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I was so scared of saying I am a woman and then instantly hearing no you're not
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because in my head I fought with that every day
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button down below to become a member anyway hello Chris hello Anthony you
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have been a part of Mr BEAST's video since the Inception pretty much basically I was there when he created
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the channel um I was his first subscriber were you also his bestie bestie yeah we grew up
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uh we sat at the same lunch table we were kind of the only kids who talked about like YouTube and video games so a
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bunch of nerds yeah yeah you know the Nerds but so we would hang out afterwards film videos together and we
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just fell in love with doing it yeah yeah I feel like the earliest videos you guys made really were capturing that that friendship yeah it was just us just
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doing whatever we could think of it because there was no rules back then there was no like algorithm or anything
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it was just whatever you could film put it on YouTube and the videos have blown up to the point where now they are
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consistently getting over 100 million views each and which is just I can't even fathom
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what like how many people that looks I can't either and you are in almost every video yeah you kind of became Chris the
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guy from Mr Beast exactly it was actually for the longest time my Twitter bio was the guy in Mr Beast videos and
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then about a year and a half ago it turned into sometimes I'm a Mr Beast video oh so the guy part was removed it
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was yeah that was removed a long time ago like was that anticipating yeah that
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was going to detach from that identity yeah so for me in my head I was like oh people are gonna instantly start asking
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questions if I did that because like when you're trans you think everybody knows you're trans yeah it's like when
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you're high yeah it's exactly like it but so I took it out and I was like oh
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no people are gonna know people are gonna nobody ever said anything so I was like that was my first step and I was like okay okay all right let's keep
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going yeah I feel like about how many maybe six months to a year ago I started to see a change in your appearance yes
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you started to look a little bit less masculine a little bit less beardy yeah
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at the exact same time you look like you were glowing like you were more excited like your posture was better like you
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were like excited about life yeah it was weird I didn't realize how unhappy you
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looked beforehand yeah looking up old pictures of you I searched old pictures of you and and you could see a dramatic
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shoe but it wasn't a real smile it was it was a and it was a performance smile
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I mean because like was I sad every single day during those times no but
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like in the back of my head it was something I constantly felt like I wasn't being true to myself I wasn't
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being true to the people who were fans of me because I was hiding my true self
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from them and the thing that was really keeping me for so long away from like who I truly am is how people would react
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I was so scared of like I'm from a small town in a conservative area so when I
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was younger I was like this is my this little bubble is my entire world how will they react then I got a little
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older guy I was like maybe maybe one day and then I got famous and my bubble went
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from this small little town to hundreds of millions of people you've had a lot
KRIS'S GENDER
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of people speculating on your gender yeah you know just you growing out your hair you I mean today you you showed up
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fully I did presenting I did as a woman I did because I am a woman oh
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[Music] you've never said that before I've never said that publicly enough but I I've
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been fully like confident in that decision for over a year now um I kind of my idea was to kind of play
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catch up with the internet in the way that I discover myself like you were
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talking about um you know six seven eight months ago my hair started growing out all those
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kind of things I wasn't quite sure exactly who I was yet but I knew I was
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not cisgender um so I needed the freedom to be able to express myself and be able to figure out
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who I was and so for a while I was trying gender fluid I was like what what is making me feel like I'm by gender
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what is tying me to this you know masculinity and really it was after a
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lot of talking with the therapist and a lot of like self uh reflection I
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realized it was really just the societal pressure of your Christmas Mr Beast
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you're the guy that starts the fires you're the guy that builds the stuff you know and like my whole life I've enjoyed
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doing those things but I've never really felt like the guy yeah and that becomes
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so intrinsically connected with who you are that it felt like it was shattering
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everything exactly and I was scared that people would think that I'm magically
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gonna become a different person but for me I I have no like I'm very proud of who I was and how I've gotten here it
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took me a long time to get here yeah but I'm finally here so I I'm not ashamed of
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all of that or anything I'm actually really proud of it there's been a huge
THE PUBLIC'S REACTION
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huge reaction to this like people are like their minds are blown as something like this happens I knew there was going
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to be a big reaction but I thought it would stay like you know like in that YouTube you know everything it's like
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tabloid culture now it's like every single thing has some kind of headline about you and what it means scenes and
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the effects on Mr Beast and all these different things it was crazy I was trying to take a break I was like okay I
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it's not affecting me too bad but I don't need to consume all this media and attention of myself I'll delete all my
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social media and then I get on Google and I go to open a new tab and Google will recommend me articles about myself
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but you love Mr Beast and Chris Tyson and here's this thing about people hating you please stop I don't want to
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know about it yeah so we're just constantly being fed uh articles with headlines that are just blatantly wrong
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right their lives and not only it's like it wasn't all hate and it wasn't all support it was it was from both sides
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but there was also like a lot of people just uh you know they don't really know how to talk about trans people so
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instantly they're like Chris Tyson comes out as a trans woman good for them even though you just said HRT yeah I'm like
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no I didn't no I didn't yeah yeah until today yeah until today with Anthony I
COMING OUT
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mean I feel like we should take a moment on that like how does that feel publicly saying in front of cameras
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that you are a woman I for the longest time to even say it to some of the
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closest friends it would make me like my hands shake to say I would get so nervous but now I can say I'm a woman
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I'm happy to say I'm a woman it's something that's honestly so freeing and I think that is part of what the HRT did
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for me was being able to accept myself and being able to look in the mirror and say yes you are a woman every single
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person has something about themselves that they kind of want to be more of yeah you know and
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then they're insecure about yeah even if it is just lacking confidence even if it's just I want to be a little bit more
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confident in myself yeah here you are in front of hundreds of millions of people
