Sonic smiled faintly, a little moved. They went on into the night in silence, darkness leading the way. His heart was still beating fast, the shadows obscured the figure of the pedestrians, the leaves rustled with the wind. Goosebumps from the bone-chilling cold. Shadow is so close yet so far away. Not the same goals, not the same ideals, nothing in common other than looks and rivalry. But like, still like; likes a smirk, likes a hidden sense of humour, likes to return to being a competitive kid, likes a speed that surpasses light, likes an incomparable reason. He grabbed his wrist and stood still. Shadow frowned and turned, annoyed, you know. Even when things change, Sonic still wants to bet that chance. His green pupils stared straight into ruby red eyes, his knees trembled slightly, his palms were also sweaty. But if not now, then never. It's okay to refuse, it's okay to accept, Sonic just wants to be selfish one last time.
Raindrops started to fall. Tint on the tip of the nose.
"Shadow..."
Sonic's cheeks are red.
"I love you."
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Sonic thinks he has a crush on Shadow. Even if you don't want to. He's the type of person who prefers adventure and adventure to love at the moment, he doesn't like romance, he's fed up with the way people have to force themselves into a committed relationship. That's why he rejected Amy; because not only does he not have feelings for her, but Sonic doesn't like spending time with someone more than himself, and that time has to be something both of them enjoy. Amy may be adventurous, but it's not her real passion, it's something that can make her less depressed; and you can find that excitement in anything else. Sonic doesn't, he likes to be reckless, tripping hard; but no one likes things like that. Any girl or boy just want to be at peace, They don't have to risk their lives every day, and they're not fast enough to keep up. So if Sonic could really like someone, that person simply wouldn't exist. He believes that he will never understand what love is, can make people live and die for it and make people crazy and foolish. Sonic couldn't imagine himself losing his freedom, becoming a completely different person. But he thought at the same time, he was also scared. Fear that feeling more than it brings. But now he realizes that he likes Shadow. Sonic wondered what he should do with these feelings. can make people live and die for it and make people crazy and foolish. Sonic couldn't imagine himself losing his freedom, becoming a completely different person. But he thought at the same time, he was also scared. Fear that feeling more than it brings. But now he realizes that he likes Shadow. Sonic wondered what he should do with these feelings. can make people live and die for it and make people crazy and foolish. Sonic couldn't imagine himself losing his freedom, becoming a completely different person. But he thought at the same time, he was also scared. Fear that feeling more than it brings. But now he realizes that he likes Shadow. Sonic wondered what he should do with these feelings.
"Sonic."
Amy called, her brows furrowed, white gloves lightly touching Sonic's shoulder. Suddenly he froze, making her a little nervous. Sonic rarely stands still, he always has too much energy to run around. The green hedgehog chuckled, rubbed his nose, and told her he was just absorbed in the beautiful weather today. Seeing that, Amy replied with a smile. The two of them picnicking became a routine on the weekends, even though the two determined their relationship would not go beyond friendship. The pink hedgehog still happily accepted. Sonic has always marveled at Amy's strength, especially with her being able to express her love so clearly to Sonic without fear. Even as the two continue to be friends, Amy tells her that she will love Sonic until the end of time. I don't know what I have that deserves her love so deeply. He admits that he is quite selfish, lazy with the need to be patient, likes to have fun more than anyone. The fact that Amy is able to stay attached to someone who has rejected her feelings makes Sonic wonder if it hurts every time she sees him. But no matter what, Sonic won't ask. That touches the emotional spectrum too much, and serious conversation will make things all the more different, especially the point of view between one person and another. Sonic doesn't like change, never has. So he would suppress these feelings, pretending that he and Shadow were normal opponents. Either way, they are nothing more than the real thing. made Sonic wonder if it hurt every time she saw him. But no matter what, Sonic won't ask. That touches the emotional spectrum too much, and serious conversation will make things all the more different, especially the point of view between one person and another. Sonic doesn't like change, never has. So he would suppress these feelings, pretending that he and Shadow were normal opponents. Either way, they are nothing more than the real thing. made Sonic wonder if it hurt every time she saw him. But no matter what, Sonic won't ask. That touches the emotional spectrum too much, and serious conversation will make things all the more different, especially the point of view between one person and another. Sonic doesn't like change, never has. So he would suppress these feelings, pretending that he and Shadow were normal opponents. Either way, they are nothing more than the real thing.
