Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

[Raging Capybara]

I watched only the first two videos so I didn't talk about this (since that I suspected it was only a momentary mannerism), but since Lord420 brought it up: Why does he click the mouse 200 times per minute like a lunatic? I want answers from the armchair psychologists.

Also, nice Tweet timeline. 10+ tweets in a mere single minute.

 

[Antipathy]

I watched only the first two videos so I didn't talk about this (since that I suspected it was only a momentary mannerism), but since Lord420 brought it up: Why does he click the mouse 200 times per minute like a lunatic? I want answers from the armchair psychologists.

Fidgeting is my best guess. It could be entirely unrelated to his trooning.

 

[CrunkLord420]

I like how the followers have been memed into the concept of ass pats. Like they never considered their sycophantic, pay-pig like behavior to be a manipulated emotional state.

Narcissa has stated how she's selfish and wants to change her antagonistic behavior towards her viewers. Meanwhile she ignores them and gets angry when offered advice. To be honest, if this was my audience I'd treat them like shit too because they come off as shallow idiots without an original thought in their heads, just repeating the same stupid platitudes over and over. Just keep bringing the patreonbux and twitch cheers, that's all that really matters.

Also Narcissa keeps saying how she's on 10mg of something.

 

[Antipathy]

I like how the followers have been memed into the concept of ass pats. Like they never considered their sycophantic, pay-pig like behavior to be a manipulated emotional state.
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A mind that isn't stimulated and challenged will rot. No dissenting opinions, no complicated problems to solve, no ideas to discuss, not even any games to play. Cosmo has no mental stimulation. His supporters all line up and say the same reassuring platitudes. His stream is consistent and dull. His life is ignorant of finance, science, mathematics, learning foreign languages or any skills. He is degrading. His mind is atrophying. If this pattern continues, he may lose what little coherence he even has.

Notice how much his speech has slowed since he turned troon. It's a sign of his degrading mental capacity and state. That and the myriad of pills he's on might have caused everything to just... slow down. Marijuana abuse is only accelerating and pronouncing his slowness.

 

[dhume]

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[Whetfahrt Cheesebörger]

I like how the followers have been memed into the concept of ass pats. Like they never considered their sycophantic, pay-pig like behavior to be a manipulated emotional state.
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Narcissa has stated how she's selfish and wants to change her antagonistic behavior towards her viewers. Meanwhile she ignores them and gets angry when offered advice. To be honest, if this was my audience I'd treat them like shit too because they come off as shallow idiots without an original thought in their heads, just repeating the same stupid platitudes over and over. Just keep bringing the patreonbux and twitch cheers, that's all that really matters.

Also Narcissa keeps saying how she's on 10mg of something.

The only reason that Cosmo's getting asspatters is because that's the kind of viewership he himself he all but demanded. He will continue to ignore advice, not wanting to admit that he's made some pretty massive mistakes. Just look at those tweets he made. In the final one, he proclaims that he is "wiser" when he's not. Cosmo's learned nothing from the constructive criticism he's gotten, both on Sam & Tolki and on the Farms. He'll never improve because anything negative is always going to be viewed as flaming, horrible, and hateful regardless of how much candy coating you put on it. He just doesn't care to learn or improve.

 

[FP 208]

https://my.mixtape.moe/efqqei.webm

 

[thejackal]

https://my.mixtape.moe/efqqei.webm

not a true and honest women but he is a little bitch.

 

[awoo]

It's actually quite convenient that Narcissa uploads her full VODs on youtube, since youtube's auto captioning system is quite good and youtube-dl can extract these very quickly. For example, consider Narcissa's 1 hour stream about Mount Mayhem I couldn't be bothered to watch. With youtube-dl's option --write-auto-sub, a VTT to txt converter, and a bit of duplicate line removal, we can extract the text without ever having to listen to a no-effort female but really male voice!