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who have been criticizing you for every single reason in the book and you're
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focusing on the way that you feel when you are most true to yourself yeah I mean if you're if you're away to
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confidence is to wear a dress wear a dress if your weight of confidence is to get so swole you look like a bodybuilder
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do that is that you're talking about Jimmy yeah Jimmy is getting really small isn't it he's pumping yeah you see his
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Twitter he is Jack he is Jack you're getting there man out of nowhere until I get my hands on him oh and not Chris
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affect him watch out the Chris effect isn't that why all that people say there's the Chris effect the Carl effect
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like one person can can change or like infect the other brains and the other
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friends I mean I've always joked that there and I hate that people will clip
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it but there is a smidgen of truth to it because Carl came down to North Carolina's small town and he had bright
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pink hair yeah and I was I was like how do you have the confidence to like
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go to the grocery store and not feel like every single person is staring at
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you and he's like I don't care and I was like what what you could not care what others think you can just not care right
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I didn't get the update you know there is a little bit of Truth to the idea that a
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friend can come into a circle and they can show you what confidence looks like yeah they can show you what true confidence is because for a while like I
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was like yeah I guess I'm confident but it was all fake it wasn't all real and then I saw somebody come in and be
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themselves and I was like I want that I want to be myself and even though like I
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saw people make fun of Carl because of his hair he would just shrug it off that was like I I can do that maybe maybe
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give it a couple years you hear that Carl you inspired someone you did it you mentioned taking hormones and you
HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY
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mentioned that it saved your life yes for so long every day I I would go to
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bed and I would have dreams vivid dreams I was a woman like my whole life and I
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would wake up in the morning and it was just like getting ripped out of a reality that I didn't want to be taken
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out of so it was like the dream was a reality yeah there was times where I would just lay in bed all day and just
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sleep because it was more fun to do that or more enjoyable to me to do that because the real world I didn't feel
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connected to it I've really never felt connected to my body until I started
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taking HRT and like I was amazed like after two three weeks I just started
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having a mental Clarity that it felt like a fog that had been around me just
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went away and I could see things clearly I could feel confident in who I was I
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knew who I was finally surely truly without a shadow of a doubt and that is
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what really saved my life because for the longest time you know like in 2017
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2018 I started gaining weight I got really depressed because I pretty much
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thought that there was no way I was going to be able to transition ever and I was just going to have to keep
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marching forward in a life I didn't want to live and I was just gonna have to keep doing that until I couldn't do it
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anymore what was the internal battle like the thing I really felt hatred towards was myself for not understanding
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myself also internalized transphobia just made me feel you know there's not a
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lot of trans people in in general but there's also not a lot of trans people
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in my area so the only exposure I had to trans people and trans issues were from
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you know the other end of the spectrum and so I started to hate myself I was like oh I'm I'm pretending I'm lying I I
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like and it took me so many years of I I ran away I pretended it didn't exist
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multiple times I threw away every single pair of clothes I ever owned I went to conversion therapy oh yeah like you
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really did not want to be what you felt at your core was your true self I thought it was a curse for all of my
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life and it wasn't until I started taking HRT that I was like this is
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this is not a curse it's a blessing like I I can finally be myself or did you
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have a moment when you first realized that the way that you identify with your gender was different than what was expected of you I was six years old my
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sisters went to Camp my parents were in the living room I told my parents that I was going to build a popsicle stick
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airplane in my room and then I went to my sister's room and went in their closet and grabbed as much stuff as I
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can and locked my door and I turned on Arthur and it was an episode where there
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was ballerinas and I just pretended to be a ballerina and danced around my room and from that moment on I was like I
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don't know what this is but I know I need to hide it because I don't think the people I I don't remember exactly
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what made me hide it at such a young age but I think it was just like you know growing up in that area going to you
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know a very like um very very religious well all churches are religious but this
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one was religious XXL yeah yeah it was the
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premium and because like the biggest thing is for me I was such a forward-facing person that any kind of
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changes were instantly going to drum up questions and so like for me that's why I was so glad that even though I had
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during this time when I put out that I was on HRT I was very sure I was a trans
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woman I was not ready to come publicly out yet so I was very happy that like
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people were encompassing me into the gender uh into gender fluid because that
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is what I had identified as a while and and that gave me that ability to dress more feminine and people not be like are
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you a girl or what's your gender what's your gender yeah I mean do you feel like old Chris is dead dead
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dead buried Hatchet all of it all of it gone I mean you still have uh the
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reminders through the videos that will be permanently online for the rest of Eternity that's what I say to people who
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were like but I missed the old Chris and I looked up to you hey go watch the
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videos they'll be there forever was it more difficult for you to come out to yourself or to others myself
ACCEPTING MYSELF
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far more once I came out to myself it was I came out to myself with my
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therapist and and it took like it took like three therapy sessions
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where I was like I've known this for a long time I I'm I'm pretty sure and then
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I was you know I I I know like and then I was like I am a woman and it was it
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was hard for me to say that because I was so scared of saying I am a woman and
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then instantly hearing no you're not because in my head I fought with that
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every day that's the conversation you were having with yourself there was a voice in the back of my head that just
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hated me everything I did hated me and it wasn't until like I started accepting
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myself and being kind to others and like just listening to what my body wanted
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like that's when that voice started going away started taking HRT haven't heard from that voice in a very long
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time where do you think that part of you is gone I think it's I hope it's locked away do you think it's disappeared oh
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entirely yeah that little piece of it you must feel like you have so much more
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like access to the to your whole self without that part of you shutting you