Taking a deep breath, Sonic leaned back on the pink carpet. The wind sways the leaves on the branches, blocking the yellow sun. Amy was knitting, a blue shawl. She said it was going to be winter, and she was afraid Knuckles would feel cold on Paradise Island. Sonic nodded, not knowing how to answer because basically the weather on that fairy island rarely changes, but if people have a heart, you must also have a heart, Knuckles will surely be happy to receive it. Amy's sincere gift. Yawning, Sonic crossed his legs, hands on his stomach. The bridge of his nose tickled, turning out to be a butterfly that had landed for support. Amy just rolled her eyes; She lay down next to him, not too close, not too far. Sonic thought about these intimate moments, about what he and Shadow would never have. Amy pointed to the sky.
"That cloud looks like a horse."
"And the other looks like a cat, a bow-tie cat."
"What kind of cat is so stylish."
"Everyone has the right to be passionate about beauty."
Sonic and Amy giggled, never mind that it wasn't much of a joke, he was just parodying her tone the other day. His blue pupils looked like a white cloud hovering, he remembered Shadow's little Chao, not sure how he's been these days. The normal Chao likes to be taken care of and pampered, but Shadow's Chao is more action-oriented and independent, just like his personality. Always like to fight on her own, never sharing the burden on anyone's shoulders. Thinking of that, Sonic shook his head to dispel the thought of Shadow. Why does Sonic remember him every now and then? It's not like he can't help him, he still hasn't finished what to eat tomorrow. And even if he offered a helping hand, Shadow would refuse, Sonic would bet. It was useless to keep thinking in vain, but he still liked it,
"This Sonic."
"What's wrong, Amy?"
"If you want to talk, I'll always be here."
He started panicking. Is Sonic acting out of the ordinary? Why did Amy suddenly say that? He went over each of his actions today, nothing strange, at least except for that moment of bewilderment. Could it be that Amy saw right through him for a moment? Rubbing his nose, Sonic hesitated for an answer. Amy has a really keen eye for other people's emotions, which he both likes and dislikes. Liked because he knew she was the EQ part that he was missing, helping him see the goodness in people. At the same time, she hates it because that way she can understand Sonic. While he still couldn't understand himself. Most of all, he was afraid that if she knew he liked Shadow, Sonic knew that Amy would support him wholeheartedly, whether he wanted to go further with Shadow or not. And then he would become pathetic in her eyes, pursuing someone who clearly had no interest in him. He clenched his fists, find a way to clear Amy's suspicions. If it was Sonic of normal, how would he respond? Pretend I'm here and assume you'll handle it all easily? Showing coolness with a nod? Or run away? No, it can't be, it's just a silly statement. There was no need for Amy to worry. Wish there was a portal from another world that sucked him in so he wouldn't have to deal with this. Taking a deep breath, Sonic replied:
"... Thank you."
Sonic really has to learn to calm down. Rolling on his bed, awake at the end of his conversation with Amy, he closed his eyes tightly to pull himself back to sleep. In the end it was just lying there, letting me explore the illusion that if I had answered differently, Amy would now know for sure he was still heavy-hearted. But he didn't want to share it with anyone. Sonic wants to keep this love buried deeper, maybe he will stop looking for him in the crowd, return to being a carefree hedgehog like before. Love in the end is just fleeting, will disappear at some point. Tails used to say that. Tails is the smartest, so Sonic will trust Tails. Taking a deep breath, he turned to lie on his half. The silver moonlight shines on the top of the head, singing a natural melody.
Why he liked Shadow, he didn't know. He didn't think it was because of Shadow's looks, or abilities, nor was he sure he really liked Shadow's personality. After everything they've been through together, Sonic still has a rather vague feeling about him. What kind of person is Shadow? Quiet, quiet, difficult to approach. That's for sure. He acts according to Maria's will to create opportunities for human happiness, although he himself wants to protect all living things on this blue planet. Sonic saw clearly how he clearly discriminates between humans and animals like Chao, luckily childish, like Cream. Shadow has a relatively strange moral code, he doesn't let anything stand in his way to the end goal, as if going from level one of the game straight to the end, If the only people he trusts are Rouge and a machine named Omega, Sonic doesn't know if he counts as one of the people Shadow can trust. Most of the times they meet between them lead to arguments. Although Shadow will still help Sonic until the end. Yeah, that's right, Shadow was always stubborn like that, but deep down there was a heart of gold. He will always be willing to sacrifice himself for the greater good, Sonic knows that when Shadow gives him the bracelet that inhibits the chaotic energy, in the middle of that vast universe. But deep inside is a heart of gold. He will always be willing to sacrifice himself for the greater good, Sonic knows that when Shadow gives him the bracelet that inhibits the chaotic energy, in the middle of that vast universe. But deep inside is a heart of gold. He will always be willing to sacrifice himself for the greater good, Sonic knows that when Shadow gives him the bracelet that inhibits the chaotic energy, in the middle of that vast universe.
