Son. You've admitted you've never had sex and that no one has ever even showed sexual interest in you other than this boyfriend you've got now. In the name of God, it is the year 2023 and even the socially conservative have abandoned the idea that you must lifepartner the first cunt who asks. No one, not you or anyone, is that desperate, alright?
You want to believe you've had female socialisation and 'understand being a woman', so let me talk to you, the way a grown woman talks to a young daft girl for a moment. Pro tip: if he won't fuck you, he doesn't love you. No exceptions. No man in the history of the world ever has refused to fuck someone he loves.
If he won't fuck you now, whole and complete, he will never fuck you mutilated, pustulent and bleeding. I know you need, need to believe that you will have the sarlacc pit that's Not Like The Other Ones and is magically a Real and True 'Gina, but you'll have the same unhealing wound as everyone else. It will hurt desperately every time you dilate, let alone try to let a chaser force a cock into it. It will never get wet. If you're lucky, it will have no sensation; if you're unlucky, you will lie there terrified that the chaser will rip it open or pull it straight out whilst brutalising it.
And your boyfriend will never, never touch it. Accept that now and not once it's done, because it will be much harder to accept the real dysphoria that will come later when you realise the chop-chop has made you objectively too disgusting and damaged to love.
Look, take the equipment for a test run before you decide to trade it in. Just use it. You're a teenager; it's really not difficult to find someone willing to fuck you. But know what it is that you're giving up before you have it severed and mutilated.