Christine Milneaux
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- May 27, 2019
You do realize that this website appears to be, from an outsider's perspective, dedicated to mocking the infirm, don't you? And yet you appear to endorse it.
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You do realize that this website appears to be, from an outsider's perspective, dedicated to mocking the infirm, don't you? And yet you appear to endorse it.
You do realize that this website appears to be, from an outsider's perspective, dedicated to mocking the infirm, don't you? And yet you appear to endorse it.
Probably. I'm definitely dying, though there was somebody on Reddit that said it offended her personal sensibilities for me to say that it was lupus. She insisted I start tagging my Instagram posts with #undifferentiatedconnectivetissuedisorder instead. I really do not understand what my illness has to do with her sensibilities but I made the announcement on Insta that it was just as likely to be UCTD, on the off-chance that anyone cares about such minutiae. I still do tag anything that I think applies to Lupus patients as #lupus, though I'm open in admitting that I have not been diagnosed and whatever is killing me doesn't officially have a name yet.Are you still dying of lupus?
whatever is killing me doesn't officially have a name yet.
I'm glad you asked. I think that what "it" is is very likely lupus or perhaps UCTD (so, lupus but without maybe one or two of the diagnostic criteria) and I think that the reason that it's going to end up being terminal is the fact that I don't have access to medical care of any kind at the moment aside from cannabis and whatever supplements and otc aids I can get. It's suggested that lupus killed-- I forget, was it Beethoven? and of course it did because when your body is attacking itself in response to UV light or any of hundreds of other triggers, and nothing can halt the progression of flares, you'll die. I'm certain that I have lupus or an illness that is extremely similar; if I don't have enough clinical markers yet it just hasn't come fully into a flare yet, or perhaps not into a severe enough flare yet. Statistically without treatment (or, before treatment was available) the life expectancy for lupus was 50% at 5 years. Ergo, the likelihood that I will still be alive in 5 years is 50%. Ergo, I'm dying.I ask genuinely - why do you think it’s killing you? And what do you think ‘it’ is? Most patients with lupus have quite specific lab findings. Most people with mild hypermobility (and there are a lot of them) have no problems- hypermobility per se isn’t lethal. Connective tissue disorders that end up in aneurysm yes, but mechanical joint issues, while uncomfortable, aren’t terminal.
I'm glad you asked. I think that what "it" is is very likely lupus or perhaps UCTD (so, lupus but without maybe one or two of the diagnostic criteria) and I think that the reason that it's going to end up being terminal is the fact that I don't have access to medical care of any kind at the moment aside from cannabis and whatever supplements and otc aids I can get. It's suggested that lupus killed-- I forget, was it Beethoven? and of course it did because when your body is attacking itself in response to UV light or any of hundreds of other triggers, and nothing can halt the progression of flares, you'll die. Statistically without treatment (or, before treatment was available) the life expectancy for lupus was 50% at 5 years. Ergo, the likelihood that I will still be alive in 5 years is 50%. Ergo, I'm dying.
This is my kink too. I married one. I fell in love with him the night he told me over an mmo's chat about how much he missed his ex-gf. I told him I'd love him better, and I did.
Honestly, I just want someone to hold me and stroke my hair and let me cry. To tell me it's okay and justifiable that I'm upset, and whisper sweet little comforting nothings: there there, it's okay, I'm here. Things like that.
I was 17, on vacation in England with my 27 year old boyfriend. We were clothed, but humping each other on the couch on the second floor with my parents on the floor below us. They would have absolutely murdered us both if they found out even half of what we did. Even though we were both clothed, the taboo factor and the friction were just mind-blowing. He had to cover my face with a pillow because I was having multiple orgasms, screaming like a porn star.
But I never actually kill myself. I've never even gone so far as to try. Isn't that something? I think about killing myself at least once a day now, but I've NEVER attempted suicide. I absolutely hate admitting to myself that I'm not going to kill myself, because it means that A) people around me probably won't be able to understand just how awful I feel when faced with a trying circumstance unless I take it to 11, and B) it means I have to come out of shutdown mode eventually and attempt to live with whatever circumstance is making me desperate to escape.
