Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

Suicide when?

  • When he runs out of money.

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  • Never.

    Votes: 826 20.1%

  • >2 years

    Votes: 883 21.5%
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Oh shit, I missed Narcissa's little Q&A here. Well if she ever comes back, I would like to just ask this: have you ever honestly tried to seek help? Besides seeing a psychiatrist and taking HRT. I'm talking about talking to a psychologist and getting a plan to become less depressed or just improving your life in general.

Edit: Apparently the post below proved me wrong. Narcissa, I'm interested to see what you would respond with.

Edit 2: So apparently it's supposed to be a joke, so yeah. It's 6:40 AM where I'm at, since I get confused easily with stuff whenever I'm tired.

Also if you don't care to answer that, I guess I then have to ask that what are your thoughts on the recent incidents with Todd Rogers and Billy Mitchell?
 
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Well otherwise we'd have to assume that random people on the internet would actually register because they think we care about that shit, and that'd just be silly.
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I just like having conversations with people, so consider me silly. I don't mean for any of the interactions I have here to be hostile or like I'm trying to prove you all wrong or something, but seeing Narcissa's responses just sparked me to want to come be a part of it. Maybe I'm just really dumb, who knows?
 
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In response to the Q+A:

1. I don't really have a real response for this answer. I'll just say that I think that your philosophy in this regard is kind of naive, but if this is what you want, go for it. I'm not gonna be the person to tell you to stop.

2. Fair enough. I get the feeling things have changed since 2015 however. I obviously don't speak from experience, but from what I've seen? Things have certainly changed.

3. I'll explain the question a bit better, simply for posterity's sake...

I was asking for your personal opinion/thoughts on the prevalence between people with autism (like legitimate autism, not "insult/attention to detail autism") being speedrunners and being transgender (as well as speedrunners being autistic and transgendered) at a higher rate than the population, and why you think that is. I know the "answer/reasoning", but I was simply looking for your opinion/take on that fact. But that's fine.

As for the suicide thing, idk. If you want some real advice? Put more work into taking care of yourself. I'll probably get called a total whiteknight faggot for going so soft on you here (and you probably won't listen regardless), but your mental health obviously isn't in a good place (people in a good place don't ask others for painless suicide methods via chat and then basically tell everyone they're gonna go off themselves).

Also, regarding your response to @The Fool, I disagree that it's bullying. We aren't harassing you. We simply archive people's actions and discuss their lives.
 
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Cosmo must be happier than a pig in shit for all this attention he's getting. He loves it, even if it's all negative. You're listening and letting him pontificate. I still consider him a narcissistic attention whore, and it's for this very reason that I do. He does this shit on S&T, now he gets to do it on here. Just saying now, make sure you download and archive all of those videos because his regret will kick in soon, I'm sure they'll be deleted as soon as it does.
 
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Whetfahrt Cheesebörger said:
Cosmo must be happier than a pig in shit for all this attention he's getting. He loves it, even if it's all negative. You're listening and letting him pontificate. I still consider him a narcissistic attention whore, and it's for this very reason that I do. He does this shit on S&T, now he gets to do it on here. Just saying now, make sure you download and archive all of those videos because his regret will kick in soon, I'm sure they'll be deleted as soon as it does.
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Yeah, it was easy to tell by listening to his non-response. It was essentially just reading my questions out loud and saying 'nuh-uh,' so I wont be wasting my time in the future with him.
 
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Few questions for Narcissa from myself:

1. When you figured out you were going to be taking HRT, how long until the regret or depression kicked in? This is a inevitable step most people who take this medication must overcome before continuing to take it, even a psychiatrist will tell you, you will feel some level of regret in terms of the medication. Be it brewing brain chemistry or rejection.

2. Did you at any point stop your HRT? If so, why?

3. Why don't you ever talk about going to a psychiatrist to help with these suicidal thoughts or ideology you obviously have? Your viewers would better appreciate it if you were happier.
 
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Star Galactics said:
3. Why don't you ever talk about going to a psychiatrist to help with these suicidal thoughts or ideology you obviously have? Your viewers would better appreciate it if you were happier.
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his viewers are just there for the shitshow. The more depressed he gets, the happier they are! Cosmo would rather inhale a bullet than get help for his shit, he is a mess, he won't fix himself and everyone surrounding him is here for the shitshow.
 
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm under the assumption that being on HRT in the first place is a result of working with doctors and therapists who are already helping you work through your issues. You usually can't just snap your fingers and have hormones, I don't think, and doctors typically won't give you anything if they think it's not a healthy thing for you to do. If anyone knows specifics about the situation then I'd be glad to know about it.

I'm talking about Narcissa's situation in particular.
 
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polite reminder to stay on topic, this is not the place to be having discussions about trans stuff, rather just Narcissa and making fun of them for being tranny.

Also please don't treat anyone as 'verified' until confirmed by staff, assume if you are writing that the cow in general is not reading or aware of you.
 
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I have a couple of questions as well, and it would enlight some stuff on the matter

1. Did you actually brought at least a hundred bottles of HRT?

2. Did you actually were taking too much pills of HRT and that's why you had a lot of mental breakdowns?

3. You seem to have stopped the *trans*ition of taking HRT, will you continue to not take it?

4. Do you realize how big you were on twitch? forget speedrunning community, if you decided back then to just stream a variety of games and not just speedrunning, you could've had one of the largest fan communties on twitch

5. Did this all happened because you were reject by a girl? Or what's the reason behind you becoming a trans

I'm not trolling in any of these, i'm actually very curious of your answer to my questions and i'm sure others are as well and i hope you continue to reply to others, that's a good thing, talking about stuff, at least is better than be a shut-in in the hugbox
 
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Correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm under the assumption that being on HRT in the first place is a result of working with doctors and therapists who are already helping you work through your issues. You usually can't just snap your fingers and have hormones, I don't think, and doctors typically won't give you anything if they think it's not a healthy thing for you to do. If anyone knows specifics about the situation then I'd be glad to know about it.
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Cosmo bypassed any psychological evaluations and decided to administer HRT on his own. Contrary to popular belief, you absolutely can snap your fingers and simply order hormones online without interference. There are zero doctors involved in Cosmo's life, otherwise he would have had several uncomfortable realizations by now.
 
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Star Galactics said:
Few questions for Narcissa from myself:

1. When you figured out you were going to be taking HRT, how long until the regret or depression kicked in? This is a inevitable step most people who take this medication must overcome before continuing to take it, even a psychiatrist will tell you, you will feel some level of regret in terms of the medication. Be it brewing brain chemistry or rejection.

2. Did you at any point stop your HRT? If so, why?

3. Why don't you ever talk about going to a psychiatrist to help with these suicidal thoughts or ideology you obviously have? Your viewers would better appreciate it if you were happier.
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Asking him questions like this isn't going to get you anywhere, he's not going to answer honestly and you're just feeding into his disgusting complex by allowing him to be part of the discussion and therefore to direct it as he pleases.
I think it's more interesting to discuss these questions ourselves since his answers are only going to be self-gratifying bullshit, so here's my two cents on your third one.
He doesn't want to seek help because people like this enjoy being pathetic and feigning helplessness. A psychiatrist will try to outfit him with a set of cognitive and behavioural tools to fix his broken mental state and take control of his own life, turn it into something healthy. Cosmo doesn't want to get better, he fears being responsible for his own mistakes. He wants to wallow in self-pity and have his helplessness reaffirmed and his awful life choices validated by everyone around him. I think this is why a lot of people troon out actually, because they think it's an escape from responsibility for their own lives, and I suppose in the current year they're not entirely wrong.
 
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