"I was born with both sets of exterior genitals. The doctors literally sewed my vulva shut. The seam line is still there, the labial folds as well behind the sealed flesh, as is the vagina past them."
"It has to go somewhere, and it usually seeps right through my skin down there. I don't even want to know what happens to the stuff that doesn't make it to the surface, I assume my body just reabsorbs it. It's pretty annoying, to say the least."
"Around that same time, I experienced a phenomenon that I had only ever had intermittently prior: cramps in my nether regions followed a few days later by strange discharge on the edge of my crotch area. [...] A month after that, it happened again, and it was kind of impossible to deny that I was getting periods. There was even blood, despite no wounds, chafing or pain to speak of down there."
"I looked up average perineum length of males, and found out that it tends to be 2 inches (+/- 1 inch, approximately). My "perineum" was 5 inches. And (how had I managed to ignore this for so many years?)"
"I started observing for the first time in my life all of the anomalies of my nether regions, and the conclusion I came to was inescapable: I had been surgically altered down there. Had it just been one or two things I might have been able to slip comfortably back into my denial armor, but there were just too many things that didn't make sense in any other context.
The last two weeks have been interesting since, I will tell you that! So many things that happened when I was younger make sense now."
"It seems like they just sealed up the gap, as everything is in fact in working order still (which has caused me some problems in the past; imagine getting a yeast infection with no access, that happened to me once!)."
("Once" but now he says he gets them Every 26 Days)
"My penis is weird: when flaccid, it's about 1-2 inches. When erect, it's visibly 6 inches. You might suspect that something is off looking at my genitals since what would be assumed to be the perineum extends 5 inches (whereas males generally have 2 to 2.5 inches of perineum and women have generally about 0.5 inches; truth be told, my perineum is 0.5 inches, the rest of it is sealed-up vulva)."
"Both [eggs and sperm] by default, although my cycles are strange without HRT. Without estrogen supplement, I only get periods when my estrogen remains elevated long enough, which generally works out to once every 3 to 4 months. Without testosterone supplement, I suspect my sperm is either mostly or completely infertile. I've been on estradiol for a year almost to the day now, and it has caused my ovulation cycle to stabilize at once per 29 days."
"So could you get yourself pregnant if the logistics worked out?"
"Ostensibly yes, assuming I am fertile. Realistically... I'm 41 years old. The odds of that are passing well into the "couldn't happen anyway" territory!"
"...since it can't come out the front it seeps its way through the underside of the surgical site skin and leaks out through the pores on the edge of my crotch. It's super-unpleasant! I've loosened the skin directly over my vaginal opening over the last 3 weeks to the point that some of it comes out the front now, which is a bit of a relief."
"She's taking my being intersex very well, actually! Mostly she has a hard time understanding why I don't want to get rid of the male bits since she got rid of hers, but she's accepted that it's just the way I am."
"My dating life was pathetic."
"What's REALLY wild is when I have the nerve on my right shoulder stimulated, though! That combines the two ['male' and 'female' orgasms] to the extreme, and it gets so intense when done right that I literally cannot speak from being so overwhelmed. My wife and I had to set up a simple hand signal for when to stop in light of that..."
"So in other words, for the guy parts it's all about the continuous thrusting, and for the girl parts it's all about the rhythmic motion. The two come together in perfect harmony to form a truly beautiful symbiotic system."
"I have not been genetically tested, but I absolutely have genetic chimerism (ie. 2 sets of DNA) and that is the most logical explanation for why I have ambiguous genitalia."
"While I generally have no issue with genitals (I am something of a nudist around the house),"
"The female orgasm is not dependent on the clitoris. That kind of surprised me when I realized it! It's brought about by a very different method than the male orgasm, requiring a slower and more deliberate motion to achieve fully. I only ever get subpar results at best when trying the "male method" of fast-and-furious on the female parts by contrast."
"It causes me no dysphoria, it's just a part of me. It probably helps that I am absolutely abysmal at giving a crap about what society says about what I'm "supposed to" be. (I mean really, can you blame me?)"
"I do indeed urinate out the penis. It was pretty obviously also surgically altered, the skin over it is similarly loose and the urethra is way more external than it should be. [...] It is not [circumsised]. Interestingly, I do have a foreskin. A lot of it, in fact. Not sure what's going on there, but I wouldn't be surprised if surgery was involved there too..."
"Periods are messy since it leaks out the sides, yeast infections are basically impossible to treat, and I don't even want to think about what other horrific things I've had pass through me in the last 41 years that I just didn't know what it was at the time! Getting that thing opened up again is a high priority."
"I kind of hate that society is so prudish about matters of sex and genitals, to be honest, and being able to share my absurdly rare condition like this in such detail was delightful."
"Mhm. Right. A single article. That's "proof". Whereas the mountain of reports and genuine research that has shown that intersex conditions such as my own DO exist don't count.
