Aydin Paladin / Rebekah Erin "Bekah" Ford / Sybyll Adastra / StarSybyll - Drunken Crying Bipolar Anti-SJW Skeptic Lolicon, Full of GOTIS, Amateur Christorian

[Aydin Paladin]

If he was a true solipsist there would be no "you", you along with everything and everybody else would be just figments of his imagination.


Even being the size of a planet doesn't make him a solipsist.

Might be a problem in definition here, A solipsist is someone who thinks they can know the thoughts, feelings and beliefs of others. It's metaphysically absurd to think you can know what someone else feels.

Alistair's got his own issues. I hope he cant get over them. It's no secret I'm an autistic sperg, but this shit has been going on for years with the hot/cold love/hate shit. It is a classic case of someone who was obsessed with an Internet person becoming their biggest "detractor". It's not uncommon, and a function of parasocial relationships that cause people to feel they "know" someone online. It's neither new nor unique. I showed in the DMs how I communicate with this person, which is to wish them nothing but luck, while he implies he will try to have potential children that don't even exist removed from my custody. That's some real fucking aylawg shit. I only wanted to illustrate the behavior of the person I've been trying to be kind to for years now, who is, statistically, the primary contributor to this thread.

It's not some gay Christ is KANG shit; I genuinely hope he gets help because he's like 23-4 and is wasting his life making video after video, post after post about some nobody femoid on the Internet who didn't want to suck his dick 5 years ago. If you're curious about all my lore, go back and see how much of it was posted by Alistair and take into consideration his motivations for any of his claims.

EDIT: And yes, I'm a very cringey autismo with alcohol issues. Everyone here knows that. But at the same time, look at the weirdo focus of this dude. He didn't just do it to me either; he's tried to worm his way into DM's with my friend who does art for me and is like 20. It's fucking bizarre.

 

[Illuminati Order Official]

Might be a problem in definition here, A solipsist is someone who thinks they can know the thoughts, feelings and beliefs of others. It's metaphysically absurd to think you can know what someone else feels.

I'm afraid that's not the core of solipsism. A solipsist believes that he's the only being and everyone and everything they observe and interact with are figments of their imagination. The observer is the SOLE consciousness, therefore the name of the philosophy. You can read this short story for an idea.

It's not some gay Christ is KANG shit

I'm agnostic. Believe whatever you feel is right for you as long as you don't try to shove it down my throat.

If you're curious about all my lore, go back and see how much of it was posted by Alistair and take into consideration his motivations for any of his claims.

Is it worth the time? You appear to be rather sane and reasonable for a POI, not many laughs to be milked here.

 

[Aydin Paladin]

I'm afraid that's not the core of solipsism. A solipsist believes that he's the only being and everyone and everything they observe and interact with are figments of their imagination. The observer is the SOLE consciousness, therefore the name of the philosophy. You can read this short story for an idea.


I'm agnostic. Believe whatever you feel is right for you as long as you don't try to shove it down my throat.


Is it worth the time? You appear to be rather sane and reasonable for a POI, not many laughs to be milked here.

Oh okay, I think the problem is that I'm coming from a psych background understanding of solipsism, whereas that may be a different, more philosophical one. Also, I never wanna push religion down anyone's throat; that is always between you and your god, or lack thereof. I've held multiple beliefs before; all of it is cool.

 

[Illuminati Order Official]

Oh okay, I think the problem is that I'm coming from a psych background understanding of solipsism, whereas that may be a different, more philosophical one.

Psychologically I believe solipsism would be close to derealization. "Someone who thinks they can know the thoughts, feelings and beliefs of others" would be a telepath and \ or empath but that's parapsychology, not actual psychology.

 

[Aydin Paladin]

You have brought a lot of this on yourself when you don't know when to completely cut people or groups off. Don't interact with your "fans" or your simps. You either are too trusting or love drama/attention too much to walk away from gay internet bullshit. Like I said, this thread was dead for a bit until last night. If you think he's such a sperg (and he is plus a fucking loser), you should have ignored him. "Christ is Kang" is not a reason to keep people like this around. You must love the cycle to keep going with it.

