Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

[Rhysuu]

So here's a weird thing to say but I'm just morbidly curious.

After weeks and weeks and weeks of brain bleach I still sometimes get the image of Cosmo lifting those weights popping up in my head. Seeing a grown man struggle to lift what appears to be a combined amount of 5lbs was really eye opening into how pathetic and frail a human being can be. To that end, I can't stop thinking about what he must look like naked. It must be absolutely wretched. Like a skeleton with pale white saggy skin draped over it, no muscle definition whatsoever. I bet you can see his rib cage when he's just standing still. Sitting on your ass and doing 12+ hour live streams every single day while hiding from the outside world and eating nothing but garbage has got to be taking its toll on him in a very serious way.

 

[Intelligent Calcium]

He's a horrible actor, everytime I watch these crying bursts I can tell is just a scene, he is manipulative and an e-beggar, not the kind of people I would trust.

Yeah, that's the vibe I got too. He knows his appeal lies in him being a trainwreck, not him being a happy and successful individual, so he's pretty much obligated to have a "breakdown" once in a while.
People either give him money because they got duped by his theatrics, to keep him going just enough to see how much worse this shitshow can get or because tumblr told them it is their responsibility to adopt a tranny on Patreon to repent for their sins (being white, straight, male or all of the above). Nobody is in it for the gameplay or his charming personality.
The more broken he appears, the more he gets harassed (I assume that's why he stirred the pot by posting on the sam and tolki subreddit and he's probably scanning this thread for good material regularly) and the closer to financial crisis he appears, the more successful his business will be.

 

[Fannyscum]

To that end, I can't stop thinking about what he must look like naked.

 

[D.Va]

clips from le reddit

my ego is unlimited
fledgling seer
on /r/SamandTolki
"Now there's all this other shit too like Kiwi Farms and whatnot"

 

[Luigi]

To that end, I can't stop thinking about what he must look like naked.

It really took a toll on you, mate.

For all the trauma that clip caused me, your post made me feel fine.

 

[Kurosen]

Looks like cosmo posted something towards the bottom of that redit thread then deleted it. Anyone happen to catch it? The response to it makes me think it's more "poor little ol' me" type fair.

 

[link_in_park]

 

[millais]

I'm not really familiar with his pre-transition mannerisms of speech and voice. Is it basically unchanged to how he sounds now?

 

[GK 090]

I'm not really familiar with his pre-transition mannerisms of speech and voice. Is it basically unchanged to how he sounds now?

He used to speak a bit deeper and cried a lot less.

 

[Kurosen]

I'm not really familiar with his pre-transition mannerisms of speech and voice. Is it basically unchanged to how he sounds now?

It's a lot different. He used to be pretty cheerful overall, and if something crazy happened in a game or a run, he could pretty easily laugh it off.

If there are still any of his old speed runs or old videos out there, you can tell a fuse blew somewhere.

 

[Luigi]

Looks like cosmo posted something towards the bottom of that redit thread then deleted it. Anyone happen to catch it? The response to it makes me think it's more "poor little ol' me" type fair.

You can go to any reddit thread and change the URL from reddit to ceddit to recover deleted posts.

 

[Snacker]

ANYWAYS i truthfully think she's acting like.. this because maybe she isn't exactly happy with the state that she's in - physically, at least. from experience, i know a lot of transgender females tend to get astronomically more emotional and suicidal in the first two years of their transition. especially on HRT, it's basically a second puberty LMAO

I barely know anything about transitioning so bear with me, but won't he need to be taking hormones for the rest of his life because his body won't naturally produce them like a female's would? If so, wouldn't that mean he effectively stays in this fragile emotional state forever?

 

[Trombonista]

**EXCEPTIONAL INDIVIDUAL ALERT**

Spoiler: you have been warned

y'know i really do think she's, like... trans trans. i mean, just the way she's always carried herself, she was real damn awkward (and still is, really). i thought it was fairly easy to tell that she was much more effeminate than the average guy (ffs she's covering most of her face in that first link, this isn't rocket science)

ANYWAYS i truthfully think she's acting like.. this because maybe she isn't exactly happy with the state that she's in - physically, at least. from experience, i know a lot of transgender females tend to get astronomically more emotional and suicidal in the first two years of their transition. especially on HRT, it's basically a second puberty LMAO

idk what the point of talking about this was.. unimportant insight i suppose? i dunno. i guess i just feel like this whole song-and-dance that's going on probably won't be her main persona forever (i hope)

carry on

I'd probably agree with you if he hadn't admitted he got his hormones from an informed consent clinic.