It's been over an hour, and he still hasn't slept.
In his dream, he saw Shadow sitting next to him, almost touching. Let time go by slowly, and he looks at you with eyes that are too precious. The look is only for the old photo of Maria and Dr. Gerald. Sonic can't distinguish what's real and what's fake. But he knew he still wanted to bask in this little privacy. Sonic did not dare to hold his hand, afraid that he would brush it away and disappear. He was afraid he would lose him again, even if it was only a dream.
Dim night, bright car lights. The two competed to run on a deserted road, the night was hidden from the moon, two red and blue streaks racing each other. The wind was blowing in his ears, every muscle reached its limit. Only at times like these can Sonic reach his peak speed. He glanced over at Shadow, who was also enjoying the pleasures of two people of the same realm. They ran along the riverbanks, through the mountains, reaching unknown land. They have a race like this every one or two weeks, mostly starting with glaring at each other and who is faster is the one who invites. They didn't confide in each other or anything, nor did Sonic expect Shadow to open up about such things because things would be awkward. After all, he and he did not have the same experience, and expressing their feelings seemed to be a far-fetched category for those who were always close to death every day. If he did, it would be him, talking about funny memories, trying to make Shadow laugh. Laughter is a tonic scale. Shadow is already the ultimate life form, but could a smile make him stronger? What a joke, actually Sonic just wanted to see Shadow laugh. Suddenly a drop of water dripped from the sky on the green thorns, and the dark clouds came. Luckily they ran into the city. Shadow pointed to the roof of an open pub, and Sonic nodded after him. Loud music mixed with the sound of rain on the ground, people were excited to talk. Sonic squeezed dry the water still clinging to the fur, uncomfortable wet sports shoes. He glanced over at him, who was still standing thoughtfully in front of the hazy scene. Whether he was thinking about the hiatus race between the two of them, or angry at not being able to get home before this weather. It feels strange to stand still, Shadow ordered two glasses of lemonade, he said. Sonic pulled out a few change from his pocket to give it back, though Shadow shook his head.
They sat at a table on the porch, which he said would observe the situation more closely. Sonic hummed in agreement, then sucked the water from the straw, the taste of sour lemon mixed with sugar. I wonder if Shadow spends this amount of time with anyone else as he does with Sonic. If so, he was a little jealous, and wondered if Shadow and that person were more intimate. But come to think of it, Shadow is rarely free at work at GUN, if so, wouldn't he be here with Sonic? Guess what, Sonic got a little cocky too. Before he knew it, his mouth had uttered a word he hadn't thought of himself, caught in the moment of the atmosphere.
"Do you have a favorite type, Shadow?"
Shadow was drinking water, and after hearing Sonic's question, he froze, not blinking, not breathing. After seeing his raised eyebrows, he slowly replied, returning to his usual composure.
"Not really, I don't think I can have feelings for anyone."
"Oh really."
Sonic replied, trying to sound indifferent. But still frustrated, he tried to look at the curb, avoiding Shadow's eyes. Not as painful as Sonic thought, probably because he already knew this. Shadow has no romantic interest in anyone, which means Sonic doesn't stand a chance either. That's better than seeing Shadow with someone. Smiling, he turned his head, bringing the glass of water to his lips.
"How about you?"
"I just like the freedom."
That's part of the truth. Sonic likes to be free above all else. But at the same time he also likes Shadow. He thinks Shadow knows Sonic too well to know he's hiding something, even though he won't tell him. He's not interested, Sonic shrugs.
"What about Miss Rose?"
"Close friends."
It's still raining. Lightning struck the clouds, illuminating the whole area. It was nearly ten o'clock at night, and there were more and more guests staying. Sonic borrowed Shadow's phone to text Tails that he was going to be home late an hour ago, in response to a careful greeting from the boy. Wait, wait, wait, the rain hasn't stopped. He decided to call a taxi for the two of them to return, it was already late anyway. Running in this weather will only cause accidents, Sonic couldn't agree more, everyone knows the hedgehog's vision is quite poor. They wait, again. Silhouette of cars passing on the street, wet road surface. Sonic looked over at Shadow, hesitantly half wanting to say half not. This is the perfect time to tell Shadow how he feels, maybe they won't be the same, but Sonic will feel lighter. He told himself to be brave, three words, and it would all be over.
