00:00
Hey everybody, hope you're doing alright. Let me move the mic here so you can hear me a little better. There we go. I'm really angry. I just learned something and I'm kind of speechless and I just want to capture some of what's going on and talk about this.
00:16
So I've just learned that with my court case here, they filed the charges in my dead name. I'm transgender and I use she and her pronouns and I legally changed my name six years ago to Danielle Tatiana Muscato. I came out of the closet ten years ago and they filed these charges in my dead name, which is an offensive thing to do to bring up somebody's dead name for any reason. I mean you just don't do it. It's transphobic. It's unkind to all trans people. You just, there's no reason to do that.
00:56
And anyway, so they filed these charges against me in my dead name and so I was forced to show up in court and use whatever limited leeway I might have with this judge about this to mention that I first need some more time to come up with the money to hire an attorney. I have disabilities. I haven't worked in several years. I'm in the process of applying for disability benefits, but it takes five years on average and I'm on year seven and that's just how long it takes.
01:24
And I'm just, I have a GoFundMe and I'm trying to raise the money for an attorney and I just, I said I need some more time. You know, this was very unexpected. And second, I apologize for, you know, being a stickler about this, but you're dead naming me in these charges. That is not my name. I legally changed my name 16 years ago. This is offensive aside from inaccurate. It's transphobic and I'm really pissed off about it. We need to fix my name on here.
01:58
So I showed up in court and I had to explain this and the judge seemed to be okay with it at least. I brought my ID that has my name, Danielle Tatiana Muscato on it to show him and he ordered that they change the name. And I know, I know that the detective knows that I'm trans. Now I know with 100% certainty that the prosecutor does too because she was right there when I said this.
02:26
So the judge ordered that they change the name on the, on the filing and they did. And I just found out they changed it to Danielle, which is my new first name, Brian, which is my dead name, middle name, Muscato, which is, hasn't changed. So they made up a third name that is neither the name that the judge ordered them to change it to, nor my actual legal name, Danielle Tatiana Muscato. They changed it to my dead name for my middle name, my new first name for my first name, my actual first name that is my legal first name and my last name.
03:02
And I'm just, I'm so pissed. Like they, they were told to fix this because this is insulting and offensive to trans people and inaccurate. And they didn't, they fucked it up again. There's no way there's this incompetent. I mean, there's no way you, you don't deadname somebody twice by accident in writing after you're told, fix this, we might get sued.
03:29
I'm so angry. There's no way this is an accident. This, they're sending me a message that I cannot expect fair treatment in this courtroom as a trans woman, that they do not care that they're being offensive to trans people and to me personally, they want to send me a message that I am not going to be treated fairly here because I'm trans. That they are okay in writing with insulting me as a trans woman because fuck you, that's why.
04:00
What are you going to do about it? Complain? I'm suing. I'm so angry. I want a change of venue. I don't think that I can be treated fairly in this court. I'm going to file a motion that I move to a different court system and that some other prosecutor try this case in front of some other judge who is not predisposed to discriminate against me on the basis of being transgender.
04:26
And I want a formal apology. This is so fucked up. I cannot believe I have to spend my time and energy in the middle of all of this trauma fixing this. This is unbelievable. Like there's no, there's no excuse for this. They were told to fix it because this is offensive to trans people and they not only didn't fix it, but they like, I mean they just, sorry, I'm just angry.
04:52
I'm just angry. I just found this out and it's going to keep me up all night and it's, you know, I have PTSD. I have gender dysphoria. I already have sleep issues. I have a sleep disorder too and I'm just so angry that like, it's like they're toying with me. It's like they're, they're like taunting me with this crap. Look, if you're just joining, I'm sorry, I'm not explaining this very well.
05:17
I'm just, I'm really angry. So just to recap, what happened was they filed these charges against me, which are bullshit in the first place. And I'm just, I'm just speechless and astonished that they are even doing this to me in the first place. But I'm being charged with these three felonies because my dad is paranoid and delusional and believes that I'm harassing him, which is not true. And I have proof, but it doesn't matter because nobody gives a shit. This, they're doing this to me because I'm a trans woman, because I exposed my dad as a child abuser and he's punishing me for it.
