Aydin Paladin / Rebekah Erin "Bekah" Ford / Sybyll Adastra / StarSybyll - Drunken Crying Bipolar Anti-SJW Skeptic Lolicon, Full of GOTIS, Amateur Christorian

That dude that's still mad as fuck he didn't get to put his dick in a low-average attractiveness crazy lady a few years back is quite pathetic. The guy who agreed to commit to a long-term relationship with that same old ass crazy lady and even got the government involved is a close second.

Fuck it, @Aydin Paladin. Have kids. Given your age, mental and physical health, and ability for strong self-deception, what's the worst that can happen?
 
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Aydin Paladin said:
I use that story as an exemplar - if you think I take having children flippantly, then you're just incorrect. I'm terrified of causing psychological damage to children and I have 10 years of psych data in my head to exacerbate that fear, but my mom has told me over and over that everyone has that fear, and I think she's right. I mean, many people who have kids don't give a single fuck about the outcome. I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.
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You probably will cause some psychological damage if you have kids, it's kind of the nature of the beast in that way, parents are people and flawed and end up not being perfect. That your aware of and concerned about causing said damage shows your on the right track to minimizing it and raising them successfully.

A few pages back people were looking for and failing to find any published scientific works you were writing since being an undergrad, any possibility you can let us know where we can find those?
 
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Aydin Paladin said:
Honestly, really good advice. I try to be nice to people because I want to not be an asshole but also because I'm a complete pushover. IDK if it's because of autism or being a female or whatever but I just am conflict-averse.
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"I'm conflict-averse" *Proceeds to drop dozens of dms from an ex simp*
Stop making excuses for not protecting yourself and your interests and instead acting like an absolute sperg online. The block button exists, use it instead of complaining you're getting harassed by the lowest of society. This is a non issue, one of many you consistently make for yourself by not acting right when you damn well know what you should do. Stop acting like an intellectual, you're not and clearly never will be, but that's another story. Every single thing you do or believe is dubious and questionable due to your inability to keep a consistent ideology for more than two weeks. You had to commit yourself to a psych ward because a troll called you a pedophile and you weren't self reliant enough to cope and do what any functioning person would do and just block them.
 
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Aydin Paladin said:
Honestly, really good advice. I try to be nice to people because I want to not be an asshole but also because I'm a complete pushover. IDK if it's because of autism or being a female or whatever but I just am conflict-averse. My monarchy stuff, yes, was partially influenced by Curtis Yarvin but more significantly from Eric Von Kuenelt-Leddihn, whose main treatise on monarchy is available to read absolutely free on the Mises institute website, if you feel so autistic. And yah, they're fictional children now but my husband and I trying and this kind of gay veiled threat of "oh it sure would be a shame if your children were taken away" - children that we know don't exist, is just fucking weird.

EDIT: Also, as everybody here knows, I have a shitty but not uncommon disease called endometriosis, which is a leading cause (but not determinant) of infertility. About 10% of women have it. I've seen people questioning this diagnosis, is is the nature of KF, understandably, so let me explain. Endo is a genetic disorder (we think) and its severity is rated in stages from 1 to 4. I was diagnosed with the most severe form, but it took a while to get there as it was ignored for years. The basic gist, without being too gross, is that the cells that grow inside the uterus to make it a nice comfy place for a fetus to grow, and which slough off during mensuration occur in other parts of the body. In my case, and other cases of Stage IV endo, these areas are pretty much everywhere - the spine, lungs, liver, kidney, etc. So, when you're a young girl and getting your period, it's really fucking awful. I used to lose consciousness and shit. When I was in college I got stuck in the communal ladies shower because of the pain. I couldn't move and had to ask a poor unfortunate girl probably trying to just take a dump in peace if she could call 911. Point is, it's not fun. BUT, I have been blessed by so many amazing doctors (excluding the terrible ones who told me to do shit like wear dirty dish rags instead of using feminine hygiene products, lol) who helped me out. I was first placed in the Violet Petal Study and then after that I was enrolled in experimental treatment using Lupron Depot, which, yes, is also used to castrate pedos, but it works because it "resets" the female biology by simulating menopause, and finally I had a laparoscopy, which is a very simple procedure using a micro-sized instrument to burn off the affected cells. I'm now about 8 years out of these treatments and have had no reoccurrence. I don't have to worry about this problem any more and am so grateful to the doctors and surgeons who helped me.
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Remember that this is the internet. You are not under an obligation to interact with everyone who speaks to you. If someone says some annoying or stupid shit, the best course of action is to block or ignore. It’s easy to get angry and type out a novel length response peppered with colorful language, but that’s going to add fuel to the fire. If you chose to interact with people you have to understand all possible consequences, and be prepared to shut it down as you need. Also don’t post while you’re drunk or having a bipolar episode, it’s tempting, but only post with a rational mind. If you’re angry or pissed (drunk or upset, both work here) then wait until you’re more lucid.

Also I’m very sorry about your unfortunate medical history, but KF is not the place to share sensitive medical information. No one here needs to be privy to your struggles.
 
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Aydin Paladin said:
Well, I understand where you're coming from, but have you looked at the average parent? My husband and I have been together now for going on 3 years (been like 2.5 I think). We own a house. I think we're ready, or trying to get there at least, and the thing is - you never know if you are.
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I don't think people are talking about material stuff. I believe psychological aspects of parenthood. In the early years you'll be that kid's most important friend and companion, shield against problems of the world and main source of knowledge, support and protection.
The fact that you are bothered by some morbidly obese retard on the Internet is worrying in this scenario. The fact that you spend so much time engaging with strangers on the Internet is not that great too.
 
