It’s difficult to explain my thoughts but I will attempt to do so. I am saying this as someone who actually, despite all logic, feels bad for you, Alyssa. I front as a big meanie shit poster on here, but I have a soft spot for women who are genuinely mentally ill.
I know that what you’re saying and how you are reacting via Twitter to these comments my “emaciated” comment, specifically is all a defensive coping mechanism. I know this, because I remember a post of yours where you expressed fear over what will happen to you when you are no longer young and sexually appealing.
You’re still kind of young, but your sex appeal (to well adjusted people, not desperate bottomfeeders) is gone. You have interesting facial features. Not gorgeous, not ugly, just interesting to look at.
You had a great pair of tits when you had a healthy body weight.
You should not be interpreting this attention and devotion you have from your new boyfriend as proof of your sex appeal. Paul (Bonnie) was pussy starved, and a man dying of thirst will chop off his left nut for a drop of water.
All of this could change if you just stopped pretending to be special and stopped pointing fingers at society for your problems. Has life been unfair to you? Maybe it has, but you are hardly special in that regard. In fact, you have something that most people don’t: well off parents that could, if you worked on yourself and tried to turn your life around, expend resources for all the help you need to achieve a stable, pleasant existence. Someone who doesn’t accept help from their parents (financial or otherwise), simply because their personal opinions or ideologies do not align, is not brave. They are a fool.
Before you claim again that they wouldn’t give a shit what happens to you, I know this to be false. I know because of your mother’s Facebook comments and posts about you. That poor woman loves you. It is clear that you suffer from delusions and that it was you who turned your back on your family. Just because a family member doesn’t enable behaviors that are harming you does not mean they do not love you. Sensible people who love their crackhead children do not give money to them to spend on more crack. They will spend money on rehab and productive treatments, though, and pray that this time it fucking sticks.
You may not be a crackhead, but you are undoubtedly addicted to self destruction and victimhood.