05:54
And my brother who is a police lieutenant who works here at the police department is coaching my dad and trying to destroy me. They are sadists. My brother is a straight up psychopath. He is the most evil man that I've ever met. He is cruel. He taunts people. He picks fights. He's a bully. He's mean. He's just, he's, he's sadistic. I don't know how to explain this. He's Machiavellian. He like plans how to torture me at like as, as manipulatively as possible without getting caught and without like, you know, he's just, he's careful and he's, he's Machiavellian.
06:34
He's a sadist. I don't know what else to say. He's a psychopath. It sucks. I hate it. I hate that I, that I know this guy at all, let alone that he's obsessed with destroying me. It's, it's like he has been my whole life. He's hated me my whole life. He's never been shy about it. He's been violent toward me my whole life. And now he's coaching my dad on how to use his money and power to, to terrorize me.
06:58
This is such bullshit. So I'm being, like I said, I'm being charged with these three felonies. I've got a GoFundMe. I went to the judge and I said, I need more time. This was all unexpected. I'm raising money to hire an attorney, but you know, I have disabilities. I haven't worked in years. I'm in the process of applying for disability benefits, but it takes five years. So I'm not even getting benefits.
07:18
I'm just, I'm barely subsisting here at all. I mean, you know, I'm on Medicaid. I'm, I'm just, I'm not, I'm scratching by, I'm on the edge of homelessness, you know, I can't afford thousands of dollars to hire an attorney. So I asked for more time and he was, you know, he said he actually was going to transfer it to a different judge because get this, he knows my dad, of course, because it's a small town.
07:44
Like that's the whole, that's the whole problem here. So the second thing that I had to bring up, and I hate that I had to use whatever limited leeway I had with the judge to talk about this and to, you know, to use this for this purpose. But I had to say, this is not my name. These charges are filed in my dead name. This is really offensive.
08:04
Like it's not just inaccurate, but like I changed my name six years ago, like before I even moved here, you had to like go look up my dead name in order to do that. That's not my name. We need to fix this. Here's my license with my name on it. You know, this is inaccurate and I'm really offended.
08:22
So the judge was happy to fix it. I mean, he wasn't happy to, but he, you know, he made the, he made the order to fix it and they changed it from David Brian Muscato, it just makes me so angry to have to even say this, which is my dead name, to Danielle Brian Muscato, which is not my name. My name is Danielle Tatiana Muscato. I had said so on my license that I brought to court to show this guy.
08:47
So he ordered them to change it and they only changed my first name. They left my middle name as my dead name from my old, you know, the middle name of my dead name and then they kept my last name, which is the same, they didn't change anything about that. But like they didn't fix it. They just, they're like toying with me. Like they're taunting me.
09:05
They want to show me that they have power over me and that they can be openly transphobic and there's nothing I can do. They are egging me on. That's what they're doing there. This is harassment. I'm being harassed by this court system because I'm trans. There's no way that they were told, fix this because we might get sued and it's really offensive and they fixed it to the wrong thing.
09:29
Are you kidding me? Like there's no way. They just wanted to deadname me. They wanted to openly deadname me and say, ha ha, you know, you silly little trans girl, good luck with, you know, being respected here. That's the message they're trying to send. They're saying, we don't care that you're trans. We don't care that you're offended. You know, snowflake is what they're saying with this.
09:53
I'm just, this is terrible. I want to sue them. I want to sue them for harassment, for harassing me under the civil rights act of gender discrimination. They're treating me differently because I'm a trans woman versus if I were not. And there's no way this is an accident that if you're told, fix this because we might get sued and it's offensive that you do it again.
10:20
There's no way. If a judge says to you, fix this filing because it's wrong and it's offensive, it's trans phobic to do it this way that they mess it up again. Like they shouldn't have had it that way in the first place. Somebody had to go look up what my dead name was and make the conscious choice to file these charges in a name that is not my legal name.
10:40
You know, they're trying to cause me trouble. Like I'm just, I'm so angry. I'm so angry. I just, I can't even deal with this. I wish I had not found this out at midnight. You know, I'm never going to sleep. I mean, I have enough trouble sleeping as it is.
