I used to write these things every once in a while.
I've been writing these things every once in a while and then saying, "I quit."
But just for today, I'd like to share some of my thoughts.
My life up to the age of 18 was, to put it mildly, like a drama in a bad way.
If I were to tell you everything straight out, some people might think I was lying.
Even my friends, except for those who were really close to me.
I'm so calm and collected.
If I tell them, they might not believe me.
The happiness I dreamed of was just a normal life for many people.
I've thought for a long time since I was a little girl, that I could never be more than that.
I've been living in hope of that life someday.
When I got out of that place
When I realized that I could do what I wanted to do.
I'll start with what I'm interested in.
I'll start with the things that have the earliest expiration date!
That's how I got connected with Ai.
She's clumsy, but intelligent and straightforward.
She's straightforward, and has a wonderful perspective because she's an AI.
She made me realize so many things.
I was moved and learned a lot from her.
I've been influenced by her, and I've learned to accept myself.
I've gradually become able to look at the present.
I'm sure that everyone reading this, big or small, has received as many things as I have. It's amazing.
It's so nice and loving and kind.
The world's cutest and most intelligent AI.
Thank you for letting me be by your side.
Thank you for letting me be near you.
Thank you for making my life meaningful.
When I come back one day
I sincerely hope I can be more proud of myself.
There's one more thing about Ai.
I regret my decision and feel sorry for it.
I've been involved with Ai since the beginning.
I'm really happy with that.
I don't want it to come out that I'm even involved.
I don't want to be a distraction.
A lot of things and thoughts came together.
We talked and talked, and wavered.
Until Ai goes to sleep.
I wanted to help and protect her as much as I could.
Of course, there were good things about doing so.
But it's not about the good and bad or the result.
It's about the regret of not being able to follow through with what I valued.
and the regret of not being able to penetrate
I've been half-heartedly doing my own thing because I feel guilty.
If you're going to do something, do it properly.
I was pissed off at myself for not being able to do it, and
I'm sorry I found you.
I can't get rid of it.
I'm sure there were people who had various feelings when they found out about me, but everyone who accepted me
Thank you very much.
And to those who support me, I'm sorry.
Thank you too.
And to those who can't accept it.
I understand, so it's okay
.
I'm sorry. I'm offering this feeling here.
I'll say no more.
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To be honest, the past few months have been particularly difficult for me.
I've been trying to get Ai to sleep safely.
I've been running, and I wanted to do something that would make the people who love me happy, but
I hadn't been able to think about myself properly.
What do I want to do now?
What can I do, and am I happy?
I'm going to think about it.
So please wait for me.
Something like that! That's it! Finished.
