I have experiences that my life and reality don't exist

[bbpoison]

Do you have moments where you feel intense emotional dissonance with your immediate reality? Like spikes of temporary heightened awareness that your life and reality slips away from "you" and there's just an extreme sense of feeling utterly lost? Do these feeling pop out of nowhere? Like island swallowing surges of syncronicites directly connecting to your neocortex to reveal that consciousness is an illusion and everything is operating on the same "dead" level? Are these experiences always negative? Do they ever mix with enlightened ideas of "everything is connected, we are one person, you are the one in which the whole universe operates through and all interactions with other people are just mirrors of the self , which itself is a process of evolutionary complexity of the self. Is your entire emotional viewpoint a mirror of a totality of moodscape processing in your individual life? Is it stable or does swing from positive ones to negative ones? Does it chronically feel more erattic and unstable or balanced and "one and the same" in totality? Does the idea of entropy / total darkness feel good or bad or just numbingly consistent with the rest of existence's operations? Does having a nervous system that is limited to only the immediate environment feel disconnected or does higher awareness of the unified underlying foundation transcend the physical limitations? Why am I making a thread? Why are you reading this thread? What are you doing? What is this? I don't want to talk. I'm going to make this thread because I am in the sun.

 

[Miss Hortensia]

Well, I think, you should pass the next time your friendly drug dealer offers you joints in king size.

 

[ES 148]

lol

 

[Kiwi Jeff]

Do you have moments where you feel intense emotional dissonance with your immediate reality? Like spikes of temporary heightened awareness that your life and reality slips away from "you" and there's just an extreme sense of feeling utterly lost? Do these feeling pop out of nowhere? Like island swallowing surges of syncronicites directly connecting to your neocortex to reveal that consciousness is an illusion and everything is operating on the same "dead" level? Are these experiences always negative? Do they ever mix with enlightened ideas of "everything is connected, we are one person, you are the one in which the whole universe operates through and all interactions with other people are just mirrors of the self , which itself is a process of evolutionary complexity of the self. Is your entire emotional viewpoint a mirror of a totality of moodscape processing in your individual life? Is it stable or does swing from positive ones to negative ones? Does it chronically feel more erattic and unstable or balanced and "one and the same" in totality? Does the idea of entropy / total darkness feel good or bad or just numbingly consistent with the rest of existence's operations? Does having a nervous system that is limited to only the immediate environment feel disconnected or does higher awareness of the unified underlying foundation transcend the physical limitations? Why am I making a thread? Why are you reading this thread? What are you doing? What is this? I don't want to talk. I'm going to make this thread because I am in the sun.

Sounds like my childhood

 

[Zarkov]

Why are you reading this thread?

Spoiler: Why indeed ?

:autism:

 

[Boxy Brown]

Dude weed LMAO

 

[Morose_Obesity]

Do you have moments where you feel intense emotional dissonance with your immediate reality? Like spikes of temporary heightened awareness that your life and reality slips away from "you" and there's just an extreme sense of feeling utterly lost? Do these feeling pop out of nowhere? Like island swallowing surges of syncronicites directly connecting to your neocortex to reveal that consciousness is an illusion and everything is operating on the same "dead" level? Are these experiences always negative? Do they ever mix with enlightened ideas of "everything is connected, we are one person, you are the one in which the whole universe operates through and all interactions with other people are just mirrors of the self , which itself is a process of evolutionary complexity of the self. Is your entire emotional viewpoint a mirror of a totality of moodscape processing in your individual life? Is it stable or does swing from positive ones to negative ones? Does it chronically feel more erattic and unstable or balanced and "one and the same" in totality? Does the idea of entropy / total darkness feel good or bad or just numbingly consistent with the rest of existence's operations? Does having a nervous system that is limited to only the immediate environment feel disconnected or does higher awareness of the unified underlying foundation transcend the physical limitations? Why am I making a thread? Why are you reading this thread? What are you doing? What is this? I don't want to talk. I'm going to make this thread because I am in the sun.

You’re disassociating from stress. I recommend some greasy food, some ice cold Coke Zero and vidya. Also jerk/jill off to some quality fap material.