10:58
Like I said, I have PTSD and I get flashbacks and I ruminate. I'm so mad. Like they just want to show me, they want to rub my face in that there's nothing I can do about it, that they can openly discriminate against me and treat me differently and laugh at me because I'm trans and mock this.
11:16
That's what this is. They're mocking me. I'm fucked. I'm so fucked. Like I have proof that everything they're saying that I've done is bullshit. I mean, but it doesn't matter because they're going to treat me like shit because I'm trans. It has nothing to do with the facts of the case. It has nothing to do with the fact that my dad has paranoid delusions and is convinced that I'm harassing him because he has paranoid delusions.
11:46
He told the police that I hacked his phone at or a tap this phone. I mean like I know how to do that. Are you crazy? Like he's, yes he is. He is mentally ill. He has paranoid delusions. He believes this is just so sad. It's just I I don't know what to do about it. My dad has paranoid delusions and believes that I am like stalking and harassing him and I'm not. He believes that I tapped his phone and hacked his computer. I have not done these things.
12:17
He's crazy and he has police connections and money and he's going after me for exposing him as a child abuser. That's what this is really about. This is really about me letting the cat out of the bag that my dad is a child abuser that my brother is a psychopath and a sadist and picks on me and bullies me and is a bad cop.
12:40
I mean not that there's any good cops, but he's like a really corrupt piece of shit asshole sadist psychopath and he you know, he keeps getting promoted in this environment where they reward psychopathy and they reward being two-faced and cruel to poor people and queer people and people of color. That's what they reward in this system. It's unreal how wrong it's just it just makes me think of like, you know, we're primates and like it's common in certain groups of primates like, you know, when two groups go fight with each other.
13:15
The first thing they do is after they kill all the males in the opposing group. They just kill all the babies too because they don't want to put any of their effort into you know, raising somebody else's genetic material any of their resources into that and that's how they can ensure that all the babies are part of their bloodline is to kill all the existing ones, you know, and like that's normal for gorillas and chimps and like we're not that different, you know, we destroy each other and we don't have a problem with it and it's just like if I were not trans if I were not disabled and broke I would not be in this position.
13:54
I mean tautologically, yes, but like they wouldn't be doing this to me if I weren't trans if I weren't disabled and poor they would know that like this is wrong to do this to someone. It's just unreal that like these things that identify me as just having health issues that make it so I can't work, like I used to work. I used to have real estate broker license. I used to have an office, you know, I used to live on my own.
14:24
I mean, I mean I live on my own now, but like I used to be in a different city and like have my own life. I had a real job I went to I was on TV broadcast news once a week, you know on CNN, I've been on BBC, I've been on NPR a bunch of times, you know, I used to travel every weekend going and doing public speaking at conferences. I mean people people used to recognize me on the street, you know from that from my activism work and I haven't been able to work in years and I miss it.
14:59
It's not that I am lazy. It's not that I don't have ambition. I used to be somebody who accomplished things. I'm sick. I have pain. I have PTSD. I've been traumatized by my parents abuse and by the legal system and they were coming out as trans has been a nightmare in many ways. I mean I had to I didn't have a choice, you know, it's not like I came out on my own. I mean I've embraced it but like I was outed. That was 10 years ago, you know, I changed my name six years ago.
15:39
There's no reason I should have to be dealing with this like this. I just I'm so angry. I'm so angry that they're just it's the injustice of it. It's the feeling of things ought to be just and they are not that life should be fair and it isn't and it makes me angry but that's that expectation that I have that life should be fair, but see there's there's two kinds of people.
16:03
There's the kind of people who say life isn't fair, but you know, we can do whatever we can to make it as fair as it can be, you know, I mean that's the most we can do but that's the that's the best we can do but that's it's also the least we can do right, and then there's people who are like the world's not fair. Ha ha, smush, and just they crush you into nothing for fun because they're like who's going to stop them life isn't fair, you know, it's just I'm so sick of this.