Unless I missed something, the DMs didn't seem like he was going to try to have your hypothetical children taken away. But you both suck at communication. It's like reading the texts of high schoolers that can't get over some gay bullshit.

TL;DR Grow up, you fucks

I can understand why you think that completely, but the reality is this shit is frustrating as hell (who doesn't say that though, to be fair). I'm just coming here to show the truth after 4-5 fucking years of this nonsense with this dude. I used to talk to "fans" or viewers or whatever you wanna call them, all the time, but it's because of this that now I don't so much. And that's not just me. If you want to know why "ecelebs" don't talk to people - re:Alistair. He unblocked me after years and I tried to be nice because, well, I thought maybe he was okay with moving past the hate, but clearly not. The kids thing is what set me off enough to post. He probably didn't mean anything by it seriously, but it's sort of an insane thing to imply, whether or not it was a real threat. It's more or less the first rule here is to not try and do life ruination shit; hence my post.

 

[Retink]

I showed in the DMs how I communicate with this person, which is to wish them nothing but luck, while he implies he will try to have potential children that don't even exist removed from my custody. That's some real fucking aylawg shit. I only wanted to illustrate the behavior of the person I've been trying to be kind to for years now, who is, statistically, the primary contributor to this thread.

My question would be why are you engaging with him at all? He's just some tard on the internet and you're giving him the attention he wants from you. The whole exchange just seemed retarded and you'd be best served by not interacting with someone wanting your fictional children removed instead of spazzing out on them.

Edit: By the way, was I right a while back that your interest in monarchism was influenced by Curtis Yarvin?

It's more or less the first rule here is to not try and do life ruination shit; hence my post.

Aydin, they're fictional children with some internet tough guy talking about people that don't exist. Also why is he unblocking you, you really should have blocked him long ago.

 

[Dean Pentel]

I can understand why you think that completely, but the reality is this shit is frustrating as hell (who doesn't say that though, to be fair). I'm just coming here to show the truth after 4-5 fucking years of this nonsense with this dude. I used to talk to "fans" or viewers or whatever you wanna call them, all the time, but it's because of this that now I don't so much. And that's not just me. If you want to know why "ecelebs" don't talk to people - re:Alistair. He unblocked me after years and I tried to be nice because, well, I thought maybe he was okay with moving past the hate, but clearly not. The kids thing is what set me off enough to post. He probably didn't mean anything by it seriously, but it's sort of an insane thing to imply, whether or not it was a real threat. It's more or less the first rule here is to not try and do life ruination shit; hence my post.

You should totally post some new tits and ass pics to the thread to show him what he'll never get. Boy would that make him mad!

 

[Aydin Paladin]

My question would be why are you engaging with him at all? He's just some tard on the internet and you're giving him the attention he wants from you. The whole exchange just seemed retarded and you'd be best served by not interacting with someone wanting your fictional children removed instead of spazzing out on them.

Edit: By the way, was I right a while back that your interest in monarchism was influenced by Curtis Yarvin?


Aydin, they're fictional children with some internet tough guy talking about people that don't exist. Also why is he unblocking you, you really should have blocked him long ago.

Honestly, really good advice. I try to be nice to people because I want to not be an asshole but also because I'm a complete pushover. IDK if it's because of autism or being a female or whatever but I just am conflict-averse. My monarchy stuff, yes, was partially influenced by Curtis Yarvin but more significantly from Eric Von Kuenelt-Leddihn, whose main treatise on monarchy is available to read absolutely free on the Mises institute website, if you feel so autistic. And yah, they're fictional children now but my husband and I trying and this kind of gay veiled threat of "oh it sure would be a shame if your children were taken away" - children that we know don't exist, is just fucking weird.