Spoiler: Transcript

I guess I'm back on my bullshit by the

I guess I'm back on my bullshit by the
way I did have electrolysis which was
nice but on my face is still red so I'm
not gonna use camera today
but then like next day I probably will
so just letting you know I guess I'm
gonna
can I just use makeup I'd rather just
like wait like a day I would rather just
waited a day I don't know my joy Kahn's
yet I'll play breath of the wild when I
get them figure I might as well I might
as well work on this track a bit longer
I suppose that's what I want to do
well I'm not sure if fun to listen to
music or watch videos or play the game
or talk to you not sure which one I want
to do
let's just warm up warm up warm up we're
warming up
I don't know why this huge I'm so
fucking hard oh my god this fucking
level I don't even know if I want to
grind this more right now I just kind of
turned the stream on but we get to talk
or something be nice to talk doesn't
even want to talk about anything
interesting I guess I'm supposed to be
the one to like direct the conversation
but well enough Oh too much to say
really been going ham on YouTube though
it's been fun
releasing lots of like video responses
to people we're posting about me feels
actually productive I feel like I'm
tapping into the external like my
external environment so it feels like
proactive yeah I'm looking forward to
most it would have to be smash or we are
furs switch that's a smash
the goal is to beat the time which is
4:31
think I've been responding pretty well I
mean I just like I'm just like done
being silent you know I'm just like done
with it I'm done being silently I'm just
going to respond
a lot of the time I don't really like to
use my voice too much unless I have like
passion behind it this is hard to just
like randomly narrate for some reason it
feels like effort I guess I could you
just like me if I gave less fish it it
wouldn't be as bad just feel like I'm
very low-energy when I talk sometimes
just think I got the foot of more energy
than I thought I were truly in my words
and then it feels like a little forced
like I feel like okay so I feel like
yeah sure just embrace like a more
mellow mode of talking where I don't put
forth much effort I guess some people
call like ASMR but and I want to get
excited
and be able to hear it it's like a more
clear presentation of my thoughts well
it shits really low energy it's like oh
I guess I want you to hear how low
energy it is I think that's a reasonable
method of communication am i staying in
my apartment I would I'd shot n2 yeah I
I go outside I do go outside but I
prefer to be indoors so I guess I want
to take a little bit more of a positive
approach with things that I talk about
more mellow or positive less like misery
and thanks I feel like I've tapped out
the mystery and Hanks like it's been
pretty explored and I think developing
the more positive side of me is probably
beneficial so it's good to talk about
what I find good or I don't know things
that I care about
I think this is pretty chill
I'm just gonna chill
don't be a Teresa I definitely really
will to beat my time so prefer not to
hit walls like at all except for the big
cave which you can actually sometimes
save time by hitting a wall
been like refreshing for YouTube
comments actually just turned on my
YouTube notifications again for comments
so like I get all the comments which is
its I felt like I've wanted engagement
at YouTube for once because I've been
talking and like directly only directly
confronting certain things and it's
definitely it's not live streamed it's
actually just a video content that I'm
producing for once but actually I think
that's short but sweet little video
clips are actually kind of good I don't
mind doing it it's like mice my youtube
channel is kind of like stream archive
but also like miscellaneous things and
these little video responses it felt
kind of nice so yeah it's kind of good
because it's like I feel like when I am
looking so far out on like the landscape
of my like if I think my world is like a
personalized we're all done like
anything that's to do with me it's like
within the world or like solely people
for example heard my story and really
around in my stream but then there's
also like posts like on the perimeter of
my world which is posts you find online
and so I've been like finding those
opposed to line on the perimeter and
like oftentimes this plus what kind of
negative or like or very critical and I
feel like when I engage with those
critical posts I have the opportunity to
actually kind of delve into some things
like get some of these conversations
where it's like I think I think what you
guys are doing is kind of like this
murky immoral territory and I'd like to
explore some of these concepts and like
we could go into it I get something like
privacy and I'm maybe the internet and
like politics and all this other shit
and like then I get to like it then
people like accuse me of being something
but then I can like actually clarify
like I can address that
it's like someone brought it up to me so
I don't feel like suddenly bursts out
into the room and start like doubting my
political ideologies from the roof or
anything I just get to respond and like
it actually is I think drawing out some
parts of like my worldview that have not
been necessarily shared so clearly
before and I think that it's nice to
have anyone video like that so it's like
I feel like it's actually kind of
productive when I'm like engaging with
that kind of material even though
there's like a lot of hateful shit like
attached to it
it's not all bad because like there's
just a post recently that was actually
pretty reasonable so it's like a
somewhat different matter of opinion on
like what what is acceptable way to like
treat other people online I guess
there's a kind of a different like a
difference of opinion there I guess I
actually kind of lost meaning with my
artwork because I was so focused on sort
of re-rendering reference images
basically where I just like have a
reference picture that I want to draw
then I draw it like pretty accurately to
what it looks like and through the
process of creating it and painting it
I've added my own kind of like stylistic
flair on top of it but it feels like
that stylistic Flair and the effort of
like rendering it it just doesn't feel
like there's enough like artistic
process in that if you like a little bit
to your mechanical which makes me feel
like my art doesn't have much
significance even if it look even if it
looks pretty it just doesn't feel like
it has enough significance for me to
want to pursue more art right now at
this point in my life and like that that
is potentially something that could
change and like if you look at like
certain art that people create it's like
full of this vibrant imagination and
creativity and I feel like the art that
I've created has never been the very
exemplary of that and that's kind of
like a limitation of like the way I did
arts and I feel like it kind of it it it
like it's like not as it made me not
want to do art as much because the art
that us creating didn't feel
particularly meaningful to me and the
process of going like full creative and