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down constantly I literally had people within the first like couple of months
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of like me coming out to like private like friends and like my therapist
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starting HRT they were like you've just been talking so much more and you just
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seem so much more present in the conversation and I was noticing that myself too because like I would get done
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with conversations and be like why is my jaw hurt so bad oh I was talking and smiling I was talking and smiling I
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haven't done that in a while I mean even now I feel like people who have watched you for a long time will see that change
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in you wanting to express your thoughts wanting to express your emotions it
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doesn't matter now if I want to express them or not they just freely come out of me because I don't suppress them anymore
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and that is what's truly the best part of it is that I can just like what comes out of my mouth is me now and it's
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nobody else influencing me it's nobody telling me I have to be this person it's me coming out do you remember the first
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time that you looked at yourself and you were like that is me I'm not ashamed of that anymore I did I was actually heading to the studio to go film and I
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was driving my car and I had something in my eye and I pulled down my mirror and I just looked at myself and for the
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first time it like hit me that I was like I'm looking like myself and I just started crying while driving and I had
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to pull over yeah you're like this this looks like how I I feel how I see myself and my dreams yeah and I've had so many
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moments leading up to them like even when I went dress shopping today I accidentally cried a little bit because I put on this dress and I was like oh I
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gotta love this I feel like you know whether anyone watching is trans or not like there's there's it's such a
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relatable feeling to want to be a truer version of yourself and to to run away from that for a certain amount of time
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for any reason yeah how does it feel you know like this you're constantly finding all these
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things that make you feel more and more true to yourself I've always been myself I'm now taking ver uh I'm now taking
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steps to make sure I'm the like best and happiest version because there was a
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point in my life where and a lot of people thought that was the best version of me because that's the only thing they
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had ever seen Chris from Mr Beast but I was very unhappy and I was tired and I was miserable and now I'm like just I
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wake up every day and I'm like what are we doing today I wake up at 7 30. I used to wake up at 11 30 every single day you
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wake up with excitement I wake up it was excitement I'm like what are we doing today what's going on like you get to live life yeah I I another day of being
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trans that for me it's like the best thing why do you think the the news of
WHY IT'S BIG NEWS
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you taking HRT and you looking more feminine why do you think it went so
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viral because it's a really hot button issue right now there's a lot of people putting in their two cents about it and
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then I think what really like made a lot of people focus on it was that I'm just
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like I'm just living my life I'm not saying anything or doing anything I'm
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just hey I'm on HRT I'm a lot happier now and um I think that in my opinion A
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lot of people were like no we can't have somebody this successful in this like happy being on HRT it's bad Optics so I
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mean if that's the reason maybe it was just general transphobia maybe they just
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don't like me oh maybe they're not Chris fans they might they might be big Nolan fans so you're not taking it too
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personally though no I I know that at the end of the day like even the people that are riding these like crazy
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articles about me are probably just you know normal people that are going home to see their wife and kids or whatever
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they're doing their jobs I'm doing my job but that's why I wanted to come to
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your show to be able to get a hold of my narrative again right because you you lost control of the narrative control
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every like ever everyone had an opinion that had nothing to do with what your actual thoughts are I know apparently I
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sued people I did it
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and they were like Chris is suing me and then I quote tweeted it and I was like you better be ready this is my lawyer
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and it was a picture of Jimmy with like sideways sunglasses and people took that as serious There's real life
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consequences to false things being made up about you yeah then you have people making YouTube videos saying that your
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decision to be yourself and to openly be yourself is destroying Mr Beast and it's
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gonna mess up the business and you should have thought about that I I should have thought about that that's all how dare you ruin the business by
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being your true self how dare you exist it was kind of weird to see people be like oh now Jimmy's put in between a
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rock and a hard place where he obviously doesn't want to support Chris but the left would be so mad if he didn't and
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I'm like all these speculation all these crazy things I told Jimmy like seven years ago I walked out of my bedroom it
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was late I walked out and it was kind of one of those and then he was like we don't have to
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talk about it if you don't want to wait what was it that that gave it away fully dressed up oh so you're dressing up as a
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woman long before yeah we lived oh I've been I've been dressing up as a woman since I was like six years old
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I guess dressing up as a girl now I messed up as a woman yes but you walked out Jimmy sees you yes dressed up as a
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woman yes and he goes we can talk about this if you want and I was like no
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um did you turn around and go into your room and we didn't talk about it Jimmy
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is really good about if you don't want him to bring something up he'll never mention it ever again but um it was
TELLING MY FRIENDS
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about three years ago we were all hanging out and we were having a good time
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um you know on the channel we like to say we're having some apple juice and uh just drinking some good stuff drinking some apple juice and there was one
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moment I was sitting around all the guys and I had I had just been really like
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thinking all that day about like my gender and everything and combined with
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the Apple Juice I just blurted out to them I don't want to be a man anymore just out of nowhere out of nowhere in
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front of all of them and then started like crying and the the support I got from them in that moment was like that's
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when I knew I was like okay like I have my friends back everybody else like that's all you have the support from
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your core group yeah they're really like my family do you remember just like what it felt like to have that out there to
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feel like I'm lying to like my best friends we know everything about each other like and I'm like this is a huge
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part of me and I want to tell them but like it I'm even so scared to tell them
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like even when I used to try to form the words I would just lock up and couldn't
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talk about it because I was so terrified to like out myself yeah because there's so many
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so many things that you consider to be negative that would come out of that yeah and now I realized that was all an
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internalized transphobia my friends would have accepted me I probably could have gotten through the process a little
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faster yeah but everybody grows at their own pace and becomes themselves when they do I mean
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you see all these comments on the internet and no matter how many positive