EDIT: Also, as everybody here knows, I have a shitty but not uncommon disease called endometriosis, which is a leading cause (but not determinant) of infertility. About 10% of women have it. I've seen people questioning this diagnosis, is is the nature of KF, understandably, so let me explain. Endo is a genetic disorder (we think) and its severity is rated in stages from 1 to 4. I was diagnosed with the most severe form, but it took a while to get there as it was ignored for years. The basic gist, without being too gross, is that the cells that grow inside the uterus to make it a nice comfy place for a fetus to grow, and which slough off during mensuration occur in other parts of the body. In my case, and other cases of Stage IV endo, these areas are pretty much everywhere - the spine, lungs, liver, kidney, etc. So, when you're a young girl and getting your period, it's really fucking awful. I used to lose consciousness and shit. When I was in college I got stuck in the communal ladies shower because of the pain. I couldn't move and had to ask a poor unfortunate girl probably trying to just take a dump in peace if she could call 911. Point is, it's not fun. BUT, I have been blessed by so many amazing doctors (excluding the terrible ones who told me to do shit like wear dirty dish rags instead of using feminine hygiene products, lol) who helped me out. I was first placed in the Violet Petal Study and then after that I was enrolled in experimental treatment using Lupron Depot, which, yes, is also used to castrate pedos, but it works because it "resets" the female biology by simulating menopause, and finally I had a laparoscopy, which is a very simple procedure using a micro-sized instrument to burn off the affected cells. I'm now about 8 years out of these treatments and have had no reoccurrence. I don't have to worry about this problem any more and am so grateful to the doctors and surgeons who helped me.

 

[Retink]

Honestly, really good advice. I try to be nice to people because I want to not be an asshole but also because I'm a complete pushover. IDK if it's because of autism or being a female or whatever but I just am conflict-averse.

Here's the thing, you don't have to engage in conflict, just don't engage at all if you don't like what the other person has to say. Learn to say "that's nice, you have fun with that." and move on.

My monarchy stuff, yes, was partially influenced by Curtis Yarvin but more significantly from Eric Von Kuenelt-Leddihn, whose main treatise on monarchy is available to read absolutely free on the Mises institute website, if you feel so autistic.

Surprised it's hosted by the Mises institute but I suppose there are a lot of people who overlap in it with Monarchists, I'll give it a look when I get a chance. I don't believe in monarchy, at least not on a large scale but people like Curtis have given me at least some reason to hear them out.

And yah, they're fictional children now but my husband and I trying and this kind of gay veiled threat of "oh it sure would be a shame if your children were taken away" - children that we know don't exist, is just fucking weird.

This is some retard on the internet talking about fictional children, anyone who has any kind o internet foot print will have spergs like this and which is why most of them don't show their kids on stream. By responding how you did, you're just encouraging him to push that issue more. Talk to your husband and make him your designated tard wrangler, because if there was ever a woman that needed a man to do that for her, it's you.

 

[Ultrapenguin]

I can understand why you think that completely, but the reality is this shit is frustrating as hell (who doesn't say that though, to be fair). I'm just coming here to show the truth after 4-5 fucking years of this nonsense with this dude. I used to talk to "fans" or viewers or whatever you wanna call them, all the time, but it's because of this that now I don't so much. And that's not just me. If you want to know why "ecelebs" don't talk to people - re:Alistair. He unblocked me after years and I tried to be nice because, well, I thought maybe he was okay with moving past the hate, but clearly not. The kids thing is what set me off enough to post. He probably didn't mean anything by it seriously, but it's sort of an insane thing to imply, whether or not it was a real threat. It's more or less the first rule here is to not try and do life ruination shit; hence my post.

Oh, I guess I'm wondering then why you're ok creating a child whose life you're going to ruin?

How do you see parenting going in the future as various interest groups increasingly target children? How long have you been married to the man you're going to be having this kid with to make 100% sure you won't wind up as a single mother before the kid is out of diapers? What profession do you have that'll ensure you can provide for the child in the face of an increasingly dire economic situation? How do you plan to work with your online footprint, including publicly available pictures of your tits? How do you think your child will feel about those pictures being out there? If you do become a single mother, single parent households are heavily associated with substance abuse problems and, nowadays, with involvement in online circles where children are targeted by sexual predators and exposed to incredibly aggressive forms of marketing, gambling, and extreme pornography, how will you protect your child from the ill effects of the internet, especially when you can't seem to protect yourself?