16:37
I should sue, that's what I should do. It's not healthy for me to just get angry. I have an attorney. I need to come up with the money for him. That's what the GoFundMe. You know, I'm working on all of this but like this is not something that I can fix. This is something attorneys can fix and or at least that's more than I, that's the only option I have, you know, they'll fix it if I ask them to. It is inaccurate and it's more confusing now because I've never gone by the name Danielle Brian Muscato in my life.
17:16
It's just that's another completely made up like that's not my legal name or what the judge ordered them to change it to you know, I've never gone by that. That's not an alias of mine at all. They just made it up. I'm so angry. Sorry I'm just I'm almost speechless but also just overwhelmed with things to say about this that, sorry, to recap.
17:43
I'm being charged with these ridiculous felonies because my dad has paranoid delusions and believes that I'm harassing him and it doesn't matter that I have proof that I'm not they're charging me with this and I'm going to have to prove it but it's a good thing. I have video recordings because I knew that he would lie because he's paranoid and has delusions.
18:03
Anyway, the point is I'm not going to jail about this because I have proof that I'm wrong or that he's wrong. I have proof that what they're saying is wrong is what I was trying to say. The point though is that they filed these charges in my dead name and I went to court and I explained to them aside from that, you know, firstly I need more time to hire an attorney because I'm doing a GoFundMe and you know, I'm disabled.
18:30
I'm not able to work and I'm also not receiving benefits yet because it takes years. I'm on year seven of applying for this. It takes five years on average and it's just you know, I don't have any money to hire an attorney. It's not like I was expecting that, and secondly these charges are filed in my dead name, which is not only inaccurate. I legally changed my name six years ago. Here's my idea to prove it, but it's really insulting. It's really offensive. I'm a trans woman and I don't want to have to deal with my dead name.
19:04
That's why I changed it six years ago before I even moved here and the judge ordered them to change it to, you know, to fix it and I thought it was taken care of, but they changed it so my legal name, my correct name, what I changed it to is Danielle Tatiana Muscato and they changed it from my dead name, which I'm just for clarity, I'm going to say it even though I hate saying it and I just should not have to deal with this.
19:32
Like I never say it. It's in, it's hurtful for me to say it out loud. It gives me dysphoria. I don't like talking about it. It's triggering for me. I have PTSD. I don't like talking about this, but for clarity sake, my dead name was David Brian Muscato. So the judge ordered them to fix it and they changed it to from David Brian Muscato and instead of my legal name now, Danielle Tatiana Muscato, they changed it to Danielle Brian Muscato. Which is neither my correct legal name, or like, nor what he told them to change it to.
20:13
It's just a third wrong thing that they, you know, I'm just, they're toying with me. They are doing this on purpose to send the message that they can be openly transphobic and there's nothing I can do about it except suck it up and expect unfair treatment. Like they expect more like this. That's what they're trying to, that's the message they're trying to send.
20:35
That if you think that you can get fair treatment as a trans woman, not only are you wrong, but fuck you, you're wrong. You know, that's the message they're sending. I want to move, I want to, I want to file a motion, you know, move to change venues. I want to, I want this trial in a different court because they already had to switch the judge once.
20:55
I didn't even ask them to do that. The judge said, I'm going to recuse myself from this because I can't give you an unbiased, you know, neutral role in this case. I didn't ask them to do that, you know. It's not just a different judge. I need a different prosecutor. Like, the prosecutor, the detective who arrested me, like he'd been working on this for months.
21:26
He knows that I'm trans. Of course he does, you know. I'm certain that that came up. He knows my name. And they decided to file the charges in my dead name anyway. Like somebody had to look up what my dead name was and do that on purpose because it's not my legal name. It's not what was on my license, you know, when they arrested me. Somebody looked it up and it was like, we're going to use this instead.
21:48
Somebody made that choice. And when ordered to fix it because, hey, we might get sued and this is really offensive, they messed it up again. Like there's no way that was an accident. If you were told by a judge, fix this, we might get sued, you don't screw it up again unless you're trying to send the message that you are transphobic or like there's just no way that's incompetence.
