the riots on worldstar
and pop the top off the purple fez
trying to take my all-american burger
was your first and last god damn mistake
put that bullcrap talkin' troglodyte
in a garbage bag for some shake 'n' break
that's right!
like a god damn steamroller
almost impossible to stop
left that bag behind the costco
and fifty dollars on the countertop
like a god damn steamroller
almost impossible to stop
left that bag behind the costco
and fifty dollars on the countertop
yeah!
we'll jog on over to popeye’s
like the georgia guidestones says
we'll watch the riots on worldstar
and pop the top off the purple fez
we'll jog on over to popeye’s
like the georgia guidestones says
we'll watch the riots on worldstar
and pop the top off the purple fez
whoa!
More chatpostsPlease delete that thread. I don't wish that cancer to be associated with me. That was a failed troll attempt. I think we should be allowed to delete things. It's not like that anything I wrote here is important enough for generations to read.
@Syzyg, Look, just edit that thread or else I will call my personal army.
@Syzyg, Look I'm pretty young (19). I just don't want this to be associated with me.
@Syzyg, Edit that post to a bunch of symbols.
Why can't people just delete their posts?
@Syzyg, Please delete that thread.
@Syzyg, Дебил . Why can't you just edit it to random symbols or delete it?
@Syzyg, @Syzyg, Дебил . Why can't you just edit it to random symbols or delete it?
Please delete that thread. I'm begging you.
@Syzyg, .
Delete every thread here and the website anD THE UNIVERSE.
In Santa Klaus and I'm ban evading.
"Not knowing why you're where you are is often a sign of neurological damage."I'm just exhausted today the only disorder I been diagnosed with is attention deficit. <br>
I'm from soyjak.blog.
I'm the black person
XD XD XD XD XD XD XD
soyjak
.blog...
Try to guess my IQ.
"80"I'm here to troll.
"if you had good stuff to share, and documented it. It would be well received."No, I'm pretty sure I have a 3 digit IQ.
I was writing the Roxy Radclyffe OP but I gave up because that guy was boring (not really a cow, just writes retarded songs and is a freak).
"exceptional"I'm sorry but I just can't express myself with words or at least normal languages.
Try to guess my IQ, AGAIN!
D<br>
Don't worry guys my doctor says that I have 10 IQ.
"don't count yourself out"Hey don't worry all my friends have 0 IQ and brain tumor.
"but like I am sensing you are trying to cultivate negative attention"Oh yeah I have 160 mental disorders.
"when your behavior seeks attention, it's attention seeking behavior.Autists often confuse sarcasm or humor with ragebait or trying to get attention.
You are one of them.
Anybody who posts below me is autistic and trans.
it isn't hard."
"imagine caring about mean words lol"Yeah but so what.
Oh shir.
PROOF!
I don't really understand IQ. I prefer multiple intelligences theory.
"I'm not high IQ, likely just schizo"forum culture
forum culture
Why do high IQ people act like this?
Yeah you're a midwit like me.
High IQs are assholes ans low IQs can be annoying.
Why we create stupid labels? Attention.
Why we create stupid labels? Attention.
My visual imagination worsened but I have a great auditory imagination
I keep having existential dread over talking about the weather and pizza.
.
"if you keep someone that sheltered you'd rightfully be sent to prison"What would happen if you would try to make it so that a child would believe in Santa Claus or Easter Bunny for life?
Well a man once never was exposed to woman or even cars to keep his faith not distracted so I believe it could be possible.
or something or something or something or something
"0"It was a grown man and it was in Russia and a long time ago
or something or something or something
How much testosterone if you keep eating McDonald's, soy and plant based meat?
"I still wonder if the weed makes me produce more oil"How much testosterone if you're a stalker child?
Look, we found the guy who wrote the copypastas.
"because the world is a vampire"Why do people nowadays have animal intellect? (Except animals have dignity and soul.)
Set to the tune of I don't fucking remember MTV or some shir.
Why my nigger brain can't understand Kabbalah? <br>
Because Jews
Try to guess MY IQ AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN.
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