You're like every other BPD wracked "based" e-girl, running up against the wall and now in a standoff with society where you try to force a kid out of your drug and alcohol damaged body as society crosses its fingers and hopes you're beyond the help of fertility treatment. You, venti, shoeonhead, loomer, a whole host of lesser figures, you may as well be made in a factory.

Also, any man who is willing to have a child with how things are right now is only doing it because he has no plans to stick around, and the few men who are able to guarantee stability at this point, are going to have way better options than alcoholic e-thots.

People on this site like DSP don't deserve hate imo, because they don't bring kids into it. The fact you're this mentally and emotionally unstable, still doing whatever the hell you're doing online, and still, while actively melting down, are willing to entertain the idea of creating a life that will be totally dependent on you when you can't even take care of yourself shows this dude is 100% in the right to hate you. It isn't a-logging to dislike people who are willing to condemn a life to suffering and burden everyone around them purely to fulfill their own capricious wants.

 

[Aydin Paladin]

Oh, I guess I'm wondering then why you're ok creating a child whose life you're going to ruin?

How do you see parenting going in the future as various interest groups increasingly target children? How long have you been married to the man you're going to be having this kid with to make 100% sure you won't wind up as a single mother before the kid is out of diapers? What profession do you have that'll ensure you can provide for the child in the face of an increasingly dire economic situation? How do you plan to work with your online footprint, including publicly available pictures of your tits? How do you think your child will feel about those pictures being out there? If you do become a single mother, single parent households are heavily associated with substance abuse problems and, nowadays, with involvement in online circles where children are targeted by sexual predators and exposed to incredibly aggressive forms of marketing, gambling, and extreme pornography, how will you protect your child from the ill effects of the internet, especially when you can't seem to protect yourself?

You're like every other BPD wracked "based" e-girl, running up against the wall and now in a standoff with society where you try to force a kid out of your drug and alcohol damaged body as society crosses its fingers and hopes you're beyond the help of fertility treatment. You, venti, shoeonhead, loomer, a whole host of lesser figures, you may as well be made in a factory.

Also, any man who is willing to have a child with how things are right now is only doing it because he has no plans to stick around, and the few men who are able to guarantee stability at this point, are going to have way better options than alcoholic e-thots.

People on this site like DSP don't deserve hate imo, because they don't bring kids into it. The fact you're this mentally and emotionally unstable, still doing whatever the hell you're doing online, and still, while actively melting down, are willing to entertain the idea of creating a life that will be totally dependent on you when you can't even take care of yourself shows this dude is 100% in the right to hate you. It isn't a-logging to dislike people who are willing to condemn a life to suffering and burden everyone around them purely to fulfill their own capricious wants.

Well, I understand where you're coming from, but have you looked at the average parent? My husband and I have been together now for going on 3 years (been like 2.5 I think). We own a house. I think we're ready, or trying to get there at least, and the thing is - you never know if you are. It scares the shit out of me to think that I would create a life and then cause damage to that life. I've told this story on streams multiple times, but one of the reasons I didn't used to want to have kids is because of this experience I had at my mum's daycare. She had a Japanese girl who spoke no English and couldn't make friends with the other kids (ages 3-4) and asked me to come in after work and talk to her a bit in Japanese so she wouldn't feel so alone. I had previously worked in the daycare with my former Japanese teacher to do basic lessons so I wasn't concerned at first. Then, I came to the school, we went to the library to talk away from the other kids, and I had a little kids book in Japanese that we were gonna read together. I started by saying hello and asking her basic questions like "what's your favorite color" or "favorite animal" and she was completely non-responsive and started crying. I felt like such a piece of shit - I didn't know what I did wrong. I was devastated. I hated myself for that for years, man. I thought "fuck, I'm so bad with kids I literally make them cry by asking what color they like", but that little girl, almost assuredly, had to have been scared as hell by some strange white woman coming in, speaking in her language, and asking her if she likes dogs or cats. That took years for me to get over, dude.