22:16
There's no way that was an accident. There's no way. You don't do something twice by accident after a judge intervenes and tells you to fix it, you know, because it's transphobic. Like not just an accident, not just like, hey, this is inaccurate, we need to fix it. But like, hey, this is inaccurate in a way that might get us sued. Fix it, you know. And they still didn't. Like I'm just so mad. I'm so mad. I need to sue them. Like I need, this is harassment is what it is.
22:53
They're treating me differently because I'm trans in order to piss me off because they know I have PTSD and they know this is a sore subject and they know this is offensive and they're doing it on purpose to send a message that I should not expect fair treatment here. I don't know what to do. I mean, I do. The lawyers need to handle this, but like, when you call the cops on a trans person, this is what you're doing to them.
23:31
I just want people to understand that. Cops are fucking evil. They're sadists. They're psychopaths. They enjoy harassing trans people. That's like what they joined the force in order to do. That they get these jobs because they like getting paid to harass trans people and get away with it. My brother is one of these people. Makes me really sad. We're twins, you know. Shouldn't be like this.
24:03
There's those expectations again. I'm going to tell the story of my middle name. My middle name is Tatiana. I changed it to Tatiana after my friend Tanya from college. Tanya was my best friend. Every week we used to go get Indian food on Fridays at Indy's Kitchen downtown on Hidden Broadway and Sonny was always our waiter and he thought we were dating because we came in every week and we pretended for his benefit that we were even though we weren't.
24:40
You know, it was funny. We flirted and stuff. But like we were just friends otherwise, you know. But it was a running joke. So Tanya met this guy and we were all kind of creeped out by him and I don't know. He just something about him didn't seem right. But he was a business school professor and you know he seemed to be successful enough at least like he had a job and things.
25:26
I don't know. He was older than her. And they after they both graduated, you know, he was in business school. She was an undergrad and then he got a job teaching at the University of Arkansas in Little Rock or something right around there. But she wanted to go to Kansas City because that's closer to her parents. She's adopted from Russia when she was six. And nobody ever called her Tatiana. I mean, I called her Tanya, but she wanted to be a zookeeper and work with elephants.
26:15
So she studied school and she had volunteered at the zoo with elephants. She wanted to go to a city where they had elephants, but you know, he got this teaching job at the school there. So that's where they went. She stayed home with his sister who had disabilities and lived with them and they took care of her. She had two dogs. So this guy, he yelled at her a lot. And he had threatened before that he was going to shoot their dogs if they didn't stop barking so much.
27:10
And I should have told her to leave. I should have told her like, you gotta go to your mom's and not come back, you know. She wasn't ready. I got her to go to her mom's temporarily, but like. So one night, we don't really know what happened, but from what we understand, it seems like one of the dogs was barking too much and he shot the dog. And we're not really sure what happened next, but the next thing he did was shoot Tanya and the other dog and his sister.
28:30
And then he set the house on fire and then he shot himself. And her whole family is gone just like that. We don't even know what happened because it's all burned up. They just found her body by the front door, you know. Just executed just like that. She was so beautiful. She was 27. I miss her so much. She was my best friend. So when I changed my name and I came out as a trans woman, I decided to pick my middle name after her.
29:41
So that's why it's Tatiana. It's really important to me. I think about her a lot. It's just, I don't want to use whatever, you know, leeway I have with the judge to try to bring up the fact that I'm insulted about this filing issue, like, it's not a filing issue. It's not like an error. This is transphobic and it's cruel. It's cruel to make me have to deal with these memories and talk about this and spend my energy and time trying to get this sorted out.
30:40
I have disabilities. I can't work. I don't have any income really. I have a Patreon. I have a GoFundMe, but like, I haven't been able to work in years. I have way too many mental health issues, depression and PTSD and anxiety and so much trauma and gender dysphoria. I can't deal with it. I can't transition, the hormones medically, the way I want to because I have this heart condition and I've had one heart surgery already to fix it and it didn't work and I want to do another one to fix it.
31:25
And then once my heart is fixed, I can take ADHD meds again. I have ADHD also. It's debilitating. I can't get anything done. I'm a disaster. Like, I just, I can't even keep up with simple things like laundry and like showering and brushing my teeth and like refilling my meds and stuff. It's just overwhelming. I can't do these things. Like I'm just, I'm like teetering on the edge of homelessness constantly and like, you know, affording food and just, I wasn't expecting all of this.