"I must confess..."
He started panicking. Sonic couldn't speak, his throat stiff. Once you've come to this country, you can't turn back.
"I can't go back to sleep."
"You only eat and sleep."
He chuckled at Shadow's sarcasm. Sonic doesn't want these nights to end, nor does he want a real relationship with him. Sonic can't risk everything they've got together, because he's a coward. The hero of Mobius, a coward. It sounds ridiculous, but it's so true. The silhouette of a yellow car parked on the side of the road. The two rushed into the car to escape the rain, Shadow gave him some money to pay the taxi driver, because Shadow's house is closer, he will return first. He refused, but looking at the change in his pocket with the electronic code for the amount to be paid, Sonic had no choice but to accept it. I will return this money to Shadow later, Sonic doesn't like to be in debt to others. In the end, the one who loves is still the one who suffers the most, not the one who is loved. He dried his body, went to Tails' room to check if the boy was sleeping or staying up at night for the experiment, then back to my bed. Sonic turned on his phone, plugged in his headphones, and turned on a loud rock song, to banish the confusion.
Is it possible to turn love into hate? Sonic wondered. Hate doesn't mean hate to the bone, just finding something to make that person less attractive in your eyes, at least there are some examples online. What does Shadow have to hate? Sonic hates the white fur on Shadow's chest because he can't have them, and wants to touch it to see how soft it is. Sonic hated how Shadow never laughed too loudly, but only half-smiled or smirked, so he couldn't tell if he was really having fun or not. Sonic also hates the way he stubbornly refuses to listen to anyone, acting on his own every day. At the end of the battle in ARK, Shadow could have grabbed his hand and was unharmed, but he couldn't. Instead, he gave Sonic his bracelet, swatting his hand away and choosing to fall. So Sonic will always hate that part of Shadow the most,
The green hedgehog lays down, texting Knuckles that he's coming over in an hour, to which Echidona only responds with an angry bunny sticker that makes Sonic chuckle. Knuckles has been more interested in dropping cute pictures since the days of the phone, probably because Cream taught him, but as technology-blind as Knuckles, he can't figure these things out. This is so good, you can forget about Shadow by just being distracted. He ran downstairs, told Tails he'd go out for a while, if he was hungry, he'd look for food in the fridge, the fox kid hummed because he was busy testing new machines. Sonic put on his red shoes and flew away. The wind is blowing, the grass is whispering, each step is running smoothly. He looked up at the birds singing, the trees were luxuriant, and did not forget to greet the inhabitants of the roadside. Peace does not last long because Eggman will always return to the monster, but it is not boring to stay quiet forever. Sonic took a deep breath of the fresh air, from here he could see everything. Mother and daughter Cream are planting trees in the garden, Chaotix is going around looking for lost items, Big is fishing with Froggy, Amy is practicing baking at the part-time shop. Even if he is a hero, he is just an ordinary person, living his own life with his own joy. Finally arrived at Paradise Island. Sonic jumped up each cliff to climb, it seems that Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. From here you can see everything. Mother and daughter Cream are planting trees in the garden, Chaotix is going around looking for lost items, Big is fishing with Froggy, Amy is practicing baking at the part-time shop. Even if he is a hero, he is just an ordinary person, living his own life with his own joy. Finally arrived at Paradise Island. Sonic jumped up each cliff to climb, it seems that Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. From here you can see everything. Mother and daughter Cream are planting trees in the garden, Chaotix is going around looking for lost items, Big is fishing with Froggy, Amy is practicing baking at the part-time shop. Even if he is a hero, he is just an ordinary person, living his own life with his own joy. Finally arrived at Paradise Island. Sonic jumped up each cliff to climb, it seems that Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. Big fishes with Froggy, Amy practices baking at the part-time shop. Even if he is a hero, he is just an ordinary person, living his own life with his own joy. Finally arrived at Paradise Island. Sonic jumped up each cliff to climb, it seems that Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. Big fishes with Froggy, Amy practices baking at the part-time shop. Even if he is a hero, he is just an ordinary person, living his own life with his own joy. Finally arrived at Paradise Island. Sonic jumped up each cliff to climb, it seems that Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. looks like Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Echidona was always standing by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless. looks like Knuckles lowered the island to make it easier for Sonic to come, so thoughtful. He waved to the squirrels on top of the giant mushrooms, and did not forget to whistle with the Chaos by the green river. The figure of Uncle Echidona always stood by the owner of the Emerald, oh and there was also the white bat. She was using the blue gem as a bed, embracing its sparkle. Rouge's passion for gems is endless.