I use that story as an exemplar - if you think I take having children flippantly, then you're just incorrect. I'm terrified of causing psychological damage to children and I have 10 years of psych data in my head to exacerbate that fear, but my mom has told me over and over that everyone has that fear, and I think she's right. I mean, many people who have kids don't give a single fuck about the outcome. I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.

 

[Retink]

I started by saying hello and asking her basic questions like "what's your favorite color" or "favorite animal" and she was completely non-responsive and started crying. I felt like such a piece of shit - I didn't know what I did wrong. I was devastated. I hated myself for that for years, man. I thought "fuck, I'm so bad with kids I literally make them cry by asking what color they like", but that little girl, almost assuredly, had to have been scared as hell by some strange white woman coming in, speaking in her language, and asking her if she likes dogs or cats. That took years for me to get over, dude...

...I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.

Have you ever considered that maybe you're not afraid of confrontation, but rather you're afraid that someone might not like you?

I don't mean to moral fag, but just realize that when you have kids you're going to have to be the bad guy sometimes, and to them you're going to be worse than Hitler, not because you're doing something terrible but because they have no concept of suffering and relative to their frame of reference you denying them something or whatever is the worst pain they will feel at the time due to their life being rather comfortable. If there's ever a time to drop the psych 101 bullshit, it's when you have kids, and I think you'll be fine as a mother, no worse than most, but just don't overthink.

 

[Reluctant Baron]

Well, I understand where you're coming from, but have you looked at the average parent? My husband and I have been together now for going on 3 years (been like 2.5 I think). We own a house. I think we're ready, or trying to get there at least, and the thing is - you never know if you are. It scares the shit out of me to think that I would create a life and then cause damage to that life. I've told this story on streams multiple times, but one of the reasons I didn't used to want to have kids is because of this experience I had at my mum's daycare. She had a Japanese girl who spoke no English and couldn't make friends with the other kids (ages 3-4) and asked me to come in after work and talk to her a bit in Japanese so she wouldn't feel so alone. I had previously worked in the daycare with my former Japanese teacher to do basic lessons so I wasn't concerned at first. Then, I came to the school, we went to the library to talk away from the other kids, and I had a little kids book in Japanese that we were gonna read together. I started by saying hello and asking her basic questions like "what's your favorite color" or "favorite animal" and she was completely non-responsive and started crying. I felt like such a piece of shit - I didn't know what I did wrong. I was devastated. I hated myself for that for years, man. I thought "fuck, I'm so bad with kids I literally make them cry by asking what color they like", but that little girl, almost assuredly, had to have been scared as hell by some strange white woman coming in, speaking in her language, and asking her if she likes dogs or cats. That took years for me to get over, dude.

I use that story as an exemplar - if you think I take having children flippantly, then you're just incorrect. I'm terrified of causing psychological damage to children and I have 10 years of psych data in my head to exacerbate that fear, but my mom has told me over and over that everyone has that fear, and I think she's right. I mean, many people who have kids don't give a single fuck about the outcome. I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.

As someone who is working towards Fatherhood, I can assure you these are normal fears. The concept of me hurting my child, through accident or carelessness or an off comment gives me palpitations. I think it's a natural fear and tells me that you have truly thought about what being a mom is and the sheer weight of what you're about to do. It's people who flippantly have children with no fears or concerns that will often make the worst parents.

Having a child is a beautiful and wonderful thing, and 9 times out of 10, I will always encourage it. I wish you the best of luck in it, and God bless you.

Anywho, sorry for getting all mushy and gay there.

