- Joined
- Dec 18, 2018
Half of this is because she's just naturally dishonest. She desperately wants a committed relationship, but she wants to lie about that fact partly out of reflex and partly because she thinks it makes her look like a bad gorl into casual affairs.She's so fucking stupid. She lists that she's looking for casual hookups on her Plenty of Fish, then squeals with excitement when some guy who may not even really exist "tells" her "he's looking for a relationship" then proceeds to plan a first non-date meeting at his place, with candles. Make it make sense. It's clear she has zero idea how dating works and never had female friends to show her either.
The other half is because she has raging BPD. She knows on some level that she's a huge sucker and extremely vulnerable to being played emotionally, because she's just weak like that. So she has to protect herself by playing at not caring if the next guy doesn't propose within a few weeks, because she knows she'll be head over heels and expecting a commitment by then. She's not self-aware enough to realize this is insane, and she's probably not even self-aware enough to understand it consciously (though her TOTALLY REAL THERAPIST should be helping her with that) but on some level, deep down, she knows she's terrified of even that really reasonable rejection and incapable of not over-bonding by the second date.