"Hello Rouge! Hello Knuckles!"
"Oh! Hi Blue, are you here to visit the squire?"
"What if the person I visit is you?"
"Oh, you know how to flatter people."
"You two get off the island for me!"
Faced with Echidona, whose face was all red with anger, Sonic pouted, his arms crossed over his chest.
"Aren't you the one who brought the island down for me?"
Hearing that, Rouge widened her eyes in surprise, turning to Knuckles to inquire.
"Oh, so you made a girl fly all the way up here?"
"You came here on your own!"
Just make fun of Knuckles, Sonic and Rouge will just accept it. He's always so easy to tease. Because of his kind nature, he always takes things literally. Yeah, he'd been lonely since before Sonic arrived. Protecting the pearl alone for all these years after the death of her parents, even with friends, that loneliness is difficult to fill. Eyes following the bickering pair in front of him, Sonic wrapped his arm around Knuckles' shoulders and whispered to him that she supported him wholeheartedly. Instead of the dismissive reaction Sonic imagined, Knuckles looked at him with a strange look, as if he'd just hurt him. But Sonic thought Knuckles liked Rouge...? Doesn't she like you too? Realizing that the situation was not good, Sonic quickly joked. Knuckles just sighed, he pushed his hand away and fled somewhere. He turned to Rouge looking for an answer, with that shrug, she doesn't even know. How strange, the green hedgehog scratched his head.
"Aren't you going to work today?"
"I got a day off today, because that guy Shadow took all the work."
Sonic nodded, walked up the stairs and sat down. No wonder I haven't seen him lately. The bat is still happy with her "trophy", it seems that she will stay here for a while. He continued to think about earlier, suddenly Knuckles was so angry? He didn't say too much, and he didn't do anything too much. Knuckles and you both have boundaries. Still, Sonic didn't expect that moment to be the boundary, he told himself he wouldn't joke about his feelings anymore. Love is a matter of two people. Sighing, his mind wandered back to the image of Shadow.
"How do you see Knuckles, Sonic?"
Sonic raised his head to look at Rouge, face to face, obscuring the Sun. He sensed that Rouge's intentions behind this question were different from those of another question; Rouge is sly, she will only ask when she needs to, and Sonic thinks she's trying to gather information from him.
"Of course we're best friends, why do you ask?"
"No reason, what about me?"
"A trusted acquaintance."
"Aren't you?"
"No."
Rouge laughed, complimenting Sonic's intelligence. He rolled his eyes, wondering why she found it so funny. She doesn't consider you a friend either. Rather, the two just happen to know each other, can be teammates for a while, most of the time Rouge are not enemies, but there will certainly be times when they are forced to confront each other because of opposing views. Sonic wasn't close to Rouge, so he understood her, she understood him; both are the same type of person. Sonic found it exhausting just dealing with myself, let alone the two of us. Just in time, Knuckles returned with a plate of fruit, which he placed next to Sonic and sat down with him. It turned out to be looking for something to invite guests, but not saying a word to him made him worry to death. Sonic picked up a bunch of grapes, just plucking one out, suddenly remembered that this was Knuckles' favorite food; Vanilla had also reminded him that a polite guest would offer the host the first bite. Knuckles looked at him sitting there for a while without eating, frowning, I remember him saying he liked the fruit on Paradise Island so much.
"Open your mouth."
Sonic held the grape in front of Knuckles' mouth, in front of both his and her shocked eyes. According to the habit of obeying, Knuckles also easily opened his mouth to let Sonic put the sweet fruit in. He chewed carefully and swallowed.
"Is it delicous?"
"My island's grapes are always delicious."
Rouge flew down, took a bright red apple and took a bite out loud. She pretended to speak in a melancholy voice, as if she were Snow White biting a poison apple.
"You two are so affectionate that I'm jealous."
"What, you and Knuckles are like a newlywed couple, always arguing."
"Not at all!"
Both of them shouted at the same time, Sonic smiled proudly.
"You don't seem to be in unison."