like creating characters and like all
this other stuff um I actually struggled
with it I was always like found my way
in like rendering
just like painting and blending and
stuff based on some kind of goal or
reference image but like generate like
generating that from nothing or like
from pure imagination and I found it to
be extremely difficult to create
anything that looks good I guess
and so the stuff that I created that
looked good was based off of references
which I feel like again it was like team
mechanical what I was doing so I just
like kind of don't maybe that just means
I'm not a very good artist when it comes
to that but I was able to make images
that look pretty but again they just
like don't hold much significance to me
I feel like I'm just rerun during a
photograph which honestly if someone was
like style transfer neural networks
could probably kind of replicate what
I'm doing decently well and I'm sure
that's only getting get better over time
so it's like it's like my form of art is
already becoming like it's already like
falling off it's like being obsolete and
I feel like yeah if I was to approach
art I would want to be able to inject
that more creative imagination into it
and I think that I've never been able to
successfully accomplish that with visual
art unfortunately despite spending a lot
of time in visual art
when I do today I woke up I woke up I
made some videos
only gonna take a bath in a few hours or
something
then wind waker it's not a game I want
to play again I appreciate it for the
good times that I had but I don't feel
any desire to play it sort of feels like
mission accomplished
you know
watch any new shows lately no no well
the most recent thing I watched was
season 3 of a better call Saul in which
I don't want to spoil but I didn't mind
watching it I pretty much just binge did
you know the joy cons are coming back
they might be here soon
I'm not sure well I play Dark Souls on
the switch I don't plan on buying it but
it's not impossible
I don't know what to say about better
call Saul I think it's I don't I didn't
mind watching it like I've season four
comes out I'll watch it I want to say
Breaking Bad is better but there's some
good stuff from better console
I think I saw like a single episode of
Westworld I guess it's something I could
watch I also was gonna maybe watch
sense8 but I only watched like one to
two episodes I don't know I haven't felt
super compelled to watch many shows I
think
oops that turn is hard for me it's
really hard for you to judge it and like
the two turns that happened before it
make it so it's hard to like I think
that part's kind of hard just like the
way you weave through you know thing
with this game is like obviously there's
some optimal path but I've been done a
lot of like super intensive analysis of
like what that is so I tend to just kind
of like try to I try to just do it by
feel and so because I do it by feel I
feel like there's a lot of um it's kind
of like judging like judging like the
the calculus of like of what what is the
way to maintain a lot of speed while
taking these turns well also cutting the
corners without losing too much speed
it's like a tree it's like a balance and
a trade-off and I'm just trying to do it
like kind of by feel and it's it's
definitely I think it's a fascinating
thing actually I mean obviously go into
emulator and and like solve it would
definitely be the way to improve the
gameplay a bit but I've just kind of
felt like playing the game so I haven't
done any of the dirty work I've just
been or just simply in the game
like if you turn very lightly you don't
lose much speed if you turn more sharply
you lose speed if you release the
acceleration you can turn even more
sharply if you release the acceleration
for consecutive frames then your speed
will drop but you'll also be able to
turn more sharply and then if turns are
really sharp you can use downshift with
the z button to turn even more sharply
which is what I do on the ski jump so
there's like a trade-off of like
balancing your speed and then also like
how tight you take turns it's really
complicated actually and I am just doing
it by feel so a proper approach would be
to go into emulator and do a lot of
analysis about what is faster in
different situations which is something
that like you know I could do it I could
open emulator and like do a bunch of
frame in advance with the differences
between like every other frame tapping
the acceleration to do a slightly
tighter turn versus like taking taking
something a little bit wider and like or
like or like what's the difference
between releasing acceleration for two
frames versus releasing it for one frame
and then pressing it and then releasing
it for one frame and also like what's
the difference between like like if
there is like if you're trying to get to
a place like how wide you do you want to
go and how like how sharp do you want to
turn there's a lot of there's a lot of
instances where it's like it seems kind
of murky and this part right here is a
fucking it's a disaster right this part
is like yeah I don't know I know I think
about the emulator though is it doesn't
emulate some of the physics accurately
because some of the physics based on how
you jump or how you like collide to the
ground and stuff I think are based on
lag and like and the frame rate which is
based on the n64 console and that's not
an emulator properly so emulator can
change the physics somewhat and give you
different results than you'd find on
console so that complicates
further but yeah like how that turned
fuck it's like okay so what I'm talking
about with these um these complicated
things like here's a good example so for
this turn I'm trying to get to this I'm
trying to go all the way to this tunnel
over here right and so there's a turn I
have to do there's a turn f2d around
this corner okay so the question is
here's the question it's like how sharp
do I want to turn here do you don't want
to turn really sharp like this and then
release where I'm like suddenly
basically I'm getting the line as fast
as possible but I'm also by doing that
I'm lowering the speed more because I'm
turning harder versus what happens if I
take it a little lighter but turn less
abruptly so let's say I do this instead
well that was like that was actually too
little hold on
so let's say I'm like see I go like a
little bit wider so I don't get the line
as fast about my speed is higher because
[Music]
I don't turn as sharply so it's like I
mean I'm maintaining a higher speed but
my line is less optimal like which one's
better it's hard to know it's hard to
know without properly testing it
a general palma motorsports okay well I
mean obviously this does apply to
something like real-life racing it does
apply but of course this game is guided
by the way it's programmed so it has
some sort of physics regarding speed
loss when you turn and like maintaining
speed when you turn less sharply and so
this game has its own problem it has its
own problem so so yeah it's like it's
like hard it's hard to know it's hard to
know I mean I could like open movement
or something and try to get this game
emulated properly and then try to unlock
everything with some cheat code and then
