wow, hey wormy, I'm surprised to see you back.
You cope with your depression in a sort of bizarre way, but still I'm sorry. Take care of your health because it has a major impact on how you feel, and remember your ancestors have collectively pulled through really nasty shit to get where you are, nastier shit than we've ever seen. I figure that unlike my grandfathers I've never been shot at or been forced to kill to survive, so I can manage to buck up and earn my keep in history over whatever we're all dealing with now.
One time I had a kidney stone (which I was too young for, that's what you get for eating processed meat for lunch every day and not hydrating properly) and it passed while I was sitting in the ER waiting room (not as in I pissed it out, as in it descended from the passage that leads from the kidney to the bladder). It was a little embarrassing needing to go up to the clerk and tell them I didn't have an emergency anymore and was leaving, but it was a pleasant change of pace from sitting around a bunch of sick people continually dry heaving into a bucket and feeling like my nuts were being forcefully twisted into a knot. I doubt the last part is relatable to women, but you get my point.