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ones that are there the positive ones don't exist but then the negative ones I
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think it's because there's a little bit of fear attached to the implications or what else they might be thinking like
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those things sit with you and you accidentally find thousands or in your
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case because you have hundreds of millions of people watching and judging and commenting on every single thing that you do you're likely to see tens of
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thousands of comments yeah and sometimes the algorithm can just be a butt and
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just send you all the hates and one one Fell Swoop but also it's like you have
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to realize that when people are sending those messages I mean I I was a crappy
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kid on the internet I used to be a mean kid people say those things because they're also struggling with things I
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would my whole life I was struggling with my identity who I was I hated myself like
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so every time I see one of those like hate comments or like people saying mean things in my DMs I'm like I know that's
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probably somebody who's going through something and I just it doesn't really bother me I used to see people living
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the life I wanted to live and I would get jealous and angry at them and
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because and like they get to live this life and they get to be celebrated and
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you know like obviously you don't see the hate they get but it's like they're not getting any hate and all this kind
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of stuff and and you get into that mindset but then you realize oh that's just me just like pointing all that back
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at myself and using somebody else as a Target do you feel like after coming out and feeling like you can actually be
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your truest identity in addition to not having to hide something about yourself do you feel like you're more
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aware and present like do you feel like instead of living like through with tunnel vision because you're blocking out all of this that's in your
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brain do you feel like now you have access to more of you I do I post way too much on the internet because I'm
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just so excited to authentically be myself and be like this is me hey
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everybody the person you knew for a long time that was like a facade a fake version of me this is the real me I'm
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still the same person I just look a little different I mean yeah you're carrying you're caring more about things it seems you're caring about your
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fashion your now makeup your hair you know you're you're caring about your
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health it seems like you just seem healthier all around yeah I'm drinking a lot more water too oh okay that'll do it
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that's that's everything that's the secret to life the secret to life is water yeah oh and then I will poop more
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than once every six days oh you should definitely be doing that oh yeah okay good to know so here's a
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CHANGING MY NAME
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name from Chris CH the Chris it's okay with a K so just to feel a little bit
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more feminine about it I actually have always liked how it looked with a K it is cooler I used to I had I apparently I
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didn't know this and I'm probably going to uh crack a bunch of eggs in the audience oh but
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um if you have an online Persona where you present as a different name and present as a female that's just being
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trans online you've been out as trans online like wait in what way like in the
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same way of like you've kind of came out you haven't come out officially but you came out in a space to where it was safe
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people don't know who you actually are so you're like anonymously you're yeah you're kind of anonymous anonymously
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coming out as trans so is the Chris with a K an online only name do you have a
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separate name that you're using that is more feminine in your private life I have a name that is my official name I'm
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not like Sheltering it's like not private locked away but you're not making a huge announcement a huge
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announcement about it it's just for like friends and families and and stuff like that but Chris k-r-i-s is what you can
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call me on the internet are you gonna get angry when people use CH I don't really care I mean you can it'll be
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wrong right are you gonna feel like people are dead naming you I mean like
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in a in a way they're going to like try to use it to dead name me but number one I can't be audibly dead named so that's
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pretty true it's pretty cool it's a pretty pretty big clutch uh number two I mean like I said I I have no shame with
29:00
like who I was I I think it's so cool and interesting that it's like I was Chris with a CH and then I put that to
29:08
rest and now I can finally be Chris with a kid you have a permanent Archive of who you were in your transitional period
29:15
and who you are now literally it's kind of like the Mr Beast channel was accidentally like my trans timeline it
29:21
was a documentary so you've changed your the way you
29:28
present you've changed the name and the things that you prefer people to call you've changed your pronouns yeah
29:35
have you changed your voice because I know that that's something that trans people also work towards I am working on
CHANGING MY VOICE
29:40
it um So currently I'm working with the Seattle voice Labs um it's a Discord
29:46
server where they offer free lessons they offer paid lessons but Claire she
29:51
is incredible she's been teaching me and she really pushed me to do a voice like
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today yeah she wanted you to do it she thinks I'm ready to do like do a do a
30:02
sentence to give it a little sneak peek I could feel like myself by like presenting the way I wanted to grow my
30:09
hair out but I would look back when I got because I'm a YouTuber I get
30:15
recorded a lot yeah I would look back and I would be like that's me and in my voice I would open my mouth and I'd be
30:20
like that's not me do you want to say a sentence or do you want to talk us through the different types of things
30:27
that go into the voice I'm gonna say a sentence but I'll kind of also show you
30:33
like the process I have to do yeah I think this will be the first time many people watching this will have ever seen
30:39
the thought process behind so I'm in a newer stage I've only been going for a
30:44
little bit so it's easier for me to find that space that feminine Voice by doing
30:50
a warm-up it sounds goofy uh whenever I do it at home I make sure all my doors
30:55
are locked so now you're gonna do it on your camera do it on camera now there's millions of people watching it yeah my
31:02
voice my voice instructor encouraged me it won't sound perfect
31:07
um it probably will get picked on a little bit but that's kind of what I like doing is showing people the like
31:13
real the rawness of it you ready for the voice I'm ready if you are oh gosh we
31:19
might have to do a couple of things that's fine that's fine all right yeah all right here you guys sure
31:28
hey Anthony congratulations on buying Smosh
31:34
the most interesting part about seeing that is it felt like there was like a
31:42
Sparkle in your eye something about it was like you I could see this feeling of you feeling like yourself yeah and and I
31:48
really like showing the process of like how I get to that because like I think
31:54
for a lot of people they they don't want people to you know hear that process and that's completely understandable it's a
32:01
very vulnerable space yeah it takes a lot of work to even like get to yourself to the point where you can do that
32:07
sometimes without feeling like oh my God like uh I don't want anybody to hear me I don't it'll never sound right but I
32:15
want people to hear that because it's like that shows you that it's like people say oh you're faking your voice
32:21
no I just slid my voice into the right place basically it's like I'm as I get
32:27
better with it I won't have to basically push my voice into that place I want it to be you're training to get to the
32:34
point where it feels natural it's a muscle and like every muscle the more you work it the more you train it it's
32:40
gonna break down build back up get stronger and it's going to become muscle memory to do this thing right what are
WHAT'S NEXT
32:46
you looking forward to most now that you have fully come out as your truest
32:52
identity you feel confident in yourself what's next and what are you looking forward to it really feels like for the
33:00
first time like I can do anything now I can be who I
33:05
want to be like I can create a channel if I want to I can write a book if I want to yes I can
33:12
maybe produce a film if I want to are these are these hints I don't know maybe no but maybe in the future but you
33:20
really do have endless possibilities exactly because I'm finally able to be myself and that spills out into other
33:26
areas in my life so it's not that I'm just authentically trans now I'm authentically Chris in every single way
33:33
