Community Munchausen's by Internet (Malingerers, Munchies, Spoonies, etc) - Feigning Illnesses for Attention

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Someone help me out—the Benadryl abuse is confusing to me. I somehow won the genetic lottery when it comes to allergies and I’ve never needed to take it, but I do know diphenhydramine has a sedative effect. I always just assumed it caused garden-variety sleepiness, though, and not the warm, fuzzy, back-in-the-womb euphoric sedation that opiate chasers are usually after. Does it produce that kind of effect in humans if you take large enough quantities, or are our brave chronic illness warriors just taking it to zonk themselves out and hope that their problems will magically disappear before they regain consciousness?
 
Someone help me out—the Benadryl abuse is confusing to me. I somehow won the genetic lottery when it comes to allergies and I’ve never needed to take it, but I do know diphenhydramine has a sedative effect. I always just assumed it caused garden-variety sleepiness, though, and not the warm, fuzzy, back-in-the-womb euphoric sedation that opiate chasers are usually after. Does it produce that kind of effect in humans if you take large enough quantities, or are our brave chronic illness warriors just taking it to zonk themselves out and hope that their problems will magically disappear before they regain consciousness?
it potentiates opiates (makes them hit harder).

This is perfect. I've been thinking of Jaquie and watching her old videos. I miss that nonsense, and the days when I didn't have to go on a new social media to observe the munchies.
Jaquie hit just right for me. Her videos were generally short enough that i could watch them on the subway on the way to work. For two years she pumped one out almost every day and it was almost pure medical drama. She over-explained everything so even a moron like me could catch her lies. And there was just something girl-next-door about her. Like her utter lack of actual personality let you just enjoy the medical freakshow with none of the political shit the others pull. Same with Sarah Jane when she was still posting daily. Just good clean munchie antics without trying to make me feel guilty about enjoying it.
 
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it potentiates opiates (makes them hit harder).
Ah, there it is! Thank you.

I feel like every munchie pill porn I see always includes that pop of hot pink in the mix, so this also explains why MCAS is so trendy as a comorbidity with all these other nebulous diagnoses—serves as a convenient excuse for downing antihistamines.
 
Does Chuck McGill have Munchausens by Jimmy?

I know this is just a meme comment, but Chuck would actually if he was a real person be a perfect example of the difference between someone with a factitious disorder, and someone who, despite being perfectly healthy, legitimately believed they were sick due to untreated mental illness.

Someone with munchausen would never have gone through the absurd attempts he did to pretend he wasn't sick, such as the stunt with the tinfoil suit, or lying to his ex wife that the power in his house was merely out that day. Nor would they have taken concrete steps to get over their disorder like Chuck did before his final meltdown and suicide.

I have yet to see any munchie try to convince specific people they didnt have a disorder they LARP with others as having.
 
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It's always a fun challenge to see how much of Alexandra's bullshit I can tolerate per sitting.

Maybe her Five Secrets of Resilience can help me.
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After a couple casual ICU visits, Alexandra realizes she might actually be too disabled to become a full-time doctor and that she's missing too much school to stay enrolled in her course.
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Loss of control and feeling powerless is worse than nearly dying of sepsis. Being a control freak is nearly universal for anachans, and very common for munchies. Hmm.
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I love seeing these girls admit they went full toddler mode, literally throwing a tantrum because "I wanted to be sick, but not inconvenienced! Why meee?!?" Absolutely beautiful.
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The Munchie Cycle: get admitted, get released, remember your failure to launch, give up, get admitted to escape your responsibilities, repeat. 13 ICU admissions in two years is approximately once every two months, and if she has "a few good weeks" at work then she probably spends about a month in the ICU at a time.
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A Letter to all the Women in My Life is the International Women's Day holiday special episode.
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All the mean evil man doctors ignored Alexandra, but the nice woman doctor stripped for her and was compassionate. Also, she's not like other girls, she liked swimming and doing sports before she got sick, she was going to be in the Paralympics.

Delirious is the long and excruciatingly detailed recollection of the nightmares Alexandra had during her 10th ICU admission - the one in Italy she won't shut up about.
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She was completely sedated and on a ventilator during all of this, but she wouldn't have had nightmares/hallucinations if the nurses introduced themselves.

The Language of Medicine is boring and pointless.
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Over the course of a few blog posts, Alexandra lost a disability and a chronic illness.

How to be a Superhero has been told over and over, and it's definitely something that really happened.
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Alexandra's superpower is being stubborn and putting herself in dangerous situations purely because someone said she couldn't. Her other superpower is getting special treatment for being visibly disabled. Her other other superpower is annoying random disabled strangers on public transportation.