32:11
I moved back to Missouri because my parents offered me a place to live while I recovered from surgery and said that they would help take care of me and, you know, would charge me rent and so on. But it was just, they abused me constantly. I was screamed at every single day. I have hours and hours of recordings of this because nobody wants to believe it.
32:36
That the famous Dr. Joe and Dr. Mary, they're abusers. What? Yes. Yes, they are. I have so much proof. Nobody wants to believe it. Nobody wants to like stand up to it. This is the big like hidden epidemic, you know. This is child abuse, people screaming at people behind closed doors and throwing things, domestic abuse.
33:03
This, nobody wants to talk about it. Everybody who's in the situation is not ready to leave doesn't even have the ability to acknowledge that that's what's going on. They're in denial about it. And so many people had abusive childhoods and are just in denial about it and don't recognize.
33:23
I remember, if you had asked me 10 years ago if my childhood was abusive, I don't think I would have said yes, you know, even though my parents kicked me out when I was 17 with nothing but the clothes on my back because they didn't approve of the ethnicity of the woman I was dating at the time.
33:39
And like, you know, I mean, like I couldn't even get my car keys back from my dad, you know, like it took four days to get my keys back from him because he was so angry. And like, I was 17, like it's not even legal to do that yet, you know, for a parent. And he claims that he's been so supportive and he was like, by definition, neglectful.
34:05
Like I was, I lived in a public park for four days, you know, until my girlfriend at the time was able to convince her parents to let me move in with them and, you know, with her and them. But like, how can somebody be so delusional to be like, yeah, my child before they were 18 lived in a park, but you know, I did everything I could and also he's a millionaire.
34:30
Like, it's not like he struggled at all, you know, to provide, he just didn't because he didn't give a shit because he was, he's just, my dad has narcissistic personality disorder, the grandiose subtype, same as Donald Trump. And he's just textbook in the grandiose delusions, the thing that he thinks he's the main character in every single room that he's in. He thinks he has the floor by default and every conversation that he's ever in. He doesn't talk, he doesn't have conversations with people.
35:00
He either like debates you or he's just like lecturing you and yelling at you and like, you know, he's a rich asshole, you know, he thinks he's like, if you've seen The Good Place, remember Brett, the guy who went to Princeton, like he, you know, who mentions way too often that he went to Princeton. My dad is just like that except the University of Pennsylvania or Penn. You know, he's a, he's a recruiter for Penn.
35:26
He does like admissions interviews for them as, you know, and he's so proud of it. It's, you know, I mean, he, he can't go like one day without mentioning that he went to an Ivy League school, you know, it's just like, he's just, he's just like that. And he just dominates conversations and he interrupts people. Like if he thinks of something he asked, he wants to say, he just starts talking.
35:48
He doesn't even care if the other person's talking. He doesn't like, he doesn't actually listen. He just waits for them to stop or off and doesn't even do that. Like he's, he thinks that I have the floor by default and you know, if I let somebody for the sake of appearances and so it looks like a dialogue, if I let somebody else have the floor for a second, as soon as I want it back, I mean, obviously it's mine in the first place, so that's how he thinks.
36:11
And he's a terrible tipper. I can't tell you how many times I've, I've like gone back into a restaurant and like left another 20 or 40 bucks because I'm just like, I can't be seen with somebody who's that cheap, you know? And like he's, I mean, it's like he said to me once, you know, like I said, he's a multimillionaire, but he's like, well, you don't get rich by giving your money away.
36:31
And it's like, I mean, yeah, but you're supposed to tip people who wait on you. He's just so cheap. He's so cheap. It's just sick. But it's not just that. It's like, I mean, he screams at me all the time. Like every single day he used to scream at me, used to wake me up to scream at me.
36:54
Like that's another thing that narcissists do. They deprive you of sleep. That's a abuse tactic that you really, it's really common and people don't talk enough about it. I think people don't understand it enough. You should not be waking somebody else when they're asleep for like any, any reason.