I'm able to articulate my feelings I'm able to talk about what I want so I feel
33:39
like the future is kind of whatever I want it to be right now you feel more creatively driven now I do I'm really excited I
33:47
I've never felt the motivation to get in front of cameras like I do now congratulations on everything and I
33:54
think that your story is incredibly inspiring and I think you're going to change a lot of people's lives just just
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by authentically being yourself in the face of hundreds of millions of opinions and and
34:06
thoughts yeah well thank you Anthony and thank you for using your channel to give queer and trans people a safe place to
34:13
talk about us and well who we are and just let us be ourselves
BLOOPER
34:20
there's a lot of traditionally more feminine ways to speak people used to tell me I did that a lot and I got
34:26
self-conscious about it and I stopped stop being yourself stop stop it talk
34:31
like more like men are men talk yes straight men talk straight men talk slow
34:37
men talk angry or men talk okay yeah that was even too funny yeah that was a
34:43
little bit too feminine yeah we were showing too much emotion damn it get out the only emotion you're allowed to show
34:48
is anger anger that's the only emotion and fear and fear no real men don't get
34:54
that's good yeah Real Men Real Men punch wall and breakfast
I was so scared of saying I am a woman and then instantly hearing no you're not
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because in my head I fought with that every day
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have been a part of Mr BEAST's video since the Inception pretty much basically I was there when he created
0:36
the channel um I was his first subscriber were you also his bestie bestie yeah we grew up
0:42
uh we sat at the same lunch table we were kind of the only kids who talked about like YouTube and video games so a
0:48
bunch of nerds yeah yeah you know the Nerds but so we would hang out afterwards film videos together and we
0:56
just fell in love with doing it yeah yeah I feel like the earliest videos you guys made really were capturing that that friendship yeah it was just us just
1:04
doing whatever we could think of it because there was no rules back then there was no like algorithm or anything
1:10
it was just whatever you could film put it on YouTube and the videos have blown up to the point where now they are
1:15
consistently getting over 100 million views each and which is just I can't even fathom
1:22
what like how many people that looks I can't either and you are in almost every video yeah you kind of became Chris the
1:30
guy from Mr Beast exactly it was actually for the longest time my Twitter bio was the guy in Mr Beast videos and
1:38
then about a year and a half ago it turned into sometimes I'm a Mr Beast video oh so the guy part was removed it
1:45
was yeah that was removed a long time ago like was that anticipating yeah that
1:50
was going to detach from that identity yeah so for me in my head I was like oh people are gonna instantly start asking
1:55
questions if I did that because like when you're trans you think everybody knows you're trans yeah it's like when
2:01
you're high yeah it's exactly like it but so I took it out and I was like oh
2:06
no people are gonna know people are gonna nobody ever said anything so I was like that was my first step and I was like okay okay all right let's keep
2:12
going yeah I feel like about how many maybe six months to a year ago I started to see a change in your appearance yes
2:20
you started to look a little bit less masculine a little bit less beardy yeah
2:26
at the exact same time you look like you were glowing like you were more excited like your posture was better like you
2:32
were like excited about life yeah it was weird I didn't realize how unhappy you
2:38
looked beforehand yeah looking up old pictures of you I searched old pictures of you and and you could see a dramatic
2:45
shoe but it wasn't a real smile it was it was a and it was a performance smile
2:50
I mean because like was I sad every single day during those times no but
2:55
like in the back of my head it was something I constantly felt like I wasn't being true to myself I wasn't
3:01
being true to the people who were fans of me because I was hiding my true self
3:06
from them and the thing that was really keeping me for so long away from like who I truly am is how people would react
3:13
I was so scared of like I'm from a small town in a conservative area so when I
3:19
was younger I was like this is my this little bubble is my entire world how will they react then I got a little
3:25
older guy I was like maybe maybe one day and then I got famous and my bubble went
3:30
from this small little town to hundreds of millions of people you've had a lot
KRIS'S GENDER
3:35
of people speculating on your gender yeah you know just you growing out your hair you I mean today you you showed up
3:42
fully I did presenting I did as a woman I did because I am a woman oh
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[Music] you've never said that before I've never said that publicly enough but I I've
3:54
been fully like confident in that decision for over a year now um I kind of my idea was to kind of play
4:02
catch up with the internet in the way that I discover myself like you were
4:07
talking about um you know six seven eight months ago my hair started growing out all those
4:13
kind of things I wasn't quite sure exactly who I was yet but I knew I was
4:18
not cisgender um so I needed the freedom to be able to express myself and be able to figure out
4:24
who I was and so for a while I was trying gender fluid I was like what what is making me feel like I'm by gender
4:32
what is tying me to this you know masculinity and really it was after a
4:38
lot of talking with the therapist and a lot of like self uh reflection I
4:44
realized it was really just the societal pressure of your Christmas Mr Beast
4:49
you're the guy that starts the fires you're the guy that builds the stuff you know and like my whole life I've enjoyed
4:56
doing those things but I've never really felt like the guy yeah and that becomes
5:01
so intrinsically connected with who you are that it felt like it was shattering
5:06
everything exactly and I was scared that people would think that I'm magically
5:12
gonna become a different person but for me I I have no like I'm very proud of who I was and how I've gotten here it
5:20
took me a long time to get here yeah but I'm finally here so I I'm not ashamed of
5:26
all of that or anything I'm actually really proud of it there's been a huge
THE PUBLIC'S REACTION
5:31
huge reaction to this like people are like their minds are blown as something like this happens I knew there was going
5:36
to be a big reaction but I thought it would stay like you know like in that YouTube you know everything it's like
5:42
tabloid culture now it's like every single thing has some kind of headline about you and what it means scenes and
5:49
the effects on Mr Beast and all these different things it was crazy I was trying to take a break I was like okay I
5:54
it's not affecting me too bad but I don't need to consume all this media and attention of myself I'll delete all my
6:01
social media and then I get on Google and I go to open a new tab and Google will recommend me articles about myself
6:07
but you love Mr Beast and Chris Tyson and here's this thing about people hating you please stop I don't want to
6:13
know about it yeah so we're just constantly being fed uh articles with headlines that are just blatantly wrong
6:21
right their lives and not only it's like it wasn't all hate and it wasn't all support it was it was from both sides
6:27
but there was also like a lot of people just uh you know they don't really know how to talk about trans people so
6:34
instantly they're like Chris Tyson comes out as a trans woman good for them even though you just said HRT yeah I'm like
6:40
no I didn't no I didn't yeah yeah until today yeah until today with Anthony I
COMING OUT
6:46
mean I feel like we should take a moment on that like how does that feel publicly saying in front of cameras
6:53
that you are a woman I for the longest time to even say it to some of the
6:59
closest friends it would make me like my hands shake to say I would get so nervous but now I can say I'm a woman
7:06
I'm happy to say I'm a woman it's something that's honestly so freeing and I think that is part of what the HRT did
7:13
for me was being able to accept myself and being able to look in the mirror and say yes you are a woman every single
7:20
person has something about themselves that they kind of want to be more of yeah you know and
7:26
then they're insecure about yeah even if it is just lacking confidence even if it's just I want to be a little bit more
7:31
confident in myself yeah here you are in front of hundreds of millions of people
7:37
who have been criticizing you for every single reason in the book and you're
7:42
focusing on the way that you feel when you are most true to yourself yeah I mean if you're if you're away to
7:48
confidence is to wear a dress wear a dress if your weight of confidence is to get so swole you look like a bodybuilder
7:54
do that is that you're talking about Jimmy yeah Jimmy is getting really small isn't it he's pumping yeah you see his
8:00
Twitter he is Jack he is Jack you're getting there man out of nowhere until I get my hands on him oh and not Chris
8:05
affect him watch out the Chris effect isn't that why all that people say there's the Chris effect the Carl effect
8:11
like one person can can change or like infect the other brains and the other
8:17
friends I mean I've always joked that there and I hate that people will clip
8:22
it but there is a smidgen of truth to it because Carl came down to North Carolina's small town and he had bright
8:28
pink hair yeah and I was I was like how do you have the confidence to like
8:34
go to the grocery store and not feel like every single person is staring at
8:39
you and he's like I don't care and I was like what what you could not care what others think you can just not care right
8:46
I didn't get the update you know there is a little bit of Truth to the idea that a
8:51
friend can come into a circle and they can show you what confidence looks like yeah they can show you what true confidence is because for a while like I
8:58
was like yeah I guess I'm confident but it was all fake it wasn't all real and then I saw somebody come in and be
9:05
themselves and I was like I want that I want to be myself and even though like I
9:10
saw people make fun of Carl because of his hair he would just shrug it off that was like I I can do that maybe maybe
9:19
give it a couple years you hear that Carl you inspired someone you did it you mentioned taking hormones and you
HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY
9:25
mentioned that it saved your life yes for so long every day I I would go to