I get wanting to doubt. I get thinking that I'm somehow faking. It's a rare condition. It literally took me 41 years to accept it about myself, I thought I was faking despite the overwhelming evidence to the contrary. But it's sickening to deny the existence of people like myself. Denying us doesn't make us stop existing, no matter how much you wish it did."
"Strictly speaking, we don't even have THAT along the full spectrum. Still an awful lot of visibly intersex fetuses that get aborted solely because they don't conform to the binary..."
"I'm simultaneously more man AND more woman than any transphobe will ever be. And I don't even care about the "man" part of the equation. Intersex is fun!"
"I mean I was born with ambiguous genitalia, have low T and E by default, and cannot be said to possess any sort of innate advantage (indeed, I am at a disadvantage by default and always sucked at sports when I was young). Would I be shoved into the male sports category due to my upper set of genitals, or the female sports category due to my lower set? Or should I be banned from sports as a whole because somehow having both types of genitals makes me ineligible for either?"
"Impostor syndrome is the worst. It's possible to develop it about physical anatomy, even!"
"Don't underestimate society's power to make you question yourself! We've all been getting gaslit about our genders being permanently tied to our birth sex for our entire lives. Some of us have even been gaslit about what our birth sex is. Trust your instincts."
"The "bleeding" part of the equation is overrated, if you ask me. But it comes out the sides of my crotch instead of the correct spot up front due to the idiotic skin graft they did on me when I was born, so maybe I'm missing something. [...] The sheer hypocrisy of transphobes is overwhelming that way, yes. Apparently such things are only "permissible" if it reinforces their strict double-binary gender-sex system and how they believe it to be interlinked."
"You could try the backdoor stimulation method. Or, if you have a suspiciously large gap between your testes and anus, you might see if you can find some hidden anatomy between the two."
"Hell yes! Only thing better than my home-grown pair is my wife's home-grown pair! Much fun is had when two transgirls get married..."
"I've got one better, I've got eggballs! The joys of having ovotestes..."
"Since said discovery, I have been using kegel exercises several times a day to attain female orgasms (3 to 4 times daily for the last two weeks)."
"I used to be absolutely hopeless with masturbation! Could not get it up without porn,"
"I'm starting to realize what a huge asset being autistic is when you're transgender... I genuinely could not give a flying crap about what society thinks of me. [...] I guess I can't exactly suggest "try to be more autistic", though..."
"I wish I could assure you that the difference isn't that big, but it... kind of is. The sensation between male and female parts is completely different! Personally I prefer the female sensation, it builds up in a way that's very unique from the male sensation and can release with far greater intensity."
"Oh, and the real clincher? If both systems orgasm at the same time, there is no mistaking which is which! I have to conciously try to not pass out when that happens!"
"Every 26 days I ovulate. The sensation is distinct for me, it's a lingering ache in the right gonad specifically that usually lasts about an hour. And around 10 days after that, I get that oh-so-delightful other side of the coin, my period."
"Good fucking riddance to that site. They killed a friend-of-a-friend of mine, Near."
"It's an interesting situation with my wife and I. She really wants to be stealth in public but hasn't been able to voice train enough to pass perfectly. I can technically be stealth if I really want to, but then I leave her in the lurch a bit. Fact of the matter is, it hardly matters since most people who would look at us and would judge us would do so for us being a lesbian couple long before they realized we're both trans."
"I have a nephew like that in the other direction. Long hair, hates his face, wears nail polish and a woman's coat... He still insists it's just the style that all of his friends are doing, but come on. He has two gay transgender aunts, and his family accepts them. Just come out already..."
"You would think a few porn stars with phallus-preserving vaginoplasty would exist too, but I couldn't really find anything on that."
"Menstruation is super-nasty! Since it can't come out the front, it seeps out the sides of the skin graft. I basically get nasty skin conditions down there every 2 weeks (lesser ones during ovulation due to spotting, way worse ones during periods due to bleeding). My period just finished up for this cycle, and the skin between my legs and crotch is currently discolored, blotchy, and has a weirdly smooth texture in one area with lots of small skin cracks.
Back when I had testosterone dominance, I often missed periods. When they did happen back then, the output was extremely unpleasant and way heavier. Many pairs of underwear were destroyed at the leg holes!"
"Nope! I have two gonads, but they both at a glance appear to be testicles. Closer inspection reveals that something is weird, though: the right one is much bigger and has cysts on it. That one is the ovary. The fallopian tube heads backward into the uterus instead of the usual configuration of the ovary being internal and off to the side as you'd normally expect. (Fun side-effect: I can shove both gonads directly backward a good inch or two without discomfort!)"
"It's super-validating! Makes me almost regret what I eventually plan to do a bit. Still, it's a huge plus to know that my situation is in fact desirable to some!"