The three of them talked for a long time, about all sorts of things in the world that weren't intimately involved in adventures. Rouge said she would go to a spa in Chunan but these days she's been rubbing her skin too much, Sonic wants to explore Blaze's world more to see if it's much different from this world, Knuckles expressed his wish to continue treasure hunting in the bays around the city of Hiro. That meant that the Master Emerald would be left unguarded, and Knuckles couldn't take that risk. Rouge somewhat understood his responsibility, but Sonic did not, feeling it was unfair that Knuckles' freedom was taken from him like that; he could have explored the world, like Mighty and Ray, like Sonic. Of course, Sonic will not show that displeasure, but only a slightly annoyed attitude. You don't want to trouble Knuckles any more. At dusk, the full moon climbed to the top of the head. It was already dark in October night. Sonic says goodbye to Knuckles and Rouge and goes home to cook for Tails. Echidona and the bat waved their hands until the green hedgehog disappeared, the smile on his lips faded.
"...Are you going to tell him?"
"... No."
Even if Knuckles died, he wouldn't say that he liked Sonic. Rouge knows this, because even in death, Rouge won't say that she likes Knuckles.
"Where is your house now?"
"Are you going to take me home?"
"YES."
With just that, Rouge blushed. She quickly fluttered her wings and flew up into the sky, without bothering to say goodbye to Knuckles, who was standing there bewildered, if he turned his head he would know that she was embarrassed. Rouge rubbed her cheek, hoping to wipe away any lingering emotional scars. If you don't like people already, don't give them hope. She may be strong, but she's not made of steel and doesn't know pain.
Sonic fiddled with the page in his hand, unable to concentrate on the content. This book was so boring, he never liked things like other people's stories; I'd rather this be the Lord of the Flies or Wuthering Heights. He prefers fictional stories with a bit of real life, they reflect a lot about the society of the time and the author's creative thinking and exploration. Sonic can patiently watch three hours of a biopic, but certainly not a book. Closing his book, he looked down at his watch, exasperated because it was almost two o'clock in the afternoon, which meant that Shadow was coming. After nearly a month of not seeing each other, Shadow and Sonic were finally free on the last Saturday of October, they arranged to go shopping for new things. Admittedly, the green hedgehog was a little nervous because he and Shadow had never done little things together before. He quickly tied his shoelaces, combed the thorns, and did not forget to praise himself in the mirror for being so handsome. The phone rang, Sonic didn't pick up the phone, but ran straight to the door. Shadow was holding the phone, saw Sonic turned off the phone and put it in his pocket. He was wearing a leather jacket with a helmet on his head...? Sonic looked down. Oh, motorcycle.
"Come on, I'll drive you."
"I don't have a hat."
Shadow then took another helmet, white, and threw it to Sonic. He held the fancy hat in his hand and looked carefully before he dared to put it on. Climbing into the car was a bit difficult due to not being used to the vehicle, but still he wanted to test the speed of this motorcycle. Shadow asked him if he was ready, and Sonic just nodded through the rearview mirror. And the wheel started rolling. The slow start was a bit disappointing. Until Shadow suddenly accelerated so that Sonic's heart wanted to jump out, from holding onto the saddle, he had to cling to the back of Shadow's jacket to be less stunned. Not as fast as when he ran, not easy to see anything. However, excitement continued to swirl in his heart. Engines howled like cheetahs, the street was a green meadow. Sonic is conquering nature in the heart of the city. There, he burst out laughing, Why do you want to rewrite the strange feeling here? He finally understood why people used to record events in their lives. Seeing Sonic happy, Shadow involuntarily laughed along. He was different, before driving with him was like entering a world of his own, but now that world has Sonic.
They parked in the parking lot, hats hanging from the handlebars. Shadow dragged Sonic into the mall, where countless people from all over the city gathered together. The shopping center is also too big with many different stalls of all kinds. Sonic's eyes lit up at the snack bar of freshly baked chili dog, his throat gurgling clearly. So they started their dinner with two pieces of chili dog, Shadow ordered double cheese to show his superiority over Sonic. Despite the fact that Sonic didn't care much, engrossed in the hot sauce on the sausage. After eating, the two walked around the food stall, joking about the funny-faced fish, which dishes were good and which were bad. Then Sonic and Shadow went to the cinema to watch an action movie, Sonic couldn't remember the content very well because he was busy in his seat, unable to bear to sit still. Trains with assassins? Sure, Shadow seemed more interested than Sonic, he guessed because of the movie's setting in Japan, but Shadow was obsessed with things like manga and anime. He's so cute, I don't think he's an unapproachable guy who does nothing but boring stuff. Sonic chuckled, inadvertently insulting too much. At the end of the movie, he and he went to the park for a walk, the afternoon wind was cool, still wet after the afternoon shower.
