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Yucca's dropped her pics!
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And yes these are recent images. She took most of those pics yesterday and today. What a fucking nightmare.Hi all, me again. I hope y'all don't mind me posting so much but it keeps me sane, and I hope maybe I can help someone with my experiences.
So my hematoma is doing a LOT better, I have little to no pain and when I do have pain it's maybe a 2/10. I decided to include some healing pictures so that people can see what it looks like and not freak out if it happens to them. I didn't see a lot of examples of something that looked like this so I wanted to share it in case it helps someone in the future. Right now it's a very open wound. There's like a 1" by .5" hole in the hematoma. That's distressing but it's actually a good thing, it means it's draining and that I'm not in pain.
On the other hand, unfortunately I started noticing some discoloration last Friday which spread. I had a little bit of a fever over the weekend as well, although it never got higher than 101. It looks like I have a bit of an infection and maybe some necrosis. Right now I'm on antibiotics and I'm using silvadene on it and my team seems to think that it's not something I have to be uber concerned about. They want to take action, but it doesn't seem like I'm in any danger of my dick falling off or anything. They told me to scrub it really well in the shower and as you can see it definitely helped. I feel like it already looks a little better and that was before I put any silvadene on it.
I'm going home Thursday. I'm a little nervous to go home, but I'm only 3 hours away so if something happens I can get back to the hospital. I'm getting sick of being in the city and dealing with all of this. I'm exhausted and I'm kind of tired of being an open wound. I feel like I have a team of people who know what they're doing, but I also feel like some people I've been working with don't really humanize me enough. I'm tired of being touched all the time and having photos taken of me, and people are not always clear when they communicate what's happening to me. I also had a little fainting episode this morning at OT so today was just a difficult day in general.
Thank you all for your support and if you have any questions feel free to ask.
I've seen some horrible shit in my time but this I wish I could unsee. I even feel sorry for the pixels in my screen for having to display that.