9:32
bed and I would have dreams vivid dreams I was a woman like my whole life and I
9:38
would wake up in the morning and it was just like getting ripped out of a reality that I didn't want to be taken
9:44
out of so it was like the dream was a reality yeah there was times where I would just lay in bed all day and just
9:49
sleep because it was more fun to do that or more enjoyable to me to do that because the real world I didn't feel
9:55
connected to it I've really never felt connected to my body until I started
10:01
taking HRT and like I was amazed like after two three weeks I just started
10:09
having a mental Clarity that it felt like a fog that had been around me just
10:15
went away and I could see things clearly I could feel confident in who I was I
10:21
knew who I was finally surely truly without a shadow of a doubt and that is
10:27
what really saved my life because for the longest time you know like in 2017
10:32
2018 I started gaining weight I got really depressed because I pretty much
10:38
thought that there was no way I was going to be able to transition ever and I was just going to have to keep
10:43
marching forward in a life I didn't want to live and I was just gonna have to keep doing that until I couldn't do it
10:50
anymore what was the internal battle like the thing I really felt hatred towards was myself for not understanding
10:58
myself also internalized transphobia just made me feel you know there's not a
11:05
lot of trans people in in general but there's also not a lot of trans people
11:10
in my area so the only exposure I had to trans people and trans issues were from
11:17
you know the other end of the spectrum and so I started to hate myself I was like oh I'm I'm pretending I'm lying I I
11:25
like and it took me so many years of I I ran away I pretended it didn't exist
11:31
multiple times I threw away every single pair of clothes I ever owned I went to conversion therapy oh yeah like you
11:39
really did not want to be what you felt at your core was your true self I thought it was a curse for all of my
11:46
life and it wasn't until I started taking HRT that I was like this is
11:51
this is not a curse it's a blessing like I I can finally be myself or did you
11:57
have a moment when you first realized that the way that you identify with your gender was different than what was expected of you I was six years old my
12:05
sisters went to Camp my parents were in the living room I told my parents that I was going to build a popsicle stick
12:11
airplane in my room and then I went to my sister's room and went in their closet and grabbed as much stuff as I
12:18
can and locked my door and I turned on Arthur and it was an episode where there
12:23
was ballerinas and I just pretended to be a ballerina and danced around my room and from that moment on I was like I
12:31
don't know what this is but I know I need to hide it because I don't think the people I I don't remember exactly
12:38
what made me hide it at such a young age but I think it was just like you know growing up in that area going to you
12:46
know a very like um very very religious well all churches are religious but this
12:51
one was religious XXL yeah yeah it was the
12:57
premium and because like the biggest thing is for me I was such a forward-facing person that any kind of
13:04
changes were instantly going to drum up questions and so like for me that's why I was so glad that even though I had
13:11
during this time when I put out that I was on HRT I was very sure I was a trans
13:16
woman I was not ready to come publicly out yet so I was very happy that like
13:23
people were encompassing me into the gender uh into gender fluid because that
13:29
is what I had identified as a while and and that gave me that ability to dress more feminine and people not be like are
13:36
you a girl or what's your gender what's your gender yeah I mean do you feel like old Chris is dead dead
13:41
dead buried Hatchet all of it all of it gone I mean you still have uh the
13:47
reminders through the videos that will be permanently online for the rest of Eternity that's what I say to people who
13:53
were like but I missed the old Chris and I looked up to you hey go watch the
13:58
videos they'll be there forever was it more difficult for you to come out to yourself or to others myself
ACCEPTING MYSELF
14:04
far more once I came out to myself it was I came out to myself with my
14:11
therapist and and it took like it took like three therapy sessions
14:16
where I was like I've known this for a long time I I'm I'm pretty sure and then
14:22
I was you know I I I know like and then I was like I am a woman and it was it
14:28
was hard for me to say that because I was so scared of saying I am a woman and
14:33
then instantly hearing no you're not because in my head I fought with that
14:39
every day that's the conversation you were having with yourself there was a voice in the back of my head that just
14:46
hated me everything I did hated me and it wasn't until like I started accepting
14:51
myself and being kind to others and like just listening to what my body wanted
14:58
like that's when that voice started going away started taking HRT haven't heard from that voice in a very long
15:03
time where do you think that part of you is gone I think it's I hope it's locked away do you think it's disappeared oh
15:09
entirely yeah that little piece of it you must feel like you have so much more
15:16
like access to the to your whole self without that part of you shutting you
15:21
down constantly I literally had people within the first like couple of months
15:27
of like me coming out to like private like friends and like my therapist
15:32
starting HRT they were like you've just been talking so much more and you just
15:37
seem so much more present in the conversation and I was noticing that myself too because like I would get done
15:44
with conversations and be like why is my jaw hurt so bad oh I was talking and smiling I was talking and smiling I
15:50
haven't done that in a while I mean even now I feel like people who have watched you for a long time will see that change
15:56
in you wanting to express your thoughts wanting to express your emotions it
16:01
doesn't matter now if I want to express them or not they just freely come out of me because I don't suppress them anymore
16:08
and that is what's truly the best part of it is that I can just like what comes out of my mouth is me now and it's
16:15
nobody else influencing me it's nobody telling me I have to be this person it's me coming out do you remember the first
16:22
time that you looked at yourself and you were like that is me I'm not ashamed of that anymore I did I was actually heading to the studio to go film and I
16:31
was driving my car and I had something in my eye and I pulled down my mirror and I just looked at myself and for the
16:37
first time it like hit me that I was like I'm looking like myself and I just started crying while driving and I had
16:44
to pull over yeah you're like this this looks like how I I feel how I see myself and my dreams yeah and I've had so many
16:51
moments leading up to them like even when I went dress shopping today I accidentally cried a little bit because I put on this dress and I was like oh I
16:57
gotta love this I feel like you know whether anyone watching is trans or not like there's there's it's such a
17:02
relatable feeling to want to be a truer version of yourself and to to run away from that for a certain amount of time
17:09
for any reason yeah how does it feel you know like this you're constantly finding all these
17:15
things that make you feel more and more true to yourself I've always been myself I'm now taking ver uh I'm now taking
17:22
steps to make sure I'm the like best and happiest version because there was a
17:27
point in my life where and a lot of people thought that was the best version of me because that's the only thing they
17:33
had ever seen Chris from Mr Beast but I was very unhappy and I was tired and I was miserable and now I'm like just I
17:41
wake up every day and I'm like what are we doing today I wake up at 7 30. I used to wake up at 11 30 every single day you
17:48
wake up with excitement I wake up it was excitement I'm like what are we doing today what's going on like you get to live life yeah I I another day of being
17:55
trans that for me it's like the best thing why do you think the the news of
WHY IT'S BIG NEWS
18:00
you taking HRT and you looking more feminine why do you think it went so
18:06
viral because it's a really hot button issue right now there's a lot of people putting in their two cents about it and
18:13
then I think what really like made a lot of people focus on it was that I'm just
18:18
like I'm just living my life I'm not saying anything or doing anything I'm
18:24
just hey I'm on HRT I'm a lot happier now and um I think that in my opinion A
18:31
lot of people were like no we can't have somebody this successful in this like happy being on HRT it's bad Optics so I
18:41
mean if that's the reason maybe it was just general transphobia maybe they just
18:46
don't like me oh maybe they're not Chris fans they might they might be big Nolan fans so you're not taking it too
18:53
personally though no I I know that at the end of the day like even the people that are riding these like crazy
19:00
articles about me are probably just you know normal people that are going home to see their wife and kids or whatever
19:06
they're doing their jobs I'm doing my job but that's why I wanted to come to
19:11
your show to be able to get a hold of my narrative again right because you you lost control of the narrative control
19:18
every like ever everyone had an opinion that had nothing to do with what your actual thoughts are I know apparently I
19:23
sued people I did it
19:31
and they were like Chris is suing me and then I quote tweeted it and I was like you better be ready this is my lawyer
19:37
and it was a picture of Jimmy with like sideways sunglasses and people took that as serious There's real life
19:43
consequences to false things being made up about you yeah then you have people making YouTube videos saying that your
19:50
decision to be yourself and to openly be yourself is destroying Mr Beast and it's
19:56
gonna mess up the business and you should have thought about that I I should have thought about that that's all how dare you ruin the business by
20:02
being your true self how dare you exist it was kind of weird to see people be like oh now Jimmy's put in between a
20:10
rock and a hard place where he obviously doesn't want to support Chris but the left would be so mad if he didn't and
20:17
I'm like all these speculation all these crazy things I told Jimmy like seven years ago I walked out of my bedroom it
20:25
was late I walked out and it was kind of one of those and then he was like we don't have to
20:31
talk about it if you don't want to wait what was it that that gave it away fully dressed up oh so you're dressing up as a