"My equipment is very compact, but also takes up a bit more room than it should! My pubic hair patch is smaller than usual vertically as the penis and ovotestes are about an inch higher than you'd expect them to be, and the sealed vulva goes back almost to where my anus should be; that's about 1.5 inches too far back and makes for very annoying problems on the toilet! Were it not for the graft, it seems like the vulva would start about where the ovotestes have the graft. The lower equipment would be nearly invisible by default short of lifting the ovotestes out of the way to see the vulva in all of its glory.
Fun Fact: I can comfortably walk with my legs closed together as the ovotestes are ridiculously high compared to normal testicles! Nothing chafes that way."
"I am pretty sure [his urethra]'s been altered to go through the penis; it's prominent along the shaft and the skin on it is both loose and weirdly super-smooth."
"I can think of one thing about my experience, actually, that may well have contributed to my peculiar development: I had a "natural puberty" for this body (ie. partially male and female). Most intersex people are forced into experiencing only one or the other either due to intervention or natural hormone balance, and have a definite "favored" aspect during that development."
"So I discovered last night that two things I have always thought were hyperbole about the male sexual experience were actually things I did not experience due to lacking key male anatomy!
Point the first: I cannot "pre-cum". In fact, without external lubrication applied, I remain bone-dry during arousal. This is because, instead of Cowper's glands, I have Bartholin's glands!
Point the second: I can urinate while fully erect, very easily in fact! I experimented with that as a fetish at one point, I was so blissfully unaware that it was not normal. This is because I have no prostate complex, and instead have a uterus and vagina."
"Puberty was kind of weird. My facial hair development was strange and took a long time to start (I got my first facial hairs when I was 16), and the hairs back then were extremely soft, curly, and weirdly blonde (my natural hair color is brown). At the same time that happened, I got my first period and the cysts on my ovary developed (painfully, I might add...). I grew small breasts (about an A cup) as well. I basically went through a reduced version of both male AND female puberty simultaneously."
"Also, I keep saying this and for some reason nobody who's transfem believes it, but periods SUCK! Basically not worth it if you never plan to give birth, except I guess for the free estrogen and progesterone spikes during the luteal phase. I do enjoy those, which is why I intend to keep the ovary at all."
"Every 26 days, yes. The one salvation is that, since it's been going on for 25 years, my body has gotten very good at fighting the infections off. It still makes the week after periods end miserable, though."
"Honestly, it can feel like narcissism because you spent so long despising your appearance, but it's really not. That's about the level of self-love that cis people tend to feel!"
"That said, I manage to give dysphoria and/or gender envy to nearly every transgender person I talk to at some point. Which kind of sucks!"
"The 'full package' of periods is so very overrated, but I may be a bit jaded. Annoying pain in a gonad for about an hour every 27-29 days, followed by spotting likely ruining a perfectly good pair of undies, followed about 2 weeks later by painful cramps, even more blood, and possibly even more side-effects depending on your luck that cycle? It sounds so absolutely daft to envy this process. But then, I guess I was pretty euphoric when I first realized that I was experiencing the full cycle, so who am I to judge?
(Here's a tip: the euphoria wears off pretty fast when you realize you have to experience this for the rest of your life up 'til you hit menopause.)"
"But I can also tell you that most cis women are likely silently jealous of trans women for not having to go through the full period cycle!"
"Just because I'm intersex doesn't mean I'm trans. I mean... I am trans. But not because I'm intersex!"
"I did notice that it seems like there's far fewer older transmasc individuals. More likely it's just that most of the older transmascs transitioned very young and don't really need support. They've been living effortlessly as guys for most of their lives."
"Really the term "gay" is genderless; it was literally borrowed from an old term for "happy"! Tangent to that: why is there no gendered term for a gay man? That always struck me as a strange omission."
"If all else fails, the nerve responsible for pleasure signals runs down your left side (right side of you're left-handed). It tends to be easiest to simulate at the base of the neck, where it meets the shoulder. Disclaimer: if you damage this nerve, it may never function properly again! That can mean no pleasure ever, or endless pleasure signals. Neither is at all desirable!"
"I might have that well trumped... If I'm right about why I have ovotesticular syndrome, that would make me one of fewer than 100 confirmed cases of that type in all human history. (Which is not to say it's actually that rare, just that genetic chimerism is very hard to spot sometimes!)"
"(This just gives me more fuel for my theory that I am a genetic chimera, of course... Apparently I'm currently replacing the cells that produce the darker hair with ones that produce the lighter hair!)"
"As someone who has rare insight into both systems (I have ovotesticular syndrome, meaning I have both male and female genitalia), I can assure you that you are not missing out on anything if you identify as female. Male orgasms feel entirely different from female ones."
"I have never felt comfortable in male spaces and have always been drawn inexorably to female ones. I cannot and never have been able to relate to males but have always been able to relate to females. It's really not complicated."
Sounds kinda problematic to me! Are those not men forced to hide who they really are in their conservative society? Check your bigot, privilege.
He just straight up says "intersex erasure is even worse!"
This shit sounds exhausting.
They just don't get it!