I was thinking though that if she was actually going to be a Paralympic athlete, there would be information online about that somewhere. Somehow I missed it in my primary google searches.
From the International Paralympic Committee. Alexandra is not totally blind, as she leads her audience to believe. She only has central vision, and can see a small amount of light and color; definitely vision impaired, but maybe not necessary to wiggle down a hill in the Hong Kong wilderness and wander into traffic. Her impairment classification is B2, which essentially means she has ~3-5% vision.
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From the Pledge Sports website. It's essentially just a more detailed version of the information above, along with details on how she skis.
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Genuine question for the people who know more than me: if she has to remove her hearing aids to use the Bluetooth headset, but she's completely deaf without them, how does she hear the headset?
I tried for a little while to find any information about her being on Britain's disabled swim team or being sponsored for the 2012 Paralympics, but my various combinations of keywords didn't return anything.
 
If you take enough, you can also "trip". It's less the colors and coolness of a psychedelic, and more the delirium of a dementia patient sundowning.
Yeah, it's a deliriant. Most people don't particularly enjoy the deliriant class of drugs.

Edited to change "dissociative" to "deliriant" because I'm a mong and can't keep my fucking psychoactive compounds straight.
 
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After a couple casual ICU visits, Alexandra realizes she might actually be too disabled to become a full-time doctor and that she's missing too much school to stay enrolled in her course.
This is why I think she will be magically much improved in the next few months: she has very limited time left to complete her degree before they HAVE to kick her out, or she’s achieved the extension nobody else could ever do. Sooper special. The alternative is crashing and burning out of medicine but having made a career out of complaining about doctors on the internet in front of doctors on the internet what next?
All the mean evil man doctors ignored Alexandra, but the nice woman doctor stripped for her and was compassionate.
Noticed an inconsistency here - in other stories I could be sure the doctor showed off an abdominal scar or possibly even a stoma. Why then does she now say it was in the axilla? She’s either being creative with her anatomy words to make herself sound poetic or really missed a lot of school.
Alexandra's superpower
is wrapping all of med Twitter around her little finger. Any other munchie would die at the chance to have so many doctors following their story. I’ve noticed her likes have got lower over time so maybe they’re starting to see through it though.
From the Pledge Sports website. It's essentially just a more detailed version of the information above, along with details on how she skis
Of course her story has to have the most tragic elements out of any. I looked up the ski instructor and can’t find anything.
 
Yeah, it's a dissociative. Most people don't particularly enjoy the dissociative class of drugs.
I was gonna say, that description sounds like the opposite of fun. But I guess when you're desperate for a cheap high, you get less picky about what kind.

Noticed an inconsistency here - in other stories I could be sure the doctor showed off an abdominal scar or possibly even a stoma. Why then does she now say it was in the axilla? She’s either being creative with her anatomy words to make herself sound poetic or really missed a lot of school.
I noticed this too... I thought when I was initially reading it that the doctor was gonna reveal herself to be a tubie, but I'm pretty sure it's not standard procedure to start the approach for a feeding tube in the armpit. Could've been a lymph node removal, maybe? Do I hate myself enough to read more of her blog and try to find answers?

Edit: I found it:

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From "Doctors can be patients, too" | archive

The axilla is a totally different area from the ribcage. Yeah, they touch, but they're not interchangeable. Also I feel like if a doctor closed my privacy curtain and started lifting her shirt without preamble I'd probably phone security. That seems wildly inappropriate.
 
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If you take enough, you can also "trip". It's less the colors and coolness of a psychedelic, and more the delirium of a dementia patient sundowning.
first time i heard of it was because,
bodhi, son of the deranged susan schofield,
got drugged to high hell with benadryl, he looked like shit, hallucinated like shit, and couldnt shit.

some people apparently like to be in a delirium when on drugs
 
first time i heard of it was because,
bodhi, son of the deranged susan schofield,
got drugged to high hell with benadryl, he looked like shit, hallucinated like shit, and couldnt shit.

some people apparently like to be in a delirium when on drugs
The dissociative hypnotics are some of the only drugs that are nearly universally panned on Bluelight and Erowid. It's actually really funny to read the reviews written by seasoned psychonauts (aka frequent users of various hard drugs and research chemicals) who took them apparently expecting something other than what it says on the tin.

Edited to add this notable exception: a hapless idiot who has developed a taste for a compound called MK-801, which is frequently used in research settings to create animal models of schizophrenic psychosis.
 
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The dissociative hypnotics are some of the only drugs that are nearly universally panned on Bluelight and Erowid. It's actually really funny to read the reviews written by seasoned psychonauts (aka frequent users of various hard drugs and research chemicals) who took them apparently expecting something other than what it says on the tin.

Edited to add this notable exception: a hapless idiot who has developed a taste for a compound called MK-801, which is frequently used in research settings to create animal models of schizophrenic psychosis.
that was very informative, that guy seemed to have found his true love in it,

i lost it at throat chakra,
but good for him that he seems to be more sociable but i hope it doesnt go wrong somehow at the end
 
that was very informative, that guy seemed to have found his true love in it,

i lost it at throat chakra,
but good for him that he seems to be more sociable but i hope it doesnt go wrong somehow at the end
I was laughing at how the organic (unfiltered) cigarettes he's recently switched to have really helped purge and clean his lungs, as evidenced by how he's choking on phlegm all the time now. I also got a kick out of the bit where his mom found him unconscious and choking but he was just trippin'.

