And it ALL comes full circle! Phil, depression isn't something you can "turn off" or "ignore." it's a chemical imbalance, you fucking dunce! It's something that can be treated with medication and therapy. It's something you cannot ignore! It can fucking cripple you!
Okay, this may be TMI, but fuck it! I don't give a rats ass! Phil, I was clinically diagnosed with PTSD - and what comes with PTSD? Clinical depression! It FUCKING SUCKS! Every damn day, I FORCE myself out of bed and I fight battles that NO ONE sees! There are days where I want to put a gun in my mouth and pull the fucking trigger, but I don't! There's not a fucking thing I can do about it! I fight through it and win invisible battles every single day.
What you're experiencing Phil is know as regret. It's not "depression.", you are where you are through your own actions, pendejo! You have no friends, your "soulmate" is some bitch you barely fucking know, and she's using you for room and board. So, fuck off with the depression shit! It's regret and reality finally hitting you and you can no longer hide in the bathroom hoping it goes away. Welcome to your new reality, Phil! Sucks to suck!