 

[Disgruntled Pupper]

**EXCEPTIONAL INDIVIDUAL ALERT**

Spoiler: you have been warned

y'know i really do think she's, like... trans trans. i mean, just the way she's always carried herself, she was real damn awkward (and still is, really). i thought it was fairly easy to tell that she was much more effeminate than the average guy (ffs she's covering most of her face in that first link, this isn't rocket science)

ANYWAYS i truthfully think she's acting like.. this because maybe she isn't exactly happy with the state that she's in - physically, at least. from experience, i know a lot of transgender females tend to get astronomically more emotional and suicidal in the first two years of their transition. especially on HRT, it's basically a second puberty LMAO

idk what the point of talking about this was.. unimportant insight i suppose? i dunno. i guess i just feel like this whole song-and-dance that's going on probably won't be her main persona forever (i hope)

carry on

Nah, he pretty much thinks he's the main character in a magic girl anime, battling evil and revolutionizing a broken world. He says as much in the poem in this post.

There's a common pattern among troons where they are all awkward and physically unappealing men who faced some sort of difficulty and decided that if they just had tits they would automatically be pretty and that everything would go their way. Cosmo's effeminacy always had a streak of vanity in it i.e. wearing makeup and nail polish, and it's only gotten worse. He thinks that now that he's a woman and has a new game, he should get all his viewers back and be the top runner and make a ton of money, and he never stops to question why being a woman would get him any of that.

This may not be his persona forever, but for now he would rather dig his heals in and insist the lack of things going how he wants them to is because of transphobia, or /r/SamandTolki, or us, and not because his expectations were completely ridiculous to begin with.

 

[KimCoppolaAficionado]

Nah, he pretty much thinks he's the main character in a magic girl anime, battling evil and revolutionizing a broken world. He says as much in the poem in this post.

There's a common pattern among troons where they are all awkward and physically unappealing men who faced some sort of difficulty and decided that if they just had tits they would automatically be pretty and that everything would go their way. Cosmo's effeminacy always had a streak of vanity in it i.e. wearing makeup and nail polish, and it's only gotten worse. He thinks that now that he's a woman and has a new game, he should get all his viewers back and be the top runner and make a ton of money, and he never stops to question why being a woman would get him any of that.

This may not be his persona forever, but for now he would rather dig his heals in and insist the lack of things going how he wants them to is because of transphobia, or /r/SamandTolki, or us, and not because his expectations were completely ridiculous to begin with.

This is why I believe, alongside sex ed, there should be a class called "Transitioning: Why Changing Your Sex Doesn't Magically Make You A Better Person".

 

[D.Va]

Narcy goes into a fit of hysteria after someone in chat says they started hormones today:

https://oddshot.tv/s/z4VHz-

"I started hormones today." Am I okay? Do you all love me? Do you love me? This is what they're perceiving as useless. I have to say this to everyone, I can't just keep this pent up...

https://oddshot.tv/s/8wDM9k

"In defence of Narcissa Wright," like, oh my God, what a fuckin' like shitty title, and a what a fuckin' shitty video. I actually told him to take it down and he took it down because it was like showing extremely vulnerable moments and saying "this person needs help and so I'm being kind by being like 'this person needs serious mental help because they're fucked.'" It's like that's not how they mean, it's only like further adding credence to the idea that I'm fucking out of my mind or whatever and it's like I'm not really out of my mind at all...

https://oddshot.tv/s/4kWLFE

I will like double down on my own position because I know I thought about it so much and like it is real, like what I do is valuable, what I do is important, and like I'm proud of what I do, and like I'm working on my goals, and I am providing everyone this platform and like it's important, it's actually important, and we're working towards a better world, and I swear to God, even though I may not seem like it and maybe you think it's so fucking worthless but it's not because we're born to feel, we're all born to feel. I'm giving you my feelings and giving them to you.

 

[BuckBumble]

Like, stop psychoanalyzing me, like, you really shouldn't do that, like, EVEN TRYING TO HELP ME IS MAKING FUN OF ME WAAAAAH

 

[Pointless Pedant]

This is why I believe, alongside sex ed, there should be a class called "Transitioning: Why Changing Your Sex Doesn't Magically Make You A Better Person".

There'd be no need to do it outside special ed. Apparently half of transsexual children in the UK are autistic, and who knows how many of the rest are exceptional in some other way.

 

[D.Va]

MongoDB is so easy to maintain that even Chris could do it

You alienated them

 

[AlmightyMagichan]

I wonder if other first world civilizations had to put up with shit like this. Was there a Roman Narcissa hanging around some public forum demanding endless pity and free money because he decided he was female?