20:36
woman long before yeah we lived oh I've been I've been dressing up as a woman since I was like six years old
20:43
I guess dressing up as a girl now I messed up as a woman yes but you walked out Jimmy sees you yes dressed up as a
20:50
woman yes and he goes we can talk about this if you want and I was like no
20:57
um did you turn around and go into your room and we didn't talk about it Jimmy
21:02
is really good about if you don't want him to bring something up he'll never mention it ever again but um it was
TELLING MY FRIENDS
21:09
about three years ago we were all hanging out and we were having a good time
21:14
um you know on the channel we like to say we're having some apple juice and uh just drinking some good stuff drinking some apple juice and there was one
21:21
moment I was sitting around all the guys and I had I had just been really like
21:28
thinking all that day about like my gender and everything and combined with
21:33
the Apple Juice I just blurted out to them I don't want to be a man anymore just out of nowhere out of nowhere in
21:39
front of all of them and then started like crying and the the support I got from them in that moment was like that's
21:46
when I knew I was like okay like I have my friends back everybody else like that's all you have the support from
21:52
your core group yeah they're really like my family do you remember just like what it felt like to have that out there to
21:59
feel like I'm lying to like my best friends we know everything about each other like and I'm like this is a huge
22:05
part of me and I want to tell them but like it I'm even so scared to tell them
22:10
like even when I used to try to form the words I would just lock up and couldn't
22:16
talk about it because I was so terrified to like out myself yeah because there's so many
22:22
so many things that you consider to be negative that would come out of that yeah and now I realized that was all an
22:29
internalized transphobia my friends would have accepted me I probably could have gotten through the process a little
22:35
faster yeah but everybody grows at their own pace and becomes themselves when they do I mean
22:41
you see all these comments on the internet and no matter how many positive
22:46
ones that are there the positive ones don't exist but then the negative ones I
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think it's because there's a little bit of fear attached to the implications or what else they might be thinking like
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those things sit with you and you accidentally find thousands or in your
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case because you have hundreds of millions of people watching and judging and commenting on every single thing that you do you're likely to see tens of
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thousands of comments yeah and sometimes the algorithm can just be a butt and
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just send you all the hates and one one Fell Swoop but also it's like you have
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to realize that when people are sending those messages I mean I I was a crappy
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kid on the internet I used to be a mean kid people say those things because they're also struggling with things I
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would my whole life I was struggling with my identity who I was I hated myself like
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so every time I see one of those like hate comments or like people saying mean things in my DMs I'm like I know that's
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probably somebody who's going through something and I just it doesn't really bother me I used to see people living
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the life I wanted to live and I would get jealous and angry at them and
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because and like they get to live this life and they get to be celebrated and
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you know like obviously you don't see the hate they get but it's like they're not getting any hate and all this kind
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of stuff and and you get into that mindset but then you realize oh that's just me just like pointing all that back
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at myself and using somebody else as a Target do you feel like after coming out and feeling like you can actually be
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your truest identity in addition to not having to hide something about yourself do you feel like you're more
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aware and present like do you feel like instead of living like through with tunnel vision because you're blocking out all of this that's in your
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brain do you feel like now you have access to more of you I do I post way too much on the internet because I'm
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just so excited to authentically be myself and be like this is me hey
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everybody the person you knew for a long time that was like a facade a fake version of me this is the real me I'm
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still the same person I just look a little different I mean yeah you're carrying you're caring more about things it seems you're caring about your
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fashion your now makeup your hair you know you're you're caring about your
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health it seems like you just seem healthier all around yeah I'm drinking a lot more water too oh okay that'll do it
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that's that's everything that's the secret to life the secret to life is water yeah oh and then I will poop more
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name from Chris CH the Chris it's okay with a K so just to feel a little bit
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more feminine about it I actually have always liked how it looked with a K it is cooler I used to I had I apparently I
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didn't know this and I'm probably going to uh crack a bunch of eggs in the audience oh but
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um if you have an online Persona where you present as a different name and present as a female that's just being
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trans online you've been out as trans online like wait in what way like in the
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same way of like you've kind of came out you haven't come out officially but you came out in a space to where it was safe
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people don't know who you actually are so you're like anonymously you're yeah you're kind of anonymous anonymously
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coming out as trans so is the Chris with a K an online only name do you have a
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separate name that you're using that is more feminine in your private life I have a name that is my official name I'm
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not like Sheltering it's like not private locked away but you're not making a huge announcement a huge
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announcement about it it's just for like friends and families and and stuff like that but Chris k-r-i-s is what you can
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call me on the internet are you gonna get angry when people use CH I don't really care I mean you can it'll be
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wrong right are you gonna feel like people are dead naming you I mean like
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in a in a way they're going to like try to use it to dead name me but number one I can't be audibly dead named so that's
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pretty true it's pretty cool it's a pretty pretty big clutch uh number two I mean like I said I I have no shame with
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like who I was I I think it's so cool and interesting that it's like I was Chris with a CH and then I put that to
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rest and now I can finally be Chris with a kid you have a permanent Archive of who you were in your transitional period
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and who you are now literally it's kind of like the Mr Beast channel was accidentally like my trans timeline it
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was a documentary so you've changed your the way you
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present you've changed the name and the things that you prefer people to call you've changed your pronouns yeah
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have you changed your voice because I know that that's something that trans people also work towards I am working on
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it um So currently I'm working with the Seattle voice Labs um it's a Discord
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server where they offer free lessons they offer paid lessons but Claire she
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is incredible she's been teaching me and she really pushed me to do a voice like
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today yeah she wanted you to do it she thinks I'm ready to do like do a do a
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sentence to give it a little sneak peek I could feel like myself by like presenting the way I wanted to grow my
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hair out but I would look back when I got because I'm a YouTuber I get
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recorded a lot yeah I would look back and I would be like that's me and in my voice I would open my mouth and I'd be
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like that's not me do you want to say a sentence or do you want to talk us through the different types of things
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that go into the voice I'm gonna say a sentence but I'll kind of also show you
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like the process I have to do yeah I think this will be the first time many people watching this will have ever seen
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the thought process behind so I'm in a newer stage I've only been going for a