I ended up marrying him. We've been married for almost 6 years now. To this day my parents have no idea we got it on on a couch in England.
Does anyone else ever want to self harm in front of therapist? by Smallbees in selfharm
[–]AdloraOfSolitude 9 points 2 years ago
Yes. I admit it, yes. I also fantasize about my friends and family "catching me" self-harming so they finally understand how much pain I'm inevery waking moment. I'm sure I'd be beyond mortified if it ever happened in real life, but I also kind of want it to happen
Ouch. And here I thought I had a bit of a fan club going.Go die somewhere else.
It's suggested that lupus killed-- I forget, was it Beethoven
Maybe if you don't meet the diagnostic criteria it's because you don't have the disease. You ever thought of that? Even if you did (which you don't) then if you're not meeting the diagnostic criteria your disease is obviously mild as shit and not at all an imminent danger to your health. See a psychiatrist and get some CBT and an SSRI and you will feel all better.I'm glad you asked. I think that what "it" is is very likely lupus or perhaps UCTD (so, lupus but without maybe one or two of the diagnostic criteria) and I think that the reason that it's going to end up being terminal is the fact that I don't have access to medical care of any kind at the moment aside from cannabis and whatever supplements and otc aids I can get. It's suggested that lupus killed-- I forget, was it Beethoven? and of course it did because when your body is attacking itself in response to UV light or any of hundreds of other triggers, and nothing can halt the progression of flares, you'll die. I'm certain that I have lupus or an illness that is extremely similar; if I don't have enough clinical markers yet it just hasn't come fully into a flare yet, or perhaps not into a severe enough flare yet. Statistically without treatment (or, before treatment was available) the life expectancy for lupus was 50% at 5 years. Ergo, the likelihood that I will still be alive in 5 years is 50%. Ergo, I'm dying.
Ergo, I'm dying.
this girl always brings me laughs.
In case anyone is confused, this is Christine. She thinks she's dying of lupus her doctors are too selfish to diagnose, plans to trick her doctors into treating her for it by claiming she's going to a country where malaria is endemic, likes to justify pedophilia, and is obsessed with Victorian-era consumption chic. And she wears these exceptional costumes to her doctors appointment and wonders everyone thinks she's a munchie.
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Mirrored because she likes to delete things
You can't possibly think anyone here actually buys your shit. I don't mock infirm people, but I'm happy to mock you. Since, ya know, you're not actually infirm.I'm glad you asked. I think that what "it" is is very likely lupus or perhaps UCTD (so, lupus but without maybe one or two of the diagnostic criteria) and I think that the reason that it's going to end up being terminal is the fact that I don't have access to medical care of any kind at the moment aside from cannabis and whatever supplements and otc aids I can get. It's suggested that lupus killed-- I forget, was it Beethoven? and of course it did because when your body is attacking itself in response to UV light or any of hundreds of other triggers, and nothing can halt the progression of flares, you'll die. I'm certain that I have lupus or an illness that is extremely similar; if I don't have enough clinical markers yet it just hasn't come fully into a flare yet, or perhaps not into a severe enough flare yet. Statistically without treatment (or, before treatment was available) the life expectancy for lupus was 50% at 5 years. Ergo, the likelihood that I will still be alive in 5 years is 50%. Ergo, I'm dying.
Photosensitivity can be caused by many drugs and conditions (including herpes simplex, so if you get cold sores do lather on the sun cream) but again the photo sensitivity rash for SLE is quite distinctive.
Had to google. Jesus Christ I didn't even know this was a thing. These people are truly fucked up.By the way, Christine, since you're into kinks and want to be dying of something slowly and tragically, have you considered bug chasing?
I'm not sure why she took the videos down. She could have just kept deleting negative comments till her deathbed. Maybe she was worried it was going to impact her Patreons and post-dead-Jaquie "donations."
you're a nobody illness sperg. if it werent for the pedoshit victorian baby kink doubtful anyone would have even paid you any mind other than your spastic lupus chasing. im sure you will be gone in a day.Ouch. And here I thought I had a bit of a fan club going.![]()
Ergo, I'm dying.