go into this level then pretty much what
I would have is this in-game display on
where I'd show the time and I would save
State at a certain point and I would I
would basically just do sections via
frame advance in different ways then I
would like write down what I did and
what the time was on the in-game clock
at the different
I'd like the sit like there's some goal
point right like say that tunnel was
talking about it's like well at the
tunnel like what's my time and then go
back to the same save state and then try
a slightly different strategy where I go
like a little bit wider and then note
down the time and then if I did that I'd
be able to see oh well this method of
getting there was faster and then that
as I do more experiments like that that
kind of knowledge starts to generalize
across all sorts of turns in the game
and so you get a better understanding of
the way like optimization works for the
game and you can start to apply that
knowledge it's like I
you could argue I'm being a lazy piece
of shit by not actually going and doing
that I just kind of felt like I mean
let's be realistic though my joy cons
are coming back like soon and I don't
know I just kind of don't feel like
going through all that effort it's like
I know what to do but like I'd rather
kind of just play the game instead of
like investigate the game you know
now you're listening to me talk to you
live one of the games have been in 64 a
bunch I have a lot of games
okay I'll tell you what you know what
I'll tell you this if I ever returned
the beetle Adventure Racing after these
joy cones come back if I ever return to
it again I will go through the effort I
will make this promise right now if I
return if I return I will go through the
effort of doing more intricate emulator
testing to get better knowledge of the
way physics and optimization works
within this game
maybe the effort I've been putting into
this run starts to justify spending my
time on the investigation I think it
probably does so I feel maybe a little
foolish you know what let's just do
mount ma'am 100 let's just do that
that way I'm not here let's just turn on
let's turn on the shit I have my turn
off this shit
do you hear a really bad echo you
probably do
you don't hear not go really I don't
believe you
I have to do this shit though I guess
I'm not gonna do it up ah I mean like
okay I need a warm-up on 100 points
because it's a doozy it's a doozy for
sure
no no echo because you can hear my
monitor and you can also hear my
microphone
that sucks this run sucks lost like over
seconds
oh that was supposed to not happen on
this lab that was a big mistake all
right
that's right so I have to do some kind
of sharp turn right here nitro and then
get the two box and then take the five
over here
and then on lap three I have to do this
route
and then I fucked up so together to you
at the ice Lake and then I have to warp
immediately
and get the tea over here and after that
I'm ready to complete level
what's the record on this thing I don't
you remember my record for this I want
to improve it I think I've spent too
much time on this level too to not
improve it really fuck I mean this
friendlist shit the whole way so five
1397
yeah what's the record five oh four
three two one oh three two five oh four
three two
there we go that was a little sloppy but
save like a second
do I want to do this in lap three oh I'm
starting to think that I do because if I
get the Nitro then that's going to be a
problem for that part so this would then
move to lap three as well I guess
okay
lap three is alien cave lap three is the
two boxes on the perimeter of the loop
no love too is still the alien cave or
no no alien caves left three oh no what
am i doing
okay alien caves now on lap one because
the five box back here is difficult
that's a very reasonable
Anette like an analysis of this track or
at least strategy a very reasonable
strategy lap one is the inner loop which
makes sense because it's difficult to
get these boxes fast it's hard
so that's reasonable and then because I
come here so slow it makes sense to get
these here as well and then I should not
get this box yet because
why should not go on lap one is it
because this is random or is it because
if you get the Nitro from above oh
whatever
I'm just gonna I know get getting this
in lap one it's good to this hard
across the ridge five box hopefully
clean pickup
and ice cave boxes one - I think I'm
this one of those is okay I can get a
later
now we're going down
I think I might have chosen to go down
first because I want to get trolled on
the 5 box which is here which you can
get a load jump and it only I don't even
think it really matters too much what
your perspective is if it's first-person
or not I think it just happens a lot you
just go under the box that's like luck
so I did not get that luck and then we
go for the 5 bucks up here I can get
like you going too far the right on the
big jump there
there we go nice nice nice nice nice
nice
yes this is my favorite track in beetle
Adventure Racing I have the most fond
memories of this place so like the music
and the aesthetic and everything about
it ski jumps of bitch though fuck some
people in the beetle event racing
discord or saying like this is like now
the hardest track in the game because of
the ski jump it is it's a hard thing to
do but oh no I mean it's great I have
put a lot of time into it and I still
like fail it frequently
so it is hard Oh beautiful come on let's
go ski jump right now this is the ski
jump and I got it
alright this run is sick this run is
sick
now we're only 46 seconds into a 5
minute long run all right so far it's
really clean I hope I can keep this up
good that was fine
that was totally fine
alright this run is very clean very
clean run I and I want this run to
succeed because I like it I'm invested
into this run this run is good I know
we're only on lap one I hope I don't get
trolled here I did not that good
okay this is a critical moment I have to
get the five box oh oh I'm too far to
the right fuck are you kidding me again
I was too far to the right I just that
was like such a fucking good one fifty
four eight seven failed five bucks on
the at the end of the lab I'm really sad
I fucked that up it's gonna be hard to
get a run that's like that clean I think
I guess it just comes with more
experience somewhere to aim for video
for that five bucks so I was just too
far to the right I tend to be though so
I need I need a watch it
it's kind of a precise a jump so the
hard thing is that you did get so much
clean like you have to get this done
we'll which means you want to you want
to not hit that wall like that was
slowest fuck like you want to land and
just like perfectly go through the glass
and continue forward and then here you
want to get a perfect ski jump which
that was not obviously so this run like
kind of sucks
okay that's an example of getting
controls I got rolled
I mean I guess my ski-jump consistency
isn't that terrible it's like I can get
runs going and on a hundred points you
only have to do it once so it's not that
bad I guess
I think I might just listen to music or
watch videos for around or um I'll keep
playing but like I think I don't want to
be on the microphone anymore