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little bit so it's easier for me to find that space that feminine Voice by doing
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a warm-up it sounds goofy uh whenever I do it at home I make sure all my doors
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are locked so now you're gonna do it on your camera do it on camera now there's millions of people watching it yeah my
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voice my voice instructor encouraged me it won't sound perfect
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um it probably will get picked on a little bit but that's kind of what I like doing is showing people the like
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real the rawness of it you ready for the voice I'm ready if you are oh gosh we
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might have to do a couple of things that's fine that's fine all right yeah all right here you guys sure
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hey Anthony congratulations on buying Smosh
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the most interesting part about seeing that is it felt like there was like a
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Sparkle in your eye something about it was like you I could see this feeling of you feeling like yourself yeah and and I
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really like showing the process of like how I get to that because like I think
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for a lot of people they they don't want people to you know hear that process and that's completely understandable it's a
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very vulnerable space yeah it takes a lot of work to even like get to yourself to the point where you can do that
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sometimes without feeling like oh my God like uh I don't want anybody to hear me I don't it'll never sound right but I
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want people to hear that because it's like that shows you that it's like people say oh you're faking your voice
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no I just slid my voice into the right place basically it's like I'm as I get
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better with it I won't have to basically push my voice into that place I want it to be you're training to get to the
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point where it feels natural it's a muscle and like every muscle the more you work it the more you train it it's
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gonna break down build back up get stronger and it's going to become muscle memory to do this thing right what are
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you looking forward to most now that you have fully come out as your truest
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identity you feel confident in yourself what's next and what are you looking forward to it really feels like for the
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first time like I can do anything now I can be who I
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want to be like I can create a channel if I want to I can write a book if I want to yes I can
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maybe produce a film if I want to are these are these hints I don't know maybe no but maybe in the future but you
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really do have endless possibilities exactly because I'm finally able to be myself and that spills out into other
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areas in my life so it's not that I'm just authentically trans now I'm authentically Chris in every single way
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I'm able to articulate my feelings I'm able to talk about what I want so I feel
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like the future is kind of whatever I want it to be right now you feel more creatively driven now I do I'm really excited I
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I've never felt the motivation to get in front of cameras like I do now congratulations on everything and I
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think that your story is incredibly inspiring and I think you're going to change a lot of people's lives just just
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by authentically being yourself in the face of hundreds of millions of opinions and and
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thoughts yeah well thank you Anthony and thank you for using your channel to give queer and trans people a safe place to
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talk about us and well who we are and just let us be ourselves
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there's a lot of traditionally more feminine ways to speak people used to tell me I did that a lot and I got
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self-conscious about it and I stopped stop being yourself stop stop it talk
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like more like men are men talk yes straight men talk straight men talk slow
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men talk angry or men talk okay yeah that was even too funny yeah that was a
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little bit too feminine yeah we were showing too much emotion damn it get out the only emotion you're allowed to show
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is anger anger that's the only emotion and fear and fear no real men don't get
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If we go through his high school year book, I'm sure we'll find a Kris in his class.
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trannies will mutilate themselves, get fake tits and insist you call them a woman but won't end the male pattern baldness cope and just get a wig
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It is done, Chris is gone.
There is only Kris now.
There is only Kris now.
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I still cannot believe we are entertaining this ugly man in a dress.
This guy had the best life that other men would kill for. He had a fun job where he basically didn't have to do anything but be MrBeast's best friend and do fun shit on video, and get paid millions. He had a beautiful family, nice house, and a bright future.
He threw that all a way so he could coom with other ugly men in dresses. Unreal.
This guy had the best life that other men would kill for. He had a fun job where he basically didn't have to do anything but be MrBeast's best friend and do fun shit on video, and get paid millions. He had a beautiful family, nice house, and a bright future.
He threw that all a way so he could coom with other ugly men in dresses. Unreal.
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Holy shit that “I am a woman” pic looks like one of those TERF memes
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Once you’ve seen any photos of his ex-wife, it’s clear he’s skin-walking her. She has the bleach blonde hair and same type of delicate gold jewelry, just everything. Fucking troons, almost every damn time they skin-walk a woman in their life.
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La globina…
I realty fucking hate the Antichrist
I realty fucking hate the Antichrist
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He also skin-walks Mr.Beast’s similar looking gf/lineup of ex-gf’s, more-so in the zoomer girl fashion. It’s uncanny and uncomfortable as fuck once you see it.
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Congrats on coming out as mentally ill!
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This is the second Mr Beast guy to say he's a troon right
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No Chris has been the only one so far, the rest seem fine.
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Who's the fat cunt I'm thinking of?
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thats from linus tech tips
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God what is the noise he makes at the beginning of the female voice clip. Also he mentions a discord server named SeattleVoiceLab. I looked it up and seems like you can't join and see messages without getting approved first. If you join it seems like they have some addition checks in place due to people joining from this interview as well.
Kind of a tangent but on the seattle voice labs website (archive), they have an application form to book lessons. The age options go down to "Under 12":
I don't think a kid under 12s voice will have even dropped yet, not only is it weird and pedophilic to have a kid under 12 join your tranny voice training discord, is there any potential purpose for that other than to groom the child? Its not like the kids voice will have dropped yet, 12 year old boys and girls sound virtually the same, what is there to train a 12 year old on?
Kind of a tangent but on the seattle voice labs website (archive), they have an application form to book lessons. The age options go down to "Under 12":
I don't think a kid under 12s voice will have even dropped yet, not only is it weird and pedophilic to have a kid under 12 join your tranny voice training discord, is there any potential purpose for that other than to groom the child? Its not like the kids voice will have dropped yet, 12 year old boys and girls sound virtually the same, what is there to train a 12 year old on?
No, he is the first, there is another mr beast guy who is a kind of effiminate gay guy named Karl. People on tiktok a while back thought he was going to come out as trans because of the way he dressed for a bit, maybe thats what you're thinking of? Then later on there was some video suggesting Karl was why Chris was starting to dress so effiminately. Also Chris came out as trans like a month or two ago but just now is coming out fully with the new name so maybe you could be thinking of that as well.
Not only that but then they part their hair to one side where it meets with their male pattern baldness, and it makes it look like a whole half of his head is bald from the front. So many troons do this ugly side part right where the male pattern baldness indents in the deepest and it looks so bad. Then there are the ones that just do the side part with one side completely shaven. What is it with troons and those two hairstyles though?
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I think you might be thinking of Karl Jacobs, who is an effeminate fag. I could be wrong though as I am too old to find any of these people entertaining outside of watching them ruin their lives.
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You’re thinking of Linus Tech Tip’s fat troon goblin friend