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Aydin Paladin said:
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EDIT: I would never post something like this normally, but he's most of the thread and now the alogging has accelerated to him talking about taking away children I don't even have yet. I think that's worth showing.
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Why do you feel the need to do armchair psychoanalysis in the dms of some a-log? You kept trying to tell him what mental issues he has, but you're the one that comes off as unhinged. This is really bizarre.
 
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Did I miss something? I thought she was irreversibly infertile, like barren from some genetic disease or something.
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Aydin should've just posted the DMs and left and she'd have the W but she's too retarded to figure this out. Instead we get pages of autistic essays about solipsism.
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They say brevity is the soul of wit, and clearly she's witless. Solipsism doesn't take an entire essay to convey the general idea.
 
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Did I miss something? I thought she was irreversibly infertile, like barren from some genetic disease or something.

They say brevity is the soul of wit, and clearly she's witless. Solipsism doesn't take an entire essay to convey the general idea.
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Endometriosis, which she was treated for.

Aydin Paladin said:
Honestly, really good advice. I try to be nice to people because I want to not be an asshole but also because I'm a complete pushover. IDK if it's because of autism or being a female or whatever but I just am conflict-averse. My monarchy stuff, yes, was partially influenced by Curtis Yarvin but more significantly from Eric Von Kuenelt-Leddihn, whose main treatise on monarchy is available to read absolutely free on the Mises institute website, if you feel so autistic. And yah, they're fictional children now but my husband and I trying and this kind of gay veiled threat of "oh it sure would be a shame if your children were taken away" - children that we know don't exist, is just fucking weird.

EDIT: Also, as everybody here knows, I have a shitty but not uncommon disease called endometriosis, which is a leading cause (but not determinant) of infertility. About 10% of women have it. I've seen people questioning this diagnosis, is is the nature of KF, understandably, so let me explain. Endo is a genetic disorder (we think) and its severity is rated in stages from 1 to 4. I was diagnosed with the most severe form, but it took a while to get there as it was ignored for years. The basic gist, without being too gross, is that the cells that grow inside the uterus to make it a nice comfy place for a fetus to grow, and which slough off during mensuration occur in other parts of the body. In my case, and other cases of Stage IV endo, these areas are pretty much everywhere - the spine, lungs, liver, kidney, etc. So, when you're a young girl and getting your period, it's really fucking awful. I used to lose consciousness and shit. When I was in college I got stuck in the communal ladies shower because of the pain. I couldn't move and had to ask a poor unfortunate girl probably trying to just take a dump in peace if she could call 911. Point is, it's not fun. BUT, I have been blessed by so many amazing doctors (excluding the terrible ones who told me to do shit like wear dirty dish rags instead of using feminine hygiene products, lol) who helped me out. I was first placed in the Violet Petal Study and then after that I was enrolled in experimental treatment using Lupron Depot, which, yes, is also used to castrate pedos, but it works because it "resets" the female biology by simulating menopause, and finally I had a laparoscopy, which is a very simple procedure using a micro-sized instrument to burn off the affected cells. I'm now about 8 years out of these treatments and have had no reoccurrence. I don't have to worry about this problem any more and am so grateful to the doctors and surgeons who helped me.
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Aydin Paladin said:
Well, I understand where you're coming from, but have you looked at the average parent? My husband and I have been together now for going on 3 years (been like 2.5 I think). We own a house. I think we're ready, or trying to get there at least, and the thing is - you never know if you are. It scares the shit out of me to think that I would create a life and then cause damage to that life. I've told this story on streams multiple times, but one of the reasons I didn't used to want to have kids is because of this experience I had at my mum's daycare. She had a Japanese girl who spoke no English and couldn't make friends with the other kids (ages 3-4) and asked me to come in after work and talk to her a bit in Japanese so she wouldn't feel so alone. I had previously worked in the daycare with my former Japanese teacher to do basic lessons so I wasn't concerned at first. Then, I came to the school, we went to the library to talk away from the other kids, and I had a little kids book in Japanese that we were gonna read together. I started by saying hello and asking her basic questions like "what's your favorite color" or "favorite animal" and she was completely non-responsive and started crying. I felt like such a piece of shit - I didn't know what I did wrong. I was devastated. I hated myself for that for years, man. I thought "fuck, I'm so bad with kids I literally make them cry by asking what color they like", but that little girl, almost assuredly, had to have been scared as hell by some strange white woman coming in, speaking in her language, and asking her if she likes dogs or cats. That took years for me to get over, dude.

I use that story as an exemplar - if you think I take having children flippantly, then you're just incorrect. I'm terrified of causing psychological damage to children and I have 10 years of psych data in my head to exacerbate that fear, but my mom has told me over and over that everyone has that fear, and I think she's right. I mean, many people who have kids don't give a single fuck about the outcome. I'm afraid largely because I once made a Japanese child cry.
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Aydin, whenever you feel the need to write paragraphs to your A-log and then in your own KF thread, just go have sex with your husband instead. In fact, whenever you feel the need to even look at people talking shit about you, just go fuck your husband. You seem to have a pretty nice life currently so I'm not sure why you care what internet autists say on cyberbully forums and twitter. Like nigger, how long have you been on the internet for and you're still this bad at dealing with it. No more woman moments and if you want attention then just join the VC on your discord and watch as a million other people join at once and start worshipping you.
 
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Yo @Aydin Paladin, you gonna hook us up with some new tits pics? I saw some Japanese souffle pancakes and they made me think of those sweet udders.

Come on, be a pal!
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I don't believe these sweet udder pics have been posted here yet (sorry if they have).

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