- Joined
- Oct 29, 2013
I've accrued quite a negative reception here recently. I've been banned from chat, insulted by the mods, and to make matters worse, I am a runner-up from that balloon guy for most hated guy on the site. I admit that I have serious problems, and I'm working on them. My ASD and depression don't really help matters, and affect my daily functioning. Slowly, but surely, the latter is becoming more manageable, whereas the former doesn't really concern me. What does is my impulsivity and, more frighteningly, my desire to please people. Recently, I've been getting the feeling that I have to create masks for myself for different social situations. I have to fake being happy, or else it the darkness will show and people will be repelled. I guess that's life, isn't it? A series of various detestable roles performed out of necessity to please others who are dying to tear you apart from their first meeting with you, knowing full well that you will fail and inevitably die in pain. Only the most unscrupulous, unfettered actors in the play of Life can make it, am I right?
I guess that I should've just been aborted.
I guess that I should've just been aborted.