 

[Not Even Twice]

Well, I understand where you're coming from, but have you looked at the average parent? My husband and I have been together now for going on 3 years (been like 2.5 I think). We own a house. I think we're ready, or trying to get there at least, and the thing is - you never know if you are. It scares the shit out of me to think that I would create a life and then cause damage to that life. I've told this story on streams multiple times, but one of the reasons I didn't used to want to have kids is because of this experience I had at my mum's daycare. She had a Japanese girl who spoke no English and couldn't make friends with the other kids (ages 3-4) and asked me to come in after work and talk to her a bit in Japanese so she wouldn't feel so alone. I had previously worked in the daycare with my former Japanese teacher to do basic lessons so I wasn't concerned at first. Then, I came to the school, we went to the library to talk away from the other kids, and I had a little kids book in Japanese that we were gonna read together. I started by saying hello and asking her basic questions like "what's your favorite color" or "favorite animal" and she was completely non-responsive and started crying. I felt like such a piece of shit - I didn't know what I did wrong. I was devastated. I hated myself for that for years, man. I thought "fuck, I'm so bad with kids I literally make them cry by asking what color they like", but that little girl, almost assuredly, had to have been scared as hell by some strange white woman coming in, speaking in her language, and asking her if she likes dogs or cats. That took years for me to get over, dude.

I use that story as an exemplar - if you think I take having children flippantly, then you're just incorrect. I'm terrified of causing psychological damage to children and I have 10 years of psych data in my head to exacerbate that fear, but my mom has told me over and over that everyone has that fear, and I think she's right. I mean, many people who have kids don't give a single fuck about the outcome. I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.

I'm quite sure you would make an absolutely abysmal parent.
You can't keep your sperging off the internet, what on earth makes you think you can keep it from fucking up a child you have to deal with and manage 24/7 for 18 years?

 

[Ratzinger]

pushover autism female conflict-averse monarchy Mises institute website autistic fictional children gay veiled threat fucking weird.

This is what you sound like, btw.

EDIT: Also, as everybody here knows, I have a shitty but not uncommon disease called endometriosis, which is a leading cause (but not determinant) of infertility. About 10% of women have it. I've seen people questioning this diagnosis, is is the nature of KF, understandably, so let me explain. Endo is a genetic disorder (we think) and its severity is rated in stages from 1 to 4. I was diagnosed with the most severe form, but it took a while to get there as it was ignored for years. The basic gist, without being too gross, is that the cells that grow inside the uterus to make it a nice comfy place for a fetus to grow, and which slough off during mensuration occur in other parts of the body. In my case, and other cases of Stage IV endo, these areas are pretty much everywhere - the spine, lungs, liver, kidney, etc. So, when you're a young girl and getting your period, it's really fucking awful. I used to lose consciousness and shit. When I was in college I got stuck in the communal ladies shower because of the pain. I couldn't move and had to ask a poor unfortunate girl probably trying to just take a dump in peace if she could call 911. Point is, it's not fun. BUT, I have been blessed by so many amazing doctors (excluding the terrible ones who told me to do shit like wear dirty dish rags instead of using feminine hygiene products, lol) who helped me out. I was first placed in the Violet Petal Study and then after that I was enrolled in experimental treatment using Lupron Depot, which, yes, is also used to castrate pedos, but it works because it "resets" the female biology by simulating menopause, and finally I had a laparoscopy, which is a very simple procedure using a micro-sized instrument to burn off the affected cells. I'm now about 8 years out of these treatments and have had no reoccurrence. I don't have to worry about this problem any more and am so grateful to the doctors and surgeons who helped me.

WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU CHARING YOUR MEDICAL HISTORY ON KIWI FARMS OF ALL PLACES?
All this oversharing is only going to attract more weirdoes.
Also, you should definitively share some more nudes before pregnancy inevitably ruins your body and a baby chews up your nipples.
Think of your legacy.

 

[Jack Awful]

I had at my mum's daycare

Did you start using the British spelling once you moved there?

 

[Car Won't Crank]

Oi you got a loicense fo dat child mate?

 

[SevenEightNine]

Do you still have MS?

 

[Russian Bot]

has a thread about an established lolcow ever been edited to instead be about some sperg who stumbled in and was even worse? because maybe that should happen.

Some 400 pound sperg with a hate boner 4 years long for a girl is far more cow-worthy than a slightly crazy girl, who acknowledges she has issues.

Agreed.

 

[WhimsicalTrolli]

@Aydin Paladin, it's nice seeing you here. But have a sincere question I MUST ask you.

Do you Like my Parodies?