37:09
Like that's not how that works, you know. Unless it's like an emergency or something or, but like, you know. My dad who has narcissistic personality disorder, he's like unable to, to appreciate the way, like when he sees, when he sees me sleeping, cause I'm the scapegoat, right? That's the role he's assigned to me and his narcissistic family cult dynamic. So it's like when you see a kitten sleeping, right?
37:36
And you're like, well, I'm trapped here. Like I can't, you know, there's a cat sleeping on me. I can't move. I can't get up. There's a cat. I guess I'm going to die here. Cause like, you know, he doesn't have that. Like he just is like, well, you know, if a cat gets on him and like he, he doesn't even, it's not even like that.
37:57
Like he just ignores them. He's got pets, but he doesn't, he's like, if you say, how come you never your pet, your pets? He's like, I do. And it's like, you know, your cat is like begging you for attention and you're just straight up ignoring her. He does this every day. He like, I don't understand why he even has them. I mean, I do.
38:14
It's cause his wife wants them cause they're, they, he liked the way they look. It's another whole thing, the vanity aspect of NPD and like only caring about appearances and being obsessed with physical beauty and makeup and clothes. And it's called conspicuous consumption, like wearing expensive jewelry and driving expensive cars and wearing expensive scarves and things like that.
38:43
They do it because they want other people to know that they're rich and that they can afford to waste money on $50,000 of just rock on their ears. You know, like the earrings that my mom wears every day are worth like 60 grand, you know, maybe probably more than that actually now that I'm thinking about it, but yeah. Probably closer to 80 grand, her favorite earrings that she wears every day.
39:04
Like who are these people? You know, $80,000 like, are you fucking crazy? Why would anyone ever spend that kind of money on a pair of earrings? They're not her only earrings even like nice ones, I mean. Like she just, those are the ones she wears every day. And it's just like, it's unreal. It's just unreal that that could completely change my life.
39:31
You know, like I would move to Canada if I had that kind of money, and I'm just like blown away that like, she doesn't, like she talks about this to her, like, my mom is a cancer doctor and a lot of her patients are on Medicare, you know, and the poor people who do have to do GoFundMe's for their cancer treatments and stuff. And like, she never shuts up about her expensive earrings to them. She like shows them off to her patients all the time, even when they don't want to talk about it.
40:01
I've seen this happen so many times that like, you know, she, it's just, it's like she's gloating. It's sick. Rubbing it in their faces. I've had several of her patients talk to me about this and said like, what is her deal with the jewelry? Like it's not funny. Like she knows I am doing a GoFundMe to pay for my cancer treatment. Why is she seeing if I can tell the difference between her $40,000 diamond earring in this year and her $34,000 diamond earring in this year?
40:38
Like is this a joke to her? You know, and she insists that she's not like that, you know. She's the most like that person I've ever met. And like, she's so vain and just so two-faced is really what it is. That's how narcissists get away with it because they, their whole life is fake. They're just liars. They have this mask that they wear in front of other people. They want to impress everybody.
41:06
They want everybody to look up to them and admire them. But when they're behind closed doors and let the mask down, they are the cruelest, most sadistic, just like psychopath level cruelty to people. They're malicious. They pick fights. Like they, they're bullies and like, they just, and they play the victim at the same time.
41:28
It's just the most amazing thing that they'll attack you and play the victim at the same time. And you're just like, I was just sitting here, man. Like it's, I don't even know what to say. I'm just, I'm overwhelmed. And I didn't know, I didn't know what to, what to say about this. So I just, I felt like I had to say something. I'm just really upset. I think I'm going to wrap this up actually.
41:56
Uh, I'm, maybe I'll play guitar for a little bit or something. I don't know. I'm just, maybe I just need some sleep. I wish I hadn't found out about this name filing situation at midnight. Cause I'm, I'm going to be up all night now.
42:17
Alright. I'm, I'm going to go. I'm sorry. I'm just, I'm too upset to deal with this. Alright. Uh, thanks for watching and, uh, have a good night. Um, bye everybody I'll talk to you later. Bye.