Sadly, Narcissa's thrilling 9 hour Cookie Clicker VOD didn't have auto-generated captions.

 

[Antipathy]

not a true and honest women but he is a little bitch.

You can't be a TRUE and HONEST woman without a china

 

[Idea Waifu]

It's weird and amusing how narcissa does random things every day, like you know that he has some sort of brain damage or mental breakdown, he talked an entire day to kiwis then cease all the conversation like this never happened, for a moment i did think that he was bored of his viewers because they are too exceptional and lolcow like him and you can't argue with them, but it seems narci did it again, it was just some random short circuit, so the show is over

 

[Antipathy]

I'm just here, waiting for this neurodegenerating troon to either give me a shoutout or kill himself.

Granted, I'm laughing at everything else, too.

 

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This is not a human, but a parody of the human form.

 

[awoo]

This is not a human, but a parody of the human form.

Looks like Baba Yaga

Unrelated but I love any chance I get to share Mussorgsky's "Baba Yaga"

 

[Ruin]

Looks like Baba Yaga

I was thinking Igor from Persona myself.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

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Is he trying to look like a girl or Edward Muscare?

He can scare people on Chatroulette for donations.

 

[Dylan]

Just like elderly people on pension left without much to do but sit at home, cosmo will develop a dementia.

 

[Idea Waifu]

cosmo will develop a dementia.

didn't he had that already?

 

[Strange Looking Dog]

Just like elderly people on pension left without much to do but sit at home, cosmo will develop a dementia.

Only one?

 

[Zilortha]

No proof that I can see (I'm sure it was said in some 15 hour fucking sleep stream, etc.) but it sounds as if the winds of change may be blowing? This could be interesting.
https://www.reddit.com/r/SamandTolki/comments/8eonv5/narco_update/