MK-801 is like a super potent, longer lasting version of PCP and has been demonstrated to cause persistent thought disturbance, which I think is the cause of his newfound sociability. I mean, other than his throat chakra being all good now. Really, all of what he wrote read like the ramblings of a person whose experience of reality is not the same as ours.

Any of the NMDA receptor antagonists are not really the kind of thing you can get away with abusing for very long. Probably best to give them all a wide berth.



...unless your throat chakra is blocked. They're like a big ol' chakra cough drop.
 
I was laughing at how the organic (unfiltered) cigarettes he's recently switched to have really helped purge and clean his lungs, as evidenced by how he's choking on phlegm all the time now. I also got a kick out of the bit where his mom found him unconscious and choking but he was just trippin'.

MK-801 is like a super potent, longer lasting version of PCP and has been demonstrated to cause persistent thought disturbance, which I think is the cause of his newfound sociability. I mean, other than his throat chakra being all good now. Really, all of what he wrote read like the ramblings of a person whose experience of reality is not the same as ours.

Any of the NMDA receptor antagonists are not really the kind of thing you can get away with abusing for very long. Probably best to give them all a wide berth.



...unless your throat chakra is blocked. They're like a big ol' chakra cough drop.
atleast half of the article was word salad,
he is the kind of guy who will go raw vegan and then thinking all his chakras will open meanwhile his body is falling apart at the seams because he has scurvy or some ghoulish shit
he says more sociable,
i say he is probably a damn nuisance who doesnt know when to shut up at this point and his friends and relatives cant wait to have him have a mental breakdown so they can safely throw him in the loony bin,
he is already half way with the lobotomy, why not go full balls and complete it in a sick ass mental asylum.
 
It's always a fun challenge to see how much of Alexandra's bullshit I can tolerate per sitting.

Maybe her Five Secrets of Resilience can help me.
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After a couple casual ICU visits, Alexandra realizes she might actually be too disabled to become a full-time doctor and that she's missing too much school to stay enrolled in her course.
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Loss of control and feeling powerless is worse than nearly dying of sepsis. Being a control freak is nearly universal for anachans, and very common for munchies. Hmm.
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I love seeing these girls admit they went full toddler mode, literally throwing a tantrum because "I wanted to be sick, but not inconvenienced! Why meee?!?" Absolutely beautiful.
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The Munchie Cycle: get admitted, get released, remember your failure to launch, give up, get admitted to escape your responsibilities, repeat. 13 ICU admissions in two years is approximately once every two months, and if she has "a few good weeks" at work then she probably spends about a month in the ICU at a time.
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A Letter to all the Women in My Life is the International Women's Day holiday special episode.
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All the mean evil man doctors ignored Alexandra, but the nice woman doctor stripped for her and was compassionate. Also, she's not like other girls, she liked swimming and doing sports before she got sick, she was going to be in the Paralympics.

Delirious is the long and excruciatingly detailed recollection of the nightmares Alexandra had during her 10th ICU admission - the one in Italy she won't shut up about.
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She was completely sedated and on a ventilator during all of this, but she wouldn't have had nightmares/hallucinations if the nurses introduced themselves.

The Language of Medicine is boring and pointless.
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Over the course of a few blog posts, Alexandra lost a disability and a chronic illness.

How to be a Superhero has been told over and over, and it's definitely something that really happened.
Alexandra's superpower is being stubborn and putting herself in dangerous situations purely because someone said she couldn't. Her other superpower is getting special treatment for being visibly disabled. Her other other superpower is annoying random disabled strangers on public transportation.

I was thinking though that if she was actually going to be a Paralympic athlete, there would be information online about that somewhere. Somehow I missed it in my primary google searches.
From the International Paralympic Committee. Alexandra is not totally blind, as she leads her audience to believe. She only has central vision, and can see a small amount of light and color; definitely vision impaired, but maybe not necessary to wiggle down a hill in the Hong Kong wilderness and wander into traffic. Her impairment classification is B2, which essentially means she has ~3-5% vision.
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From the Pledge Sports website. It's essentially just a more detailed version of the information above, along with details on how she skis.
View attachment 3323203She looks incredibly healthy and normal here, not the look of a tubie pincushion who's constantly in and out of the ICU.
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Genuine question for the people who know more than me: if she has to remove her hearing aids to use the Bluetooth headset, but she's completely deaf without them, how does she hear the headset?
I tried for a little while to find any information about her being on Britain's disabled swim team or being sponsored for the 2012 Paralympics, but my various combinations of keywords didn't return anything.
So I had been willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. There's deafblind people in various professions and parts of the medical field could certainly be done. All of them rely on their residual sight and hearing. There's a pottery artist on tiktok who is deafblind.

But she's so all over the place that even if she is legitimately deafblind, she's still milking shit for all its worth. I also HIGHLY doubt how fast she claims her vision deteriorated as this doesn't seem to match the disease progression.
 
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