"You don't understand how cruel Rouge is. She went to the market to buy fish the other day and she paid for half a kilo of salmon with only five rings."
"That can't be compared to Tails going to the junk market to buy parts, they even give him away for free."
Shadow raised an eyebrow, his feet following Sonic closely.
"I'm pretty sure it's because it's something no one needs."
"The boy's negotiating efforts can't be wasted."
Sonic shrugged, the two looked at each other for a few seconds and then burst out laughing. He wiped the tears from his eyelids, feeling like he could tell Shadow anything. Well, not all. But still pretty much everything. He also learns more about Shadow, like his memories on ARK, about Maria. Sonic knew he would knock on Maria's door in the middle of the night, snuggled into her bed until morning, before leaving, lest the doctors would find out. The reason why Shadow told Maria that he had a nightmare to sleep with her was a lie, he went to her side to check.
"Test what?"
"Check her breathing."
Sonic couldn't believe his ears.
"I'm afraid she'll die suddenly in her dreams, and I won't be there to save her."
Maria's body is very weak because of an incurable disease, she often has trouble breathing, most of the time she has to use an oxygen tank to be able to breathe normally; sometimes he even saw her coughing up blood and still tried to say that he was okay. Save Maria, free people from disease. That's why Gerald created Shadow. But in the end he still couldn't save anyone. He still can't forget the lives on that shuttle, from the girl who taught him humanity and the genius doctor who lost everything. Even now, he still remembers Maria's warmth when she hugged him tightly and told him that everything would be okay.
"What are you saying, didn't you save the whole Earth?"
He said it was his best adventure.
"I feel like that alone isn't enough, though."
If only Shadow knew his kindness had saved more people than he could have imagined.
The two got home around midnight on Shadow's motorbike, he dropped him at the door, ultimately buying nothing. Before leaving, Sonic still longed to say goodbye, he didn't know if it made his feelings so obvious. You wonder what he considers you, rival? Best friend? Or a distant relationship? No matter how much it looked like a date, Sonic couldn't be sure that Shadow saw it as that, in his eyes it was probably the normal outing he could have with anyone. is different. For Sonic, it was more special than most. And he wished they had more chances like this, fighting is fine, Sonic loves to compete. But it felt strange that every time he thought he understood Shadow, it turned out he didn't at all. He couldn't read his own mind anymore. At last, Can you confidently say that you like someone? While only understanding their surface? Feelings fluttering in my chest, maybe it's because I want to spend more time with Shadow? What does "like" really mean? Sonic doesn't know, doesn't know, doesn't understand. He rubbed his nose, took out his phone and called his best friend in the field of emotions.
"Hello? Sonic?"
"...Hi Amy."
The intention to say it was enough to make Sonic shy, this was the first time he told anyone about his feelings.
"What's wrong?"
"... I've noticed someone lately."
On the other end of the line, Amy flashed a smile. She took off her pen, took off her glasses, and left her unfinished books behind. Then gently lay down on the bed, hugging the pillow, impatiently waiting for Sonic's next words. Like a young girl looking forward to talking about her pink age. Oh, and isn't that too true?
"I'm listening."
As long as Sonic is happy, Amy will make her happiness too.
"I'm not sure if it's true love. But I'm always looking for that person's shadow everywhere, I... I love hanging out with them, talking to them, but I don't want to show them off." It's too intimate. And I don't think I can spend all my time with them either."
"Oh, Sonic. Love comes in all shapes and sizes. It doesn't have to be close to each other to fall in love, and we all have boundaries. If you want to spend more time with that person. and wanting to know more about them, wanting the best for them. That's also a kind of love, a kind of love that gives without needing to receive in return."
Hearing Amy's words, Sonic was briefly surprised. So she also loved him with that emotion, asking for nothing more than the other person's peace of mind. Sonic pursed his lips, unable to find a response. He wanted to apologize to her for being so selfish in front of her warmth as a child, that he shouldn't have avoided her, left her behind just because he didn't dare to deal with complicated emotions. complex. Amy had always been such a gentle, strong, talented person; Without her, I don't know what his journey would have been like. Without Amy, Sonic probably wouldn't be on Shadow's side; or would have died in the other timeline if Amy hadn't distracted Sliver, in the six-month battle with Eggman she'd also fought everything with Knuckles, even though she was only a girl of ten. Amy has done so much for you,
"Thank you for always being here with me, Amy."
"What would you do without me?"
Laughter echoed from the two ends of the telephone line. Amy looked at the picture of Sonic on the screen, with indescribable affection. She's actually the one who should be thanking Sonic, for making her life so vivid and colorful. Thanks to Sonic, she made friends from all over the world, including princesses from other worlds and travelers from the future, learned all kinds of things in the world, and got to see how big this world is. Amy loves Sonic's freedom, loves his freedom, loves that very green hedgehog with the color of the Earth. Always, forever. Even though he would never love her the way she wanted.
"Any advice for a lover?"
"You should confess your feelings."
"That sounds like a pretty quick move."
"Trust me, Sonic. The longer it goes on, the more it hurts."
The sour aftertaste of lemon rushed back like a memory. Sonic hummed, said he would memorize it, hard to say if he did. Amy could only sigh at the unlucky love line, wishing him with all her heart.
"It's late, good night Sonic."
"Sleep well Amy."
They were children who had not yet thought of adulthood.
"Is there anything on TV?"
"There's a space exploration program."
"I'm pretty sure I've been in space more than them."
"At least they have relaxing voiceovers."
Tails picked up a piece of ramen to chew on, the boy huddled in the middle of the couch in the living room, his eyes glued to the TV showing the exploding star. Sonic sighed, cooked well so that he would be more distracted by the universe than eating. He stroked Tails' tangled hair and told him to go out for a few laps, the golden fox wished him a happy ride. It's almost Tails' birthday, don't know what gift to give him? Sonic had prepared in advance to organize a surprise party for Tails, he would have known right away because he did it every year, so it's not surprising that there is a good thing. Now that it's just the gifting part, Sonic plans to order a new telescope, Tails seems to be interested in them. He closed his mouth, slowed down, and walked away. It's been two weeks since he started thinking about his feelings for Shadow, and he doesn't know what to do. Should we continue to hide or speak out? Sonic bets there's a good chance Shadow doesn't feel like him. And he suddenly grew scared every time he thought that Shadow would stay away from him because things were getting awkward, Sonic might be the one who's okay with his current last name; However, he is not sure. He wished he had run away from these feelings before they could find him.
Amy said that sooner or later meeting Shadow would only hurt Sonic more. And she was right, now he couldn't stop thinking about him. Suddenly he was expecting him to appear again, even though there was no reason for him to be present, he expected him to turn to him, to recognize him. It sounds horrible. Sonic stopped by the green grass, the wind blew past his ears, the sun was golden. He went to a big tree to stay there, he needed time alone, clearly distinguishing everything. Sonic dreams about him sometimes, he doesn't remember them very well, but he will always remember the way he looked at him so tenderly. Sonic knew Shadow would never act like that in real life, that's why he was even more desperate. It's not Shadow's fault, it's all because of Sonic's self-delusion and sadness.
"You shouldn't be sleeping out here."
A familiar voice rang out, and he jumped up in surprise.
"Shadow? Why are you here?"
"Go for a walk."
After answering, Shadow turned and left. Sonic stared blankly at the black back, then looked up at the sky dotted with gray clouds. He's right, it's about to rain. He quickly stood up, following Shadow. They both walked in the same direction out of the forest.
"I thought you'd let me sleep in the rain."
"Because you're so annoying."
Sonic smiled faintly, a little moved. They went on into the night in silence, darkness leading the way. His heart was still beating fast, the shadows obscured the figure of the pedestrians, the leaves rustled with the wind. Goosebumps from the bone-chilling cold. Shadow is so close yet so far away. Not the same goals, not the same ideals, nothing in common other than looks and rivalry. But like, still like; likes a smirk, likes a hidden sense of humour, likes to return to being a competitive kid, likes a speed that surpasses light, likes an incomparable reason. He grabbed his wrist and stood still. Shadow frowned and turned, annoyed, you know. Even when things change, Sonic still wants to bet that chance. His green pupils stared straight into ruby red eyes, his knees trembled slightly, his palms were also sweaty. But if not now, then never. It's okay to refuse, it's okay to accept, Sonic just wants to be selfish one last time.
Raindrops started to fall. Tint on the tip of the nose.
"Shadow..."
Sonic's cheeks are red.
"I love you."